I was lying on the floor and I was underneath a strigoi. The same situation I found myself in a few days ago. I couldn't help but completely forget it was a dream. Dimitri launched himself toward the strigoi but the strigoi grabbed him and I watched it bite down on his neck. Dimitri stopped struggling and then stilled all movements. I couldn't breath. He dropped to the floor and I seen the strigoi leave and come toward me. Dimitri's soul floated upward and then vanished. The strigoi was on me and once again he bit down into my neck. I didn't feel the high I did before. I squeezed my eyes closed and screamed.
When I opened them again I wasn't in my room. I was in bed and Dimitri was standing over me, grabbing me. I screamed louder. "Your dead! Your dead!" I hurt all over I was thrashing around even though it hurt so much. "Don't touch me! Your dead!" A bunch of people came behind Dimitri and pulled him away. I was still screaming, but then I wasn't. I was falling asleep again and then it was black.
When I woke up I felt drowsy even though I felt very well rested. I felt pain worse than before all over. I remembered my nightmare. Dimitri and Lissa were both sitting on the little couch in my room. Dimitri got up first and walked over to me. He wiped the hair off of my forehead. He didn't say anything but he didn't have to. Lissa came over too and looked like she had been crying. So did Dimitri when I looked at him again
"Rose I'm so sorry." I shooshed her but she kept going. "I had to heal you. The doctors where worried you have PTSD, and you undid your stitches and your torn more and you almost started to miscarry. Adrian and I came as soon as we could and we both healed you. But we both, well I haven't gotten them yet, but we both started taking meds again. I looked at her with total disbelief. I couldn't think of words. I was mad that she had to use spirit but also really grateful. I was mad I did this to myself.
I just started to cry but it wasn't violent sobs it was quiet streaks of tears running down my face. Dimitri kissed my forehead and then said. "You can leave now, if you want to go home you can. They gave you the last of the pain killer they were aloud to so you can be discharged. I nodded and I slowly tried to stand up. I was sore and stiff but eventually I was standing.
Dimitri offered to get my mother so she could sign the release forms while Lissa helped me get dressed. She closed the curtain and helped me get into the sweats she had brought earlier. After about ten minutes of walking around I felt a lot better. Dimitri came into my room with my mother. The four of us left together. They made me ride a wheelchair out to the van. When I got into the back seat with Lissa I noticed the ring on her finger and nearly screamed. Remembering how easily my freak outs scared people I just grabbed her hand and said a word my mother wasn't to happy with. Lissa laughed.
"I forgot, I was going to surprise you when I visited this morning but well other things took priority." She didn't need to elaborate. "Christian hid it in my dessert." She looked so excited I couldn't help but be happy for her. "Of course we are going to wait a few years, I told him when we're both 21. So we can both enjoy a proper reception." She winked but I pushed the idea of her being drunk to the back of my mind. We never really resolved that. I gave her a huge hug regardless of how much it hurt.
Our ride home was pretty short, and seen the sun peeking over the horizon I had maybe a few hours before everyone was asleep. I knew this was going to be a late night for me but I had so much I wanted to do. Lissa helped me out of the back seat. I was a little slow, can't wait to be a grandma because this is no fun at all.
When I got inside Christian, my father, Adrian, and the alchemist were waiting in the dinning room with a little cake. Adrian came up to me first, he gave me a hug clearly no regard for my pain. "Sorry I couldn't make that dream a little longer, probably could've kept you out of trouble." I rolled my eyes. He went back to his seat, but Christian was already waiting behind him to give me a hug. It was a little awkward but I didn't mind.
"Congrats Pyro, maybe now you two can have little ones too." I laughed at myself and it felt good. Don't remember the last time I laughed. "You can name him Dante, and I can call him inferno." I think that reference went over Lissa's head but clearly Christian appreciated it.
"To bad your sass box wasn't broken." I punched him in the arm and then gave him another hug. We where interrupted by my father.
"Yes, I'm so excited my daughter didn't kill herself, but right now I'm more excited about this cake so sit down." I sat but I didn't like how I can't completely tuck in my chair. I ate quietly and excused myself. I grabbed a sweater and slid on some shoes.
I knew there was no point in me going to the gym any more. I could still move fairly well but most of my closet was tight squeeze. Guardians would all give me weird looks when I tried to do my usual workout and Dimitri's friends would come up and kindly suggest I stop. I made it 20 feet out the door before I heard someone following me. I stopped and sighed . "Alright comrade, you can come." A moment later Dimitri came from behind and stood in front of me. I took a step to the right to pass him but he stepped in front of me again. "Seriously, I just want to go to the gym." He didn't move."I won't do that much, I promise." Dimitri didn't budge.
"I'll help you in the gym after you take a walk with me?" By the way he asked I knew that wasn't up for debate. We started to walk and we didn't talk for a while. We approached a little garden and Dimitri led me inside. "What's wrong?" That question was so vague and my
Life was a complete mess, did he really think I had an answer for him. He sat down on the bench and gestured for me to join him. I sat down and thought for a while. Dimitri repeated his question. "What's wrong Rose? Why were you crying when we were on the phone?" I thought he didn't notice that.
I yawned, how was I still tired. I seen the sun barely peeking over the horizon but I slept for nearly three days straight. I curled up on the bench but found that very uncomfortable and went back to sitting. This time Dimitri didn't even ask. "Rose." I looked at him but I had to turn away quickly when I felt tears in my eyes.
"Nothing." I cleared my throat and with a little more confidence "nothing is wrong." I could tell he didn't believe me at all. He put an arm around means pulled me toward him. He leaned in and whispered in my ear.
"Please" I didn't know what to do, I felt so uncomfortable. I felt darkness well up inside me, and not from Lissa's spirt. It was my own inner demons coming out to haunt me. I jerked back.
"No, No, I, no, I don't forgive you." I quickly stood up and my knees nearly buckled. I wobbled but quickly went away. To my surprise he didn't come after me. When I turned around he was sitting with a confused pained expression. I contemplated where I should go. I decided against the townhouse because I would just be questioned there. I ruled out the gym because that was exactly where they would go look for me. I found my self at a familiar spot and I knocked on the door, a little to aggressively.
The door opened and I lunged onto Adrian. He was very started and clearly was ready for bed but he hugged me and pulled me inside. He sat me on the couch and wiped my eyes. Was I seriously crying right now? "Now who could have gotten my little Dhampir so upset?" I couldn't tell if he knew what was wrong with me or was genuinely confused. I blurted out the first words that popped into my head.
"I don't forgive him. I can't." If Adrain didn't know what this was about before he definitely knew now. He pulled me into a hug and I just cried. I don't know how long I did but I just cried. Adrain's phone buzzed and he looked at it. He typed something quickly and then put it back down. He looked at me for a while and then wiped away my tears again.
"Rose I'm not saying you have to forgive him but you should." Not what expected form him at all but I let him continue. "I know what he did, and I was one of the worst things someone could have done to you. Dimitri of all people should know that because of what his father did. If he knew you were pregnant before he left I promise the outcome here would have been a lot different." That didn't make me feel better, his baby shouldn't make what he did to me any different. I was the one who almost killed myself not the baby. I was the one he almost didn't graduate and left Lissa to be with God know who, not his baby. I was the one who didn't want him to leave, not his baby. "But I'm glad he left."
Now Adrain wasn't making any sense at all. I tried to interject but he shushed me. "It made you realize you don't have to rely on him. You have me, and Lissa and even pyro and you parents and more that I can't think of. You know whose really there for you." I sat there silent for a while. Adrain continued. "I think you should forgive him, I hate admitting this but he probably wishes every day he could go back and change his decision to leave. If you don't want his help or don't want him to be your friend don't let him but forgive him, so you can move on."
"Something, I don't know what, something was off about him tonight." Adrian looked at me puzzled. "I don't know he was very forward with me, like I was the one in the wrong for not wanting to talk to him." Adrian looked at his hands for a while.
"Oh Rose, you should have seen him last night, I've never seen him like that. Watching you helplessly, while you nearly killed yourself in your own sleep. He has been acting strange ever since. Dimitri loves you, I don't know what he would do if he ever lost you again." I sat stunned, the was no way that was true. If he loved me he wouldn't have left in the first place. I sat from a while half thinking about half avoiding my problems.
Adrian looked at his phone again and then got up and opened a cabinet and took out some blankets and pillows. He moved the coffee table and pulled out the couch. I sat on the mattress but he shook his head and took my hand. He walked me to his room and told me to sleep in he would walk me home in the morning. I was surprisingly tired so I didn't argue. He turned off the lights and I quickly dozed off.
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