Work the next day was absolute torture. James had the front of the building while Kendall had the far back. He knew it was weird but he watched James intently the entire day. He watched as James walked up to a young man who had a severe concussion and had a bandage wrapped tightly around his arm where he had gotten an excessive amount of shrapnel wounds. James was always so calm and threw all of his compassion into his work.

The blonde rested his elbows on the med cart in front of him and rested his forehead in the palms of his hands. He thought back to something that James had said to him, 'I love what I do, Kendall. It's everything to me. I have so much love and passion for it I couldn't imagine doing anything else. We are makin a huge difference in people's lives. This isn't work for me. I love it." He wished that at that moment James could say the same about him. He shook his head letting his thoughts get carried away, "Fuck my life." He whispered to himself.

"Hey buddy." Kendall jumped at the sounds of Logan's voice. He hadn't even heard him come up to him.

"I didn't know you were there." Kendall breathed through slightly parted lips.

"I just came to talk to Carlos." Logan said as he looked past Kendall in the direction of the Latino who was administering a clear liquid into an IV tube.

"Well, thanks a lot prick." Kendall grumbled before he collected the meds for his next patient.

"Hey, be sweet!" Logan said in slight offense, "No, but seriously. Are you ok?"

"Logan, does James even want to talk to me?" Kendall asked and after a half second of silence he added, "I saw you talking to him the other day and Carlos won't tell me shit."

"Yeah, I did talk to him." Logan said quietly, "He said that he wants you to come to him first. He feels horrible about what happened and wants to give you the space to get over it. He said that he wants to show you the next letter he got when you are ready to talk." Logan stopped and looked over at James who was now gathering more meds with his back towards them, "Though, you didn't hear any of that from me."

"Yeah, I won't say anything." He paused before looking Logan in the eye, "thank you. I really appreciate it." He pulled the smaller boy in for a tight hug which he quickly returned.

"You're welcome bud. If you ever need to talk you know I'm here." He whispered in the blonde's ear before pulling back, "Now if you'll excuse me I have a boyfriend to go and see." He winked and with that he left in pursuit of Carlos.

After work Kendall made his way to his bed and dug violently through his things for his iPod, which he hadn't used in quite some time. He climbed to his hide out that he had shown the James and the one that Carlos and Logan had invaded them. He put the ear buds in his ears and searched his songs. God, he had such a variety. He wasn't really into country but he had a few songs that he only listened to when he needed to vent and get his feelings out in the air.

After he found what he was looking for he pressed play and let the instrumental part wash over him. He felt tears sting his eyes though he refused to let them fall. Not now. He wasn't going to be weak. He listened to the lyrics of the first verse then belted the Corus.

"No, baby don't, you're makin my heart hurt, don't say those words, take it back, you know you don't mean that." After the song didn't do what he needed it do, he skipped it finding one that had a faster tempo.

This one was better. He belted it from the very beginning while pacing the room. "I never felt nothing in the world like this before, Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through that door." He threw his head back pushing his voice from his gut, "Ooh, why did you have to go? You could have let me know, so now I'm all alone." He leaned against the cold wall taking in the next few lines letting it all sink in. He continued feeling anger begin to build, almost surpassing his hurt "So why does your pride make you run and hide, are you that afraid of me? But I know it's a lie, what you keep inside, this is not how you want it to be."

He pushed off the wall and put his forehead against it hitting it with his fist as he continued to Corus all of his emotions mixing together, "So baby I will wait for you, 'cause I don't know what else I can do. Don't tell me I ran out of time, if it takes the rest of my -." He jumped feeling a hand rest on his right hip.

He didn't move knowing who it was but he slowly removed one of the buds from his ear letting the other one continue to play him the song. He looked at the ground where he could barely see James' military distributed boots. He felt as the skin under his hand became hot from the contact. He wanted to lean into it though he resisted the urge remembering the same thing the night before.

"You sounds amazing, Kendall," James' voice was gentle and full of love.

"How did you know I was here?" Kendall said his voice flat.

"This is where you always come to think." He paused as if contemplating whether or not he should continue with what he was going to say, "Logan was worried about you, said you were upset."

"Yeah, I talked to him."

There was a dense silence. James still hadn't removed his hand. Kendall closed his eyes and gently bit his lip.

"Kendall, please." James said desperation slowly sneaking into his voice.

"James…" The thought of James hitting him came flooding back quickly. He reached to his side and held James' hand in place as he stood straight his back still to the taller male, he traced his fingers over the bruise that now showed on his prominent cheek bones.

"Kendall, I'm sorry. Please look at me." James' grip tightened considerably on the soft flesh of the blonde's hip. He took a step closer to Kendall and rested his forehead on the smaller males shoulder. "Do you trust me?"

This broke the blonde. The memories flooding back to him of the night he gave himself to James. He had said yes. He couldn't be mad at him. He had gone looking for the trouble. It was his fault, though James should have told him. No! James didn't have to. As long as he wasn't sneaking around Kendall's back with this girl, though Kendall didn't know he wasn't. Yes, he trusted James.

He slowly turned towards James who now had his hand placed on Kendall's left him and pulled him close to him pressing his chest against the blondes. "James." A hint of pain was in his voice as his cheek was pressed tightly to the larger male's body.

"Yeah, babe," James said into the crook of Kendall's neck. The blonde pulled back and James' eyes went directly to the bruise. He went to touch it before Kendall caught his hand.

"Don't touch, it still hurts." Kendall said looking down as if he had been caught doing something wrong.

"Kendall! Oh, my God!" James had tears in his eyes. Kendall didn't think he had ever seen him cry before. It broke his heart.

"James, don't." Kendall couldn't bear to see him cry like this.

"I hurt you. I said I wouldn't." Kendall could feel him begin to shake against his body. He needed to stop him and words weren't going to do it. He pushed his lips against the brunettes forcefully and needing. There was hardly any hesitation before James returned it and had the blonde against the wall. Kendall felt something in the pit of his stomach, and it grew with each moment their lips were together. He ran his fingers through the brunette hair while cupping the side of James' neck with his right hand and pressing his hips to the taller males. He let out a soft whimper when James pulled away, though kept him against the wall.

"James, of course I trust you." Kendall said through small pants trying to regain his breath.

James took his hand off of Kendall's hip just long enough to hand the blonde an open envelope. He turned it over in his hands and saw that it was from Erin. "This is the one that you didn't see."

Kendall pulled the piece of paper out of the envelope. He saw that it was only a few lines long. He looked up at James questioning asking for more permission. James nodded gently. Kendall looked back down at the piece of paper and read the short message.

Fine, dick! I hope you have fun with your little man. May you both rot in hell….FUCK YOU BOTH!

"Well, that was rude." Kendall let out a small laugh before he even knew it was coming. Looking up at James he quickly regained his composure and mumbled a sorry.

"Don't be sorry. After that I'm glad that we have nothing anymore. And I couldn't ask for more than you. You're everything." James said as he placed his lips on Kendall's once again.