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Chapter 29
'Finish him. . .' Yaikka Oni whispered.
I looked at the bloody Captain in front of me. His blood makes me shiver with pleasure. One more strike, and he would be dead. That thought made my body shiver even more. I looked at him, and then studied my own body. Every inch of my body was covered in ice, except for a hole where my heart lies. There's a possibility that if I finish off Toshiro, I would die.
"Please, Kirie. Listen to me! Stop this right now!" Toshiro ordered.
'Don't listen to him, Kirie. Finish the bastard. He deserves it. He betrayed you, by getting in the way and protecting that monster Katsu. If you spare his life, you will not be able succeed in your goal,' Yakkaina persuaded.
(But, what if I die?)
'You will not die, trust me.'
I tried to think of whether or not I should spare this man's life, but I can't think while I look at him. His blood is distracting as it drips onto the snowy ground. I can hear the drop pitter on the ground, and I can't help but tingle. The sound makes me crave more. If he won't let me get to Katsu, then I will have to extinguish this pleasure able feeling with his blood.
Once again I hold up my blades, ready to strike.
Toshiro's body falls in front of me. I stand there, my mouth gaped open, appalled by what I done. I look down at Toshiro, with my eyes widened. He's bent down, holding his wound as blood flows out of it. Look what I've done! All of this just to get revenge. My blood lust has brought pain to someone close to me. I collapse to my knees in front of him, tears build up in my eyes. It slides down my ice-covered face, and drops to the ground. I want to drop my weapons, but they are still frozen in my hands. Toshiro's head slowly rises, and his eyes meet mine. I expected a look full of hate, and betrayal, but instead I get a smile. He brings his hand up, and wipes away my tear with his thumb.
"Glad to have you back, Kirie," he said.
I look down at my body. Almost all of it is frozen solid. There's a small circle around my chest that is still warm and exposed. I put my hand up to it, feeling the last bit of warmath left in my body. I can't fight anymore, and the look on Katsu's face from behind Toshiro's shoulder says that she knows as well. I cringe as I look back at his shoulder. More tears flush down my face. I want to scream that I'm sorry, and that I couldn't control myself, but all that came out was moans and mumbles.
"Kirie, listen. It's okay. I do not blame you for what has happened. All thatmatters is that you had the willpower to stop," Toshiro said.
Placing a hand on my chest, he runs over the hole that still hasn't been frozen. He frowns, and looks me back in the eye. His eyes turned serious again.
"You can't fight anymore Kirie. Your body can't take it anymore," he pleads. "Let me take care of Katsu for you."
A sudden pain enveloped my body. All of the fighting, has taken a huge toll on my body, and the pain is finally catching up with me. I would love to nothing more than to slip back into bed, and pretend none of this ever happened.
'Don't listen to him, you must finish her off' Yaikka Oni said.
(What! Are you insane? You're one strange Zanpakuto if you want me to kill myself. One more strike and I'm a goner!)
'It is the only way to get rid of all of this ice. Trust me.'
(Last time you said 'trust me', you wanted me to kill Toshiro.)
'This time you can do it to Katsu. Just do it, unless you would like to live in constant fear of dying'
He's right. If I just leave this right now, I would live in constant worry about hurting someone, and in turn, would kill myself. But, putting all of my faith into Yaikka Oni, the one who just tried to persuade me into killing Toshiro, is even more of a risk. Toshiro is still staring at me, waiting for a reaction. I stand up, letting Toshiro let go of me. I walk up towards Katsu, who still wears a smirk on her face.
"Kirie, please. Don't do this," Toshiro pleaded. I turned my head, so I can see him. A tear floated down my face.
(What do you want me to do?)
'I want you to impale yourself, in the shape of an 'X'. . .' Yaikka Oni orders.
I was a little surprised by his orders. He wants me to stab myself? I remind myself that I'm going to trust him, and that he will get me through this. I turn my blade around, so that its pointing towards my ice-covered stomach.
"Wait, Kirie what do you think you are doing?" Toshiro questioned. A tear falls down my face as I hear his voice. If only I could speak, I would apologize for all of the mess I put him through, and tell him that I love him.
"Isn't it obvious? She knows she can either kill me, which would kill us both, or live with ice all over her for the rest of her life. She must not be able to handle living with her new body," Katsu informed.
"Kirie, please don't do this." I can hear a tremble in his voice. "I-I can't stand to watch you leave me again."
I shakily raise my hands above my head. I can feel their eyes on me. One pair is eagerly awaiting for my death. The other is pleading for me to stop. I hesitate for a moment. I start to think about all of the things Toshiro and I had gone through. It all started when I graduated from the academy. I could remember it like it was yesterday; I'm walking down the halls to the meeting room. My heart beating faster and faster as excitement filled my body. Seeing all of the Captains sitting around the table, waiting curiously for whom I was going to pick to mentor me.
I also began thinking about being with Toshiro these past few days. The way he looked at me when he first saw me. Even though I didn't recognize him at first, he stuck by me until I did. If I don't do this, I'm afraid me might not look at me the same way. I could just be a frozen monster to him. I can't let that happen. I thrust down both of my sai. They impale me, crossing inside me in the shape of an "X."
"Kirie! No!" I hear Toshiro scream, as I start to fade.
