A/N: I do understand that Embry and Quill were actually part of Jacob's pack, but including them doesn't add to the point of why I wrote this. They are not forgotten, however just not included so far.

I own nothing Twilight, that's all the genius known as Stephenie Meyer.


Chapter 29 - Its a Wolf Thing

{Nessie's Room - Cullens House}

Well the courtship hadn't really gone according to anyone's plan, and the main pain point, the one obstacle of the entire courtship concept was the powerful and beautiful hybrid. Renesmee had it, she was done.

Renesmee was in her room in the main house with Rose and Leah, all of them sitting on her bed, cross-legged, talking with one another. Jacob and Seth were training some younglings who had just recently phased, down at the Rez. So that left the rest of the pack to sit in Renesmee's room, listening to her frustrations.

"I'm done. I'm so over this courtship." Renesmee was holding her pillow in her lap, gaining little comfort from hugging it tightly to her. Jacob's scent was nowhere to be found, because of course he always being the 'gentlemen', he would not even take a nap in her bed with her.

It never dawned on her even when she was a child that they never really played in her room. It was always outside or in the general playroom. Even when he slept over, he never stayed with her in her bed. It really sucked when she matured from a child and realized how having Jacob in bed with her, using the 'she just needed comfort' excuse would have been really nice. But nope, good ole noble Jacob. Wouldn't even do that.

She resorted to many tricks of the trade to try to have him with her while she slept. The couch or chairs were fine, except while going to sleep was blissful in his arms, she always woke up alone, in her bed, and that sucked. Even when she kept stealing his pillows from Papa Black's house, eventually he caught on, and asked if he could please just use one pillow for himself so he didn't have to keep getting used to a new pillow every time. She did feel bad that she had blamed Quill and Embry for stealing his pillows, saying that they were just being teenagers. But they did recover quickly from their injuries—still though, she felt bad. But Jacob could have found out where his pillows kept disappearing to if he would've just slept one time in her bed, but nope.

And now, that he had every right to share her bed, the darn Courtship got in the way. It was worse now than even growing up. She was the Imprintee, and she'd be darned if she was happy right now.

"Honey." Rose placed a loving hand over her Nieces, seeing her struggling so much with the stupid idea of courtship that her brother and her Alpha—Jax had conjured up. "You do realize it's only been a few weeks right?"

Renesmee blew out a quick breath, sending one of her stray bronze curls out of her face. That's how bad it was, Jacob hadn't even done her hair lately and she wasn't exactly in the mood to 'doll' herself up as Aunt Alice would say.

"It's been hell for me Rose. He won't even touch me without acting like he needs permission from Dad first. Do you realize, we have yet to french kiss? The other day when we were joking around, we both stuck our tongues out at each other with our heads touching." Renesmee had to pause thinking of how absolutely amazing that felt when their tongues touched. It was so quick, so unexpected, but to her it felt like her body melted into a big pile of goo.

"That 'connection' meant the world to me, but looking at Jacob, you'd of thought he just killed a puppy."

Rose had to hold in a laugh, picturing exactly how that must of played out. "You guys have always talked about this kind of stuff though. Why is he acting like this now? I mean you planned this next step out ad nausea."

This is exactly what got her so mad. "Exactly. But the courtship thing has just gotten everything out of whack. I understand what my sweetheart is doing and the 'why'." Even in her frustrated state, her heart still swelled thinking of what Jacob was trying to do. "But he seems to forget that we've kind of been in a courtship since the Newborn attack."

Renesmee, her determination building. "I just want to marry him. Why does he keep fighting this simple concept?"

Leah really was in a tough spot. She had to support her Alpha's and that was pretty tough to do when both had such differing points of view.

Renesmee had always gravitated more towards her, most likely having to do with the fact Leah had known Jacob from when they were babies. Renesmee always wanted to hear stories of Jacob and while Leah would never admit it to Jacob, she actually enjoyed talking about how close Seth, Jacob, and she was growing up.

That's also one reason the idea of courtship didn't surprise her when it came to Jacob. Considering him growing up around the sex crazed teenage wolf's that he ran with, Jacob was always different. She knew it had a lot to do with his mom, and him wanting to honor her. Also having older sisters, Jacob just always was such a gentlemen around the opposite sex.

Of course that also made him even more desirable for the women... well anyone that met him. That was one reason she was so surprised when he tried to kiss Bella. He sulked about doing that for so long, that she thought he was going to combust. Leah remembered trying to explain to him that it was more than just him trying to kiss Bella, he was trying to save her. While his execution was flawed, his intent was very noble.

But here she was, seeing the struggle between her Alpha's and she really didn't know how to handle it correctly. Of course she'd be there for her best friend, whatever Renesmee needed she'd be there. But this was tough.

Renesmee could sense Leah in deep thought. "What are you thinking Leah?"

"I was just thinking of what Jacob must be going through."

Renesmee saddened a bit. Leah was right, here she'd been worried about herself and her feelings, but she didn't look at it necessarily from the struggling part that Jacob might be going through.

"Listen sis, I do understand what your frustrations are. But we've talked about Jacob's upbringing and how important it is to him that he treats you the way his mom would want him too. I think he's still scared though Renesmee."

Renesmee had to gather herself thinking of Jacob's mom. She had no doubt from the first moment Jake talked about her that they would've gotten along. She never met Mama Black, but she missed her as if she'd known her all her life. Renesmee wanted so bad to just be able to talk to her and she knew they both would be able to convince Jacob that he didn't have to do this.

"But Leah, why would he be scared? I believe I've proven to him what my devotion is to him."

Both Leah and Rose knew that was surely the case as they nodded in agreement.

Still Leah wasn't quite sure how to explain it. "It's not that he's scared of your commitment. He knows you are committed to him. He's known you were the one for… well let's face it, since you were born."

Rose added, "Trust me, Jax knows. Just thank God he didn't sulk around here wondering if he was good enough for you, or if you'd choose him. He's always known no one could love you, care for you, or protect you more than him. Imprint law or not, he would fight for you with all he had."

"Exactly Aunt Rose, so why are we not married yet?"

Leah was sort of hesitant to go down this route, but she felt Renesmee needed to hear it. "Renesmee, when did you really know Jacob was the one? I know you've known you would never leave him, but when did you really know and understand he'd be your eternal mate?"

"Easy, it was few months after the Newborn attack when it really hit me what losing him would mean. I didn't know all the 'adult' stuff at that time but I knew then that no other man would be my mate. It was Jacob or nothing."

"Okay, so that's when you knew and it didn't bother you thinking of him as your mate from that point on right? I mean even as you matured and understood what being mated with Jacob meant, you still wanted him?"

Renesmee looked shyly down at her bracelet. "More than you could ever know."

"But now look at it from Jacob's point of view. He knew you were the one from the moment he saw you. Yes the imprint kicked everything off, but he knew. But here's the thing Renesmee, he could never fully see you as his eternal mate. Saying it is one thing, but completely feeling it is another."

Renesmee looked confused at her. "But Leah we always talked about it. Jacob never did anything to make me feel uncomfortable. He was everything to me. Is everything to me."

"And that 'everything' really comforted you didn't it?"

"Of course."

"Don't you see Renesmee, you couldn't be 'everything' to Jacob at first. He didn't have the luxury of feeling the way you did. You were his little princess remember. I mean Nessie, the way he talked about you to everyone, you were like his daughter, his most precious gift. But you weren't his everything because you couldn't be at that young age, he just wouldn't allow it."

This was yet again frustrating for her remembering back when she announced she wanted to marry him. Jacob explained it to her and she understood physically why. But she never had those walls. It was wanting all of Jacob all the time for her.

"I mean you do understand there had to be boundaries right?"

"Well I understood from his point of view yes, but from mine I still don't understand why there needed to be boundaries. Marriage is not just about having sex right? But yet sex seems to always be the wall that has to be put up. I just don't get it. Why does it have to be so… so dirty?"

Leah looked to the only married one in the room, Rose was going to have to take this one.

Rose had to chuckle. One thing you got with Renesmee was the unfiltered, unbiased, complete truth. "You know Renesmee, I honestly can't give you a reason that hasn't already been given. I do know what it's like to think you are doing things the right way, thinking you have the right man, only to have your world destroyed."

Renesmee hurried over to her Aunt, hugging her. "I'm sorry Rose, I didn't mean for you to bring that up."

Rose patted her on the back, releasing their hug. "Well now that I did bring it up, I think that actually is an example—in theory—of why there is this stigma of waiting. It's not about marriage, it's about the one you're marrying."

This was what Renesmee was trying to say. "So now do you understand why I never understood waiting? I had the perfect man, I knew it, mom knew it, dad knew it, even you knew it." Renesmee nudged her aunt playfully, wanting to quickly move from the topic of what happened to Rose when she was first engaged.

"That's why it's been a constant struggle to wait. I'll be honest, this is the one time no one can say if I knew then what I know now, because we all knew what Jacob would be like. So if Jacob and I would've have just said we were not going to have sex before I came of age, and everyone knew it, would they have minded if we got married earlier?"

"I don't think it's that simple though." Leah interjected.

"Think about it Leah. So 18 is the human age to get married by law, laws we don't necessarily abide by anyway. Regardless though, so lets say I was 17 years, 11 months, and 30 days old, would it be taboo for Jacob and I to get married? Would one day really change everything?"

"Well no, but…"

"So one day doesn't make a difference. What about 10 days? Would that be okay? 30 days, 3 months, a year? I mean who puts this arbitrary number on when we should get married?"

This sounded so familiar to Rose. Her poor niece had been struggling with this for a while.

"And let's say it is all about the sex. I do get that in a way. Once again though, if my mate is the one I would die for, the one I would do anything for, than what would be the problem of the when. As long as my body was ready for him, then why would we need to wait? I just don't understand what made everything so awkward."

"But Renesmee, you do understand how unique your situation is though right? I mean love at first sight is rare enough, but what you and Jacob have is way beyond even that. So the world is accustomed to the pattern of behavior that men and women have shown throughout the years. Jacob and you are the exception, not the rule."

Renesmee took a minute to think about things. She really hated the very act that could create such special gifts is the same act that can cause so many frustrations. She hated thinking about situations like Rosalie and the man that hurt her. But yet, thinking of her mom and dad, and just how perfect they are and even Rosalie and Emmett now. She just had to resolve herself that she would never fully understand. For now though, she would just deal with what's in front of her.

"You're right guys. And I'm sorry to complain about all this yet again. I just get so frustrated with Jacob and his need to be… well perfect for me. I wish he could see himself through my eyes, know that he doesn't have to be perfect, he just has to be mine." Renesmee laughed as she looked at her pack.

"You know, if anything all of us has learned, its that Jacob will do the right thing. He is perfect for you, and so why don't we just see where this goes. As always, let's put our faith in our Alpha, he will do what he always does—the right thing." It was then the three of them laughed, all along realizing that no words spoken could have been more truth.

"I love you guys so much, thanks for always having our backs. I know it can't be easy living in our little world." Renesmee hugged her pack close to her.

"You have no idea." Leah sarcastically responded.

Renesmee was about to reply when the scent hit her, Jacob. She quickly jumped up out of bed, straightening her outfit, slightly bouncing on her feet as she knew it was seconds before her mate would come through the front door.

"You know, sometimes it really is sickening." Rose shook her head at her overly excited niece.

Renesmee shrugged her shoulders. "What can I say? It's a wolf thing." She winked at her pack as she heard the front door open. "Gotta go." She quickly ran out the door to meet Jacob.

Rose and Leah just looked at each other, a smirk on both their faces. "I say a week."

Leah laughed, "I say two days."

"You're on." Rosie nudged Leah. "Wanna train?"

"Thought you'd never ask." At that the two warriors were off, hoping to get away from all the lovey dovey stuff even though each knew they wouldn't want it any other way.


A/N: Quick side not, I just wanted those reading to know if they see errors, problems, typos, whatever, please feel free to say something. I have some pretty thick skin, have to writing to these kind of sites. Even though I just write for fun, I still want to know ways to improve so please don't hesitate to say something.