Disclaimer/Author Note: This chapter is the most intense, heart breaking, chapter I have ever written in my career. It hurt a lot to write this scene because I was trying to break around the rape. I did not want to write it when I planned this part but I have too. For a character to shatter into nothing brings about conflict or relief if you think about it. I did not want to write this at all but it fits the story and the song that I picked for this chapter. If you were raped or molested and it still hurts for this to be mentioned. Please do not read this chapter. Skip over it and ignore this. If you are fine with it then please read this with caution. I am warning you because I could not write this without having second doubts on this. I wanted to completely skip the entire chapter and just have flash backs but I am a writer and I have to pull through my own opinions for this.
I would say that if you're a survivor of rape then you are not alone. Do not let that take you from love or anything of the sort. It just takes time to open up to people. Do not let it think that it is your fault for what happened. You did nothing but be who you are. You are a wonderful person and everything is okay. You may think you don't have any friends but you do. You are not the only person who has experienced this and you won't be the last. Do not take what happened to you as a negative and blame the whole world. It is okay to hate the person who did it to you so don't feel bad if you do, but do not let it control you. You remind yourself that there are others like you and they know how you feel. You are okay now.
I do not own the song, "She will be loved, by Maroon 5". I do not own any of the characters or places used in this story. I write all that I know.
Thank you for reading and enjoy the chapter
DomOx
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Beauty Queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
Elena waited for Stefan. Her hand on her belly; smoothing it as she whispered sweet nothings to the baby, her other hand holding the tall glass of water out in front of her as her legs swung back in forth in the chair. It was nearly half gone as she waited for him. He had called her awhile back and then texted her this morning about the information on where to meet but he wasn't here. It was eleven in the morning and even though she had nothing to do. She still wanted to be at home and rest for a while. The baby had been tiring on most nights and it was driving her crazy that she couldn't already have the kid, but the fact of seeing Damon's face everyday drove her wild. He would kiss her stomach and whisper his hopes and his dreams to the child and Elena couldn't help but smile. She had hopes for the child too and couldn't wait to have the baby. She would take care of it every day and read to it. She would be a better mother than her own mother and she hoped that Damon would be a better father and not leave her.
"I'm sorry I was late, something came up."
Elena looked up and turned her head slightly to see Stefan standing there. He was wearing all black and for a second, Elena thought about jumping him, pushing him to the ground and taking him right there, but she shook her head. She was just horny and wanted Damon, not Stefan. He was a cheater and had used her. She didn't want that, not at all.
She stood up instead, pushing herself off the chair and waited for him to sit down.
But she was shocked. He had pulled her into a hug and wrapped his arms tight around her. Elena was stunned but her hands rose up to wrap around him. It was awkward, the hug, all the pain that he had caused her was coming back at her tenfold and she wanted to slap him. She wanted to scratch his face with her claws and kick him where it hurts. She wanted to bite him in the face and curse at him, but if she hadn't of met him then she wouldn't have met Damon Salvatore. Her boyfriend, her lover, her everything, so a part of her had to thank Stefan Salvatore for being the great asshole that he was, but she wasn't going to say it out loud.
Stefan kept his arms wrapped around her a little longer and she felt very awkward, so she pulled away and waited till he sat down before she too sat down. She smiled at him, but in her head she was ready to bash his head in.
Pregnancy hormones; drove you crazy.
"How are you?"
The first question had to be that. Couldn't he tell that she was not sort of happy that they had to meet?
"I'm well. I could still feel the force of the slap across my face but its fine."
It came out of her mouth. It was random but she never let any of how she was starting to feel show across her face. She would not. She held her face strong.
Stefan bit his lip and looked away before looking back at her. "I'm sorry about that. I was enraged about finding out you were pregnant with my nephew or niece. I thought I could have this lunch with you and talked out everything. Me and you could patch our missing threads and work on it."
Elena picked up her glass. Her eyes on him; swirling the glass in her hands before taking a sip, her eyes never leaving his, the water hit the back of her throat and she nearly choked on it. It was giving her a bad taste. She swallowed it down anyway and shivered, something heavy settled in her stomach and she felt disgusted by it but she shook it off.
"Stefan, you hurt me, pretty bad. I would have never thought about cheating on you or hurting you, but you left everyday to be with that Bonnie slut. It is your fault why we aren't together. I'm glad. I am with Damon and I haven't been happier."
He scoffed, rolling his eyes but he sighed. "Elena, I'm sorry. I didn't mean for that. I just wanted to move to the next level and you blew me off. I was fucking Bonnie yeah, but it meant nothing to me. I made promises and I wished I could take all that back. I never wanted to cheat. I never wanted to leave you at home while I fucked around. I never wanted to do everything that I did."
Elena nodded, taking another sip of the water. Her insides were telling her to stop, but she couldn't. Her stomach was hurting and she slightly bent over in pain because it was hurting. Her throat was dry and she continued to drink the water, her mind telling her, screaming for her to stop but she couldn't stop.
Elena gulped and placed the half empty glass down, looking up at him.
"Stefan, you don't mean anything of that, because if you did. You would have stopped. You would have came home and told me everything. When I met Damon…"She knew she'd regret it but she had to say it. Stefan Salvatore had hurt her. "I slept with him that day because I found out about you and your lies. You are a liar Stefan, that's all you do. Who's to say you aren't right now? You went to Bonnie. You fucked her and didn't even think about me. She is pregnant with your kid. Damon knows this and…"
"Don't. Fucking. Mention. His. Name." It came out in an angry whisper and Ellie pressed her hand to her stomach as she sat up in the chair. "We are talking about me and you, not him. Never him. I love you Elena and I always will. Me watching you on his cock made me snap. It's why I hit you."
Elena looked around and saw the cars passing by. They probably assumed they were out on date, but no. She shook her head, never, ever with Stefan.
They were sitting outside. It was an afternoon that Elena wanted to get over with.
"You shut the fuck up Stefan. You are a liar. I will always see you as that, nothing more than Stefan fucking Salvatore the liar."
She hissed at him with her words and she scowled, her eyebrows coming together.
"Elena, I am trying to be a good friend here. I want us back. I will raise the baby inside of you as my own. I will be its father and its uncle. I will take care of it, just give us a chance." His voice was filled with sorrow and Elena heard it, but something was moving around in her belly and it was hurting her. She felt her heart pick up, beating wildly in her chest. She looked up at Stefan though as she slowly rose to her feet. Her other hand; on the table, pushing herself up so she could stand, her eyes never leaving Stefan's.
"You are everything I hate, Stefan. I despise you. I want to spit at saying your name. You will always be that dumb guy, who lost the best thing that ever happened to him." Elena nodded, satisfied with her answer as she dug in her bra and pulled out a twenty.
She threw it on the table and turned around, making sure she was balanced before walking. Vicki had told her that it would be an hour before she came back to pick her up. And it sucked that Elena had left her phone at home or she would have called her or Damon to pick her up, but instead she would walk to the Grill and wait there. She wasn't that far from it anyway.
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I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
She didn't hear Stefan rise from his chair. She didn't see him; dig in his pockets for his keys. She didn't hear his voice, when he said, "Mine. Forever mine." She didn't hear him draw out his keys or him walk closer to her. She didn't feel her legs give out from beneath her as whatever was in the water, finally took over her. She didn't feel Stefan wrap his arms around her and pick her up, carrying her to his red trunk. She didn't hear the car door open and feel the leather seat against her skin as he laid her down in the seat. Her brain rattled with nothing but a lagging feeling as the car door closed behind her and he went to the other side. Her hands reached out for the knob but Stefan clicked on the buttons to lock the door and she couldn't do anything. With a slight throw of her head, she turned to face him as he settled in the trunk.
"What…are…you…going to do to me?" The words came out rushed and it took a lot of her. She knew she wouldn't say much more.
"I'm going to love you, Elena. Do something that Damon never will."
The trunk started and Elena felt a scream pierce her throat but no sound came out. The last bit of whatever in that water filled her body and she passed out cold.
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I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
She felt movement.
She felt someone touching her; the touch was ghost like and at first. She assumed it was Damon. The Stefan thing had been a dream and she was still at home, in bed with Damon. He was teasing her with that talented mouth of his as she had passed out from the pleasure but in the back of her mind. She knew that wasn't the case. She felt different.
The air felt different.
She opened her eyes briefly, hoping to see Damon over her, smiling with his blue eyes, ready to cuddle with her, love her with words and bring her snacks for her to nibble on as he told her about his day at work. She would sit up and listen, giving him an ear and paying attention to his movements. She would laugh at the part when he got to Caroline because Caroline was a hoot and didn't give a damn what she said in his office because they were alone. But when the blur in front of her eyes cleared; she did not see Damon. She saw Stefan.
He was shirtless and naked; between her legs that was spread on the bed, crawling up her body. His lips were touching her ankles and she shivered. Not from the gentle caress but because her body knew that this was Stefan, not Damon.
He moved slightly faster, licking at her skin as he moved up. When his tongue found her belly button, he dipped his tongue and flicked over it and she shuddered. His shaft was lying against her thigh and she nearly wanted to scream, but she couldn't.
Her body couldn't move and she couldn't scream. She tried to push herself too but she couldn't. She left it alone instead and closed her eyes as Stefan moved upward, his lips brushing over her stomach, moving to her breast, taking a nipple into his mouth and sucking on it. His hands touching her body, loving it, learning to get used to her forming curves from her pregnancy and that's when Elena knew she was naked.
She was completely naked in front of her boyfriend's brother and she felt the urge to throw up but nothing came up and she just couldn't feel the need to throw up. All she could do was look away and slightly turn her head as best as she could so she couldn't see.
Stefan's was raping her and she had no say or couldn't do anything about it.
She could blame it on herself. She should have had Vicki stay with her to be back up but she told Vicki that she was going to be fine.
What a lie that was.
She was not fine. Stefan was over her. He was on top of her. He was naked and he was touching her, kissing her, trying to get a feel for her as Damon had but it would never happened.
With Damon, she felt love.
Stefan just made her want to rip every piece of skin off and lay there, but she couldn't move so she just…
She felt the tip of him at her entrance. She bit her lip. She didn't want to look. She couldn't look, but she could feel.
He was looking down at her now. His green eyes taking in the sight before him; loving the sight that he was seeing and storing it for later, his main thought was to make love to Elena again and again and Elena saw that. She could see it in his eyes. She could feel it in the air around them.
"I love you, Elena." He moved his lips over hers and took her into a bruising kiss as he pushed himself inside of her.
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He was soft, gentle with her because he could finally have her, his first love.
He wasn't going to fuck this up because he waited so lon…
He froze. Her walls were throbbing around him.
He never felt something so hot. So loving. So warm.
He went slightly faster, knowing this was wrong but he didn't fucking care. He was inside of her and he was making a home.
Fuck the kid inside of her belly. The drug that he had dropped in her drink while they hugged probably killed it off by now.
Fuck Damon. He didn't care about his brother, didn't care if he died at the moment. He had stolen Elena from him, threw things at her and made her change sides.
It wasn't his fault. It was her fault.
He went faster, holding nothing back as he moved inside of her. His balls smacking against her soft skin, making hard good slaps. He moved his hands to grab at her legs and hoist them higher for deeper penetration. He groaned.
She felt so damn good.
She was so tight and warm. He couldn't get passed that.
Is this what Damon felt when he was inside of her? Is this what he thought of when he fucked her?
How tight she was? How warm and snug she felt?
Was this how it was for his older brother?
But Stefan grew angry by the second as he thought of it.
He went faster, nearly shattering himself to a climax but he held that back, moving her legs up as high as they could go as he surged into her, over and over again.
He looked down at her, taking in the sight. The drug was wearing off her, he knew. So she could probably talk but not move, but she did neither.
Tears were rolling down her cheeks as she laid there with her eyes closed. She was crying.
He kissed those tears away, feeling slightly sad that it had to come to this but he didn't care. He had wanted her and she turned him down, maybe this was her fault too.
If she would have given it up to him, he wouldn't have cheated and fucked up their relationship. He would have stopped right away if he had known how tight her pussy was going to feel. He couldn't take it anymore but he was giving the girl nice slow strokes that was driving him wild because he wanted to come already but he controlled himself, knowing if he stopped then he would never have another time with her again.
He went fast, driving into her with power and force that the head broad was smacking the wall with each power thrust as he fucked her, made loved to her. He would call it making love that was exactly what it was.
"Oh Elena…fuck….so tight….mine…mine."
~To be continued~
