Chapter 29

Falling Apart

"Karina?" called a voice through the darkness. I didn't answer. The last thing I wanted was for someone to know I had been bawling my eyes out.

"Lumos!" they muttered coming towards my bed. It was Jasleen.

"Karina," she said, sitting down on my bed, "are you alright?"

"Do I look fine to you?" I muttered. She lit a candle.

"What's wrong?" I didn't want to tell her. I didn't want to tell anyone.

"Nothing,"

"Well, something has to be bothering you because then you wouldn't be crying,"

"Well, why should you care? We're barely even friends! You're always off with Allegra and Cheyenne and Zetta. Can't you see this dorm is totally divided into groups?"

"I know what you mean," she said. I sighed.

"I didn't mean to shout at you. You just have to understand that I don't feel comfortable telling you what's going on in my personal life,"

"Okay," she nodded, "I won't bother you anymore about it," that's when I realized who I really wanted were Ellie and Amelia. But they weren't here. I had no one to talk to…except Hermione.

I went back downstairs again. It was only 8:00. Surely Hermione was still up? But how to find her? That was a mystery. I decided to check in the library. She was almost always there, wasn't she? I was right: she was there.

"Hermione?" She looked up.

"Oh, Karina," she muttered, "you startled me,"

"Sorry," I apologized.
"I thought you went up to bed," she said, "George told us,"
"See that's the problem," I told her. Hermione looked puzzled.

"George telling us is a problem?"
"No!" I exclaimed, "The problem is George!"

"Relationship problems?" she asked.

"Yeah,"

"What sort?"

"Whenever we're together, we never seem to talk about anything,"
"Okay…"

"We just have all these blank moments of silence where no one says anything and then it's cut off by one of us leaving,"

"Have you talked to George about any of this?" she asked.

"No," I admitted.

"You should tell him Karina. You two should fix whatever has been going on,"

"I don't know," I muttered, "today was the first time I didn't feel comfortable around him. I felt for the first time that there was no chemistry at all. There was just no spark at all,"

"I should have warned you," Hermione muttered.

"Huh?"

"I think some of the problems between you and George is one, long distance relationship, and two, age difference," Could she be right? I always knew that George was too old for me, but I always thought it could work. Was I wrong?

I started crying right there. I couldn't hold it back.

"Come here Karina," Hermione said, wrapping her arms around me.

"I just love him and don't want to lose him,"

"I know Rina, I know,"

"Oh Hermione, what do I do?"

"Talk to him," she said, "and tell him everything,"