So I was going to make part 2 another story but I decided to keep it as the same story but divide it. I hope that makes sense. I post this chapter as another story but I deleted it. I will post everything until they graduate from here. I hope you are enjoying it. So enough talking if you haven't read this chapter than here it is. If you have I will be posting from Jo's pov in the next couple hours. Don't forget to review.


I am well into my junior year and things are okay. I don't why but even though things are going right it's like something is missing or something is about to go wrong. I can't shake the feeling that that things are about to go straight to hell. It might have something to do with that nightmare I had. I'm not lie experiencing that even in a dream world scared the hell out of me. It made me realize what I have and I need to hold on to everybody harder.

So I blocked my nightmare out and went on with my day to day complicated life. I made sure I kept everybody happy with me. Since I have done that everything seems a bit less complicated. I have been keeping my grades up, I work part time on the weekends, and I joined the school newspaper to be closer to Cas. Yes things are going good I guess, I mean Bella is even happy. She even stopped talking shit about Cas. We haven't argued or nothing. Jo and I are great. Gabriel and I even are getting along. I just I knew what my gut was trying to tell me.

Okay I do wish something's were different. I no longer feel like something is wrong with me but now I just feel confused. Everything in me tells I should be with Cas but I love my girlfriend. Everything in me doesn't want to hurt her. She is an awesome wonderfully person, how can I hurt her. I could never do that. I wish I could figure this thing out. I should be happy with things right now but I can't.

So it's November and I miss Cas. Other than lunch we don't have any classes together. I got so use to having him in at least two of my classes. We talk during lunch but it isn't the same as when the two of us are together. Gabriel and Bella still sits with us. I don't know why Gabirel eats with us. He's a senior and he has a girlfriend, yet he stills eats with us instead of his own classmates. I use to think that he eats with us because he thinks Jo will sart eating with us again but he told me he was over her now. Speaking of Jo she eats with her cheerleading friends who she has deemed "demon whores with fun personalities." She hates them all but Meg, but she is still friends with them. I honestly don't get girls.

I do still spend time with Cas though. We have Newspaper twice a week and he comes over sometimes but it's not every night anymore. He's pulling away from me. I can feel it. Something is bothering him and I just wish he tell me. I don't dare bring it up. I'm afraid if I do it might make things worse.

Since I think we haven't spent much time together I have decided to do something about it. I'm not going to what I have done in the past. I am not going to ignore this problem. I am going to fix it. I have done too much of ignoring problems and now I am going to just go see him.

I miss him I haven't spent any real time with him in three days and I need to see him. I need to kiss him. I need to kiss him and maybe do other things. He still won't let me top but I don't care anymore. Yeah it would nice to try it once but hey I love the other way too.

I knocked on the door twice before Gabriel opened it. Why am I not surprised? It's seems I have been spending more time with him lately. I like hanging with him but I'm not in the mood for that right now.

"Deano, what a surprise. Let me guess you're here for a rematch in 2k13" he says letting me in. Man for a guy who has a steady girlfriend he sure spends at least amount of time with her. Does he even like her. If he is just with her for the sex he should say it. He walks around pretending he likes he but he never actually tells her.

"Not today buddy. I'm here to see Cas" I say with a grin. HE gives me a look telling me I have bad timing. What is that about?

"Of course you are, but he's not here" Gabriel says. He's lying. I swear these Novak's aren't good at lying. Well maybe Balthazar. That guy can lie through his teeth and you would think he was a saint.

"Where is he?" I ask looking around the house.

"He's at the library." He says a little too quick. He had to know I see right through him. Why is he even bothering.

"So why is his car outside?" Now I'm lying. I didn't see his car but I want to see if Gabriel would squirm.

"It is." he says trying to keep a straight face but I can he is trying not to squirm. He might be lying but I am not mad at him. I would do the same for Sam or Jo in a heartbeat. I might not be mad at him but I am getting pretty mad at Cas. Why would His brother be lying for him?

"Yeah." I say looking him in the eyes. If I keep eye contact then Gabriel will fold.

"Come on Deano." He says after a few seconds. I could tell he was trying to get his story straight. "You know Cassie likes to stay fit. How else would he be able to climb through your window every night."

"He doesn't do that every night." I say feeling hurt. Cas doesn't come over every night anymore and it's starting to bother me.

Maybe, but he still does it. If he drove everywhere how can he keep in shape? He has to do something so he can pull himself up that branch."

"Really" I say standing there. I have to admit he is getting better at lying. Must be all the lying he does with his girlfriend. I almost believed him but something about his words sounds rehearsed.

"You're lying" I say after I notice Cas's sneakers and book bag on the floor next to the couch.

"Why I never?" Gabriel sys in a southern drawl placing his hand to his chest.

"If you aren't then why is his stuff still here. Hard to study without books."

"Well-"

"Stop" I say cutting him off. I came here in a good mood and him trying to make up a story is ruining it. "Where is he? Is he in his room or is he on the roof." I said not really caring to hide my irritation.

"I told you he isn't here" He says crossing his arms.

I have had enough of talking to Gabriel. I'll let him stay here and believe his own lies. I'm done .Gabriel said something but I ignored it as I turned to walk to his room. I called his name as I walked. If he is doing something he isn't something he isn't supposed to I want to give him time to fix himself.

As I call his name I heard Gabriel laughing behind me. I guess he is following me. He only does that when he knows he is going to witness drama. Damn him and his tells. I can't handle dram with Cas right now. We are happy. Why does he have to ruin it? I don't know if I can handle him being with somebody else. Yes I am with somebody else but he knew that from the start.

Please don't do this to me Cas. Okay maybe if it was this one time or it's some random whore I can get pass it, but if he is starting a new relationship, I don't know what I am going to do. Please only be with me. I know he likes girls. Okay he likes girls and maybe sometimes he needs to be with one. I can deal with that. Yeah I can deal. He likes girls too. Sometimes he wants to be one.

Okay if I walk in here and some random girl is here I am not going to get mad or jealous. I am going to be calm and cool. Yelling and arguing are things chicks do and I am not a chick.

I walked into his room with Gabriel on my heels. I took a deep breath before I walked into. When I walked I saw Cas lying on his bed with Meg Master's. They were lying on their stomachs facing the foot of his bed, with a bunch of books in front of them.

"Dean." He says looking up at me. My heart dropped. I hoped it be some random girl but no it has to be the one girl that got him to commit. I know I haven't said this in a while but I hate her. Why is she here?

"Hi ya Dean" She says giving me an evil smirk. She is such a bitch. My insides are heating up. It would shock me if my face was turning red or some shade close.

"Hey Buddy, Hey Meg. What's going on guys?" I say trying to remain col. It's not working. I want to cause a scene but I refuse to do it.

"OH nothing" Cas says standing up. "Meg and I have partnered up on a project for school." Yeah it looks like it's more than that.

"Really" I say surprised it came out calmer than I hoped. I might look cool but I feel like I want to shout. I want Meg away from my boyfriend. Yeah I said it. Cas is my boyfriend and I am ten seconds from not caring if anybody found out. He is mine and nobody elses.

"What class is this for?" I manage to get out. It said while grinding my teeth but I don't care right now.

"History, I told you at lunch that I have history with Meg and that we are partnering up to do a project." He saystilting his head to the side. He knows I love that. Why would he do that. It's hard to mad at him when he looks freaking adorable.

"Yeah Dean, did you forget that Castiel and I have history together" she says like she knows she was getting under my skin. Oh I hate that bitch. She said that like she knows something about us. I swear if Cas told her. Okay I need to calm down. Cas did tell me and it did slip my mind.

"I guess I did." I say as I fight the erg to give her the finger. Evil bitch.

"I'm sorry Dean but we have only a few days to this and we are kind of behind, so was there something that you wanted." He says like he isn't trying to be rude. Is he asking me to leave? I know he takes school serious but there is no way he'd kick me out.

"Nah… It can wait. I'll just talk to you tomorrow" Yeah this is left unfinished but trust me we will come back to this.

"Here I'll walk you out" He says before he turned to the demon bitch to excuse myself. I had to pick a guy who is polite. I hate she is staying and I am going.

"Are you okay Dean" he asks once we stood by the front door. Maybe he noticed I am upset. Should I tell him? No I'm not. I have done a lot of shit to him. I'll let it go this time. It won't be easy but I will. Fuck her I am the one he has been with for two years. That has to mean something…right.

"I'm fine. I just a little upset I didn't get to kiss you today." I say faking a smile. Cas gave me his famous half smile before he leaned in to kiss me. I swear his kisses make me drunk.

"Careful Dean, you sound a little like a chick flick" Cas jokes once we broke apart.

"Shut up" I say feeling a bit embarrassed and insecure.

"You know you have nothing to worry about. Meg and I are just partners and I'm only doing a project with her" He says holding his hands around both of my ears while he looks in my eyes. I feel like such putty when he looks at me.

"I know Cas." I say looking at the floor. I feel stupid. How could I think something of him? I know he wants me and only me.

"Then stop acting jealous." He says kissing me on the forehead. He always see's right through me. I love that about him.

I kissed him one last time before I reached around Cas to open the door.

"I'll see you at school" I say as I stand in the doorway.

"No Dean you'll see me tonight. Leave your window open" He says gripping me up to grab my ass. I am not proud but I let out a small whimper as he squeezed my ass and pulled me close for one last kiss. This kiss is amazing. It's like he sucking the life out of me.

"Until tonight then." I say breaking for air.

It didn't go how I planned but I'm glad I came over. I get to see him later tonight. Maybe iwas to much in my head. Nothing seems like it's going wrong.

Cas

I feel bad about keeping things from Dean. I love him but I am getting tired of being second. I want to give him more time but how long can this go on for. I am only with him three months out the year. The rest of time I have to watch him be with someone else. How long can I go like this?

Dean and I don't share any classes but I do share them with my ex-girlfriend Meg. I always liked her a lot. If Dean didn't come into the picture I probably would still be with her. AT first I wasn't going to do anything with her but a month ago I could help myself. We were talking in our last period class and then one thing led to another and we ended up in my room. I slept with her and it has been going on.

At first I didn't care. Dean has a girl why shouldn't I, but after today I am starting to care. He was hiding it but I could tell he cared if I was sleeping with her. I now have to end it things with Meg again. I hate this part. This will be the second time she has dumped me. This sucks. It wasn't just sex with her either. We have done other things. Okay enough beating around the bush. It's time I handle things. I like her but I love Dean.

I walked into my room ready to break up with her but that was put on pause. When I walked in she was lying on my bed in her bra and panties. Now I am confused. I love dean and like her but she lying there in her bra and panties looking so sexy. I want to end things with her but I also want to have sex with her again. I imagine this is how Dan feels when Bella is naked. One can only hope.

"Meg" I say trying to think of anything that will make my penis deflate.

"Hey blue eyes." She says in such a sexy draw. Oh god my dick is starting to feel like a rock.

"What are you doing?" Why am I asking like I don't know. We've been doing it every other day.

"I want your good loving angel" she says getting out of bed. Why couldn't she stay where she was? It would easier if she was further away from me, but no she had she walk up to me like cat. She stood on her tip toes to kiss my neck in all the spots she knows. I got to give it to her she knows my spots better then Dean. That says a lot. I have been with him longer and he still doesn't know what turns me on among other things.

"I can't do this Meg" I say as my eyes roll to the back of my head. Her lips are so soft. Damn her for being so sexy.

"Yes you can. Why you gotta play hard to get." She says between planting kisses I have to fight my hands. They want to touch her. . She is making it very hard for me to resist. Being with her makes me of all things I am giving up. If I am with her I don't have to hide or keep secrets and that sounds nice. I want to do this but I know Dean wouldn't like this. He would like this but then I remembered Dean has a girlfriend. He gets to be with two people. Why shouldn't I? Just the thought of Dean being with her is enough to do this.

"Come on" she says touching my privates as she looks into my eyes. Her eyes say so much. They tell me she wants me and she isn't afraid of what people will think and I do have a reputation.

"Fuck it" I says as I grab her. I run my hands though her hair as I kiss her hard and rough. I picked her so her legs and arms are wrapped around my body. It feels so good and wrong having her close.

"Now that's what I'm talking about" she says in between kissing me. I carried her over to my bed while we kissed. Once my feet hit the bottom of my bed I threw her down.

"Come and get it." She says smiling. She likes this. She likes it when I throw her around. "Well" she says opening her legs to invite me in.

I stood over her and removed my s shirt, I quickly then jumped on top of her\ as she let out a giggle telling me she loves this. Things are so easy with her.

"You asked for it" was the last thing I said before I crashed my lips into hers. I don't have to tell you what happens next.


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