Waiting For You
Punk was standing behind the glass and watched as the nurse placed his son in his tiny carrier. He couldn't muster a smile or anything. These past few days had been the scariest of his life and he hadn't even gone home yet since bringing his wife to the hospital. She suffered from placental abruption and the doctor determined that they'd have to take the baby out in order to save both his son and wife. Remarkably the baby was healthy, he was a few weeks early but he was strong. April on the other hand lost a lot of blood and his concern and attention was fully on her. He couldn't bare to his hold his son after he was delivered and he didn't leave April's side unless doctors instructed him to.
"You should go in" Colt said standing next to him "He's a cute kid"
"I'll wait for April" Punk said in a horse voice
"You've got to stop beating yourself up now" Colt sighed "It's ok"
"She's not ok" Punk said to him "I hate myself" he admitted coldly keeping his eyes locked on his son.
"Come on you didn't cause this" Colt sighed
"I did" Punk said coldly "We had the worst fight we have ever had and I packed a bag and I was leaving" he finally admitted
"You two broke up?" Colt asked stunned
"No I just needed space and she begged me to stay" Punk said to him staring straight ahead
"You had a fight that's common" Colt said to him
"Did you know she was talking to him?" Punk asked glancing over to Colt
"I found out the morning of" Colt admitted "I told her to tell you"
"I think she likes him" Punk said to him "She said seeing him as been the highlight of her day"
"Oh come on" Colt sighed "You both were angry"
"The worst part is I don't blame her" Punk said to him "I haven't helped the way I should"
"Come on" Colt argued lightly "Don't blame yourself"
"I knew what I was doing" Punk said watching as his son started to a cry and nurse walked over to attend to him "And she was right I wasn't so innocent myself I was doing the same fucking thing. I like spending time with Cassie and when she's not there I'm disappointed"
"So what are you going to do?" Colt asked nervously
"April is my wife" Punk said firmly "I won't lose her" he said surely "I was fucking stupid"
"Glad to hear you say it" Colt said relieved "Did you get in touch with the gym and let them know where you've been?"
"Nope" Punk said to him "My wife is my concern but I know they know because I've gotten some messages from some of the guys"
"What are you going to do?" Colt asked him
"I'm going to put all my energy into making sure April is ok" Punk said to him
"I mean about Carter and Cassie" Colt said to him
"I don't even know" Punk said running his hands over his face "I don't care right now."
"Just go in there" Colt encouraged looking towards 'Baby boy Brooks' "He needs his father"
"He needs his mother" Punk said to him
"You need to step up" Colt argued "You're a dad now" he reminded him "He needs you more than anyone right now. The only people who have held him are nurses. Don't be that dad"
"What?" Punk asked him
"Don't be the dad that who puts himself before his own son. I know you're upset but don't punish the baby for it" Colt said to him
"I need to be back in the room in case she wakes up" Punk argued
"I'll wait in the room with her she'd rather you be with your son" Colt said to him "Go ahead" he said to him
"I said to you the day this happened I didn't want a kid" Punk said to him "Do you remember that?"
"You didn't say that" Colt said to him "You said you didn't want one before you found out"
"I'm being punished" Punk told him "I didn't mean it" he said to him "I didn't-"
"Hey" Colt said cutting him off "You're a dad now whether you like it or not and honestly I think you do like it. So start acting like a dad and go in there and be with your son. You want to make up for what you said? Go in there right now and hold him in your arms" he said walking Punk to the door and opening it for him
The nurse smiled as Punk walked in.
"Are you ready to hold him?" the older woman asked kindly
"Uh-" Punk said unsurely and looked back but Colt just nodded for him to continue "Yea I want to hold him"
"Have a seat" she said to Punk and he took a seat in a chair and watched as the nurse picked him up and carefully placed him into his arms. "I'm not just saying it but he's one of the cutest babies, I think he's been flirting with the little girl in the next basinet" she teased
"My boy" Punk said finally smiling looking down at him. The nurse walked away and Punk watched his son as he cradled him. "Hey kid sorry you don't have a name yet but your mom wants a say in that. We haven't come up with a name because I've been busy" he confided "I won't be too busy for you anymore" he swore "You or your mom. I've already let you down but that's the first and last time. I'm going to do better I swear" he said and he felt a tear escape his eye "I've only just met you and I love you so much" he said softly "I'm going to be a good father" he promised
"And when your mom wakes up and feels better we're going to take you home and you're going to be so loved. Your mom is so beautiful and has this huge heart and I'll tell you something else she has this great laugh" he said with a smile admiring his son "Hearing her laugh is better than anything. And believe me she'd be here with you right now if she could and she'd be smiling and laughing but she's not feeling well and that's probably because of me but I will never take her away from you again" he promised
Colt took a seat next to April who looked so pale and fragile. He just sat quietly watching her.
"Ok you've made your point" Colt laughed "You can wake up now I'm pretty sure he isn't mad anymore" he teased. But the only sound was coming from the medical machines that she was hooked up to. "He really needs you" Colt told her "I can't handle him by myself" he said fearfully "He's really beating himself up and I know he made some mistakes but he's real sorry" he said to her. He just eyed her expecting her to pop her eyes open and when she didn't he sighed.
"The kid is real cute" Colt said to her "He looks like Phil though which is weird. He really needs a name and if you don't wake up I'm going to tell them to put Scott down" he warned "He needs you too. Punk is trying but he's only half a man when you're not around. He kind of needs you to wake up and kick his ass." He looked over to her again unsure of what to say "I need you to wake up" he said honestly "I miss having you around and talking to you. And if I feel this sick over you I can't imagine what Punk is thinking right now. "He loves you so much" he said to her "Please wake up so we can fix all of this because when you two fight I get this pain in the pit of stomach" he admitted "You're scaring me and I don't like it"
Punk walked into the hospital chapel and wasn't sure why he was in there he was far from a religious man but his sisters insisted he at least go in there to be alone and maybe vent. The room was dark and he didn't like the smell of it. He took a seat in a pew and looked forward towards the giant cross on the wall.
"I don't believe in you" Punk said out loud "I don't even know what I'm doing here" he said to himself now. He looked to the right and saw all the candles that were lit up and didn't understand how people could come in here and beg someone who he was sure didn't even exist for a miracle.
"I really don't think you're real" Punk said again "But in the off chance I happen to be wrong and there is something out there…" he started but then laughed at himself and stood up. He walked towards the door but stopped by the candles and decided to just light one himself in the very off chance someone was out there watching or listening to him.
"She's back?" Punk asked walking into April's room.
"Yea she's been here for a few minutes. They say she should be up soon" Colt said standing up
"Could you watch the baby?" Punk asked "I know the nurses are there but I told them to let you in. I want him around family"
"Yea of course" Colt said to him. He leaned over and kissed April's head before leaving the room.
"I just met him" Punk said to her as he sat down where Colt was. He gently grabbed her hand and used his thumb to stroke it. "You're going to love him" he laughed lightly "He's also really healthy you did such a great job taking care of him before he got her" he said kissing her lightly "I'm really sorry about our fight and I was wrong. We were both wrong" he said to her "I want to talk to you so bad" he begged letting out a sob "I want to fix us. I want to go back to the way it was. I'll get out of my UFC contract and we'll take the baby and run away. Nothing else matters to me." He promised kissing her hand again and this time he tasted the salt of his own tears as they ran down his face and hit her hand. "I'm sorry I've failed you, failed as a husband but I'm going to fix it now" he swore "I love you so much" he cried softly. He felt her hand tighten around his slightly and looked up and saw her eyes flutter open.
"What's wrong?" she asked in a raspy voice looking over to him "What happened?"
"You had the baby" he said to her and her eyes widened in horror
"Where is he? Is he ok-" she started to cry
"He's great" Punk promised and saw relief wash over her body "He's healthy and ok"
"Oh thank god" she said resting her head against the pillow "Where is he?"
"You'll see him soon" Punk promised "Are you feeling ok?"
"I'm confused and really tired" April told him "But I want to see our son"
"Just relax he's not going anywhere" Punk insisted
"You came back for me" April said out of nowhere "You were leaving and-"
"That was so stupid" Punk said to her "I never should have packed a bag"
"I'm sorry" she said softly "I was wrong"
"No don't apologize" Punk said to her "I don't want to talk about it right now-"
"If you're going to leave I'd rather you tell me now" April insisted
"I'm never leaving you" Punk promised "I love you and our son. We both said some reckless things and that happens sometimes. I'm in this for life and I hope you are too"
"I am" she said squeezing her hand lightly "I love you"
"I love you too" he said with a soft smile.
A day later April was sitting up in bed holding her son trying to feed him.
"It's too late I've missed too much time with him" April said to Phil who was sitting in the chair next to her "He won't latch"
"You haven't missed time" Punk said to her
"He won't let me feed him" April argued "Please baby, please let mommy feed you."
"It's ok" the nurse smiled passing her a bottle "Just try the formula for right now"
"But I really wanted to breast feed" April said reluctantly accepting the bottle
"And you will" the nurse said to her "It takes a little time for some babies that's all" she then walked out of the room.
"This you love" April mumbled towards her son.
"Hey guys" Colt greeted walking into the room
"Look it's Uncle Colt" April said to her son
"I bought you clothes" He said passing Punk a bag
"You can go home and change" April said to him
"No I'm staying right here" Punk insisted
"He's eating" Colt smiled looking at the baby
"He won't let me breast feed him" April said to Colt
"Oh I wish I had a witty comeback for that but I don't" Colt admitted with a chuckle
"You heard the nurse it just takes some time" Punk reminded her
"What's the problem are you not like making the milk?" Colt asked unsurely
"I'm making it he just won't latch onto my breast" April told him
"So you and your son aren't so much alike?" He asked Punk
"Asshole" Punk muttered
"Speaking of I got your message" Colt said to them "I can stop calling him baby, kid or Scott Jr."
"I really hope you didn't tell anyone that's what his name was" Punk said annoyed
"You didn't give me much to go on" Colt shrugged
"Meet Max Scott Brooks" April said proudly
"Max?" Colt smiled "I like it. Now which comic book is that from?"
"X-men" Both Punk and April said at the same time
"Of course" Colt laughed
"When do you have to get back to training?" April asked looking over to Punk
"I'm not" Punk said to her "Not for a while at least I want to be home and help"
"But Phil-" She started
"But nothing" Punk said to her "I spoke to Dana and he doesn't mind pushing me back a couple of months"
"A couple of months?" April asked "You've been working so hard. You should be fighting next month"
"April I don't want to talk about it right now" Punk said to her
"Why not?" she asked "I know we had a big fight but you're not going to stop this you're so close"
"I was closer to losing you" Punk shot back "I won't make that mistake again"
"You didn't almost lose me" April said to him "Call Dana and tell him you need the rest of the week then get right back to the gym"
"I don't want to" Punk said almost childishly
"Too bad you're going" she said to him "I feel terrible about everything and I'm not going to let you sacrifice everything you've been working towards"
"Alright" Punk said giving in surprising both Colt and April. An idea must have popped into his head. "You'll stay with them? I'll just step out and call Dana"
"Ok" Colt said unsurely and watched as Punk walked out of the room. "You scared?" he asked her
"Terrified" She said just as seriously "That was way too easy"
"But you two are good right?" Colt asked
"We were both up all night talking and I know nothing is going on with Cassie and he knows nothing is going on with Carter" April said to him "We were a hundred open and honest and I think we both feel much better"
"Good" Colt said relieved
"I think he's still upset about Carter though" April said to him as she looked down at baby Max "His eye twitches every time I mention him"
"Yea he fucking hates me" Colt laughed
"Language" April warned pointing at the baby
"He's still too young to understand" Colt defended "But seriously he hates him"
"I said some terrible things to Phil about him" April admitted "I didn't mean them I just wanted to hurt Phil the way he hurt him" she confided
"I get it you spoke out of anger and Punk gets it because he does the same shit" Colt said to her "Don't worry though because I think this is all behind us"
"Yea Dana it's me" Punk said into the phone as he paced in the hallway "She's good, baby is good….yea look I know you want me for the Chicago show…no I want to do it but I know who I want to fight….yea I get that but believe me I know I can beat this guy and more importantly I want to beat him down….Carter Jones- he's in the same weight class as me and he'll have a few weeks to train himself….yea I know he works at the same gym but I don't give a shit….book it or don't it's up to you regardless I'm going to fight him but it would put a lot of money in your pocket if we did it in the Octagon"
Punk walked back in the room with a smile.
"Daddy is back" April smiled looking towards Max. "You want to feed him?"
"Yea I'll try" Punk said picking up Max with the bottle and walking over to the chair.
"Colt quick take a picture" April ordered and he quickly snapped a photo. "Look at my boys" she said as happy tears escaped her eyes..
"I kind of thought you'd stop crying so much since you had the baby" Colt said with an eye roll
"I will it just takes a few days for my hormones to get back to normal" April shot at him
"When are you guys going home?" Colt asked
"Tomorrow" April said eagerly then frowned "The crib! The crib isn't set up and the changing table-"
"It's done" Colt told both of them as Punk looked up "Me, Cliff and your brother went by your place this morning and put all the crap together"
"You managed to get the crib together?" April asked surprised
"Well actually your mom got the crib together" he admitted to Punk "Took her like ten minutes! How did she do it!"
"She's smart" Punk smirked "And thanks"
"Don't mention it" Colt said to him "We also cleaned up the blood and stuff"
"Blood?" April asked
"Yea when I found you- you were bleeding" Punk told her. A lot of that night was still fuzzy to her.
"Oh" she said softly "You must have been terrified" April said to him
"I was and then you passed out in the car" Punk groaned remembering it and it sent chills up his spine just thinking about it.
"You did great" April said to him
"Seriously you got her here so fast" Colt said to him "You know the doctors told him if he would have waited for an ambulance it might have been too late. He saved your life" April looked over to Punk who was just looking down at Max ignoring Colt.
"You saved our lives" April said to him softly
"I did not. The doctors saved you" Punk informed her
"Five minutes he got you" Colt told her "I can't wait until all those tickets get mailed from the camera lights you blew" he smirked
"You're amazing" April said to her husband
"I just did what I had to" Punk said simply "He must be really hungry" he said smirking at his son who was still enjoying his bottle.
"Wait let me try to breast feed again" she said extending her arms. Punk took the bottle from Max who started to cry and April pulled down her gown and Colt turned his back quickly.
"A little heads up next time" Colt said annoyed
"Relax you've seen breasts before" April said to him
"Probably not real ones" Punk teased
"You both are so mean together" Colt said to them still looking at the wall.
"Nope he won't latch" April said shaking her head "You can turn around Colt he doesn't want me" she said placing the bottle back in his mouth
"I-" Colt started
"If this is a joke about my wife's breasts I'm going to kindly warn you not to" Punk said cutting him off
"Fine" Colt said childishly
"Hey Max did you know that your daddy is a hero?" April said to him then looked towards Punk "And you're going to grow up just like him" she said proudly.
