Ok, I know I suck for not updating for so long. I just haven't been very motivated, but I had free time finally and decided I needed to write. Thanks to those of you who last reviewed.
"No… I want her to stay." Suddenly I felt terrible for the way I had been acting. I was a total jerk towards Melissa.
"You should go talk to her before she decides to leave." Lars said. His facial expression was straight, he was being serious… Very serious.
"I… uh… But…" I stumbled over my words. How was I supposed to tell her?
Lars glared at me, "Now."
I didn't take a second look at Lars face and turned to go talk to Melissa. My head started spinning and I started to feel sick.
I sat down in the chair to Melissa; she lifted her head to look at me then quickly looked away and laid her head back down.
"Hey…" I said quietly. Melissa didn't move. I felt like the stupidest guy in the world. "Sorry…" Melissa flinched a little causing me to flinch inside. "Could we go talk?" I asked expecting to be rejected.
Melissa lifted her sunglasses and glared at me, I swallowed waiting for the worst. "I'm listening." She said in an even tone.
"Baby…" I pleaded reaching for her hand.
Melissa quickly pulled away. I could see hurt in her eyes as she pulled her sunglasses back down.
"I'm sorry…" I said staring at the ground. Who was I? I wasn't acting like I should; I had an amazing girlfriend, a baby on the way and friends who cared. And I messed it all up. I swallowed and got down on my knees, "Melissa I love you. You are the most amazing girl in the world and I'm a complete jerk. I'm so sorry for treating you like that, you deserve a lot better. I'm so sorry…" I hung my head down, tears filling my eyes.
I slowly looked up after a few minutes; Melissa was looking the other way. As she bit her bottom lip a tear rolled down from under her sunglasses. Pain twisted through my whole body. I reached out and pulled her close. Melissa started to cry and hugged me. I held her tight never wanting to let go of her again, then kissed the top of her head.
After a few minutes Melissa stopped crying and lifted her head, I pulled her sunglasses off then tilted her head up. Her soft brown eyes stared back at me.
"I love you Melissa." I said not taking my eyes off hers.
Melissa swallowed, her eyes tearing up again. "I... love you too…"
I held her tighter as I leaned down to kiss her softly.
Lars POV
I sat looking over the lake. I picked up a small stone next to me tossing it in the water. I guess everything's fixed... Twist and Melissa fixed things, and Reggie hasn't spoken a word to me. Maybe she just didn't care. She was probably better off without me anyways; I had always been the bully, the one they didn't like.
I picked a bigger stone and threw it into the water. What did I do wrong this time? Was I just not good enough for her? Was it because when we were younger I liked her and didn't know how to show it? Maybe I was just a failure; I got mixed in with the wrong group when I was 16. Maybe she was ashamed to call me hers anymore.
Tears came to my eyes thinking of those thoughts. Things played over and over in my mind. Anger tried to cover my pain, I was Lars Rodriguez, I wasn't known for crying; I was known for being tough.
I got up punching the closet tree to me, pain shot through my hand and I felt my knuckles start to bleed. I pulled my sleeve down over my hand and headed back to the cabin. Fine, if I wasn't good enough for Reggie the way I was then I'd go back to the old Lars, if I couldn't make anyone else happy I could make myself the happiest I was going to be.
The sun was setting as I walked along the somewhat worn trail. Anger built up inside me, I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself for not being good enough, I couldn't think of what I did wrong to make her kiss another guy, especially my brother!
A familiar figure caught my eye as I walked, long wavy hair and a fit body dressed for a cool evening. My anger over came me.
"Reggie." I said walking towards her.
Reggie turned, fear over took her face along with shame. She stopped and stood there silently.
I pulled up my sleeve, the one that covered my bloody knuckles and cut wrist. My hand came within 6 inches of Reggie's face. "Is this what makes you happy?!" I yelled at her.
Reggie avoided my eyes; slowly she bit her bottom lip. I watched emotions spin in her eyes as she fought back words and tears. Suddenly she started crying and fell on her knees to the ground sitting. A familiar shiny object fell from her pocket as sobs over took her small body.
I slowly picked up the object, pulling open the blade to my pocket knife, I looked down at Reggie. "What the hell were you doing with this?!" I grabbed one of her arms and pulled back the sleeve, her arm was unharmed. I quickly released it starting to grab her left arm.
Reggie's right hand covered her left arm, "No! No!" She sobbed into her left hand.
"Regina Rocket! Let go!" I yelled as I sat down in front of her. I pulled her left arm and she finally gave in as she was losing. I pulled up her sleeve reveling several fresh cuts.
I pushed her arm back towards her grabbing her by the shoulders, "What were you thinking?! You could kill yourself!!" I couldn't understand this, it was Reggie. Happy Reggie. Reggie who didn't do things like that.
Reggie didn't look up as she sobbed.
"Reggie talk to me now!" I could feel her weight against me as she tried to break loose. "Reg…" A small scream escaped from her between sobs. I started to worry, "Reggie… stop…"
Reggie pulled away, placing her face in her hands she lowered herself to the ground sobbing hysterically.
"Reggie stop." I started to plead. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't go for help and leave her alone like this and I didn't know how to make her stop.
I looked around and then took a breath. I reached for Reggie and started to pick her up. She screamed again and fought against me but was to upset to fight for long. I held her close as she continued to sob into her hands and started walking towards the cabin.
