A/N: hey guys guess who's back! That's right, it is me! Now a few things I have to say. The reason why I was on a hiatus was because I had to deal with school, track, my college final, and most importantly, I had 4 hour pit band practices for the Wizard of Oz play at my school. I didn't have much time last week to work on any chapters and I didn't want to try and rush future chapters. I started writing up again during the weekend actually...before I had to go and help with the play. So my next scheduled hiatus will actually be early next month and I'll explain why on the last day I'll post the chapter before my hiatus. So that it was I decided to take the week off. Now off to the second thing I wanted to say, because I made you guys wait, I present to you one the longest chapters of the story so far! My gift to you for your patience and support! Anyway, let's get off to those lovely reviewers!

SuperStarSykor: it is simply because he's the antagonist in this story and he isn't thinking he's doing anything wrong and yes he is being irrational. So yea...ooh Donnie look, see this reviewer doesn't hate you! (Donnie: well at least one person knows I would never act like this!)

MidnightLokiLover: well this story is filled with suspense isn't it hehehe...also I'm sorry for your lost of your pet rock. Yes Leo is having a rough time and more explanations will be explained in later chapters. Also with Raph...I was debating rather to make him stop breathing or not and then I was like eh wth it creates more suspense and I can use that moment for later on if I wanted to. My original idea is to have Raph tell everyone but then I thought it would create more drama if Shini found out for herself. (Donnie: will everyone stop hating me) me: Donnie, she means the story you!

Oliver: (Donnie: hey! I did nothing wrong! That was the story version of me! Umbra I seriously hate you for making this story!) *sighs* well...Donnie is the antagonist in this story and I'm honestly experimenting with it because I'm not used to having a turtle being the main antagonist. So...yea

Oliver (2nd message/review): (Donnie: it's ok I forgive you...I'm hating Umbra for this too!) hey now, no need for that type of language (Donnie: oh but when people say it to me, it's ok?!) *sigh* ok look, I wouldn't have hurt Raph without a reason, but I'm not gonna say because spoilers. Believe me or not, Raph is my favorite turtle and I honestly absolutely love Donnie too! So don't hate me because of how I decided to work with the story lolXD...besides, it's not like I'm gonna kill off any of the turtles or anything...anyway, I still hope you enjoy the chapter!

Warning: some violence involved

Anyway guys I hope you guys enjoy this chapter as you can see I made it long! I think this chapter is going to be intense for you guys so I hope you're prepared!

I own nothing of TMNT


Shinigami's P.O.V.

I knew from the second I found out Raph was hurt, something seemed off. Then...when I saw him, all the pieces came together. The blood on Donnie's blade and Raph's injuries...it didn't take long for me to figure it out.

I just happened to see Donnie passing by with his bloody blade and at the same time, we get the message that Raph's injured. I'm just mad I didn't connect the pieces at that moment...but I had to see for myself.

When I was on my way to Donnie's place, I was hoping that my conclusion was wrong and that I just beat up Donnie for no reason. But then...he didn't even hesitate to tell the truth. When he said he did stab Raph, I was honestly horrified, but of course I didn't let it show.

He made it clear that he didn't want to see his brothers, but...to go to this extent...it's just hard to believe. Even Raph never went this far and he has a worse temper than Donnie...well now I'm not even sure about that anymore. I feel I should regret of what I said to him, but I know I can't afford that. He deserved everything I said and did to him.

How was it that just earlier today, I was enjoying my time with him as if we were good friends? When we hung out, I saw him smile...and I mean truly smile.

For a while there, I saw the Donnie that I once knew before this whole incident started. I was making plans to patrol with him tomorrow night and maybe have a chance for him to see everyone again...hopefully making things go back to the way it used to be. But now...I can't even do that. He's lost my trust and in turn I lost his.

I'm gonna have to tell the others know...they deserve to know the truth...even if I lost their trust. I sometimes wonder if I'm just as guilty because I never said a word about Donnie's whereabouts to anyone...even when they were looking for him.

Even Slash has caught on about me hiding anything, but when he asked me about it, I was lucky enough to go around his question and catch him off guard completely. Maybe if I told everyone sooner, we wouldn't be in this current situation.

I soon found myself at the lair, and I found everyone except for Leatherhead, Splinter, Rockwell, Mondo, and of course Raph. I walked in, trying to ignore the pool of blood that laid at the entrance.

"Shini, you're back," Karai looked a little tired, so I'm gonna assume she already donated some blood.

Well...she did because she's eating something...and same with April. I'm gonna assume Mondo is still getting his blood donated.

I nodded. "Yea...uh...how's Raph?"

Leo shakes his head. "He wasn't doing too good when he left. Rockwell wanted all of us out so the lab doesn't feel too cramped. Leatherhead is taking Mondo's blood, so Mondo will be out in a bit. I think Leatherhead is going to help with Splinter and Rockwell."

I nodded as I glanced to the ground. How am I going to tell them the truth?

"And where were you going in such a hurry?" Casey asked. "You looked pretty pissed off when you left."

"Well...I-."

April gasps. "Shini, your nose is bleeding!"

I wiped my hand across my nose and I found blood. Crap...I forgot Donnie kneed me in the face and caused my nose bleed! Of course I shook my head, brushing it off.

"Don't worry, I'm fine."

Karai looked at me. "Your nose wasn't bleeding before was it?"

"I told you I'm ok. I..."

I was about to lie, but I mentally shook my head. No...no more lying! I have to tell them the truth...especially after what just happened. They deserve to know the truth.

"Shini?" Karai spoke up.

I sigh. "There's...something I need to tell you but...I feel we should wait for Mondo. I...can tell the others when they get done with Raph."

Everyone looked at each other, slightly confused, but nodded in agreement. In the meantime, Leo came over to me and gave me a tissue. I thanked him and pushed it against my bleeding nose.

Within a few minutes of anxiously waiting, I see the lab door open and Mondo walking out with a cookie and some juice. We all stared at Modo and he looked a little confused. He took his seat next to Mikey as he just looked confused.

"Uh...what's going on?"

"Shini has something to tell us and we were waiting on you. But first off, how's Raph?" Leo asked.

"Well uh...Rockwell and Splinter are already using Karai's and April's blood for Raph. I really couldn't see much because they were covering Rah from my view."

Leo nods. "Oh."

"But you said Shinigami wanted to tell us something."

Leo nodded again as their attention went back on me. I guess there's no turning back now. I took a deep breath, and then opened my mouth to explain everything.


No one's P.O.V.

Everyone stared at Shinigami, none of them knowing what she would say. Shini herself was hesitant, but she knew she had to say it. So, she took a breath as the words carefully came out of her mouth.

"I...know who hurt Raph."

Everyone stared at her in shock, and just like that, Slash and Casey were all up in her face.

"Who was it?!" Slash demanded. "I'll kill them!"

"I'm with Slash! Spit it out woman!" Casey snapped.

"Guys, let her answer!" Karai snapped. "You aren't gonna get any answers out if you're in her face like that!"

Slash and Casey grunted as they settled back into their seats. This was it...no turning back.

"It was...it was Donnie."

After his name left her mouth, the entire room grew silent and filled with shock and disbelief.

"You're...you're lying," April spoke first and said with utter shock. "That doesn't sound like Donnie at all."

"Think about it April," Shini said. "He was the one who stabbed Mikey."

"But wasn't that an accident?"

Shini went to speak, when Slash interrupted her.

"Wait a minute, how would you know it was Donnie? Unless..." his eyes widen as the pieces came together. "No...y-you didn't!"

Shini caught what he meant and she hesitantly nodded. "I did."

That's when Slash gave her a death glare, and that's when Leo spoke up.

"Shini, what is Slash talking about?"

She took a breath...knowing she's about to lose everyone's trust.

"I've...been lying to you guys for a while now. A month back, I...I found Donnie and...I've been seeing him ever since."

The room was once again silent with shock, and Casey was the first to react. He glared at her as he walked up and punched her in the face.

"Why didn't you tell us?! You know how worried we were about him and yet you kept this secret to yourself! What, did you think we weren't trustworthy enough to be told?!"

Slash spoke up next. "I knew something was up! When I confronted you about it, you went around the question! Now I see why!"

Shini looked at them as she rubbed her cheek.

"But...how did you know Donnie was the one who did it?" Mondo asked.

"Yes Shini, how did you know?!" Casey glared at her.

Once again, Shini sighed. "Because...when we were on the surface, I saw him in the distance and...I saw blood on his blade. When I saw Raph's injuries, it didn't take me long to connect the pieces and..."

There was silence.

"You...went to confront him, didn't you?" Karai finished her thought.

Shini nodded. "And he admitted he did it."

"And that's how you got the bloody nose..."

Once again Shini nodded.

"So...this was partially your fault!" Casey snapped. "If you would've told us about this sooner, we wouldn't be in this mess!"

"I...I didn't know he would take it this far!" Shini tried defending herself. "If I would've known Donnie would do something like this, I definitely would've said something!"

"But you didn't! That's the thing!"

"I'm a witch Casey! I can't predict the future!"

"Yea, you ARE a witch! One of those evil witches people tell in fairy tales!"

Shini went to argue back, when Leo interpreted.

"Enough!" everyone's attention was now on Leo. "I'm sure Shini had her reasons not to tell us. But she can tell us later."

Leo grabbed his sword that he left in the room and began to walk pass everyone. Mikey noticed this, and grabbed Leo's arm.

"Bro, what are you doing?" Mikey had an idea of what the answer was, and hoped he was wrong.

"What do you think I'm doing?! I'm gonna go find him and beat his-!"

"You can't do that! Donnie could've not been thinking clearly and-!"

"Bull crap!" Leo dropped his sword on the ground and then used that hand to slam it hard into Mikey's face.

Mikey lets go of Leo's arm as he crashed to the ground. Everyone looked shock to see that Leo's sudden attack on his brother has actually left a mark on his face.

"Do you honestly believe at this point that he wasn't thinking clearly?! Open up your eyes Mikey! Are you aware that Raph, our own brother, is hanging onto life as we speak?! Donnie was the one who did this Mikey! Anger is no excuse for this! Raph has the worst temper out of all of us and he never would've went to this extent! And let's not forget the fact that he STABBED you and yet you forgave him for that! So try again Michelangelo?! Do you still think Donnie wasn't thinking?!"

Everyone stared in shock at Leo's outburst towards Mikey...especially since he just hit him. Mikey looked shaken, scared, and upset, but at the same time he looked slightly determined.

"I'm aware of our current situation," Mikey looked up, tears running down his face, but still kept determined look. "But...you're always jumping to conclusions. Like...how do we know Donnie DIDN'T do it?"

"Shinigami just said-!" Leo began saying.

"I know what she said!" Mikey quickly interrupted but sighed. "But how do we know Donnie wasn't lying to Shini?"

"He wasn't!" Shini snapped. "He didn't even seem guilty about it! He looked me straight in the eye and said it without even flinching!"

No one said anything as they listened to this intense conversation.

"Mikey, you're in denial!" Leo snapped as he glared at his brother. "You don't want to believe that Donnie did this! You want to believe he's still the same brother we've known for most of our lives!"

"That's the thing! We've known him our whole life and suddenly he turns on us like this?! Doesn't sound like something he would do!"

"Shut up!" Leo kneeled down and grabbed Mikey by the plastron. "You need to face reality little brother because you know what?! The Donnie we know is gone! Dead! Forever lost in eternity! So get your head out of the clouds and open your eyes for once in your life!"

Tears continued to spill from Mikey's eyes as he avoided eye contact with his oldest brother.

"That's enough, Leo!" Karai suddenly snapped. "Yelling at Mikey isn't going to fix the issue!"

Leo looked up at Karai before blinking a few times as he quickly realized what he was doing. He looked back down to see his hands were clutching Mikey's plastron and tears going down Mikey's face. His eyes widen slightly in horror as he saw the mark he planted on his brother's face.

"Mikey I..."

Mikey wiped the tears from his eyes as he looked back up at Leo.

"No need to apologize bro."

"But Mikey...I just-."

"Look bro, this isn't about me. I know you didn't mean any of it. Besides, if what Shini says is true about Donnie hurting Raph, what would he do to you? I believe he still isn't thinking clearly and didn't mean any of it, but if he would hurt Raph, he could hurt you too."

Leo was about to yell at him again about him being wrong , but stopped himself. Mikey was right...this wasn't about the two of them...this was about Donnie and Raph.

"You're right...this isn't about us."

Leo stood up and offered his hand to Mikey, and Mikey accepted it as Leo yanked him to his feet.

"We can talk about revenge for Donnie another time I guess," Casey said before his glare returned to Shinigami. "But can we talk about how Shini here betrayed us?!"

"I will have to agree with Casey for once!" Slash walked up to her. "I can kick you off this team right now for lying to us! However, I think I'll let Karai decide your fate!"

Slash's attention went to Karai, and immediately she was giving him a death glare as she stood up.

"That's enough both of you!" Karai snapped so suddenly, it shocked everyone in the room. "You idiots are acting like Shinigami is the enemy here! I'm sure if she didn't tell us, it was for a reason! It isn't like her to keep a secret this big from us without a reason!"

"But Karai-!" Casey started.

"That's enough!" Karai snapped before signing and looking at Shini. "But I do have to ask you this...why did you hide this from us Shini?"

Shini sighed. "Because...I wanted him to think about what he's doing and give him some time to reflect on his thoughts of his brothers. I was hoping to see him wanting to see his brothers again and apologize so the next time you guys would see him, he wouldn't hate you guys. I'm not saying I wasn't trying to hide him...I wanted him to see you guys on his own. But after hearing from Donnie himself that he badly injured one of his brothers...I couldn't trust him anymore."

Karai stood there for a moment as everyone stared at her, before she sighed.

"Ok...that's a good reason."

"What?! You can't be serious!" Casey snapped.

Karai glared at him. "Do I look like I'm kidding?!"

"I see why she did too..." Mikey said.

April nodded in agreement, while Leo shrugged as an answer.

"Ugh whatever! I don't trust her!" Casey snapped.

"Me neither!" Slash crossed his arms.

"Guys, come on. She meant well," April said before sighing. "Look, this isn't about Shini right now...we need to focus on Raph."

Everyone looked at each other before signing and nodded. Shini walked over and took her place on the couch next to Karai. Casey and Slash sat together, both whispering about the fact that they couldn't trust Shini.

Leo was still silently angry at the fact that Donnie would hurt Raph to this extend and wanted to go confront him about the matter. He didn't care if Shini did that already. Shini was sitting there feeling guilty, and then everyone else sat there with mixed emotions.

No one heard a word for 2 hours, and at that time, April and Casey had to go home. Casey had to watch his sister while his father took the night shift at his job, and April had to help her dad with something. They both told them to text or call as soon as they know about Raph. Casey gave a slight glare at Shini before they left the lair.

April and Casey were talking before silence fell on them again. No one knew what to say, but they all thought about Raph's condition.

Finally, after nearly 4 hours of waiting, the door to the lab opened, and Rockwell, Splinter, and Leatherhead stepped out. Each of them looked exhausted but everyone can see grim looks on their faces...scaring everyone. Leo was the first to shoot up from his seat and ran over to them.

"How's Raph?!"

All of them gave him a look...a look that scared Leo.

"Well...how is he?!"

The 3 mutants looked among each other, before Rockwell opened his mouth to answer.