Chapter 29-Wouldn't Want It Any Other Way

"Do you want us to wait a little longer?" Izzie asked as her and Addison set up for the ultrasound.

Meredith shook her head. "No, that's okay, something must have come up, lets just do this."

Addison turned and looked at a very scared and nervous Meredith. She silently cursed Derek. She had seriously hoped that Derek had changed, from when they were married, but it looked like he was still absently as he was back in New York.

"Lay back then," Izzie said to Meredith. Meredith laid back as Izzie arranged the sheet around her.

Meredith had to wonder if she had miss something. Derek had promised her he would stand by her and the baby but not even coming to see if the baby was alive that spoke volumes. He was very sweet the night before, bringing her the cheeseburger like she wanted and then staying with her until she fell asleep. Even that morning he had come into the room while Meredith was having morning sickness in the bathroom. He had knocked on the door, "Meredith are you okay?" he had asked through the door.

"Fine, I'm fine, I'll be out in a second." When she had emerged a worried faced Derek stood d up and came over to her side.

"Are you sure your okay."

"It's just morning sickness," she snapped, "Sorry but that cheeseburger wasn't so good coming back up."

He helped her onto the bed and tucked the covers around her. "I got surgery till 9:00, but do you need anything before I go?"

"Green tea and crackers?"

"Sure," he gave a small smile and left to get her request.

When he came back,she reminded him about the ultrasound. "Like I said I have surgery until 9, so I'll meet you up there at 10."

"Okay." She said.

He kissed her forehead and left.

Now it was quarter after ten and he was still not there. Addison was giving her an odd look and Izzie looked sad too, great pity, just what she needed. "This is going to be cold," Addison said as she walked over with the Ultrasound gel, but just then the exam room door opened, and an out of breath Derek slipped in.

"Sorry, my surgery went longer then anticipated, so where are we?"

"Just about to start," Izzie said with a small grin.

"You made it," Meredith said looking up at him.

He brushed some hair back from her face and smiled, "I made it."

Derek reached out for Meredith's hand as Addison applied the gel. "Oh god, that stuff is cold, now I feel bad for patients."

The monitor was pointed towards Addison and Izzie, Izzie pulled out the paddles and gently placed them on Meredith's flat belly. After a moment Addison turned the screen towards Derek and Meredith. "There's the baby," she said pointing towards a peanut shape. "Now lets find the heartbeat."

Time stood still as Izzie went looking for the heartbeat. Addison looked over to Meredith and Derek. There were tears in both there eyes. Addison's heart started to break, she had done hundreds of these, but she had never been so close emotionally to it. When she was about to give her condolences the room filled with the sound of the heartbeat. "There it is," Izzie yelled out in glee. Addison looked back to Meredith and Derek. This time Derek was crying, he looked up and the eyes met, and for the first time since she came to Seattle she saw true happiness in his eyes.

"It's not much but do you want a picture of the ultrasound?"

"Yes," Meredith said immediately.

Derek nodded, he brushed the tears that were still on his face away and kissed Meredith's head, "I love you," he whispered into her ear. He looked up to see if Addison had heard him, he had never said that to Meredith in front of her before. For the second time their eyes met, and he really wasn't sure what he saw in their green depths.

Izzie came over with a couple copies of the ultrasound, and handed them to Meredith and Derek.

"There you go," she said with a large grin.

On top instead of Grey/Shepherd or Shepherd/Grey, it read Baby McDreamy. They both laughed,

"I couldn't help myself," she said.

"Dr. Stephens?" Addison said with a lift of her perfect eyebrow.

"The one for the file says Grey Shepherd, this is just for them."

"OK, I'll let this one pass."

"Thank you."

Derek took Meredith back down to her room. "You know I can walk." she said as he pushed her in the wheel chair.

"No, you can't."

"You're being stubborn," she sighed.

"So are you."

"When can I go home, or more specific when can I go home, and come back for work?" Meredith asked Derek as he wheeled her onto the elevator.

"I have to talk to the chief and Bailey first." Derek said, he pressed floor 3.

"No, I just want to get back to the way things were."

"That's not going to happen, your face stitches are coming out today and I'm hoping to take the staples out on Tuesday, and you should be able to go home then."

"What about coming back to work?"

"Well you not only need my clearance, you need Dr. Torres for your ribs and shoulder, and I also want an OBGYN to clear you." The elevator doors opened and he wheeled her out onto her floor.

"Seriously? So what another three weeks or more?"

"Yup, afraid so."

"You suck right now."

"Excuse me, I what?"

"You heard me." Derek wheeled her into the small room.

"Here I was going to take you for lunch downstairs, so you could get some air, and maybe see your friends," he knelt down in front of her chair, and swept some hair from her face.

"Seriously?"

"Seriously. I have some paper work to finish up from my surgery but I will be back for one."

He helped her up into the bed. "Can you put my picture on the night stand."

He smiled, "Yes I'll put baby McDreamy right where you can see him."

"Him?"

"McDreamy equals boy," Derek sat down on the edge of the bed.

"It could be a girl?"

"I know, for now, I'm calling the baby him, okay?"

"Do you want to know?" Meredith asked.

"Know what?"

"The sex, like do you want to find out before the it's born."

"Do you?"

"Sure, then I know how to decorate and stuff. pick out names."

"Then well find out when we can," he said with a big smile.

"I'm sorry Derek, It's all sinking in, I'm havin' a baby."

"Not just any baby, my baby," he leaned over and kissed her on the lips. "I'll see you at one."

"Bye," she said with a happy smile.

Derek was still smiling when he pressed the elevator button. He didn't know how exactly he had changed his mind about the baby, but when they couldn't find the heartbeat, his heart felt like it was breaking. When he heard the heartbeat he could honestly say it was the happiest moment in his life. He was finally going to be a father. It didn't even phase him that Addison was the sole occupant of the elevator when he stepped on.

"You're happy?" was all she said.

"I am, I really am, and nothing you could say at this point could upset me."

"You really love her?"

"Yes, yes I do, and to let you know, if it wasn't for her, I would have fought you more, during the divorce."

"I know."

Derek pressed the stop button, "Thank you for everything you've done for Meredith, but beyond that there are things I will never forgive you for."

"What?"

"I know you and Mark lived together after I moved out here."

"How, you never said anything?"

"It didn't really matter, I told Frank, but he said because it never came from you and the fact that I took you back was shown as an act of forgiveness, so if we went to court it would be useless."

"Oh, OK. While we're here, I need to ask you what you want to do with the stuff at the Brownstone and the Hampton's?"

"There's nothing personal at the Hampton's, we closed the house down before it happen."

"Right, what about the brownstone, I was thinking about going next weekend to get my stuff, and my half of the furniture, I got a condo."

"Oh you and Mark bought a condo?"

"No, I am sub letting a condo from Dr. Stephens, it was Denny Duquette's he left it to her."

"You can have it all, I just want the entire contents of my office, couch, chair, desk, books, cds, everything. I'll call Janice and see if I can store it in the barn, just let me know when, and maybe Laurie can do the shipping for me."

"Actually I was thinking Laurie could do both sales, she did Mark's pretty fast."

"Laurie was Mark's realtor?"

"Have you even talked to your family?"

"I called mom a few weeks ago and told her, and you know this really is none of your business anymore." Derek pulled the stop button out and the elevator jerked to life.

"Fine, whatever, just get Laurie to call me, and I'll take care of the rest." The elevator doors opened and Addison stormed out.


"You look so bored." Mark exclaimed as he walked into Meredith's room.

"You have no clue, I haven't seen you too much lately?"

"Work, keeps me busy, so you ready to get those stitches out?"

"Oh my god, you have no clue how much, they itch."

"They're healing."

"So, I'm just saying."

Mark grabbed a wheelchair, "Your chariot awaits."

"Do I really have to be wheeled around in that."

"Yes you do. So get your skinny ass over here."

"I take offense to that," Meredith said as she sat in the chair. "Oh wait," she got up and grabbed the ultra sound picture. "Look."

"I heard, congrats, you still going to have a baby."

She smiled and placed the picture back. "I'm going to be a mother."

"You sound happier then when you first found out, I guess that means Derek's happy."

"He is."

"Good."


When Derek came to collect Meredith for lunch, she was sitting in the wheelchair. She had pulled her hair into a clip so that it covered the shaved patch on the side. She had changed into a clean shirt and a pair of tight jogging pants. "You look good," he knelt down and held her head up, "Scars aren't to bad, I have to say the asshole did a good job."

"It's what he does for a living."

"I really don't want to talk about Mark, I want to take my girl for lunch."

He wheeled Meredith up to an empty table. "So do you know what you want for lunch yet?"

"Soup is fine, but crackers, lots of them."

"OK, I'll be back with your soup."

George was the first one to sit down with her, "Hey Dr. Shepherd said he was letting you out on parole."

"I think he realized how much I hate being stuck in that room, epically seeing how he's keeping me in here until Tuesday."

"Seriously, Tuesday."

"What's Tuesday Bambi?" Christina said as she sat down next to Meredith.

"Shepherds keeping her in until then."

"Oh my god, they removed one of my ovaries and flopian tube and I only had to stay a few days, that sucks."

"That's what I said, I told him he sucked," Meredith said with a slight shrug.

"McDreamy must have loved that," Christina said with a chuckle.

"What did I love," Derek said placing a tray with soup and 5 packages of crackers in front of Meredith.

"That I told you that you suck."

"Didn't love it," he said sitting on the other side of Meredith. He grabbed his salad off the tray.

"Hey you," Alex greeted as he sat down. "Where's Iz?"

"She's coming, why you actually going to stay this time?" Christina asked.

"Sure, of course," Alex furrowed his eyebrows at her.

"Meredith, that's not soup anymore, thats soggy crackers," Derek said looking away from the interns and back to Meredith and her lunch.

"What, even when I'm not pregnant I like it like this."

"Oh ya, I heard, everything is good," George said looking at Derek and Meredith.

"I forgot my ultrasound, do you have yours?" she asked Derek.

He pulled it out of his lab coat pocket and passed it to George. "Wow, look at that. Did Izzie do that, Baby McDreamy?"

Christina snatched it out of George's hand, "Now that's funny. Wow Mer you have little Alien in you."

"No I don't, don't call my baby an Alien."

Christina shrugged and passed the picture over to Alex. "Cool, so is Izzie going to deliver or is the she-shepherd," he looked over at Derek, "Sorry Dr. Montgomery."

"I'm hoping for Izzie," she said with a smile.

Alex passed the ultrasound back to Derek. "I see you guys have seen the baby," Izzie gushed as she sat down. "This is so cool, a baby in the house, I love babies."

"Oh ya, three first year residents that work 100 hour weeks and a baby, thats going to be fun," Christina said.

"Have you two decided about living arrangements yet?" Alex asked.

Meredith looked blankly at Derek, "We haven't talked about it."

Derek reached out and grabbed Meredith's hand. "Is it OK with you two, if we wait till Mer gets home to discuss that. Me and her should really talk about it alone."

"OK," Izzie said opening her lunch. She opened one plastic container and passed Meredith a Chocolate cupcake.

"Oh my god, you were baking again?" Meredith asked.

"Just a little, and I thought you or the baby might like it."

"Thank you," Meredith reached out for the cupcake with her good arm, loosing all interest in the remainder of her soup.

"Your eating that?" Derek asked.

"I have been eating hospital food for days, I deserve chocolate," she took a big bite.

"Fine, but when it makes a repeat performance don't blame me," he went back to his salad.

"I won't," she said wiping the chocolate from around her mouth, and then drinking some of her water.

"Yes you will, it's what pregnant women do, I've seen all my sisters go through it."

"You only brought one for Meredith?" Alex asked.

"No, but I ate mine already," she said with a smile.

"I'm not leaving," he said.

"I didn't ask you too."

"Good," Alex said.

"Good," Izzie repeated.