"We are going to figure this out, Katie. He's not going to hurt you again."
"You don't know that," I spat out, standing up. "None of you know anything! Tightening security isn't going to do anything. If he wants me, he'll find a way." I turned from them, heading for the door when I felt a hand on my wrist. I pulled back.
"Katie," Jensen started.
"No, Jensen! No."
"Kate, calm down." My brother attempted.
"Don't tell me to calm down, Jared!" The boys fell silent. It wasn't like me to yell. Jensen's hand was still at my wrist and I tried to pull away again. "Just stop! Stop acting like everything is going to be okay because it's not! Josh is going to find me." By now, I was at full volume, screaming at them, struggling against Jensen's grip. Jensen, eyes wide, reached for me with his other hand, attempting to calm me down but I fought against him. "No! He's going to find me, Jensen! He's going to kill me!" With that, Jensen pulled me against his chest and I stopped fighting, breaking down into sobs. Jensen gently lowered me to the ground while Jared and Clif watched, still in shock of my outburst. "He's going to kill me," I sobbed into Jensen's chest.
"Shh. It's okay. I've got you. I've got you, baby." Jensen held me firmly against him as he ran a hand through my hair to calm me. Pressing his lips to the top of my head, he held me tight. He was doing everything he could to hold me together as I fell apart in front of him.
"Don't let him hurt me, J. Please don't let him hurt me." Jared's heart broke, watching his sister fall to pieces in front of him while he stood there doing nothing. But as he watched his sister clinging to his best friend, he knew Jensen was the one she needed right now. "I've got you, baby. I'm not gonna let anything happen to you."
I woke with my head pounding. I had fallen asleep crying into Jensen's chest and he had carried me back to his trailer. I opened my eyes and looked around for Jensen, still needing his presence. I heard him before I saw him.
"No. Cancel the interview. We're not doing it." I heard him whisper. "No, she's not in any state to –. I don't think the convention is a good idea either." I turned as Jensen came walking into view. He stopped when he saw me. "Katie, you're awake. Hey, how are you feeling." I felt horrible but ignored his question.
"Who are you talking to?" He sighed.
"Elizabeth."
"You're not canceling our appearance at the convention, are you?"
"Liz, I'm gonna have to call you back." He ended the call and set his phone down before turning back to me. "Kate, I don't think it's a good idea—"
"Jensen, fans are expecting us. It's two days away. We can't just not show up."
"Katie—"
"We're going."
"Are you sure you wanna do this?"
"Yes, Jensen. I'm sure." I slid into the car, Jensen following me soon after, only hesitating for a moment.
When we arrived at the hotel, we followed Clif into the green room several bodyguards flanking us. We were each required to have two bodyguards at all times. The boys and I sat down on one of the couches and our bodyguards dispersed throughout the room. It was odd having so many bodyguards but I had to admit, they did make me feel safer. We sat there in silence for a while, waiting for our panel to begin. Typically, there was a lot of laughter going on backstage but we were all exhausted so we sat in a comfortable silence before our handler came to escort us, and our bodyguards, to the stage.
