Chapter 29 – CY

Wednesday, November 13th, 2019 – Logan 1 week old

I rocked in the chair gently while Logan began to rest her eyes from a long fit she just threw for no apparent reason. She has had a couple of those in the past week but each of us came out alive and okay. "Do you want me to take her?" I glanced up at Troy who was trying to get some rest because we were both running low on it.

"It's okay," I said softly, he nodded his head but he didn't move. The group was all going to Melissa and Josh's house to finish helping with all of the decoration and everything. "You have been up for a couple of hours, are you sure?" Troy asked after a moment, Logan fell back asleep in my arms, "I'm fine Troy," I stood up and I gently rested Logan into her crib.

She slept in her crib during the day and in our room during the night. I bit down on my lip while she twisted gently but didn't move again. "Brie, come here," I turned towards Troy because I felt like it had been a while since he had called me Brie. His hand slipped into mine and he pulled me close to him, he kissed the top of my head and rested his face there.

Troy then pulled on my hand while we went into the bedroom. Troy pulled me down gently and he groaned as he pressed his face into my chest. His arms holding me tightly to him, "I miss you," he whispered, I couldn't help but smile, "I miss you too." My hands slid through his hair and the hair on his arms rose. "I really want to kiss you," he muttered, "Then kiss me you buffoon," I laughed, Troy couldn't stop his laugh either.

"That takes so much work." I kissed his temple, which was the closest thing to my mouth, "if you wiggle your way up we could lazy kiss," Troy snorted, "There is no lazy kissing with you."

I smiled while Troy rolled over onto his back; I rolled on to my side and rested my head onto his chest. "I know they said you were going to be tired but I never realized you were going to be this tired."

"You don't have to stay up with me when I breast fed her,"

"That really isn't fair to you."

"One of us should be functioning properly."

Troy rubbed my arm, "It's okay," he leaned over to kiss the top of my head again, he let out a little sigh, "She is worth it though." I smiled while I found Troy's hand with his wedding ring on it. "Yea, she very much is."

"What time are we supposed to be at Melissa's?"

"2."

"I'm assuming we let somebody sleep for a bit longer, feed her, and then go?"

"Mhm, I think I am going to take a really long shower."

"You deserve a really long shower,"

"Hell yes I do." Troy laughed while I pushed up against the bed, "The wedding frenzy begins on Friday,"

"Hell, I don't even want to be reminded."

I sat up but Troy pulled me back down until he kissed me. I smiled into the kiss and I pulled his face closer to me. "That is exactly what I needed," he squeezed my side gently with a laugh, "Go take a shower, you stink."

"Whatever you liar."

"You are the liar."

I kissed him again then rolled away from him, I went into the bathroom and I turned on the shower. I let the steam begin to fill the room and I sat on the counter while I gave myself a minute to just think.


Troy's POV

"Have you told her yet?"

"No,"

"She doesn't even know yet?"

"Uh no."

"Not even a clue?"

"Dude, I don't know the last time she sat down and watched something besides Netflix with Logan."

"Huh…she has no idea that you are in the nominations for a CY Young."

"I mean, I bet she has an idea but I don't think she realizes that is this weekend."

"Fuck, dude, what are you waiting on?"

"For Logan to sleep through the night."

"This weekend will pass before that happens."

I sighed and rubbed my forehead, "I need to tell her. I know, I know, I just…I don't want her thinking about my career right now. She should completely be focused on her and Logan. I am just the sidekick right now."

Zach laughed, "Dude, this isn't some big game, this is a high award that you will most likely be receiving on Saturday."

"Stop,"

"Why do you hate talking about this so much?"

"Because, it has been the biggest dream of mine since I knew what the hell a CY Young was. I hate talking about it because I don't want to disappoint myself when I don't end up with it."

"Troy Bolton, how the hell do you think they could give it to somebody else?"

"I don't know, they can."

"But they won't,"

The shower in the house turned off and Logan began to cry through the monitor, "Zach, I have to go. I'll see you guys in a couple of hours."

"Yes sir, talk to Gabi,"

"Whatever,"

I hung up and I walked down the hallway to Logan's room, I pushed the door open and she was wailing from her crib. I leaned over and picked her up with ease, she fussed some more. I eased her down onto the changing table and undid her swaddle but that caused the cries to louden, "Lolo, girl," I said, I bent over to kiss her forehead but her face only creased more. "I bet you are hungry, momma is a little busy at the moment."

I swaddled her and then rested her back into my arms; I rocked her gently while I made our way back to the room. The bathroom door opened and Gabi peeked out, "One minute,"

"Take your time," I instructed, she only nodded her head while the door shut again. "It's okay," I whispered into her ear, I laid down onto the bed while I rested her on my chest. My hands rubbed her back while she calmed for a couple of minutes this way. "There is my good girl," she cried again from frustration and Gabi appeared from the bathroom. She got comfortable in the bed then I handed Logan over to her.

Logan instantly went for food and I smiled, Gabi sighed because breast-feeding had become a great thing between Logan and Gabi. They instantly connected from the start and it had been pretty smooth sailing with a few minor hiccups. "So I need to tell you something that I keep meaning to tell you but this past week and half has been…interesting."

"It indeed has…what do you need to tell me Mr. Bolton?"

"Cy Young award is this Saturday,"

Gabi stared blankly back at me for a moment, "Oh my god," she laughed then looked down at Logan to make sure she didn't disrupt her. "Troy, I completely forgot. That is amazing. You know you'll get it."

"I don't know that,"

Gabi looked at me like I was an idiot, "Troy, the season you had was remarkable. If they don't give it to you I am protesting."

"I just have to be at Kauffman Saturday afternoon when they announce it."

"Good thing it is in the afternoon. You will most likely be hammered from the wedding."

"Are you going to have anything?"

"Nope. If I was pumping maybe but I am not pumping yet." I nodded my head while I looked at Logan who was so content, hell, I would be pretty content too. "Logan and I will be there with you on Saturday. Don't you worry," I smiled softly and I kissed her cheek, "You are the best Brie,"

My head rested on her shoulder while I watched her feed Logan, I tickled Logan's foot and she kicked at my hand. I laughed, "Troy, she needs to focus." I smiled and I kissed her cheek. "What if I completely focus on you," Gabi flickered her eyes over to me and she shook her head, "You are funny mister,"

"I can only try right?"

"Right. Now, how about you get ready so we can go? I have to figure out to celebrate your CY Young."

"Gabs, stop," she knew every reason why I wouldn't want to talk about it but she only smiled, "I'll stop for now." I shook my head and I got up. I went into the closet while I pulled out a pair of jeans with a long sleeve shirt. I heard Logan fuss in the room, I went into the bathroom and I let out a long breath. This month was something else entirely.


Gabi's POV

I snapped the buckles on Logan's car seat as she was all bundled up for the harsh day. She had a knit hat on the top of her head with a flower then some snuggly pajama type thing. I put her blanket over top of her and tucked it in. She kicked her legs and I smiled pulling her hat down a little bit further.

"Are you and Lolo about ready,"

"I think I love that you call her Lolo," I said turning to smile at him, Troy smiled and then kissed my forehead, "Are you ready?" I nodded my head, "Is my North Face nearby?" I asked, Troy turned around and he grabbed it off the couch. He handed it to me and I slipped it over my shoulders. Troy picked up Logan's car seat while I grabbed the backpack.

"Do we have everything?"

"We do indeed,"

I ran through a mental checklist in my head over and over again, diapers, breast pads for me, a pacifier, wipes, extra set of clothes, blankets, and some extra diapers. I smiled at Troy, "Let's go,"

Troy went around to hook in Logan's car seat in the back of the car while I got situated in the front seat. This would be the first time I would actually ride in the front seat with Logan in the car and Troy driving. Troy got into the front with a goofy smile on his face, "Are you sitting with me?" I laughed with a nod, "I am sitting with you. Come on," Troy put the car into gear while I rested my head back against the headrest.

"Hopefully you can get some rest tonight."

"She is only getting up twice right now for food,"

"She has put on a little bit of weight,"

"Good, I need to make her a fast plump baby," Troy laughed, "Nothing about either of us is fat or plump,"

"I still have my baby weight," I complained poking at my belly fat that had shrunk since having her. "You are beautiful," Troy commented back, "I'm pretty sure the hospital hand guide tells you to tell me that." Troy busted out laughing, "Does not!"

"Uh huh…"

"You are beautiful, so shut up."

"You sound like a second grader."

Troy smirked looking over at me, "I am a second grader,"

"That is my sibling…"

"Speaking of…aren't we having our parents over for lunch tomorrow?"

"Yes, they all have the day off."

"Sounds good."

I nodded my head while I ran my fingers through my hair. Troy pulled into Melissa and Josh's apartment complex where they were moving out of right after the honeymoon into a house not very far from us. "Do you want Logan or diaper bag?" Troy asked, I smiled, "I'll take my Lo girl,"

"Got it,"

Troy put the car into park, I unbuckled my seatbelt and I glanced over to see Ellie with Chase had pulled in. I smiled because wedding fever was in the air, I smiled with the fact that Troy and I had been married for over a year now and it was all amazing.

I got out of the car and went around to grab Logan's car seat. I peaked at her face to see she was sleeping, "AH! LOGAN!"

Troy started to laugh as he slung the backpack over his shoulder; I took her car seat into my arm while Ellie came running over. She peeked in to see Logan sleeping, "Oh my god, she is so adorable."

I smiled while Troy put his hand on the small of my back. "Keep walking, we can drool over the baby inside." The wind howled around us causing goosebumps to travel down my body. Ellie knocked on the door while Chase and Troy talked about something.

Melissa swung the door open, "LOGAN!"

"We will forever be known as Logan," Troy said looking over at me; I smiled with a laugh while we walked inside. I set Logan's car seat down onto the table. "Me first!" Melissa said, Ellie gaped, "No way!"

"You'll get to hold her all day Friday! I will be busy!"

"Point,"

"You have all night!" Ellie fired back, Logan stirred and I giggled, "They are fighting over you," I whispered as I unbuckled her. She opened her eyes and yawned, I eased her out of her car seat and Troy laid the blanket out to swaddle her. I eased her into and we tightly made her comfortable, "Goodness, those eyes," Ellie said, "Melissa first, she is the bride to be."

"I better get her near my wedding day," I shook my head with a smile while Melissa took her, "Hi sweet girl," she cooed, I leaned back and Troy put her car seat in the corner. He then came back over to collapse next to me, his arms pulling me in towards his body. I yawned, "How is she doing?" Ellie asked, "Great. We are settling into a routine."

"Nights?"

"She is exhausting us. I mean, she needs to eat but we are pretty tired. I feel like once we get her back to sleep, and then we get back to sleep it is time to do it all over again. That is about the only exhausting part."

"You guys seem to be working well as a team," Josh said from the couch, "It took us a couple of days but we have it."

"Ellie, do you care if Josh stays with you guys or should I ask Zach and Alex?"

"Why am I being kicked out?" Josh mumbled, "Because, I need to get a fantastic nights rest and I need my bed. You'll survive." Josh rolled his eyes and Troy laughed, "I would offer our house but we have an infant who loves to cry every two hours."

"Three last night," I said jabbing my elbow into Troy's ribs, Troy snorted, "Three whole hours,"

"And we might have slept an hour of that three hours,"

"If you guys ever need a break, let us know,"

"Soon." Troy said before I could butt in, "Once we get this down a little bit more and she is going a little bit longer without eating then we will probably venture out." Troy said, "Probably towards the end of the month,"

I smiled over at Troy and I kissed his cheek, he squeezed my knee gently while Melissa was still obsessed with Logan. I rested my head on Troy's shoulder when the door burst opened, "I see their car!" Mallory walked through the door with Colin right behind with Audrey's car seat. "Hello loves!"

"Hello," we all said together, Mallory smiled, "You are looking beautiful,"

"See…it wasn't in her handbook." I couldn't help but laugh, "Thanks Mal,"

"What handbook? Did KU give you a handbook on parenting?"

"Kind of. Feed her, cuddle her, change her diapers, burp her, and watch her sleep." Troy said looking up at her, Mallory frowned, "That's not fair if that is all your child needs because I don't know what mine wants half of the time." Troy smiled, "She is like eight days old. She hasn't thrown a fit yet. She has random ones but she normally just wants to be held. I don't know, maybe she loves us."

Mallory gasped, "AUDREY LOVES ME." Troy raised an eyebrow, "Did I say that?" I couldn't help but laugh, "You guys sound like toddlers."

"Gabi, tell her it's my turn!" Ellie complained, "I want a turn!"

"Get in line asshole." Ellie sneered, Troy laughed out loud, "Oh my god, you are guys are ridiculous. Don't fight over my daughter." Troy rubbed my arm, Zach and Alex stepped through the door with the Newman's right behind. Logan was passed on to Ellie who was cuddling her close and talking to her but she was asleep. My eyes rested while I wrapped my arm around Troy.

"So parenting isn't so easy huh?" Cody sat down next to us and I opened my eyes to look at him. "It's not difficult but I am tired."

"The first couple of weeks are the hardest weeks to get through. You'll get through it." I curled up closer to Troy while his hand ran up and down my arm. "This is why I love our friends, they will watch our daughter while we take a fifteen minute nap."

"If they want me to function tomorrow they will let me nap until the next feeding." Troy smiled while his lips contacted with the top of my head. I opened my eyes to see Logan with Alex now. She was so content with being passed around to everybody, it made me feel good that she was good with other people. Then again…she was a week old. Logan then began to cry; maybe I was completely wrong about her being okay with all of this.

I sat up and she started to scream, Alex laughed, "Yes, mommy wants you." She handed Logan back to me and Troy leaned over into the car seat to grab the pacifier. She took is happily but her eyes looked up at Troy. Troy smiled while his hands uncovered her hair from the hat she was wearing. She started to cry again and the pacifier fell out of her mouth. "I think somebody actually wants daddy."

Logan quieted being transferred to Troy's arms, I got up and I went to the kitchen to clean the pacifier off and then return it back to Troy. I looked over at Melissa, "Alright Ms. Bride-to-be, what would you like us to do?"


Friday, November 15th, 2019

Melissa & Josh's Wedding day!

My arms curled around Troy's torso praying that Logan wasn't going to wake up any second now looking for food. I didn't want to get out of my bed. I wanted to sleep in my bed all morning long. Troy's hand rubbed down my arm without either of us moving anymore than that. I reached up and I kissed his chin, "Is Logan still out?" Troy turned his head and he sighed, "Should I count down?"

I groaned a little bit because I was tired, Melissa was getting married today and for some reason I am in the wedding. Troy's parents were going to watch Logan for most of the reception but they were still going to be in the building. Since we were still working on breast-feeding I didn't want to be too far apart from her just yet. My parents were taking the wedding part, the shorter part and keeping Logan with them at their house, which was close to the facility.

"No," I shook my head and Troy yawned, "Last night wasn't the easiest night we have ever spent with our daughter."

"She was fussy last night." I said, I sat up and Troy pulled me back towards him, "Troy, your daughter wants to eat."

"And I want a kiss, now who is going to win?" I laughed looking up at him, "Most definitely not you." Troy let a sly grin come over his face, "Lie," his hand pulled my chin closer to his and his lips pressed against mine. A smile crossing his face, "See?" I pulled him down closer to me so I could press my face into his neck. "Are you alright?" he questioned after a minute, "Yes, I'm just tired and I miss you."

"We'll have plenty of us time tonight, okay?" I looked up at him, "I know, but now I have to feed her and then get ready to go over to Melissa's with her while you go to Josh and," sudden tears happened because my hormones were still freaking crazy. Troy sat back and he then pulled me into his lap, he was getting REALLY good at the whole tear meltdown moment. He pressed his lips into my temple, "Relax pretty girl, Logan will mostly sleep while you are getting your hair done and what not. She'll love all of the attention she'll receive. Then we'll meet up at your parent's place so you can feed her one last time and then we go to the wedding. We do picture and then we pick Lolo up, meet up with my parents and have a fantastic night, okay?"

I closed my eyes resting against him, "Why can't you feed her?" I questioned, Troy laughed, "Because I don't produce milk, I think it was forgotten." I smiled, "I think you are just lazy." Troy laughed, "That's it, I'm lazy."

"Have you done a single workout?" Troy cocked his head to look at me, "I have been kind of busy." He said, "With what? Feeding a baby." Troy couldn't help but laugh, "I love you,"

"I love you too, now, hand me our little girl so I can feed her, please,"

"Yes ma'am," Troy rolled out of the bed while I sat up and I adjusted my shirt, snapping the button off my bra and Troy was kissing her face but she was getting irritated with him because he didn't provide what she wanted. I took her into my arms and she was quick to latch on. Troy tossed me her burp rag and a blanket. "Thanks,"

"Do you want a water?" I nodded, "Yes please," Troy nodded his head, and he disappeared down to the kitchen while I snuggled Logan closer to me. My eyes watched her face for what felt like ever. My finger went down the side of her arm, her eyes lifted towards mine and she pressed herself closer to me. I rubbed her butt gently. "You are beautiful with a baby," Troy spoke, my eyes lifted up to his and I smiled, "I hope I look beautiful for the wedding tonight."

"Oh you will be." Troy smirked and he sat down next to me. I took a drink of my water while Troy rested his hand on my thigh. "She is pretty damn beautiful Brie," He kissed my temple while Logan pulled away. She started to cry and Troy played with her toe. "Here, let me burp her." I nodded my head while Troy took her. He smiled while I covered his shoulder with a blanket while he rested Logan onto his shoulder. Her face turned towards mine and I kissed her forehead.

"Beautiful girl," Troy rubbed and patted her back gently. I found her fingers and I played with them until she finally burped. "Do you think she wants more food?"

"Most likely."

Logan and I switched sides and she began to nurse on the other side. "Do you know what she is wearing to the reception?" Troy asked, I nodded, "I laid it out last night."

"Good. I'll pack all of her stuff up for your parents house."

"Thank you. Will you take her while I go and take a shower after we are done?"

"Yes ma'am,"


Troy opened the door to my parent's house when two children came flying around the corner giggling and screaming. Troy laughs as he picked each of them up and tossed them over his shoulder while I followed behind with Logan's car seat. "Troy! We have missed you!"

"You saw me yesterday," his laughed because those two just adored Troy by every aspect. My mom came down the stairs and she gave me a smile, "You look beautiful Gabi," I smiled back, "Thank you," I concluded, "Troy, I'm going to go upstairs and feed her, okay?" Troy turned to look at me, "Got it, I'll stay down here to entertain the twins. Let me know if you need anything okay?"

"I will."

I followed my mom back upstairs and we went into their room. "How are you feeling pretty girl?" I shrugged as I put Logan's car seat down onto the bed. "You get settled, I'll get her out." I didn't argue I just hopped onto the bed unzipping my jacket and pushing my tank top around. I grabbed her blanket from the diaper bag, "Why the shrug?" my mom asked, she was cooing to Logan while I sighed.

"I don't know, I have my moments where I just don't think I am good at this. I some times don't feel a bond to her and other times I feel this great strength. I think it is from a lack of sleep and I guess I feel like more crying than laughing anymore." My mom looked up with a hint of concern in her eyes but then focused on getting Logan to me so we could leave. I still have to put my dress on and do the final touches to my makeup.

Melissa was a bit freaked out but the girls were handling her nicely for me to slip away to feed Logan and to bring her to my parent's house. My mom held Logan close and then she gave her to me, Logan got settled quickly and then my mom climbed up onto the bed next to me. "I think you and Troy are doing a fantastic job so far. You aren't even two weeks into everything yet."

"Sometimes she just cries mom and she wants Troy half the time. I feel like she doesn't like me." My mom laughed, "Gabi, you provide her food. She loves you and the first couple of weeks are the roughest weeks, you have to remember that with the twins. You are doing what you can to swim above water right now. Maybe she will be a daddy's girl but c'mon, you were the same exact way."

The corners of my lips turned up, "I know, I know, I just don't get this rewarding feeling that I am doing this all perfectly."

"Because there is no perfect way to do it. You feed the baby, you cuddle the baby, and you change the baby's diaper. You are doing it right. I promise Gabi, in a couple of months when you start to see her personality come out and those smiles and giggles it is the best feeling in the world to know you have a happy baby. Hell, you have a very happy baby right now."

I couldn't help but laugh, "You are doing just fine Gabs,"

"You know, you are really getting better with these mom and daughter talks," I joked, my mom laughed, "It only took me twenty-five years!"

"Has she been eating like clock work or pretty random?"

"It depends on how the feeding goes. Right now, I have a feeling it will be about two to three hours before she wants to eat again. She is already eating better than she did earlier today and wanted to eat again thirty minutes later." My mom looked at me with a funny smile, "What?"

"You have a strong bond with her Gabs, you do. If you can tell all of that by how she is feeding then you have a great bond. It will only get better."

"Thanks,"

Logan fed for another twenty minutes while my mom and I talked about silly things. I had not gotten this time with her in a while and now with a baby I needed her more than ever. There was a knock on the door and then it opened, I looked at it as Troy slid through, he was basically ready to go and I smiled looking at him. "Everything going okay up here?"

I nodded my head gently, "We are almost finished. Is that right Logan?" she rested her hands against me and she pulled away, announcing she was done. Troy went back out to the hallway and grabbed something. "Here," he pulled in a bag, which held my dress, and shoes. "Thanks," I said with a smile, he nodded, "No problem." He came over and stole Logan from my arms, "There is my little girl," he kissed the top of her head while my mom couldn't resist a smile. "He looks just like your dad." She remarked, "He loved to hold you."

I looked at Troy because this was the Troy I have seen so much in the past two weeks. Caring, calm, loving, and so beautiful with our daughter. "He is a rock star."

"Go change," Troy instructed, "We have to go. We don't want to be late."

"I'm going, I'm going." I announced, I went into my mom's bathroom and I began to change my clothes quickly. I put in extra breast pads and then I slipped on my dress, I opened the door while I slipped on my heels, "Mom, will you zip my dress,"

"I got it. Your mom stole Logan," Troy's cool hand slid over my shoulder and he grabbed the zipper jerking it up. He then rested his hands on my shoulders, his large hands that made me feel every single part of my body. He kissed my cheek and he then smacked my ass, "You ready?" I nodded my head as I searched for Logan. "They went downstairs, come on, I know we'll say goodbye."

We walked downstairs; Lilly and Cam were sitting around my mom while I couldn't help but smile. I pressed my lips together while my dad walked through the backdoor. "Well, don't you look beautiful," I went over and I wrapped my arms around his shoulders, "Hi Daddy,"

"Hi sweet girl," he kissed the top of my head and he rubbed my back, "Gabs, we have to go." I sighed, "I have to say goodbye to my daughter,"

"I understand this process takes a good twenty minutes." I threw him a look, I was nervous as hell leaving Logan behind for the first time. I was a nervous wreck and I wasn't quite sure I was ready to leave her. I wasn't sure Troy saw it in my face about how scared I was to leave her. I knew it was only going to be a couple of hours but I trusted myself. I really trusted myself with her and I trusted my mom but what if I wasn't here.

"Gabi,"

Of course, my dad would notice it first, "I'm okay," Troy watched me as I went over to my mom, I bent over and I kissed Logan's forehead, "Be good, mommy will be back as soon as possible." Logan was already falling back asleep, I stroked her forehead and I didn't want to leave. Troy pulled his hands around my waist to pull me away, "Maybe she should go with us."

"No, come on Brie,"

He bent over to kiss Logan's forehead, "See ya later little girl, be good for grandma and grandpa."

"Ew, can we not?" I laughed looking at my dad, "You are though."

Troy picked up my hand; "I'll call you guys after the wedding!"

"Okay!"

"Have fun!" My dad yelled, I followed Troy out the door and once the door was shut, I stopped, "Troy, I can't leave her."

"But you can."

"No, what if,"

"Nope. Not a single what if."

I bit down on my lip, Troy looked at me and he sighed, "It's going to be okay. I really can't figure out your emotions Brie, you one minute want a break from her and the next minute you can't leave her."

My hands began to shake, "I don't know, I'm sorry," Troy chewed on the inside of his cheek while he pulled his hand close to mine, "It's okay, how about we go to the wedding. If you must come back we can skip pictures and go grab her. Okay?"

I looked into his eyes for just a moment, "What if something happens to her."

"Our phones will be on vibrate," Troy seemed stressed by everything that was going on, "I just can't figure you out right now Gabs, I wish I understood what you were feeling so I could do something." I looked at Troy confused but I then understood what he was saying, "Gabs," I turned away from him as I caught my breath. "Gabs," he drew out my name a little bit longer this time while I tried not to have a complete anxiety attack. I don't know where this was coming from. "Brie,"

"I'm fine, I am just trying to catch my breath."

"You are scaring me."

"We are running late," I headed towards the car, "We don't walk away from a fight." Troy simply said, I turned around to face him, "Can we talk in the car?" his eyes flickered to the door of my parent's house and then back to me. He nodded his head, "Yea, come on,"

I went over to the car and I slid inside, Troy got into his side of the car and the engine purred to life. "Are you okay Gabs? I know having a baby in the past two weeks is pretty dramatic but…you aren't exactly the same person." I knew he was trying to word it different than he did. He was confused about how to word such a thing. "I don't know what's wrong with me Troy. I think it's the lack of sleep." Troy looked over at me at the stoplight, "I have lack of sleep Gabs and I don't have these crazy mood swings that I can't decide if I want my child or not."

"That's not fair. You don't have to breastfeed her,"

"Then introduce bottles if it is too much." Troy said simply, I turned my head out of the window because I hated that we were fighting. "We have been parents for two weeks and we are already fighting." I mumbled, "Because something is wrong and you aren't saying anything. I can help you more. I can do something else but you are shutting me out like always."

"Troy, I'm not shutting you out! I don't know my emotions either. I don't understand what the hell is wrong with me. Sometimes I just want to lock myself in my room and other times I just want to hold her for hours. I don't know what's wrong with me."

Troy had pulled into the clubhouse parking lot where Melissa and Josh were getting married, the golf coarse behind him. He put the car into park and he ran his hands over his face. "Brie, I don't want to do this right now. Pinky promises we finish this conversation soon."

"What do you mean you don't want to do this right now? We don't walk away from fights." My words flew back at him, "Come on," he shut the car off and he got out of the car. I followed suit and when he got to the front of the car, I shut my door and then he pulled me gently by my wrists closer to him. He lowered his lips to the top of my head and he rested them there for a minute. "I love you," three simple words, "And I hate that something is wrong and maybe it's because you don't understand either but I hate it because you are battling emotions much greater than I can fix with simple words. I hate that we are fighting over such a stupid thing on a special day for Josh and Mel,"

I pulled my head away from him and he squeezed my wrists to keep me close. His blue eyes looked into mine with something filled with sadness. I took a deep breath trying to fight off tears because I didn't want to ruin my make-up that was already done.

I loved that we didn't walk away from fights. It was probably my favorite part about our relationship together. "Maybe tonight, we can leave the reception a little early and just talk after Logan is asleep." I told him; he nodded his head, "Okay."

"I love you Troy,"

A smile took over the corner of his lips and he kissed me. "Bolton! Let's go!" Troy spun around to see Zach yelling at him, "One second!" Troy held up a finger and Zach grumbled from afar, "I'll see you in a bit." He kissed my forehead and was racing across the parking lot to catch up.

I stopped myself and I looked at the clubhouse where Melissa was getting ready, or finishing getting ready. I went to the front doors and was quickly escorted back to the lady in white. "Thank God! You are finally here."

"Sorry, mental breakdown about leaving my child." I forced a playful smile and Mallory gaped, "I did the same thing when I left Audrey for the first time. Miserable." I nodded my head while flowers were passed out, pictures were being taken in the room, and every different second there was another flash. I put on a smile when Ellie grabbed my arm gently. "Are you okay?"

"Just tired. I do have an infant that I am caring for."

Ellie pulled me into a hug, "Something is wrong, we will be having a talk later."

"Guys! It's time to line up!" I pulled away from Ellie and she squeezed my wrist, "Okay?" I nodded my head while I again, battled back tears, but I held them at bay just for Melissa. This was her day; I was not going to ruin her day. I sent out a big breath and I folded my hands around the flower. I walked with Ellie to where we were setting up. Melissa grabbed her dad's arm with a smile while I found Troy.

Troy kissed my temple, the music started and all of us began to walk down the aisle, one by one, foot by foot, toe by toe we walked down the aisle.


Melissa let out a little scream of laughter as Josh picked her up easily; they were both filled with grins as they were in the middle of taking pictures. I smiled because they were adorable and I was happy for both of them. I still remember way back when I met Josh. I smiled softly and Ellie slid in next to me. We had already taken two hundred pictures it felt like and my face was worn out.

"Can we talk before you go pick up Logan?"

"Do you want to go pick up Logan with me?" I suggested, Ellie nodded her head, "Yea, I would like that." I went over to the boys who all had a beer in their hand. I ran my hand over Troy's shoulder, "Can I have the car keys? Ellie and I are going to go pick up Logan."

"Do you want me to go?" Troy asked, he reached into his pocket and I shook my head, "It's okay. You can stay. I am just going to feed her and then come back out. Your parents should be out here by then to take her for a little bit since we aren't staying that long tonight."

"Okay," he pulled the keys out and he drops them into my hand. He then stole a quick kiss, "I love you,"

"I love you too,"

I turned away and I caught up with Ellie, she smiled, "Come on, I have missed my Gabs,"

"I have missed you El,"

We got into the car, "Is everything okay? Don't get angry at Troy about this but he wanted me to talk to you. He figured maybe it would be easier to talk about with a friend." I hesitated because Troy shouldn't be talking about this stuff with our friends but I understood what he was saying. I pressed my lips together and I drove the car for a couple of minutes, "I don't know what is wrong with me Ellie,"

"Are you having any negative thoughts?"

"Towards myself?"

"Or Logan,"

"Absolutely not. I love everything about Logan. I just some days don't want to do anything and I think I am just tired and trying to recover from the birth still. I don't understand why this is such a big deal?"

Ellie looked at me for a couple of minutes trying to gain her thoughts, "I think Troy is just worried about you. You aren't his vibrant wife, the one who is constantly talking and laughing. I told him it was probably just your hormones coming back after a long pregnancy and then everything that happened after the birth. He said you aren't sleeping much."

"No moms are ever caught up on sleep Ellie,"

"I know, I also told Troy that."

"I am scared she will just stop breathing and Troy and I will sleep through it. I just watch her sleep and I can't ask Troy to because then he will get mad at me for watching her sleep. I don't know the last time I got some solid sleep."

"Gabs, Logan will be fine."

"She was barely breathing when I gave birth Ellie," Ellie looked over at me and I pulled into my parent's driveway. "Gabs,"

"I know, it's stupid but I am scared." I fiddled with my hands while I battled back tears, "I love her so much and I don't want anything to happen to her. She is my baby and I don't want anything to happen to her under my watch."

"Come on, let's go see this precious baby," we walked into the house to hear a screaming Logan, my mother instincts kicked in. I walked to the living room where my dad was trying to calm the screams coming from her mouth. My dad turned to catch my eye, "Hey look, your favorite person is here," I walked over and I slipped Logan out of my dad's arm.

Her crying continued but I noticed one thing that normally makes her pretty mad, her swaddle wasn't tight enough. I slipped off my heels and I then leaned over onto the couch where I undid her swaddle, causing the screams to louden even more. I cringed slightly but I quickly made her swaddle extra tight. I then adjusted her hat and put her back onto my shoulder where I rubbed her back.

She slowly began to calm down again and I kissed her temple, "Well hell,"

"I should have mentioned she likes to be tight in her swaddle." I said with a sigh, "I have been pretty forgetful lately."

"I didn't even think about that, hey, you have your daughter down." I smiled and I went over to hug my dad from the side. "Thanks for watching her. Where is mom?"

"She is outside with the twins." I nodded, "Ellie and I are going to go upstairs and feed Logan before we leave. Okay?"

"Yup, have fun," I nodded my head while I guided Ellie upstairs to my parent's room. "Gabi, girl, you are a great mom."

"I just fixed one thing that I noticed."

"That's what mom's do."


Troy loosened his tie from around his neck while I pulled Logan out of her car seat. She was sleeping after an eventful night of being passed around from person to person this evening. The entire team to families, to friends all wanted their hands on her.

I crawled into the bed and I let her rest on my chest. "Ellie said you guys had a good talk." I nodded my head while I stroked the back of Logan's head. "Yes,"

"She told me about your fear."

I didn't even look up at him, "Gabs,"

"It's a legit fear," I said, my voice cracking under pressure. "I know," the bed eased down and he came up next to Logan and I. "I understand." His hand ran under my chin and he lifted it up gently, "Brie, look at me for a minute," my eyes burned trying to keep tears back. "That moment in the hospital room was one of the scariest moments of my entire life. It goes right up there with our break-up. Something I never want to relive again." He looked down at Logan, a faint smile crossing his lip. "She is here with us. We can only do what we know what to do. You need rest though, if you want, we can take turns watching her in the middle of the night. You need some sleep though. Your emotions are going crazy and this is what happens when Gabi doesn't have sleep."

I took one of my hands to wipe away tears because Troy was being wonderful when I wasn't being wonderful. Troy shifted Logan out of my arms and he then leaned over to set her in her bassinet. He then pulled me close to his chest, his hands rubbing my back gently; Troy pulled me closer to him, his lips pressing to my forehead. "Gabs,"

"I am tired Troy,"

"I bet you are. How can we fix this though? This isn't going to work for us."

My fingers found his while I twisted his hand into mine, "It's not fair that my fear is being pushed on to you to watch her and you not get sleep."

"Right now, I am feeling great. I am great on sleep you are not. I need you to get some sleep. I will let you feed her and then I will stay up with her."

"Troy, you have CY Young tomorrow."

"Gabi, this isn't regular season. It's a stupid award,"

"That you really want and deserve."

"It's not like I have to pitch tomorrow Gabs, my work is done. We wanted a baby in an off-season for a reason. I am not taking no for an answer, you are irrational right now. Fed Logan and then I am going to take her out of the room until she needs to eat again. Understood?"

I bit on my lip and I nodded my head, too tired to even argue with Troy. "Okay,"

"Thank you,"


Troy's POV

I rubbed my eyes while I stared at Logan who was staring back at me. It was some odd time in the morning and I knew she needed to eat but I also knew Gabi was actually sleeping. We had already done one extra feeding and my weary, eyes glanced up to the clock to see it was almost four thirty.

"Do you really needs to eat?" she moved her arms around while I leaned closer to her, "I am going on about three hours of sleep little girl, your momma is exhausted, is eating really important?"

She kicked her legs and the swaddle started to come undone. I shook my head because I had dozed off a couple of times on the couch but both times Logan was kicking and making noises. I knew this fear was one a lot of mothers had but we needed sleep. We couldn't do this for a long time.

Logan cooed and made another noise and I smiled. I reached over and I picked her up, "I'm tired Lolo," I kissed the top of her head because I was due at the stadium in about twelve hours to get the results of the CY young winner. I situated Logan into my arms and I picked up her blanket, pacifier, and my cell phone. I shut off some lights in the hallway along the way until I got to our bedroom.

My hip edged the door open, Skip was sitting on the bed licking his paw, Gabi was curled up still sleeping and I thanked God that she was sleeping because I was chalking every single emotion up to lack of sleep. Moving across the room, I sat down on my side of the bed, I eased down and I let Logan coo close to Gabi's face. Gabi stirred a little bit, my lips turned up again because Gabi's did.

"Hi little girl," Gabi took Logan's hand and she kissed it. I edged closer and Gabi looked up at me, "What time is it?"

"About four thirty,"

Gabi nodded her head; "I'll go feed her downstairs so you can get some sleep."

I stopped her, "Brie, I think we only have a couple of hours until you'll fully be up. How about you feed her in here and then we both get some rest together. I watched her sleep for a long time tonight and she is fine. I know it could take one thing but she doesn't have blankets, siding, or anything that could harm her breathing, okay?" her eyes looked at me, "Troy,"

"I get it Brie, I do, but we have got to learn how to sleep. She is going to be fine. Tonight we just do a couple of hours and tomorrow we extend it even more. Sleep is needed; you don't function well off of little sleep. I know you know this."

She only nodded her head and I looked at Logan, her eyes searching for Gabi, I kissed her forehead, "I love you."


Saturday, November 16th, 2019

Gabi's POV

I rocked Logan gently while she slept in her car seat; Troy was putting on a microphone while holding back a yawn. He slept until noon today while Logan and I did stuff around the house. I was feeling better today, much better than yesterday.

I let out a big breath because I was completely nervous for Troy; I just wanted him to win this because he deserved this. "Oh my goodness, look at her," I looked up to see our GM walk through, he bent over to look at her and I smiled. "How are you feeling Gabi?"

"Good, good, I am a little bit behind on sleep though." He smiled while he looked at her for another moment. Troy walked over and he kissed my temple, "Troy, I hope this goes well!"

"Thanks Sir, I hope it does too. I have dreamed about this since I was a little boy." The GM smiled while Logan began to stir in her car seat. I leaned over and I unbuckled her from her car seat, she squirmed in my arms until she was content against me. Troy grabbed the heavy blanket from the car seat and put it over her body. We were standing outside in November, it wasn't too chilly outside but it wasn't that warm either.

"Here, let me see her," Troy took Logan who curled against his chest almost naturally. He stuck the blanket around her while we he went around to talk to people. I smiled because he was a natural at this whole parenting thing. "There you are," I turned to see my dad and I smiled, "Hey," he reached over and pulled me into a hug, "How are you?"

"Good, a lot better than yesterday."

"That's good." He scanned the area and he settled on Troy and Logan. "How is she doing?"

"Good, she only woke up twice last night wanting to eat,"

"That was sweet of her,"

"She is already up a pound and half from birth," I remarked, "So somebody is eating very well,"

My dad smiled while he rubbed my lower back, Troy ventured back over to us while Logan had fallen back asleep on his chest. "Troy, it's about time!" somebody yelled, Troy turned towards me and I reached over for Logan. "I want to see her," my dad said, I nodded as Troy gave Logan to my dad. She only fussed for a minute before doing the same exact thing she just did to Troy.

I tucked the blanket in around her and I kissed her forehead. Her eyes opened to look at me and I smiled, "You are beautiful, yes," she grimaced and then closed her eyes again. Troy was being set up with the microphone and they turned the Jumbotron on to the announcement. My stomach crawled with nerves when it popped up, "Hello! It is time for us to announce our AL CY Young award winner! We have discussed multiply options of who could win because pitching was very dominant this year."

"Alright, so here we go,"

The man began to undo the envelope probably as slowly as ever. Troy was chewing on his fingernail and then he would rub the back of his neck from the nerves that were racing through him. I pressed my lips together and bit down onto my tongue. They pulled the thing out and the man cleared his throat.

"Your 2019 AL CY Young winner is….Troy Bolton from the Kansas City Royals," I yelped in excitement as did the entire grounds. They read off his season stats, I ran over to him really quickly as I hugged his waist and kissed his cheek. "Congrats baby," he smiled at me and gave me a quick kiss, his smile was huge as they announced they were going to Troy in Kansas City.

I stepped out of the picture and I gleamed with happiness. If Troy was happy, I was happy. Our emotions seemed to always be connected some way or another. I looked at Logan who was awake after the small set of noise. "Logy, daddy won!" she looked at me and I smiled at her, my dad was grinning and I looked over at Troy. "Troy, congratulations on the CY young!" the announcer spoke, Troy grinned, "Thank you!"

"I guess we should also congratulate you on the new baby as well!"

"Thanks, it has been a crazy couple of weeks!"

"You had a girl right?"

"Yes, her name is Logan Brielle, she is almost two weeks old."

"Are you getting any sleep?"

"Barely," Troy joked with a smile, "Does the CY Young make up for that lack of sleep?"

"Oh man, you have no idea, I don't think I will be able to sleep. It is a complete honor to have this award. I have dreamed about it since I was a young child, since I knew what a CY young was. The best of the best get the CY Young and that's what I want."

"Do you regret signing a long term contract last year after such a solid year this year?"

"No. I was staying here no matter what. My family is here. My wife's parents and siblings are here. We want our daughter to grow up around family and I love this organization. We are going to take it to the top and win a World Series for this town. I'm staying."

"You had 11 wins in a row to start the season, did each start make you even more nervous?"

"Yes, after the fifth one it was like, okay, this isn't a coincidence you are actually pitching very well. I just tried to keep my mind with my teammates and to help them win. The whole goal is to get a team win. We have each other on our backs together and we will succeed again. Last year wasn't a fluke year."

"Thank you Troy and congratulations again on the baby and the CY Young! We hope you have a fantastic off season!"

"Thank you!" then Troy was off air, he took his microphone and headphones off. He then came running over to me, I braced myself as he picked me up in a tight hug, I laughed while he squeezed me close. Troy laughed, "I did it! I did it!" I kissed his cheek and I looked at him, "I am so proud of you!"

"Thank you Brie, for letting me do this," I kissed him and he let me go, he then went over to me dad. He took Logan from him and he kissed her cheek. Logan cried but Troy put the blanket back over her, "Where do you want to celebrate Logan?"

"Mom's breast," I joked, Troy and my dad laughed while I stroked Logan's forehead. "She is so precious Gabi,"

"We are doing something right. We know how to make pretty kids."


Wow. You guys. Let me just start…how about those Kansas City Royals right NOW? HOLY SHIT! People in KC are going crazy! This also explains my absence…a little. Between the Royals and school I have been swamped. I thought about doing a midweek post and then well…it was Thursday. It has just been CRAZY. I have midterms coming up, more tests, next weekend is already busy. It is just getting crazy. That holiday feel seems to already be here in early October! Wow.

I hope you guys have had a great two weeks and I hope you enjoyed the chapter! More exciting things are going to be happening in the Bolton world! Yay!

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