ALL RIGHTS GO TO RACHEL CAINE!
Chapter twenty-nine
Brandon's POV
I sat down on the sofa as Sky went upstairs to get Tegan's pyjamas. Tegan was a beautiful little girl; she had gorgeous blue eyes and brown wavy hair that fell to about mid-back on her. Her hair colour matched mine more than Sky's; she also had some of my features which made me smile at her. She was amazing and I couldn't believe I managed to muck everything up and ruin my chance to see her grow up. Better late than never I guess. If Sky is willing to let me see Tegan, then I will witness her grow up but that doesn't stop that slight sting in my chest when I think about me missing the first two years of her life. The most important years of her life. Those years she learnt how to talk and walk and everything else. I missed all that.
"Come here baby girl. Let's put your jimjams on" Sky calls out and Tegan runs over to her, abandoning her colouring for the time being. I sat there patiently as Sky got her changed and when she was finished she ran back to her drawing. It was fascinating watching her colour and watching the pure concentration she had as she tried to stay within the lines. I felt Sky sit next to me but I didn't dare look at her; I still blamed myself for everything that happened and I'm probably the last person she wants to look at. Yes, it was my fault and I should blame myself, but the pain that it causes me is excruciating.
"Brandon, I'm sorry" I hear Sky whisper next to me. I whip my head round to look at her properly, she looked so sad and…and…I couldn't place the last emotion but it looked very similar to one I had been feeling for the last two years. Lonely.
"For what?" I inquire curiously. What could she possibly be saying sorry for? She hasn't done anything to say sorry for.
"For taking Tegan away from you and depriving you of your own child. It was mean and petty and it was selfish" she tells me and I sighed heavily. In no way is any of this her fault. It was me who pushed her to take such drastic actions and I couldn't blame her. I would have gone off with our child as well if she had done exactly what I had done.
"There is no need for you to say sorry. It was all my fault. Not yours. It should be me grovelling at your feet beginning for forgiveness, not you" I tell her and I see a little tear leak from her eye. On action I lean over and wipe it away with my thumb. She looks at me and we lock eyes as we stare at each other. We were passing so many feelings through our locked eyes, but the main one that kept being passed between us like a volley ball was love. But despite that love there was still the anger and sadness that flared in her eyes and it made me feel guilty. I had caused her to feel so horrible. All I wanted to do right then and there was kiss her and tell her everything was going to be okay and that I was sorry for everything that had happened. I would beg for her forgiveness in the hopes that maybe one day she may be able to forgive me.
"Mummy, where's Mr Snuggles?" Tegan asks her and she thinks for a minute before jumping up and heading into the kitchen before returning with a teddy bear in hand. It wasn't just any teddy bear at that. It was the same one I bought Tegan when me and Sky broke up before and she had allowed me to see Tegan on visits. It was the bear I had brought her the first time I got to see her after mine and Sky's falling out. That was before I made the massive mistake that made Sky run away with our little girl for two years. Maybe this was a sign that she still cared for me. I can only hope and pray that within time it will make itself clearer to the both of us.
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