A/N: As promised, I've posted 3-4 days after the last chapter. Soooo! Enjoy :)

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Chapter 28: The Truth Be Told


Amy's (December 2)

Amy sits patiently at the waiting room of the clinic. Amy's first observation when she entered this clinic was that the clinic appeared to be smaller than she imagined. But don't let appearances fool you; it is after all #1 in California.

Why? Because Dr. Frederick Dasios practice here, without connections, you wouldn't even dream of having a checkup here.

At first, she was scheduled to come back on the 30th but when she went to the clinic, she was asked to perform more tests.

She did question it but the Clinician only assured her that so "that the Doctor would be 100% sure unless she didn't want that instead".

She didn't realize she was already being called, until the lady repeated it twice.

"Dr. Fowler? Dr. Frederick is ready to see you now…"

Sheldon's (December 9)

Sheldon is getting wary minute by minute. Last year it was over the top hippy, so now, he figured he should keep it simple with the little things he had prepared.

I miss her so much… even though I saw her last night.

Honestly, Sheldon was overly joyed these past few days.

Why is that? It's because Amy and he were inseparable.

It started when Amy came to his apartment from work on December 2, and then, she was all over him. Almost every day was a sleep over day except yesterday.

Although they didn't have much coitus, but at least he gets to sleep with her wrap up around him. Cuddling and hugging were Sheldon's favorite words these past few days.

Sheldon's itinerary was simple: dinner at his apartment, a little side trip, and then get Amy home.

(Dinner at his apartment)

Amy: Good evening Dr. Cooper… (Amy said smiling at him)

Sheldon: Good evening Dr. Fowler, happy anniversary…

Amy: Happy anniversary my love! (She winks at him, it's the first time she had called Sheldon "my love" in front of him)

Sheldon: Hmm… interesting, that's new to my ears…

Amy: you don't like it?

Sheldon: I'm more curious at how it had affected me, in a good way.

Amy: Good… so what are we going to do tonight?

Sheldon: I supposed I should let you know now; we are scheduled to eat dinner at exactly 7:30pm, and then finish it at 8:00. I have scheduled Uber at 8:30, then we are off to a little side trip.

Amy: Sounds fun…

Sheldon: It will also feel fun…

(Planetarium)

Amy: I have to say, this is brilliant… Watching the stars under the impression that we are out in the woods, but not really.

Sheldon: I know… no bugs and animals to worry about, but you still get the same view. (Sheldon said giving himself a pat for a good well done…)

(They were lying down in a blanket Sheldon had brought, to complete the feeling of being in the woods.)

Amy: (Amy grab hold of Sheldon's hands tight) Sheldon… do you believe in… never mind…

Sheldon: In what Amy? You know I hate things left unfinished.

Amy: This is me being silly… do you believe in the common conception that those people who have died in this world will be looking down to the ones they left behind through a star?

Sheldon: You are right, you're being silly… Ridiculous

Amy: I know, it's absurd… Well, I'm just going to enjoy this night with you… treat it like it's the last day of my life…

Sheldon: Where did that came from?

Amy: Are you familiar with the song "Like I'm gonna lose you"

Sheldon: Yes, what about it?

Amy: I particularly like the lyrics of it… (Amy then sings the first part of the song)

I found myself dreaming

In silver and gold

Like a scene from a movie

That every broken heart knows we were walking on moonlight

And you pulled me close

Split second and you disappeared and then I was all alone

I woke up in tears

With you by my side

A breath of relief

And I realized

No, we're not promised tomorrow

So I'm gonna love you

Like I'm gonna lose you

I'm gonna hold you

Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing

I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when

When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you

Like I'm gonna lose you

I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

Sheldon: I supposed you'd never know what tomorrow would bring you… But I don't want to think about that Amy…

Amy: I love you… I'm so happy to have been yours…

Sheldon: I love you more… I am too Amy… much more than you think…

(Fast forward to him taking Amy home)

Then finally, the right hour came, him asking her to live with him… He hopes it's not too soon though…

"Amy, I don't like to do this anymore."

"Do what?"

"See you to your door."

"What do you mean?"

"I want you to move in with me."

"Sheldon, stop…"

"What?"

"I'm sorry, but I can't."

"I'm sorry if I asked too much."

"I can't do that Sheldon… I'm sorry."

"No, no… It's my fault…"

"It's not your fault. It's my entire fault. Listen Sheldon, I've emailed something to you, it should be coming at exactly 11:59pm."

"Alright, I'll be waiting. What is it for?"

"It's my secret."

"Your secret? Oh… The checkup results?"

"Yes."

"Why don't you tell me now?"

"It's a surprise."

"Alright then, should I wait the email here?"

"No. I prefer if you wait at home."

"But you're my home…"

"I love you… Too soon Dr. Cooper, you have to go home at your apartment." (She smiles at him)

"Okay"

Amy opened her door slightly, just enough for her to get in, and then closes it again.

Sheldon patiently waited for 11:59, the anticipation is killing him… How serious could it be that she didn't just tell him directly?

Is she actually pregnant?

No, that's impossible. We've been extra careful…

Sheldon refreshed his email… and then

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

Sender: Dr. Amy Farrah Fowler

Subject: Relationship Termination Notice

Date: December 9, 2016 11:59pm

Dear Dr. Sheldon Lee Cooper,

I, Dr. Amy Farrah Fowler, send you a digital copy of the termination notice with my signature. I no longer wish to continue our relationship for certain circumstances.

For the circumstances, please refer to the attachment labeled "Reasons".

Thank you and I hope that you would value my decision.

-Dr. Amy Farrah Fowler

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

What in fresh hell is this? Is this a joke? Amy… I know I suck at jokes but, even I know, this is not funny…

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

P.S. This is not a joke; it's an actuality and legally binding. Please live your life accordingly like before I messed it up.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

Drats…

I need to call her… I have to call her… She's not answering!

Sheldon panicked and didn't even bother to open the attachments.

He asked Leonard to drive him to Amy's apartment; Leonard went with him without second thoughts. Sheldon wouldn't answer Leonard when he questioned him; he is still in shock of all of this.

Where did this came from? I didn't see this coming… We were all lovey dovey… What the hell!

This all can't be real, wake up Sheldon… wake up!

Leonard's

What's wrong with him? He is not answering me…

"WAKE UP SHELDON!" Sheldon screamed.

"You're awake Sheldon…"

"No, no I'm not Leonard. No…" He said breaking into tears.

"Alright buddy."

"I need to see Amy, faster."

"We can't go any faster. Or else we'll be in an accident."

"I don't care. I'd rather die without her."

"Geez nobody's dying Sheldon. Relax okay?"

"Relax? You have no idea what you are talking about!"

"I would have if you would tell me."

"Leonard! Amy's gone!"

"No she's not. You just had a dinner together. And, besides, you two were all over each other this week."

"She's gone Leonard."

He looks like he is about to break any minute… So Leonard decided to back off and just let Sheldon see that Amy really isn't gone… or so he thought.

"Amy! Amy! Amy! Open Up!" He said knocking loudly, loud enough to wake up the whole floor. He didn't care; he didn't bother with his routine knock knock.

When she didn't answer, Sheldon decided to break in, totally forgetting that he has her spare key.

"It's empty." Leonard remarked.

Sheldon wasn't kidding, Amy is really gone! – He called Penny.

Penny also had no clue what happened to Amy…

Sheldon is in chaos right now.

"She's gone. SHE'S NOT HERE!"

He didn't even notice that Penny arrives at Amy's apartment.

"What happened? Oh my God, you weren't kidding when you said it's empty. All the furniture is gone…"

"Yeah, and look at Sheldon in the corner. He is uttering words there."

"I'll go take a look…"

"I just took her home, how can I have not known that the apartment was empty? How could I have not?"

Sheldon was uttering those words while sitting in the corner, looking like he is out of his mind… crying… yelling, and… crying again…

It took him an hour before he could utter others words… "EMAIL!"

"Leonard, I need your phone! Now"

"Okay, okay… I tried to call Amy; I think she turned off her phone."

Sheldon didn't care what Leonard was saying, he needed the phone for one thing, to check the attachments she sent. The last piece of communication they ever had.

The attachment contained a link pertaining to another website. He clicked on it, shaking, and then there's a video posted which would be automatically deleted once played.

The video:

Amy:

Sheldon… I don't know where to start… (Her tears are starting to fall off and she tries to wipe it)

Maybe I should with, I'm sorry. (She let out a small smile, not the smile Sheldon loves to see, but the smile which tells him she was in pain.)

Please forget me… Please… (She completely cries now) I know it's impossible for you to forget but please… let me go…

To begin with, I didn't deserve your love… I didn't deserve you… It's all my fault, I guess the universe had just granted me the wish I have been wishing all my life before I met you…

Oh sorry, I haven't made myself clear yet… The secret that I've been keeping from you was that initially I thought I was pregnant… The stick came positive, but I decided to get professional test before saying anything.

That alone, freaked me out. I know that we aren't ready for that. (She paused, and wiped her nose…)

How I wish that's the findings now… Oh how I take for everything for granted… especially you…

Bernie recommended someone to me, he is indeed on top of his field… and that's how… (Her voice is breaking)

Do you know what I've been wishing my entire life before I met you?

I wished that I perish from this world… and now… wish granted (she laughs at the irony while her tears are flowing nonstop…)

I'm going to die Sheldon… (She said while biting her hand) I have a maximum of 3 weeks to live…

I'm sorry for being selfish; I have known this since December 2, 2016. That's the night I told you I wanted to stay the night…

I just want to hug you, feel your embrace… because you make me feel great… (She stops, and tried to composed herself)

Wow. This is just a recording but it felt like I was actually talking to you…

Today is, December 6, 2016.

I've decided to die somewhere no one would know me… No one would see me suffer… Not even you…

I'm really sorry for being selfish but I don't think I can let you… (She gulps) see me… die slowly…

It's more excruciating for both of us… because I believe…

To see the person you love watch you die slowly is more painful than death itself…

Equals…

To see the person you love die slowly besides you is more painful than death itself…

I'm sorry because I am not strong enough to say this in front of you…

You probably went to my apartment, noticing that it's empty. I had all my stuff ship to a designated destination, and even if you track every piece of them, you won't find me.

Please give up on me… Live your life without me… like you always did…

And if possible, please love again…

Loving and being loved was the best part of my life… and I don't want to take that away from you…

I want you to feel loved and be in love again…

You deserve more than to devote your life to a corpse…

I love you… so please let me go… I beg you (She sobs even more) please… give up on me…

One more thing (she breathes heavily), do you remember the conversation we had on the 4th when I made you promise that…

That you would continue your life even if I was gone?

Please keep your word for me…

You are stronger than anyone I know… and you are my life…

Please continue living…

Maybe in another universe, we would grow old together…

I smile when I think that at least other versions of us could be together longer than we have in this universe…

Thank you for everything Sheldon…

I didn't want this to end like this, me crying… because that's the last thing you'd remember me…

(She paused and exhales profoundly)

Cadet Fowler is now signing off from Captain Cooper… (She holds up a salute sign while smiling just like how a subordinate salutes goodbye to a captain in the enterprise)

Lenny's

The three of them saw the video together, the two of them were crying their hearts off, but Sheldon wasn't giving any tears.

Sheldon demanded to go to the Wolowitz residences, even though its 3am, the couple didn't think twice but to just drive him there.

He demanded that Bernadette tell him the Doctor she had recommended to Amy.

After getting the name, Sheldon forced himself to Dr. Frederick's residences and questioned the Doctor, but the Doctor didn't break because Amy made him promised that he wouldn't tell anyone anything.

"I understand your feelings Dr. Cooper, but I can't say anything because Amy made me promise I won't say anything. She had my word."

"You don't understand me at all! You didn't have someone you love… who's" He finally had it, he finally cried… he had just lost his everything… he uttered,

"I didn't even deserve to know… what kind of cancer took her away from me?"

Dr. Frederick felt pity, that's when he decided to tell him a little about Amy's diagnosis.

"She has bilateral Krukenberg tumour and that's the only thing I'm going to say to you."

Shamy's (December 4)

Sheldon: Amy, are you staying the night?

Amy: Why? You don't want me to? (She said smiling at him)

Sheldon: I'd be gloomy if you didn't…

Amy: I could be late tomorrow for work…

Sheldon: I'll just wake you up earlier so you won't be late.

Amy: Hmm… I'm not quiet convinced yet…

Sheldon: I'll make you breakfast?

Amy: Deal in one condition.

Sheldon: Anything…

Amy: I get to choose a topic, and you have no other choice but to share your views on it.

Sheldon: Okay, no matter what topic is that… it's only a matter of time before you get the answer from me, so what difference does it make if you asked me now or later…

Amy: I'm the luckiest girlfriend indeed. Sometimes I think that I don't deserve you…

Sheldon: If we are going down that path, I'm the one who didn't deserve you…

Amy: You really didn't want to be defeated huh? (She winks at him)

Sheldon: You know me so well… What is the topic?

Amy: Would you be alright without me?

Sheldon: Are you going somewhere?

Amy: No… not right now…

Sheldon: No, I wouldn't be alright without you. Where did this came from?

Amy: Well, just in case something happens to me Sheldon… We should account for everything, you know…

Sheldon: Please specify…

Amy: Alright, if I get into an accident, if I get terminally ill and will die any day from now, if I (she paused, holding out the tears) can't be with you anymore for whatever reasons.

Sheldon: Then the answer is simply NO. Amy, I couldn't possibly imagine living a life without you… (He kisses her hands)

Amy: I know… but those happenings are inevitable… so I want you to consider this Sheldon… (She couldn't hold back her tears anymore, she started to cry)

Sheldon: If you put it that way… then my answer is still no. Why are you crying?

Amy: It's just sad thinking something like that could happen… I don't want to ruin your life… even when I'm gone.

Sheldon: I don't want to talk about this, and you didn't ruin my life. It's as simple as this; my life is over once you are gone.

Amy: Please… promise me that you would continue living even if I'm gone?

Sheldon: Why? No I don't want to…

Amy: Sheldon…

Sheldon: Let's stop talking about this…

Amy: Stop being irrational right now, we are scientist, we should account this scenarios and treat it like it's possible. (She wiped her tears away, and acted cold trying to make a point)

Sheldon: Okay, then I'll promise that only if you promise me one thing.

Amy: Yes?

Sheldon: That if that happens to me too, you'd continue living your life even if I'm gone…

Amy: I promise.

Sheldon: Then, I promise too.


A/N: Yes, you probably hated me for this chapter, so, I'm going to give you a little spoiler, I have already written this fanfic to its end and it would consist of "Existence after Amy".

You didn't think I'd be writing light and happy chapters all throughout, or did you? After all those twist from the start…

Why is Amy not looking sad or crying all the time? She's making the best of it, and treating it her last days so she had put on her brave face and tried to enjoy it best way possible, especially when she's with Sheldon. You could also say she's kind of numb because it hurts beyond anything.

Google: Woman-Dies-From-Cancer-After-Doctor-Thought-She-Pregnant - If you want to check out my reference on Amy's situation, but the illness is from another source. Summary: the woman died after 3 weeks from Diagnosis that she isn't pregnant but she had cancer instead. The hormones released by a pregnant women VS the cancer was very similar that they thought she was pregnant. Then they later recognized that she wasn't.


Amy's (December 2)

"Doc, am I pregnant?"

"Sit down first Dr. Fowler… I'd like you to sit down before anything else."

"Alright"

"I'm Dr. Frederick, and I apologize if it took so long. Normally, a pregnancy test only takes a maximum of two days to get definite results. But yours were a bit tricky…"

"What do you mean?"

"Initially, the findings were that you are pregnant."

"Oh my god, it's official! Wait a moment… initially?"

"My God indeed, if you had went to an average checkup that's what they would have told you."

"You're scaring me Doctor."

"I'm sorry… this part hasn't been easy even though I've been doing it for all those years."

"Wha…"

"Dr. Amy Farrah Fowler, you have bilateral Krukenberg tumour, I am deeply sorry."

"What are you talking about?"

"When your test results came to my office, at first sight, it was unsuspicious. But then I noticed the number of hCG hormones you had, it was unusually. I had asked my assistants to check you once more and to conduct more experiment and I had proven my theory. Your uterus enlargement could be mistaken as a fetus but in reality it's a tumor, and it's malignant."

"Doctor…"

"I'm sorry Dr. Fowler… There's another bad news about the type of cancer you have…"

"As if I couldn't take another bad news"

"It's very rare. That only 0.00001% of the population can get. You have a form of terminal ovarian cancer which has only been recorded 30 times in the last 50 years anywhere in the world. The bilateral Krukenberg tumours are inoperable."

"I can't believe this, you're telling me that, that I have cancer? A rare type too?! And that it's impossible to get treated?"

"For now Amy… I am not closing doors."

"Oh yes you aren't."

"I could understand the anger and sarcasm, but here me out, I am saddened that a brilliant person like you would…"

"Would die? You have no idea, just when I thought my life is finally worth living … That's when the universe decided to take it?

I have been begging all my life to take me away and they didn't, but now? NOW? NOW that I am on the track of winning my NOBEL? NOW that I have SHELDON!"

She sobs… She only had one thing on her mind, WHY

"I'm sorry…"

"I'm sorry Doctor, it wasn't your fault. Maybe if you hadn't diagnosed me, I would've die even more miserable thinking I'm carrying a child… but in reality, I'm nurturing a tumor that's going to kill me any day. Well you do me a favor?"

"Yes? Anything?"

"Please don't tell anyone. Anyone"

"You have my word."

"How long do I have Doc?"

The Doctor gulps.

"1 month…"

"1 month? Well, at least it's not 1 hour, or 1 day, or 1 week…" She tried to smile but her tears keeps on running down her cheeks…

I still have 7 days to be with Sheldon and then I need to… disappear…


Would Sheldon find a new love? Or would he search for her endlessly? What do you think?