Harry Potter & The Loss Of Faith
Chapter 29
Harry Potter got up the next morning smiling; he had someone who was willing to help him. If he didn't survive he knew the Cullen family were perfect to bring up his child. As usual he wrote in his journal, everything that had happened and said to his little baby that he or she would be fine even if he didn't survive. It was probably a lot to ask Carlisle and his family to do, but he had no one else Bella wouldn't be able to bring up a Wizard/Vampire baby as much as he trusted her, and he did trust her with his and his child's life.
Harry felt really sick this morning so took a stomach soother potion; it would stop him being sick. He ate a small amount of breakfast not feeling truly hungry, might be after feeling so sick just five seconds ago.
Grabbing his car keys and put on his green hoodie he had bought about ten different coloured ones knowing he would need them. As soon as he came to Forks he began wearing them, knowing it would be suspicious if he began wearing them suddenly. Although the weather is very annoying and always cold or raining. Especially since he had been in Arizona for the past month, thankfully he was used to such weather being from England.
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That night Carlisle was deep in thought contemplating everything he had learned. He needed to know more about Harry and the child so he knew best how to help them. He felt so ashamed for carrying such a fear of Wizards with him; after all it had been the Volturi that had said it. He had never taken anything the Volturi had said to heart apart from that one thing. However, he was looking forward to getting to know more about Harry Potter so he can change his ways. Fear of Wizards didn't just disappear overnight not even for vampires he had been scared of Wizards for centuries.
He stayed locked up in his office the entire night, the conversation he had with Harry continuing to run around his head. That was until it was time to get to work, he felt like actually taking the day off and contemplating more but he knew he couldn't do that. People out there needed him; he loved helping people it was who he was.
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Rosalie was in her own room, thinking back to the conversation, she hadn't been able to help the anger that had coursed through her. She hated the thought of anyone being hurt in that way, human or not they didn't deserve it. She knew what it was like, she had been hurt and then beaten herself and then what's worse left for dead by the man she had been about to marry.
Esme thankfully hadn't been angry with her; the hole was still in the middle of the living room until they could get the materials to fix it. She had stamped her foot so hard she had rocked the foundations of the house and put a massive hole it in. She hadn't been as thankful to have Jasper with them until that moment. Her anger had taken over her senses who knows what she would have done. Not that Emmett would have let her do anything she would regret; for once in her life she had wanted to kill another vampire out of revenge and for a human no less.
Her mind turned to the baby; she had always wanted a baby she too would have died for one. All she could do was help Harry as much as she could. For once in her life she actually wanted to help another human. Sighing softly Emmett came up to her and hugged her; he knew what she must be going through. He might be a goof ball sometimes that's why she loved him but he knew when to be serious.
"It will be ok" said Emmett quietly.
Rosalie smiled softly; together they sat down hugging each other today had been a hard day. For the second time she thanked her stars she had been able to get him to Carlisle in time. She remembered Carlisle's reluctance to turn him, she had begged for the first time in her life (apart from when she was turned) for something.
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Edward remained in the Piano room the entire night, playing mournful tune after tune his thoughts tuned around Harry. He hadn't really expected the turn of conversation that had happened today. He couldn't believe the boy was pregnant, that was something way beyond what he thought was possible. His mind went back to the pale swollen stomach, and a flash of desire ran up him, which surprised him so much he stopped playing the piano. Had he really just had that feeling or had he imagined them? Edward quickly left the house and went to his favourite spot at the lake.
He didn't want Alice to see anything or Jasper to feel anything coming off him, he was confused enough as it was. He had never had feelings for another male before in his life, it had never dawned on him that he might be gay. Not that he had a chance to test it out; he was a vampire the most deadly predator to walk the earth.
Even if he did like him there was no way the young man would want anything to do with him that way. After everything he went though it didn't surprise him the slightest. Go figure he would end up liking a human male who has already been hurt by a vampire. No not human, a Wizard in all his years by Carlisle had Carlisle even so much as thought of them in his presence. So he had been in the dark as everyone else, he shuddered as he remembered Victoria's demise. She did deserve it she was trying to kill the boy, still didn't make it shocking. The shock that had torn though him when it had happened almost had Jasper out of his seat in fright. All the Cullen's were very much in tune with Jasper, so he had felt it even away in the school.
He spent the rest of his night at the lake trying to make sense of his feelings and what to do about them. As the light began filtering though the trees he had made his decision, he couldn't approach Harry and wait and see if the young man liked him. There was no point in having feelings for someone who couldn't possible want him. It didn't stop his heart aching at the thought, growling he went back home to have a shower and get clean clothes on before facing the day.
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Alice and Jasper remained in their room, Jasper trying to help Alice through her turbulent emotions. She had almost lost her best friend today, before he could become the best friends she saw them being. Then her visions were beginning to fail her, she hadn't seen that vision, was it because Harry wasn't going to tell them? Or because there was too many things left undecided? That shouldn't have mattered no matter what she should have seen something, because Harry said it himself he wanted their help. She wasn't used to not seeing things that were important; she didn't like being surprised either.
Which she was - very much so.
She didn't know how too feel that Harry was pregnant a male pregnant a male Wizard that was pregnant and with a vampire child too. She didn't see anything happening; did she still want to get to know Harry? All she could think was that he might not survive, he had said it himself no one had survived the birth process of having a child. She had seen how quickly that bruise had healed, if magic couldn't save them. What made Harry think that Carlisle could save him? She didn't think she would like being hurt if Harry died.
What if they turned him? Was the next thing going though her mind.
Sighing softly she continued to think way into the night, cuddled into Jasper by the time they had to go to school she had decided the old saying was true 'It was better to love than not at all' she would love Harry as long as she could as a friend of course. She was going to befriend him and they were going to be best friends and if she could convince him to allow her to turn him then she would do it.
"Feeling better?" asked Jasper, he hadn't manipulated her emotions because Jasper knew deep down she needed to sort this out for herself. By the morning came Jasper was finally feeling calm, after everyone's emotions hitting him since Harry Potter came to their home.
He could finally think for himself.
"I'm going for a shower" sighed Alice kissing Jasper lightly in thanks.
So Jasper could finally think, he had meant what he said to Harry he would have helped him no matter what. The looks in his eyes, and the feelings he had gotten fleetingly when his shields had wavered - reminded him of his own days. During the wars, he had changed not just into a vampire. He wasn't going to just help Harry with his child but to help him get over the war and emotions.
He remembered every time Alice had a vision of the Volturi killing him, his mind had automatically went into fighting mode. Every person he knew about the Volturi he had planned their deaths with every one of the Cullen's able to fight them. He was a leader, seemingly a born one it was hard to let Carlisle take the lead after being a leader himself. As the years had gone on he began trusting the family with his life. They soon became his family even though he still thought of ways to defeat someone or a bunch of vampires it wasn't as bad as before.
He was happy now and he wasn't going to let the Volturi take that away.
He smiled softly upon thinking about the nickname Harry had given him only after knowing him a short time. Jasp, yes he was happy no Volturi was going to take that away he would die before he let that happen or should he say technically speaking he would die again before he let that happen.
He would protect Harry and his family with all he had.
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Esme was quietly cleaning everything in sight; even though it was already clean she needed something to do as she thought. She liked Harry really much; he was a kind hearted young man. Her thoughts were centred on the fact he didn't have any parents. That thought tore at her as she though of her own baby. Her baby had died when he was a year old, for Harry it was the other way around he had lost his parents when he was a year old.
She felt so sorry for him, and wanted to give him a hug and tell him everything was going to be alright. She didn't care a second that he was a Wizard, she wondered if Harry would feel alright about coming and having dinner again. She would love to feed him up, he was going to need it anyway his baby would need food.
She had to convince Carlisle or so she thought, she needed to have a long talk with him about his prejudice against Wizards. Harry hadn't done anything to them, and had acted only in self defence anyone would have done the same thing. It was a good job he was a Wizard or he would have been those horrid Normad's meal.
So she had decided as soon as Carlisle was back from work she would take him out to hunt and have a serious conversation with him. She finally sat down as her thoughts dimmed to things she wanted to get done today. Luckily that's when Edward came back and went to his room, next thing she heard was the water running.
She didn't hear Rosalie moving around which was strange she was always the first up and getting ready. Although she didn't need much time to get ready, she was naturally beautiful much like the rest of them but she liked to double check everything. She needed to go and see if her daughter was alright so she went to the door and knocked.
"Come in" said Emmett.
"Are you ok?" asked Esme softly coming into the room looking at Rosalie in concern.
"I'm fine" smiled Rosalie, she was so lucky to have such a caring mother figure that didn't prance her around as if she was a god. Although she had loved it back then, look where it had led to - her supposed death. Her parents hadn't cared much, that's what had hurt the most they ended up having another child. They had called her Lillian she had been a beautiful little girl and had married young. She didn't have any children, and the Hale lined had ended with her she knew all this by the history books and before she moved she had gotten revenge on the men who had hurt her.
"Do you want me to call the school?" asked Esme, Rosalie didn't look like she was going to go.
"I'm going Esme its ok" sighed Rosalie.
"Ok dear I'll leave you to get ready" smiled Esme leaving the room. She heard her husband finally moving around in his study. No doubt already getting ready for his work, she was correct he came out fresh faced and ready for the day.
"Are you ok?" asked Esme kissing Carlisle softly.
"I'm fine now" said Carlisle hugging Esme softly in apology for leaving her on her own all night.
"Hunt tonight?" asked Esme softly.
Carlisle smiled sadly; he knew what that meant she was going to get on at him for being prejudice against Harry. It hadn't been on purpose but Esme deserved to have her say so he nodded he'd end up going one way or another. Esme was his life and he would do anything for her, or their children.
It wasn't long before Esme was stuck in the house on her own, as the others had already left. Carlisle for the hospital in his town car and Rosalie and Emmett in the Red Convertible, Jasper, Edward and Alice went in the Volvo.
Edward was already looking for Harry's car before he realised what he was doing.
Either way it wasn't there yet and the bell went so it looked like the teen wasn't going to be attending school today. It wasn't long before the Cullen's were actually worried about him; the warning bell went before Harry made an appearance in Biology.
"Are you alright?" asked Edward softly as he slid into his seat.
"I'm fine I just had a sore stomach" admitted Harry it felt refreshing being able to tell someone who would understand.
"Ah" said Edward, the concept still new and still baffled him completely so he could hardly say anything else.
"Can't IT help?" asked Edward.
It took Harry a few seconds to realize that he was talking about magic.
"Only to a certain extent" replied Harry softly.
"Our mother want's you over for dinner tonight if you want to come that is" said Edward softly.
Harry gave him a caught in the deer headlight look, "I'll give you my answer at lunch"
"It's alright" grimaced Edward he had a feeling he already knew Harry's answer.
"I have no many questions too" sighed Harry.
"Like what?" asked Edward his whole attention on Harry his beautiful features contorted in confusion.
"Just questions about you…and the others" smiled Harry; he hadn't noticed just how good looking Edward really was. He wondered what the teen had been like when he was a child, before he was turned and how he felt about being a vampire.
"Ah well we will be more than happy to answer any questions you have, you did us the same courtesy" said Edward.
Harry cocked his head to the side, Edward was speaking very politely, he had a feeling it had nothing to do with how long he's being around - but from when he was around. It was very old way to speak…how long had Edward been a Vampire? And why did they attend school all the time? It just seemed stupid to him. As usual Harry wanted to know everything before he started judging people. Especially when they had been so nice to him, and were willing to help him even if it might endanger them.
"Thanks" smiled Harry looking greatly relieved. He wanted to know just what his son or daughter was going to be like.
"You're welcome" said Edward.
Harry's next class he didn't have any of the Cullen's in, for that he was sort of glad but at the same time extremely disappointed. Harry wasn't used to conflicting emotions, he wanted them but on the other hand he didn't.
Surprisingly during his class his mind kept going back to Edward, and thinking about him and everything about him. He wondered if his son or daughter would be anything like him beautiful and polite. If he was raised with them, perhaps he would be - he just hoped it would be enough.
That said his mood soured, he didn't want to die and leave his child…no parent would obviously. All he could do was make sure his child was safe and happy, with that knowledge he would die a vaguely happy man. Of course he would have died a very happy man if he had taken out Voldemort before going. So when lunch came he morosely made his way towards the counter and picked up his lunch.
"Harry" squealed Alice "Come sit with us!"
Harry frowned; Jessica was tip toeing around him as if he was an evil demon going to kill her. He hadn't scared her that much had he? He hoped not then again if it stopped her talking about him or any others like they were unfeeling he had won a small battle.
"Sure" said Harry it was that or sit himself, and even he preferred company than being on his lonesome.
"Hi" smiled Harry unsurely.
"Hey" smiled Rosalie.
Harry looked at her wondering what kind of insult that was going to come out of her mouth. When she didn't say anything he looked at her weirdly before sitting down, then he remembered her outburst yesterday and thought it best not to try his luck and say anything. Vampires were strong too bloody strong for their own good.
"How are you feeling?" asked Jasper.
"I'm fine thanks Jasp" grinned Harry; he had seen the look of surprise and happiness when he had called him that in the car the other night as tired as he had been.
"How far along are you?" asked Rosalie out of the blue.
"Nearly three months" sighed Harry softly.
"Wow" whispered Rosalie unable to believe it.
"Aren't you afraid?" asked Emmett looking serious it didn't suit his usually goofy fun loving face.
"More than you know" whispered Harry.
"Don't worry Carlisle will help you in any way he can" said Rosalie comfortingly.
Ok it was official she was scaring Harry now but he was actually beginning to like this Rosalie. When she didn't have a scowl etched on her features or when she was looking down at him like he was dirt on her shoe. Which was ironic he wasn't low down on the society chain he was Harry Potter last heir of the Potters. Well for a while anyway then his child would be one, at least the Potter line wont end with him.
"I hope so" replied Harry his green eyes full of fear he had stopped himself thinking about it now it was out in the open he couldn't. Was this how Bella felt all the time? Scared for him? Suddenly he wanted to live if only to be able to see his son or daughter grow up.
The others didn't know what to say; suddenly everyone began talking as if something was happening. Harry turned around to see what all the fuss was about and his breath stopped, Bella was here at Forks high. Grinning suddenly he stood up and gestured for Bella to come over. Soon as she saw him she ran over and gave him a big hug.
Suddenly Edward stiffened and slapped his hand over his mouth and nose in horror.
Alice paled and Harry knew something was going to happen if he didn't stop it.
"Bella go outside I'll meet you there in a minute I'll explain later go please" said Harry quickly
Bella took one look at them and knew they were the Vampires Harry had spoken about. She knew from the books she had read that they could be very dangerous so did as Harry suggested. Something was up and she wanted to know about it, she could wait until Harry came out.
As soon as Bella left Edward was able to relax slightly.
"What's wrong?" asked Harry immediately.
"She's my singer" whispered Edward Horsley.
"Is that meant to mean something?" asked Harry wide eyed seeing all the looks of dead on the Cullen's faces.
"Their blood calls to the Vampire in us and we usually end up killing them" said Emmett looking down he knew how hard it must have been to remain seated. He had never been able to last any longer than five seconds with his singers. Edward must be very strong, so much stronger than him.
Harry closed his eyes in dread, "Right we need to get this fixed because I'm not telling Bella to go home again and I'm not having her killed. All of you go home; Bella and I will meet you there ok?"
"What you're going to bring her into our house you do have a death wish" hissed Emmett knowing just how hard it was. None of the others had encountered singers before it seemed it was just Emmett and Edward.
"It will be fine I promise and I trust you to be able to handle him, try and get Carlisle too" urged Harry walking out of the cafeteria no one had been able to hear him as he was talking to low for a human to over hear him accidentally.
Groaning silently the Cullen's only got up when they heard Harry's engine purr to life. They made their way to the cars and followed behind at a slower pace wondering how Harry was going to fix this one.
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"What happened?" asked Bella wide eyed when a pale looking Harry grabbed her hand and dragged him to a beautiful Audi.
"Get in and I'll explain on the way" said Harry urgently.
"What about my car?" protested Bella.
"It will be fine we can come back for it please Bella this is important" begged Harry.
Wide eyed Bella got into the car wondering what on earth had gotten into him.
"These vampires feed on animals" explained Harry.
"Yeah I noticed their eye colour" nodded Bella she already knew this.
"What you don't understand is that you're blood is signing to one of them, Edward Cullen, singers are very dangerous apparently and no one can last long around a vampire" replied Harry.
"Ok great" said Bella paling.
"Don't worry though I'm going to do something about it" said Harry.
"Hey I didn't know you're house was this way" said Bella looking out at the rapidly passing by scenery.
"It's not I'm taking you to the Cullen's" said Harry quickly accelerating more.
"What? Are you mad!" shrieked Bella.
"Calm down I'm going to make sure he never hurts you" said Harry.
"I know you wouldn't let anyone hurt me but you know how fast and powerful Vampires are" said Bella desperately.
"Yeah I know but I also trust them" said Harry.
"You haven't been here that long" commented Bella surprised.
"Plus they are going to help me with the baby" said Harry.
"Jesus Harry why do you always end up in situations like these" sighed Bella she had hoped she would be just another somebody in Forks…that obviously wasn't the case right now.
Harry laughed suddenly squealing as he turned a corner his car going up to 120 MPH.
"You know me Bella I was just about killed by a different Vampire just yesterday that's why I didn't get back" smirked Harry amused.
"VAMPIRE? Jesus Harry! You didn't tell me that are you both ok?" asked Bella looking him up and down making sure he really was alright.
"As well as can be expected considering my baby hijacked by magic and made flowers come out of my wand!" groaned Harry.
"It did what? Oh what a bad baby!" sighed Bella.
"My thoughts at the time too" growled Harry.
"Does that usually happen?" asked Bella.
"I don't know I asked Dobby to ask Severus to get me some books about what's going to happen" said Harry.
"I hope he gets back soon I want answers" said Bella.
"Me as well" said Harry.
"That's the Cullen's house?" asked Bella her jaw dropping it was absolutely gorgeous.
"Yeah it's beautiful isn't it come on let's get inside before they come in" said Harry.
"Dobby!" yelled Harry as soon as they got in.
"Yes Harry Potter?" asked Dobby.
"Go get twenty vials of potions for vampires to suppress blood lust please and a book on all kinds of potions for Vampires. Here's some money be quickly" said Harry giving him Muggle money Dobby would know to go to Gringotts to get the galleons.
Dobby quickly did as he was told; thankfully he was able to use his magic to find exactly what he needed without looking. Paying for them quickly he apparated back to where he was needed and handed them to Harry.
"Thanks Dobby, I will be staying here for dinner so will Bella so you are free to do what you want" said Harry smiling at the happy elf jumping up and down.
"Was that an Elf?" asked Bella wide eyed.
"Nah it's a house elf completely different species" said Harry softly.
"Oh" said Bella.
"Who do we have here?" asked Esme walking into the room curiously.
"Esme this is Bella Swan Chief Swan's daughter, Bella this is Esme Cullen mother of the Coven" grinned Harry.
"It's nice to meet you" said Bella holding out her hand, she gasped at how cold it was but smiled none the less.
"You as well dear Harry is everything alright? It's only lunch time" said Esme frowning.
"Bella is Edward's singer" replied Harry.
Wide eyed Esme quickly said "You must get her out before the others come!"
"Don't worry this will help" said Harry gesturing to the load of potions in his hands.
Jasper had a tight grip on Edward and Emmett was in front of him keeping Bella out of sight. Harry went over and told him to drink that potion; Edward gagged at the smell coming from it and shook his head.
"Trust me it will help" shouted Harry.
Closing his eyes he groaned and tipped the potion down his throat, Esme quickly got some blood from the fridge and handed it over. After a few minutes Harry told them to back away, Edward was too scared to breath but when Harry asked him to trust him he did. Breathing in he didn't smell any overpowering call of blood.
"How did you do that?" asked Edward in awe he could smell as great as ever but Bella didn't smell at all to him now.
Jasper was struggling himself he could smell what Edward couldn't but she wasn't his singer so it wasn't so bad.
Harry gave each of them the potion and they gasped at the difference Bella didn't smell at all anymore.
"How did this happen? What kind of potion is this?" asked Emmett wide eyed.
"I wished I had known about this earlier" said Jasper softly; he had been struggling so hard to come to terms with eating animal blood only. If he had known about it before his life would have been a helluva lot easier.
My Longest Chapter Ever! =D Hope you enjoy it so will the potion keep working? or will they need to take it every few months to keep it going? will Rosalie get her wish for a child? will Bella develop a crush on Edward until harry and him get together? whom will Bella go out with until i have her settle? will she pick mike after harry tells her all about Jessica knowning Jessica likes him? what questions will you like the Cullens to answer? how long will it be before both harry and edward admit their feelings for one another? or will they stay in denial for the majority of the story? R&R plz
