(So, I wasn't that happy with my last chapter. It could have been a lot better and I wish I would have waited to write it and developed it more. I hope you guys somewhat enjoyed it though. Here is the next one.)
That night neither of them said a word about him leaving, or anything else for that matter. Instead, he kissed her softly before rolling off of her, then he had wrapped his arms around and it wasn't long before they were both asleep.
The morning following their night together Daryl was stirring in bed. He had slept good last night, damn good. He forced his eyes open and noticed that it was still somewhat dark outside. The sky wasn't pitch black anymore, instead a pale blue. The sun was trying to make its way through to start the day. He noticed that she was still wrapped up in his arms. He was holding her from behind and she had one of his arms wrapped up in hers. Both of them were still naked from last night's activities. Daryl looked at her and smiled for a moment, he couldn't believe what had happened last night. He never would have guessed in a million years anything would happen between them. But, it had and it had been amazing. One minute they were arguing and then she was just kissing him. The bliss of what happened and having her in his arms this morning was suddenly wearing off. He remembered they were arguing because he told her he was leaving. He remembered he was supposed to leave with Merle today. Fuck. He hadn't gone home last night. Merle was probably having a shit fit. As if the those thoughts weren't enough, he suddenly found himself freaking out about what had happened. What did it mean? Did she like him? Was she just trying to get him to stay? Was she just horny? Was it a goodbye thing? His head was spinning and he needed to get up and fast. He gingerly went to remove his arms from her when he felt her grip tighten around him.
"Don't." She said, as she turned to face him. She looked up at him and locked her eyes on his.
"How long you been awake?" He asked
"A little while. I've been expecting you to get up and freak out."
"Pfft. You don't know me." He said.
"Keep telling yourself that." She said. "Were you really going to just walk out and leave without saying goodbye?" She asked in a hurt tone.
"I wouldn't ever do that." He said looked her dead in the eye and speaking in a serious tone. "I just really want a fucking cigarette."
She let out a sigh of relief, although she wasn't convinced he hadn't been planning on leaving. Although, the way he was looking at her made her want to believe him.
"If you need to go get one you can, but can we talk when you get back?"
He gulped a bit. He had no idea what this conversation was going to bring. Last night had been amazing and something he had wanted for so long, but he knew it had changed everything between them. Plus he was supposed to leave in a few hours. Why couldn't something of happened between them before and in a much less complicated way?
"We can talk now if ya want. I can wait on the cigarette."
"Okay, she said reluctantly. Can I get dressed first?"
He nodded. She moved out of the bed to grab some clothes and he wasn't sure if it was okay to look at her or not, so he averted his eyes, looking away awkwardly.
"You do realize we just woke up cuddled up together naked? She said as she slipped a large t-shirt on over herself.
"I just didn't know if you wanted me…. I just…" He couldn't find the words. Everything was so simple and right last night in the heat of the moment. No awkwardness, no questions.
She crawled back into bed with him. "Do you wanna get dressed?"
He reached down to the end of the bed and grabbed his boxers and slid them on while he was still under the covers. Then he was about to grab his shirt and pull it over his head when he felt her tenderly running her hand over his the scars on his back. Dammnit, why was she feeling all over him right now?
"Don't go..." She said without even thinking.
He dropped the shirt and turned to look at her. She looked like she was about to cry again and he didn't wanna see that. He cupped her face and did something that surprised even himself. He pressed his lips against hers for a quick kiss.
"Is that why this happened he?" He said as they pulled apart. "Because you don't want me to leave."
She looked down. She didn't know what to say. She didn't know what he was feeling. He just kissed her. Was that a good sign?
He noticed she wasn't answering, she looked like if she spoke she was going to end up in tears. So he decided maybe he should do some talking.
"Merle, he's my brother. He's all I had for most of my life, but then I met Rick and Rick introduced me to you…" He paused not sure of what to say. He wasn't good at this. He wasn't good with his words. He still didn't know how she felt and he didn't wanna look like an idiot if he told her he loved her and she didn't feel the same way.
"Daryl, what happened last night, if I hadn't of kissed you would it of happened? She asked curious.
"Honestly," He said, "probably not." He saw her face fall when he said it. "Not because I didn't want it to." He added quickly. "I just, I didn't think I was good enough for ya." He said lowly.
"What?" She asked confused. "You're the sweetest, kindest, sexiest man I know. Why wouldn't you be good enough for me?"
"I ain't never had a girlfriend before and I told you, I've done stuff…"
"I don't care what you did." She said as she cupped his face and looked him in his beautiful blue eyes. "I care about who you are, and you're a damn good man. You've done more for me and my daughter than Ed ever did. You protect me, you protect my child, you're a good friend and you don't give yourself half the credit you deserve. Don't even think you're not good enough, not ever. I couldn't ask for anyone better and if I had ever thought I had a chance with you before I would have gone for it a long time ago."
His face crinkled up when she said this. Why wouldn't she think she had a chance with him?
"Why would you even think that you didn't?" He asked surprised.
"I'm older than you, my hairs turning gray, I was in an abusive marriage. I just thought you.."
"Stop." He said cutting her off. "You're beautiful." He said as he kissed her again.
When they broke apart she was smiling at him. God, she loved kissing him.
"Please don't go, I can't lose you…" She said in a desperate tone.
"Ain't going nowhere." He said as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close.
"Really?" She asked beaming
"Really." He said. "When have I ever been able to tell you no?" He joked.
She laughed a little, because thinking back it was true. He had never once told her no to anything she asked him to do.
"I'm sorry." He said, as he kissed her forehead
"For what?" She asked confused.
"For even thinking about leaving. Leaving Sophia and you was going to be the hardest thing I ever had to do."
"Then why were you going?"
"Because, Merle's the only family I got…." He paused before adding "and because I realized one day you were gonna meet someone and I was gonna get kicked to curb.."
"Daryl Dixon" no one could ever have made me kick you to the side, besides there wouldn't have been anyone else. It's you I want."
That was all he needed to hear. He was hers and she was his and he couldn't of been happier. He smiled at her and then before he knew it he was kissing her again, and instead of the soft sweet kisses they had shared this morning these were passionate and intense. Suddenly for the second time in less than twenty-four hours he found himself on top of her. This time when they broke apart instead of seeking permission he did something else.
He was looking in her eyes, just as he had been last night. "I love you." He said barely above a whisper.
"I love you too, pookie." She said before meeting his lips and running her hands through his hair.
