Heh….So last chapter yeah woo...okay so the last chapter was a request and I just read over it again. I'm sorry that was freaking traumatizing and sad and wow. Okay I'm crying from my own work. But hopefully I can make this joyous again...sometime...not in this chapter probably….

I own nothing.

I deserve to Die

Beep...Beep...Beep…

No it couldn't be, I'm supposed to be dead.

Beep….Beep...Beep….

There has to be a mistake, why am I not dead, let me die, let me die, let me die!

Beep….beep...beep

Stop beeping gosh dammit stop, stop it, STOP.

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"Doctor the heart monitor he's under too much stress!" He felt someone touch him. It hurt sending shot of pain all through out his arm.

Let me go, don't touch me, I'll KILL YOU TOO

That phrase made him stop, he'll kill them just like he had killed Madison, why couldn't it have been him why had he be the one to live and not her. He wanted to stop scream and shout, he wanted to die, just like Madison had done. Why couldn't he die like Madison?

Finally the doctors had stabilized him as he started to wake up. He said nothing but just stared. As he tried to talk he saw that he couldn't. He tried to scream at the doctors but he couldn't. When the doctors saw that he had awoken they had huge smiles on their faces. How he despised those smiles. Fake walls put up much like the ones he had to put up after Madison.

They then brought in Oliver. Oliver ran over and hugged him, Roy remained silent. Obviously Oliver was lying to, why wouldn't he be he was a murder and suicidal. Though Roy bet Oliver wanted him to die and the tears were tears of sorrow about how he had failed his attempt. The doctors and Oliver than began asking questions. But he remained silent he couldn't talk even if he tried. His mouth just couldn't open and relieve sound out of his throat.

He then heard the doctor talking, "It seems he cannot speak as he is still in trauma about the whole thing. Being in a coma for three weeks this is rather common." A coma for three weeks? Impossible. Why didn't he die, why did his body have to fight to survive. He wanted to die why did his body want to live.

He then felt someone grab his face and he was turned face to face with Oliver, "Roy, Roy can you hear me shake your head if you can hear me?" Roy reluctantly shook his head. He was then handed a dry erase board and marker. "Roy can you write for us please." He slowly but surely wrote out the words 'Yes."

"Roy Why did you try to k-kill yourself." Oliver stamperd over the word kill. Roy didn't write though, he couldn't right the reason why, it was a painful reminder this room. So much like the one he had been in. He could remember the brunettes body still, all bloody lying on the bed next to him.

"Roy you need to tell us why." Tears started streaming down the young boys face. He couldn't take this he wanted to die he needed to die.

"Roy it's okay you're safe now," No he wasn't he was never safe. His worst enemy, his scariest monster, the thing he hated most was himself.

"Roy please tell me I need to know," He looked into the eyes of Oliver and his breathe hitched. Oliver looked like he hadn't slept in weeks, hadn't eaten, nothing. Before he could stop himself he wrote 'Madison.'

"Whose Madison, is she a bully, was she a girlfriend who broke up with you, a teacher?" Oliver pleaded to get the information out of his son.

'I killed Madison." The words stung Roy so much, he hated what he had become. For Oliver they were complete shock, his baby kill anyone?

"What do you mean that you killed her, what happened?" Oliver said grasping him by the shoulders looking at him.

'I drove her into a truck, it was her birthday, I killed Madison' It then clicked, Oliver remembered the young girl that had come in with his son, the one that didn't make it.

"Roy that's in the past you must forget about her , you can't save her now."

'No I killed her now I need to die, its my fault I des-'

The board was ripped out of his hands and thrown across the room. "No you listen to me you are my son! You don't deserve any of that you are a smart, intelligent, handsome, and well rounded you made a big mistake but that doesn't mean that you should take it out on yourself like this. Roy I love you but the only way to save you is for you to believe me and listen to what I'm saying do you understand?" Roy nodded but he still didn't believe. They both knew it was going to be a long way to recovery, but family never gave up on each other.

Alright sorry to leave it here but I have some writers block...so good night!