Dimitri had forgiven me, but it still didn't erase the fact he was being cautious around him, like he didn't want his heart to get broken again. Damn, I was really stupid sometimes. No, I was fucking stupid all the time. Now Dimitri was wary, keeping his distance like he had when Ivan Zeklos died.

Yet, he stayed with me in the room until I calmed down to the point where I could actually get some sleep. The last thing I remembered was his brown eyes and soft Russian laced voice murmuring to me softly in his native tongue.

I cracked open my eyes, blinking and finding that it was still dark. Dimitri was sleeping next to me, head leaning against the wall. My mouth watered at the thought of his blood, but I pushed the thought away and focused on another need.

Adrian. I wanted him suddenly. I looked at Dimitri's sleeping form. Leaning over, I pressed my palms against his face, sending some magic into him that would knock him out for a few hours or until I came back and woke him up.

I wanted to leave, but first I had to test the magic. I took a deep breath and let out a strangled cry, sending terrified feelings through the bond. He stirred but didn't wake. Perfect. Grinning to myself, I pulled off my clothes and put on as little as possible. That only meant underwear and nothing more. Then, I pulled my robe over it and left the room.

I knocked on Adrian's door and he opened it. "Rose?" he asked, bewildered.

"I need you. I need you now," I murmured seductively.

He let me in and I dropped the robe on the floor, turning around, wondering why he wasn't doing anything. "Don't you want me?" I asked, confused.

Lust was in his eyes like mine. "Um, are you sure? Rose, it's only the bond that's causing you to be like this, you know that right? I'm pretty sure Belikov already told you…"

I pouted. "I don't care. I want you. I need you."

Without waiting for his response, I leaped at him and he staggered back from me weight. I forced his mouth on mine open and tangled our tongues together, wanting to be close to him, to feel him, to know I was loved by the guy I lusted for.

Finally, I felt him kiss me back as I took off his shirt, letting it flutter to the ground. I rubbed my hands over his chest and I felt him remove his pants. I hooked my fingers into his boxers and slid it down his legs as he did the same with my underwear.

My hand drifted down south to him and I rubbed my finger teasingly against it. His breath caught and I did it again and again, using my mouth as I leaned down to take him in. I could taste him as he grew harder.

He yanked me back up and forced our lips together. He almost seemed hesitant as I pressed my bare hips against his own, just barely feeling the tip of him at my entrance. I felt thrilled. Was I finally, finally going to lose my virginity after so long? Was I willing to give it to Adrian when I didn't give it to Dimitri?

Dimitri. His name was like ice water on my face and I pulled back violently from Adrian. I shuddered and hugged myself, realizing how close I had been to losing my virginity to the guy I didn't actually love in that way.

"Oh, my God," I breathed out, shaking.

Adrian draped my robe around me. Then, he pulled on his own clothes. "I'm sorry, Rose. I tried to stop you, but then…"

I shook my head. "'S not your fault," I mumbled.

Without another word, he left the room silently. I just sat there on the floor with my flimsy robe covering my naked body. I shuddered again at the thought of being so close. So, so close. Damn lust. Damn body and physical needs.

"Rose?" The soft voice I would know anywhere.

I jumped up and hurled myself into his arms, grabbing him tightly, not wanting to let him go. If he knew what Adrian and I had been doing, he didn't show it. He simply pulled a shirt over me. It was huge, so I suspected it was one of his own. He picked up the robe and led me out.

"Dimitri—"I started.

He shushed me. "Shh. You're fine now. I know it wasn't something you could handle."

A whimper caught in my throat and Dimitri pulled me into the room and onto the floor in front of the couch. "Tishe, moya Roza. Vse v poryadke teperʹ. Vy vse prekrasno, i ya zdesʹ. YA lyublyu tebya vsegda, ne zabyvaĭte ob etom."

I had no clue what he was saying, but it was very comforting. I pushed myself closer to him, mumbling, "Dimitri, I'm ready to break this thing. This…bond. I can't let this happen again. I love you and only you…"

I heard him take in a sharp breath. "Rose, are you sure? The only way we know of is very painful."

I nodded my head against his shoulder. "Yes, I'm positive."

A few calls were made and Dimitri arranged for Eileen and Tasha to come as soon as possible. It took until night, but they arrived at the hotel. Aunt Tasha embraced me tightly, seeing my face and Dimitri started murmuring to Eileen about what had happened.

"Oh, Rose," Tasha whispered, still hugging me. "We'll break it if you want. You deserve to be happy."

Eileen finally came over. "Rose? We need to go to Adrian's suite to get this over with. I just hope that boy hasn't been drinking anything lately," she muttered.

As we stepped out, Eileen looked at my Aunt and Dimitri. "We can't have this many people to witness this. It'll be hard for her, and maybe even embarrassing. It's a long, painful process. I can only take one of you, and the other needs to tell Lissa and Christian what's going on."

I didn't want to choose, so I looked away. I didn't need to, because Aunt Tasha volunteered: "I can stay with the two. Dimka, you go ahead with her."

He shot her a look. "You're positive?"

She shrugged. "Either way, I know you've been a big, big part of her life. I don't mind," she told him softly.

Eileen started walking and I followed her, Dimitri right behind us. His hands massaged my shoulders as Eileen gently banged on the door. "Adrian Ivashkov, open the door."

The door opened and a haggard Adrian appeared. "Ready?" he asked.

We entered the room and I found another separate room. Eileen ordered us around. "Rosemarie, I need you and Belikov in the other bedroom. When you're in there, don't shut the door, but I need you to take off your clothes. Adrian, you must do the same out here."

The rest of what she was saying to him faded as Dimitri pulled me into the other room. He glanced out and then pressed his lips hungrily against mine. I was in no mood for romance, but coming from the guy who constantly pushed me away and never really initiated anything, I wanted it…bad.

I gasped into his mouth and the kiss picked up as his tongue traced my lips. Open mouthed kisses were placed around on my skin and I slid my hands up his shirt. But, before I could try anything, he pulled back, resting one hand on my face before pulling back.

"I love you. It's going to hurt, but I'll be here for you," he promised.

I smiled slightly. I looked around, wondering what I should do. I looked at him. "Do I strip?" I shot him a seductive smile when I said that.

He groaned and looked away. "Now is not the time to seduce me, Roza. And yes, you need to undress."

I shrugged a shoulder and then proceeded with stripping down. Dimitri tried not to stare, but his eyes kept straying back to my naked form. I flushed as I settled down on the bed, my heart pounding out of my chest at the thought of him finally seeing all of me without anything to cover or hide me.

When Eileen came in, though, he made sure to politely away so she wouldn't think he was s perv. She murmured something in a foreign language and I realized it was Romanian.

"Stimate, Doamne, ajuta acest copil tineri pentru a depăşi durerea şi suferinţa a procesului. Ajutor această fată şi băiat pentru a rupe legătura la fel de uşor şi fără durere ca este posibil, aceste tinerii care economisesc angoasa că mulţi au trecut prin!"

She raised her hands and something jolted through me. I cried out in shock and Dimitri grabbed my hand as I squeezed it hard, gasping.

"Dear child, breathe deeply and evenly. As much as you can; it'll help ease the pressure." Eileen's voice floated down to me.

I did as she ordered and I heard her leave and say the same thing to Adrian. I could feel my blood draining away almost and I was scared. I clutched Dimitri's hand tightly in my own, feeling it becoming feeble until I couldn't feel anything.

I panicked, but his soft, Russian laced voice soothed me. "Rose, don't fight it or it'll be worse. I'm here. I love you."

I gasped out, "Is this the beginning."

I saw him nod gravely. "It goes on from here, so be prepared. You're strong. You're a fighter. Remember you can get through this, my Roza."

I drifted off again into oblivion, waiting for the pain, and the hurt to come my way. Waiting so the bond could be broken at last.

Tishe, moya Roza. Vse v poryadke teperʹ. Vy vse prekrasno, i ya zdesʹ. YA lyublyu tebya vsegda, ne zabyvaĭte ob etom: Hush, my Roza. Everything's all right now. You're fine and I'm here. I love you always, don't forget that."

Stimate, Doamne, ajuta acest copil tineri pentru a depăşi durerea şi suferinţa a procesului. Ajutor această fată şi băiat pentru a rupe legătura la fel de uşor şi fără durere ca este posibil, aceste tinerii care economisesc angoasa că mulţi au trecut prin! : Dear, Lord, help this young child to overcome the pain and suffering of the process. Help this girl and boy to break the bond as easily and painless as possible, sparing these young ones the anguish that many have gone through!

I was going to make it longer, but I needa do some other things. XD

For those of you who like the first story I wrote (Love Life and Tragedy), when I finish this story, I'll get back to work on that and DPOV's of all the stories I'm writing. Lolzz. Anyways, I'm just excited about this one more right now and it's my main focus. xD

SONGS:

Waking the Demon—Bullet for My Valentine

You're Gonna Go Far Kid—The Offspring

Dragula—Rob Zombie

Crush—David Archuleta

You Run Away—Barenaked Ladies

Incomplete—Backstreet Boys

Torn In Two—After We Fall

Too Late—Dead By Sunrise

Stripped-Shiny Toy Guns