The wait…
Edward:
How much I hated this day! Isn´t it stupid to hate a special date? I hated the 8th May, that´s a fact, stupid or not.
I missed Jacob; I wanted to kiss him like we did seven years ago.
Alice went on a shopping tour with Seth two days ago and they were still not back at home, so I haven´t even him to distract me. Well I guess that´s why Alice wanted him to accompany her, she knew it wouldn´t be good if he stayed with me. Maybe because I didn´t need distraction I needed Jake back!
In wise foresight she left Jasper with me to calm me down before I would break down our furnishings – again. He was sending calming waves of emotion all the time but I was still suffering.
The day turned into night and I sat on the floor of my bedroom and patted my snuggle wolf. I have to be stronger I told myself What would Jake say if he would see me like that?
"I would say: You should rather cuddle with a real wolf!" a familiar voice behind me said.
I was on my feet and in his arms in an instant. I breathed "Jake, you´re home!" and we kissed each other like I had wished earlier that day.
Many things have changed through the years but whatever has happened in that time meant nothing now. Our love was as strong as ever plus we have to make up what we have missed during the long time we were separated.
We´ve spent the next days in bed – of course we had sex but for the mean part we talked a lot.
I felt the need to admit what I have done with Seth, even at the risk of losing him, I simply couldn´t lie to him. He didn´t react like I have supposed he will, he didn´t even stop to stroke over my back. I wanted him to get angry, to grumble with me or to give me a slap – just something that would show me that he cared.
Suddenly he raised his head and looked at me, "You had any right to do that. I wanted you to be happy and if Seth helped you to keep on going I have to thank him for loving you. Also I hope you still love me more!" he said with a tiny sad smile on his face. "Besides if you would like to hear my confession you´ll see what you have done mean nothing, I´ve done much worst."
He told me everything about Alec and about the people he had killed while feeding on them. I got furious, I didn´t care that he had drunken human blood – I´ve also done it when I was younger – but no one should touch my wolf! No one! Never! He is mine! Only I should hold him, kiss him and make love with him!
"How could you do that to me Jake?" I asked still fuming.
I know it wasn´t fair to react like that because we both did the same but I just felt so heartbroken when I imagined him with another man.
Jacob answered apologetic "I felt so alone and he was there for me when I couldn´t stay the loneliness. When he touched me it felt like ice on my skin and when I closed my eyes I could imagine it would be you. I´m sorry Ed, terrible sorry!"
I felt bad now; he had forgiven me the moment I´ve told him that I´ve cheated on him. Now that he has confesses his sins I should also forgive him. We were even.
I know my heart belonged to him and that I will ever love him. Regardless ofwhathas happenedin Italy, nowhewasbackwith me andhewouldremain with me as long I wanted him – and that´s forever.
After a few days Jake wanted to visit his dad in LaPush and naturaly I accompanied him, I wanted to see Billy's face when his son finally came home to him. When we arrived at Jacobs former home, Sam – now one of the tribe eldest – chatted with Billy and both of them looked at us perplexed when we entered the house. So Seth hadn´t told them – good boy. After all I hope we´ll manage to stay friends
Billy found his voice again at first but it broke when he started to speak "My son" Jake flight in his father's arms and almost skipped Billy's wheelchair. A single rolled over the old man's cheek when he held his son in a tight embrace. Sam only clapped on Jakes shoulders ones and left with the words "I´ll be right back!"
Even if Billy liked me, since we had spent so much time together in Jakes absence I considered they will need some private time so I stepped out and sat down in the garden.
When Sam came back a short time later he wasn´t alone any longer, he grinned "I thought we should welcome the lost son in the right way!" Now I recognized that the visitors brought meat, drinks, other food and all what is needed for a nice BBQ with them.
"Jake, move your ass and say hello to your old friends" Sam shouted. Jacob wheeled his father on the veranda and his pack brothers argued who should get the first hug.
It was a great day. Sam proudly introduced his daughters Leah – after her godmother which left the pack a time ago to join the girls-pack in Oregon – and Emily – after her mother, what else.
Paul also a proud father had named his son Jacob-Joshua, my Jake raised an eyebrow when he heard the name and Bella explained "Without you, he wouldn´t exist, so it´s only fair to give him your name."
Jacob smiled the whole time but as he watched all the happy couples with their kids for a while, he lost the sparkle in his eyes. He was still able to lock me out of his mind so I winced and was irritated when he jumped up out of the blue and raced into his former room.
He came back only five minutes later, his expression serious. He took my hand and asked "May I talk to you for a moment?" Has he realized that he missed his other live in Italy? Would he leave me again? Was it because of my affair with Seth? What the hell was wrong? I racked my brain while I followed him to the garage where he had spent so much time when he was younger.
He opened the door; everything looked exactly like he never has left this place. I stared at him questioning "What is it Jake?" I prepared myself for the worst I could imagine but I calmed a bit down when he began to speak.
"I know it has been a long time we were separated but my love for you is now even stronger than ever. I also know this isn´t the perfect place for what I want to do but I hope you don´t care about that."
He kneeled down and took my hands in his before he continued "Edward Cullen, I love you now and forever, I never want to be without you again so I´ll ask you: Will you take me to your husband?"
I was speechless, I was more than happy, I pulled him up from the ground kissed him and finally answered "Yes, I will!" I kissed him again.
The smile he gave me was gorgeous "Well, then I have something you´ll need" he took a little red box out off his pocket, opened it and showed me what was in it. He took one of the silver rings and put it on my left ring finger.
I wondered where he got them, he blushed and explained "I bought them after I dreamed about marrying you for the first time, I hope you like it!"
"It´s perfect, just like you!" I replied and kissed him once more
