You and I
Chapter 29: News
I wake up to someone calling my name and shaking my shoulders. Tobias. He's looking into my eyes. And he's been crying. We've all been crying. I see Lucy standing at the foot of my bed and straighten up.
"How are you feeling?" She asks me.
"Sore. Tired. Worried. Is my son okay?"
"He's stable. We're giving him oxygen, nutrients and some other medicines to help him develop. But this is going to be a long journey. You know there is a high chance that he won't make it, but every day that he survives it raises his chances. We'll do everything we can to help him. He's strong, like his parents so he has a good chance there. He will be here for a few months, probably up until around the date you were due. It really depends on when he is healthy enough to go home. He weighs 1 pound and 5 ounces, he is eleven and a half inches long. To be able to go home he has to weigh at least six pounds, but it still depends on how well developed his organs are, etcetera."
Tears fill my eyes as she speaks.
"Can we see him?" Tobias asks, squeezing my hand as he does. My mum holds my other hand.
"Yeah, but only you two at the moment as you're his parents. I'll go get a wheelchair for you and I'll take you there."
I nod and she's gone.
…
He's tiny. So tiny. He's lying on a pillow in the incubator, his arms and legs have some foam pads strapped to them to protect them. He wears a blue hat that is too big for him. He wears a diaper as well, but that is also big on him. There is a cannula in his nose giving him oxygen. There are needles in various parts of his body giving him various things. He's sleeping.
Me and Tobias both have an index finger in his hands. Tears flow down my cheeks at a steady rate. They are lining Tobias' cheek as well. He sits in a chair on the other side of the incubator, I sit in my wheelchair.
There are no other babies in this room. Only our son. Tomas. Our perfect little boy.
Who might not make it?
I really have to stop thinking like this.
He's going to make it.
Right?
I can't lose another kid.
"He's going to be okay, Tris. I promise. He's strong."
"B-but…"
"He'll make it. Okay?"
I just nod. Giving into his hope because that is what I need right now.
…
We're back in my hospital room now. They allowed me to get into some clothes from home so I'm wearing some loose grey sweatpants and one of Tobias' t-shirts. I have a teddy in my arms that we brought for Tomas a few weeks before I went into labour. It's a normal, brown haired teddy bear. We didn't know what I was having at the time but we saw it and loved it immediately. Tobias is in the chair on the right side of my bed. He holds my hand.
I wanted to stay with our son. Tobias did too. But we have to obey the visiting hours.
My mum, dad, and Tara enter the room after about five minutes of silence. Tara sits on her brother's lap and he holds her, smiling slightly. My parents sit next to me on the bed.
"How is he?" Dad asks.
"Okay. He's stable. But he's so tiny." Tears cloud my vision and I let one fall.
He holds me in his arms, and so does my mum.
"Everything will be alright." They both tell me.
But I can't believe them.
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