Authors Note: Okay so I haven't replied to reviews which is mainly because the OTH ep tonight has left me stunned. I won't spoil anything for anyone who hasn't watched it yet. But you'll know what I mean after you watch it. I tried to get this up asap and the epilogue is currently being typed up.
This was initially going to be the last chapter but I felt like you all deserved a bit more. I hope you enjoy it xo
I asked her to stay
But she wouldn't listen
And she left before I had the chance to say
The words that would mend
The things that were broken
But now it's far too late; she's gone away
As Julian sat in the Doctor's waiting room with his pregnant fiancé sat by his side, he couldn't help but think that this isn't what he expected his life to be. And he hated himself for thinking it, especially as Peyton had given up a life with Lucas to try and make her relationship with Julian work, but he couldn't help it. He felt Peyton's knee shake against his own and he genuinely worried for her and their unborn child. Previously that morning, Peyton had woke up to bleeding so they went straight to the doctors but the whole time they had been waiting, his mind wandered to the dimpled wearing Brooke.
He had come to the conclusion that all of his problems started the moment he said goodbye to Brooke at the airport all those years ago. He should have made her stay, tried harder to express how much he loved her rather than watching her leave. And now it was too late.
"Peyton Sawyer?" a nurse called out from her position in the doorway. Peyton jumped up from her seat, pulling Julian up with her. She took one worried look at him before leading them both into the doctors room.
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that...
After spending, what felt like the whole night crying, Brooke was emotionally exhausted. It had been three weeks since she had told Julian to be with Peyton and she had spent every night crying herself to sleep. She was grateful that she hadn't seen him at all since then. She had sent Millie to set with any costumes and had made herself busy everyday to ensure that she stayed in her store.
She hated that she wasn't able to be there for Peyton during her pregnancy, it was just too hard for her to be around her best friend when all she could think about was what Peyton and Julian's baby would look like; blonde curly hair, an illegal grin and piercing eyes whether they would be brown or green.
What had Brooke done in a previous life to be dealt the hand that she had been? Why was everything so hard for her?
The taste of her breath
I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of the things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday
Julian unlocked their front door and opened it for Peyton to walk in first, she had been a deathly white colour since they'd left the doctors room. Peyton slumped down onto the couch, whilst Julian poured himself a shot of bourbon, draining the glass quickly. He poured another and carried the glass to Peyton, handing it over to her. She didn't like bourbon, they both knew it, but were hoping it would help her. She placed the glass on the table after she had finished it and shifted over so that Julian could sit next to her.
"I guess some things just aren't meant to be," he groggily replied, his elbows leaning on his legs as his hands held his head. The doctor had informed them that Peyton had in fact miscarried their child.
"I'm leaving you Julian," she stated, like she had ignored his previous statement and for the first time since they left the doctors,she looked at him. "It's not the best time to tell you but I've been -"
"Having an affair?" he finished for her. She stared back in shock. "I already knew. Brooke told me," he nodded. "I don't hate you though Peyton. I think we both know that we're with the wrong people. We loved each other once but sometimes things have to end right?" He smiled at her and she returned it before wrapping her arms around him in a friendly embrace.
"Thank you for showing me that I could love again," she whispered in his ear and then kissed his cheek. "I'll go pack, I'll have moved out by the end of the night."
"Going to live with Lucas?"
"Im hoping we can travel for a little bit, get to know each other again. I'm gonna get Mia to run the label. You can keep the apartment," she turned and made her way to their bedroom to pack.
Julian thought they'd have more to say but turns out they had ran out of things to say a long time ago. Now the only person he wanted to talk to was Brooke. Finally he would tell her all of the things that had remained unsaid for so long.
Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go
Brooke was grateful she had Victoria, mainly because she had offered to take the children for the weekend so that Brooke could have some alone time to work out what she wanted to do with her life. However, when she was left alone, she had time to think and her brain only seemed to want to think about Julian and how stupid she had been to not truly show him how she felt. When she stopped thinking about him and took a sip of her coffee, she realised that she must have been daydreaming for a while because her coffee was now stone cold.
She huffed at her inability to even drink a cup of coffee before pouring it down the drain and washing it away. In the near distance, she could hear music, getting louder each second. Today was not the day for a bunch of teenagers to be playing their music extra loud outside of her door, least of all 'Don't You Forget About Me', that was just mean and selfish. Typical bad luck, she thought as she trudged to her front door, pulling her thin 3/4 length cardigan around herself. She opened the door and saw her producer boy stood on her front porch, grinning illegally holding a boom box high in the air.
Her mouth quickly formed a smile and her dimples popped at the sight of him. How could he constantly have this effect on her?
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
"Julian, what are you doing here?" she shouted above the music.
He placed the boom box down on the porch and turned the music off.
"I need to talk to you and I was hoping that a good old 80s movie gesture would persuade you to let me in. So what do you say Brookie? Gonna let me in or what?" he smirked in her direction and she wanted to hit him and kiss him all at the same time.
She walked back into her house, leaving the door open so he picked up the boom box and followed, placing it on the stairs before closing the door. Whilst she had her back to him, she smiled. After falling in love with 80s movies all those years ago, she had always wanted a boy to be her Duckie and show up as her prom date or in Julian's case, show up with a boom box just like Lloyd Dobbler.
Getting rid of the smile on her face, she turned to face Julian who hadnt stopped grinning since he arrived. God only knows what would make him so happy in their current situation.
"What are you smiling at dork?" she said, lifting her eyebrows curiously.
"I impressed you didn't I?" he smirked. "With the boom box?" He stood with his hands in his jeans pockets, rocking back and forth cockily.
"You don't know me Julian Baker," she snarked back. "What are you doing here?"
"Peyton lost the baby today. She's packing her stuff now. Her and Lucas are going travelling," he replied and watched the shock and sadness wash over her.
"Is she okay? Are you okay?" she took a small step closer to him.
"Some things just aren't meant to be, Brooke. Me and Peyton realised that today. We both just want each other to be happy and the only person in the world that can do that for me, is you."
As he took a step closer to her, she took one further away. So typical of their relationship, when one was inching closer, the other would always be backing off. But not this time. Julian was determined to not leave this house without Brooke.
He bit his lip nervously, although Brooke just thought of it as sexy.
"Please, just hear me out okay? Then after you can say and do what you want?" he offered. She nodded and took a seat on one of the stools. "We've been through a lot, you and me. And we always seem to be bad timing. Now, we're both single and even if you won't admit it, we both love each other. So what else is there to think about?"
"A lot of things Julian, like maybe I'm just your rebound from a serious relationship that involved an engagement ring," she suggested.
"And maybe I made a stupid mistake when I gave Peyton that ring cause I was running away from my feelings for you. The first girl I ever loved and ultimately, the only girl I ever , it's you Brooke. No one else in the world even compares. I've let you go before but I'm not gonna do it again. I love you."
She stared back at him, unable to speak and hoping that her eyes would say everything for her. She longed to be with him, every inch of her wanted him. But she was plagued by thoughts that she was incapable of love. She took another step away from him and her back hit the kitchen counter.
"What about children?" she spoke out. "You want a family."
"I know I do. The only family I want is yours. I want it to be ours. My love for Ryan and Sam has shown me that I don't need to have biological children. We can adopt if we really want more kids. I can't give you up for anything, not even infertility."
He closed the gap between them so that she couldn't get away. He placed his hand on her cheek and gently caressed it. As much as she tried to back out of it, her body betrayed her and leant further into his touch, closing her eyes, every stroke reminded her of how he loved her.
"You love me too, don't you?" he gently asked, leaning his forehead against hers, his other hand falling to her hip. Her eyes were enchanted by his and she couldn't look away.
"Julian..." she shook her head. Each second that passed was getting harder and harder for Brooke to resist him.
"Just say it Brooke," he persisted, his lips inching closer to her own. His breath made her lips tingle, enticing her like a moth to a flame. He didn't want any longer before gently pressing his lips to her's. Everything felt so right. He broke away and looked at her once more. Those green eyes that gave it all away. He saw the same colour green on their first date. "Brooke, I love you."
Her breathing hitched, her eyes moving from his and back to his lips. She was tired of lying and pretending, hiding her heart away. Julian was waiting, his lips merely a touch away, promising her forever. He flashed her that grin one last time and that was it, she was sold. She always was a sucker for that illegalness that often crept onto his face.
Without hesitation, before he could speak again, Brooke lunged for his mouth, devouring his lips with hers like it could possibly be their last kiss. Her arms roped around his neck as she pulled him further into her. He playfully bit her lip and she moaned into his mouth, enjoying every second of it. Making up for all of the lost time.
Brooke was the first to break away, holding herself close to Julian though. "I love you too Julian Baker," she spoke the words as clearly as could be heard and Julian wasted no time in pulling her onto the counter and standing in between her thighs. They hungrily kissed each others lips, Brooke's legs locking round Julian's waist.
"The kids?" Julian managed to get out between kisses.
Brooke shook her head and grinned, "They're staying with Victoria until tomorrow night."
That infamous twinkle in her eye was permission enough for Julian as he lifted her into his arms, her legs still tight around his waist. He headed to the bedroom, Brooke making it difficult for him as she grinded herself into him, their lips still tightly locked to each others.
They fell onto the bed, Julian pulling away to get rid of his t shirt. Brooke followed suit, pulling her dress over her head, laying back on the bed in only her underwear, admiring the man sat between her legs as he looked at her, appreciating every inch of her.
He hungrily continued kissing her. She bit his lip and pushed his pants down his leg, his black boxers following soon after. Once he had shed Brooke of her underwear, he looked her straight in the eye as he pushed into her. Her body immediately arched into him, she didn't even need to adjust, they still fit perfectly.
Thrust after thrust, they met each and every one, in sync completely. Brooke ran her nails down his back which only made Julian push harder making her moan with pleasure. She tried to turn them over so that she straddled him but he simply ran his hand over her body and she succumbed to him completely. She loved that he took the lead when they had sex. She loved it even more when they were making love.
Soon enough, they were both breathing heavily as they hit their limit and Brooke was screaming Julian's name. She tingled every where from utter enjoyment and when fell back onto the bed, she slid onto his chest and lay their in her her rightful place, right above his heart.
After a few moments of silence, her dimpled smile beamed at him and he didn't even try hiding his grin.
"Is that it?" she smirked. "I've waited five years to find out that you it was better the first time."
She was joking of course. Her love for Julian had grown over the years and she knew that that was the reason why making love to him felt even better that did the first time.
He chuckled at her joke before saying, "We best get practising then."
He flipped her onto her back nibbled at her neck as she giggled beneath him. Neither could think of a time when they had been happier. They were finally home!
Authors Note: Please guys review, I will update when I get a good number of reviews and after all the teasing I've done, I think yous should let me know if this is exactly what you wanted? Remember, the 200th reviewer gets their own one shot written for them! xo
