Conversation With Carlos

The next two days were hell for Logan. Every time Kendall and James saw him, they made their stupid comments. He had thought that he would just forget that dream, but he was wrong …

A few hours later, he had been with Camille. After a while, they started kissing. And then it turned out that Logan had forgotten the dream neither mentally nor physically. He quickly broke away from her and tried to cover up his 'problem'. "Can I use the bathroom?"

"Um, sure."

Logan got up quickly and went to the bathroom …


Logan rolled back and forth in bed and couldn't sleep. He decided to get up and get something to drink. When he entered the living room, he saw that he wasn't the only one, who wasn't asleep. Carlos stood by the fridge and made a sandwich.

"Hey, Carlos. What are you doing?"

"My midnight snack."

Logan frowned. "But it's two o'clock in the morning."

"So what?"

Shaking his head, Logan passed him and got the orange juice out of the fridge. After getting a glass, he sat down on the couch next to Carlos.

"And why aren't you sleeping?" Carlos asked, his mouth full. Logan shrugged. "I'm worried."

"Camille?"

Logan tiredly buried his head in his hands and nodded. "I don't know what to do. I wanted the last few days to be nice, but instead it was just weird. Every time we got closer, I had to think about that dream and then … well, you know. I can't tell her. It's too embarrassing."

Carlos looked at him thoughtfully. "Can I ask you a question?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Do you love her?"

"Of course."

"How much?"

"So much that it hurts."

Carlos nodded. "So, if you love Camille so much, why are you afraid to talk to her about it?"

"Because … well …"

"Logan, with whom do you want to have your first time?"

"Carlos!" Logan cried in horror.

"Answer the question."

"I … okay. Only with her."

"I repeat, what are you afraid of?"

"Well, first of all, it's a big step in a relationship. And secondly … I'm afraid to hurt her ... again."

Carlos nodded. "Yes, but I'm sure you should talk to her about it. I mean, you've been together for almost two years. You would have done it sooner or later, right?"

"Yeah, I think so." Logan was confused. Since when was Carlos so reasonable? Then he remembered that Carlos hadn't made fun of him, unlike Kendall and James. But why? "Carlos, why didn't you laugh at me?"

Carlos looked at him in surprise. "Do you want me to make fun of you?"

"No, of course not. But why didn't you do it?"

Carlos hesitated. "Well … Kendall and James are idiots. But that's just because they have no experience and of course they don't want to admit that. Especially James."

"And you?" Logan asked quietly. Carlos shrugged. "Well, I had a similar experience, so I know how uncomfortable that is."

Logan stared at him in surprise. He hadn't expected that. "Alexa?"

Carlos shook his head. "No, that was before Lex. So, what do you want to do?"

"You mean Camille and I should …?"

"You shouldn't do anything. Only if you want it. But you have to talk to her."

"But if she can handle it, then … Although, we could just talk about it and wait until she's back." He looked at Carlos hopefully, who shook his head. "Logan, don't you want your last night to be special?"

"Yes … of course … But if we liked it, then we have to wait at least six months before we can repeat it."

"But you'll have much more fun when you're finally reunited," Carlos said, and Logan blushed as he imagined it.

"But it will hurt her …"

"Yeah, but if you talk about it and she agrees, it'll be alright. She knows you love her." Carlos got up and stretched. "I'll go to bed. You should do that too. You have a lot to do tomorrow." He smiled and patted Logan on the shoulder.

"Carlos?"

"Yes?"

"You will not tell the others, will you?"

"Of course not," Carlos said, playing offended. Logan laughed and waved to him before Carlos disappeared into his room.