"That was..." Seth began to say before Willow cut him off "the last time its ever going to happen. Even though it was amazing, its never happening again. I love Matt and i want to make it work with him. I need to, for the girls" she said as she moved away from him slightly. "Wills, are you happy with Matt? Like really truely happy?" Seth asked as Willow turned to face him before replying "Honestly Seth, i dont know what im feeling anymore. Ive got good days where im so happy with him and life, then others where i remember all the shit we've been through. The broken trust, the unkept promises, the lies. Then i think about Jas and Rubes, and how they've changed me and Matt for the better. My girls make me happy" "Im glad youre happy Willow. I know you invited me to come to the show at the weekend, but i think you need to focus on making things work with Matt" Seth said as Willow began edging closer to him. "He doesnt know about us, you know. We could you know, do it one final, final time" Willow said, practically whispering as they ended up sleeping together for one final time.

"Seth? Seth you in there?" they heard an Irish voice ask from outside the door. "Are you expecting anyone?" Willow whispered as Seth shook his head. "I have no idea what Becky is doing here" He replied as he checked the time on his cell. "Oh shit, i was meant to go work out with her 30 minutes ago" "Seth? Im pretty sure i can hear you" Becky said as Willow quietly gathered up her things and hid in the bathroom as Seth covered up and opened the door, keeping the chain on. ""Hey Becky, sorry totally forgot that i was supposed to work out with you. Give me 5 minutes to get ready and we'll go. I'll explain everything later" Seth said as Becky questioned "Do you have someone in there with you? I swore i heard two voices" "Must have been the TV Becks. Five minutes Becky, i'll meet you in the lobby and we'll head to this amazing gym that Willow showed me the last time i was here" Seth replied as Becky nodded. As Seth closed the door, Willow quietly emerged from the bathroom. "Do you think she heard me? she asked "do you think she heard us?" "I dont think so Wills. Why dont you wait until after ive gone for a few minutes before leaving? Make sure we arent seen together" He said as he dressed quickly. "Will you let me know when you get your results Wills? You know no matter what, im always here for you." Seth said as he made his way towards the door as Willow nodded, watching him leave the room. She sighed as she was left on her own, gathering her thought as she felt tears building up. What am i even doing anymore? This isnt me, sneaking off for sex behind Matts back. Im such a mess. My heads all over the place. Im a slut. Im everything everyone ever said about me in school, all through my career. She thought as she looked at her cell at the time. She'd been sitting for almost 45 minutes, she took a deep breath as as decided time to go home.

"Anyone home?" Willow called out as she entered the house she was sharing with her bestie Brooke. She was met with silence as she entered the living area. She saw a note on the table from Matt, she knew it was his just by the scrawled handwriting. She smiled as she read the brief message:

Wills,

Taken Jas to the movies as she was being restless. Hope you had a great time catching up with your friend. Dont worry about dinner, i'll pick something up on the way back.

Love you always my Queen
Matt x

"Love you too Matt" she whispered as guilt flooded over her. Hes trying so hard to make things right and im off screwing around with the first person who showed me any sort affection after we breifly broke up. Yes Matt and i have been through hell together, but Seth was there when i needed him the most. Willow thought as she headed upstairs to the bathroom and began to run a hot bath to try and relax. As she turned the faucet, her cell began to ring. She took one look at caller ID and answered "Hey Polly, whats going on?" "Hey Willow we've had to change one of your songs for Saturday. I know its short notice but i believe you can pull it off" Polly told her as she felt her heart drop. "Which song has changed Polly?" she asked not wanting to really know anymore. She'd had enough of New York and was desperate to get back to Cameron. "The Whitney song. We've now got you doing Its All Coming Back by Celine Dion instead. Willow? Are you ok? Youre quiet" Polly said, as Willow replied "Im ok Polly. Its been a long week. Its been a long ten weeks actually. Im ready for home and for a vacation, which isnt likely for a while yet" "Want to have a proper chat on Saturday Wills? I feel like somethings going on with you that youre not saying" Polly asked as Willow said "That would be great Polly. No need to worry about the song change, i know that song really well. Do you need me for rehearsals tomorrow?" "Maybe for a few hours, just to go over the new set up for your song change. Shall we say 1pm?" Polly suggested as Willow said "See you at 1" before hanging up. She sighed as she disrobed and stepped into the hot water, which numbed her skin with the heat, burning away her guilt. As she inhaled the steam from the bath she found herself at peace with herself. This morning was a mistake. A mistake thats never happening again and Matt will never know Willow thought as she submerged herself under the water. As she came up, her cell started ringing again.

"Hey Vince whats happening?" Willow said as she answered the call. "Im just calling to wish you luck for the next two weeks Willow. I still believe you are going to win the X Factor again, but ive been hearing that you havent been your usual self and have been in hospital a few times lately. Is everything ok with you?" Vince asked as Willow sighed. "Im Ok Vince. There was an issue a few weeks ago with me throwing up alot, sometimes with blood but im on the mend" she replied as Vince said, concerned for his former Womens champion "Willow, that sounds serious. Have you had many tests? Its also something i'd like to discuss in person. Along with another matter. Can you make it to Raw next Monday?" "Ive had test after test after test Vince. I had a biopsy done yesterday on the cysts in my ovaries, as more seem to have been growing" Willow said, the sound of fear in her voice. Vince must have picked up on it as he said "Youre scared arent you?" "Im terrified Vince. Im lucky ive had Brooke and Christian here to help me. Its not the same as having Matt here though" "Matt can stay with you for the next few weeks. We will need him on Monday for Raw as we need him to announce that ge wont be at the Rumble" Vince said as Willow breathed a sigh of relief. "I'll come to Raw, Vince. We can have the chat before the show. Can we not tell anyone im coming though? I'd like to surprise a few people" she said as Vince agreed before ending the call. Willow refilled the hot water in her bath as she attempted to relax once again. She didnt have long on her own, as she heard the front door opening less than one hour later.

"Wills? You here?" she heard Matt calling from downstairs. She unplugged the bath and let the water drain away before stepping out and wrapped a towel around her. "Wills?" she heard Matt calling again. "Im up here Matt. Ive been in the bath" Willow replied as Matt came running up the stairs. "Im ok Matt. No need to rush up to see me" She said as Matt picked her up and kissed her. "How was your friend? Did you have a good catch up?" he asked as Willow shook her head. "Not really. I'll tell you more later. Right now i need to get dressed, go see Jas and chill with my three favourite people" she replied as Matt put her down. "Chamomile tea Wills?" Matt asked before leaving the room, as Willow replied "Make it peppermint. Ive felt a bit nauseous this afternoon" "You feeling ok Wills?" Matt asked as Willow replied "Im fine Matt, go wait with Jas. I'll be down in five minutes"

"Wills? You ok? Youve been quiet all night" Matt asked as Willow looked at him, a tired sadness in her eyes. "Im ok Matt, honestly. Just tired, its been a long few days" She replied as he sat next to her. "Jas has been bathed and is now asleep. Want to talk about today?" He asked as he held her hand. "It was so nice at first, catching up with my friend. Shes only in town for the day as shes cabin crew for an airline, flying back to the UK tonight. It was going really well, until she asked for money" Willow lied not wanting to tell Matt the whole truth. "Why did she want money?" Matt asked as Willow sighed."Something to do with her brother being really ill. Funny thing is, I dont remember her ever having a brother. After i questioned her about it and refused her the money, it got nasty. She began to call me every name under the sun, being verbally abusive. I got away from her as soon as i could, as the abuse just brought everything that Victor and Eric did back to me" she said as silent tears began to roll down her cheeks. She hated herself for lying to Matt. "But you were gone for hours Wills. Where did you go?" he asked "I was upset by her and i was walking towards Central Park when i bumped into Seth. He saw that i was upset and we went for a coffee. Its just been so good having him back as my friend. I told my friend from back home to never contact me again. She already earns more than most crew members, plus her fiancee is a pilot, she shouldnt need the money" Willow said as Matt wiped away her tears and kissed her. "I know its all done with Victor and Eric but they still terrify you dont they? Victor especially" Matt said as Willow nodded. "With him still out there, watching, waiting and not to mention the Willowtree JellyElly guy. Ive never felt more scared, but i know im not alone. I got you and the others. I just think with everything thats gone one these last ten weeks, ive not stopped to breathe. From being here, the show, Reby, the illness, everything. I just cant wait to get back home and just be me again. Just be a family" Willow said as Matt held her. "I know you havent been yourself Wills, and Im going to do everything i can to help you" he said as Willow closed her eyes. "Matt ive also been thinking, I know that this probably isnt what you want to hear, considering thaat we've always had such a great sex life, i think we should stop having sex. Just for the final few months of this pregnancy. Its just starting to hurt a little too much now and i dont want to risk losing Ruby" She said as Matt held her tighter. "Wills, its your body going through this. If its hurting then we can wait until after Ruby is born. I can wait" he said as Willow leaned into him and asked quietly "Movie?"

Willow was asleep within an hour of the movie starting. I really am a lucky guy. I got you in my life and i dont deserve it, not after the shit ive put you through lately. But i get a feeling that youre holding back from telling me something. What arent you telling me Wills? he thought to himself as he watched her sleep. After half an hour, Willow awoke, drenched in sweat and shaking. "Wills? Whats wrong?" he asked as Willow broke down. "Im just being stupid. It was a bad dream about Victor" she replied as he put his arms around her "Its like i was back in that hell house, only this time no one came. I was left alone to die in that place and..." she sobbed as Matt held her tight. "And he cant touch you. You are never alone Wills" he replied as he wiped her tears adding "I'll always come for you. Nothing stopped me 3 years ago, nothing is going to stop me now. I love you" "I love you too Matt. I think im going to head up to bed, im just so worn out after the last two days" Willow replied as she kissed him, as he kissed her back he said "You do look exhausted Wills. Go on up and i'll be up in ten minutes" As Willow left the room and headed upstairs, Matts cell began to ring. Unknown ID? Who the hell is it? he thought as he answered. As soon as he did there was instant regret as he said "Reby, what the fuck do you want?"

"What do you want Rebecca?" Matt asked again, getting angrier at his ex girlfriend. "Matt please dont hang up, i just want to talk" she said quietly "Whatever you have to say, i dont want to hear it. I told you to stay away from us. Not to contact us" Matt said as Reby said "I need to see you. Can we meet tomorrow?" "No. Im busy with my pregnant wife and daughter" he replied as Reby began to sob down the phone to him. "Matt please. I really need to see you. Its important" "I dont care Rebecca. Dont call again" he said as he hung up on her. That woman does not know when to quit he thought as he sat back on the sofa, trying to calm himself. Ive told her so many times lately, why wont she get the hint? Wills is the one i want to be with, she needs me right now. Matt sat in silence in the living area for hours, the TV flickering in the background. He didnt know how long he was sat there, until he heard someone moving behind him. "Matty, whats wrong?" Willow asked quietly behind him. "Wills, how long have you been there?" He asked as she came and sat next to him, replying "Not long Matt. I woke up and noticed that you havent been to bed yet. I saw the TV flickering and thought you might still be up" "Im sorry Wills. I was about to head up when Reby called. She wanted to meet up, dont worry i told her under no circumstances would i ever be seeing her again" he said as Willow moved closer to him. "Im focussing on you and Jas right now. You need me right now. Im not going to let you down again" Matt said as Willow kissed him and said "Matt, you have never let me down. Yeah youve disappointed me in the past, but its just that. In the past. Lets go to bed, we got a long weekend ahead of us" Willow said as she took his hand and lead him upstairs.

Matt awoke first the next morning and watched Willow as she slept. He noticed she was smiling as she was sleeping and felt his heart miss a beat. I love it when you smile, even if it is when you sleep he thought to himself as he leaned in to kiss her forehead. As kissed her she moaned and flittered her eyes open. "Hey you" she said almost in a giggle as Matt replied "hey yourself, whats the plan for today?" "I have to go to the studio later. Just for a couple of hours as they changed one of my songs for this weekend. Why dont you and Jas come with me?" Willow said as Matt kissed her "sounds fun. Maybe dinner after? he replied as Willow nodded "sounds perfect Matt. Ive missed our family time" "Ive missed it too Wills. I know ive already asked, but how do you feel about coming to Raw on Monday? You dont have to be seen on screen, just come hang out backstage" Matt asked, unaware that Willow was already going. "Matt i need to tell you something. Im already going" she said as Matt looked at her confused. "Vince called me yesterday. Hes heard that i havent been well and wants me to come in for a chat" "Why didnt you say anything last night?" Matt asked as Willow replied "I kind of wanted to surprise you and some others. Its been a while since ive even been backstage" "Do you miss it? Not being there?" Matt asked already knowing the answer as Willow nodded. "How about on Saturday, after you smash this semi final and storm through to the final, we go out for dinner and a show? Just you and me?" Matt asked as Willow smiled "that sounds perfect Matt, but its going to be the three of us. You, me and bump" she joked as Matt smiled at her and asked "breakfast?"

The morning flew by for Matt, Willow and Jasmine. Before long they were on their way to the studio. "Jas are you excited to here mommy sing?" Matt asked as Jasmine nodded enthusiastically "i am daddy. I like mommy singing, it makes me happy" she said as they pulled up to the studio and were greeted by Polly. "Hey Willow. I didnt know you were coming Matt" Polly said as Willow replied "Thats kind of my fault. I was due to spend the day with them and I asked them to come here. I hope thats ok" "of course it is Willow. Come on, we only have a few hours to go over the new set up with you and get you fitted for your outfit" They headed for the stage area first to go over the sound and rehearse Willows new songs. As she stepped off the stage after almost an hour, Matt walked up to her and said "Willow Jayne Hardy, you are amazing. You amaze me every day. Im so proud of you, i love you" "I love you too Matt. I wont be too much longer, i just the outfits to go" Willow replied before freezing. "Wills, whats wrong?" Matt asked seeing the terror on her face. "You cant hear him can you?" Willow whispered, the fear making her voice crack. As Willow held back the tears as she heard "Willow...WillowTree...You dont love him... i know your dirty secret... join me" "Willow? Wills talk to me. Whos here?" Matt asked as Willow whispered "WillowTree guy"