A/N: Over 60,000 words and almost 30 CHAPTERS. Thats alot! :D


Emma decided to stay in their place, who is she kidding, she Could not do something else, she Could not bring herself to move. He was gone, Oh god! He left and something inside of her told her that maybe she will never see him and She hated him, she hated him for making her feel like that, sad, broken, empty. Why? Why he had to leave, why everything have to be so complicated, why couldnt she just... why couldnt they just be happy?... She cried again and again, sobbing until it was hard to breathe, when she felt that there were not tears left, just the thought of him, of his parting , brought them down again. She laid in bed, sobbing until she felt dumb, until she couldnt feel the pain, until everything seemed so far away and she felt drugged in pain but still didnt intent to leave the bed.

She stayed there until pass afternoon. She knew her parents would be worried and searching for her, but at the moment she couldnt care any less, and she couldnt help to blame them, especially Snow, she was one of the reasons of him leaving and she was so mad, at them, at her damn princess life, at him, damn pirate... Why she had to love him so much, why he had to leave...leaving her without nothing. What if he got killed, what would she do, how could she ever smile again, how could she think of a future or happiness without him?.

She couldnt stay there forever even if she knew it probably would take days for someone to finally find her and it was tempting, hiding from the world, not facing the reality but she couldnt do that either. She had to do something, there must be something she could do, she needed to save him, so he can save her from a miserable life without him, without his love.

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She got to her castle and found her parents in the living room, they both with worried faces and notable relief when they saw her coming in.

"Emma!"- Snow ran to her –"Honey, where were you"- she said while hugging the princess but she didnt return the affection

"You have some explaining to do, young lady"- David told her – "You scared us to death"- But Emma just looked at them, not sign of regret, guilt or any other feeling in her face.

"Did he leave?"- She asked Snow

"Emma"- Snow answered, trying to tell her that it was not the time to talk about it with her father around

"Who?"- David asked , confused. Looking at them both.

"Killian... Is he gone?"- she asked him, ignoring her mother. Just asking, broke her heart because she knew the answer

"Killian? Oh Captain Jones... Yes, he said to couldnt stay after everything that happened yesterday. Dont worry, I already told your mother, we will find another way to find your brother"- the king responded

"And you let him leave?! Just like that? He is going to after the Dark One. We have to find him before its too late, dad"- She couldnt help the mix of emotions inside of her, bringing her to the borderline all the time.

" I cant stop him. He is a pirate... Killian? Did you call him, Killian? What is this about, Emma"- He noticed the saddnes and worried about the pirate in her face and tone of her voice and he was confused but certainly didnt like what was coming to his mind.

"I love him"- She said, without blinking, without second thoughts. There were nothing else to lose, she was broken beyond repair anyway and playing the perfect little princess to make her parents happy was not one of her concerns at the moment

"Emma!"- Snow exclaimed, horrified.

"Wha, what?!"- David´s mouth fell open...No, he heard wrong, this must be some sorf of stupid dream.

"David, she cares about him. He spent months around us, its just that"- the queen tried to cover it up

"I love him and He loves me"- Emma felt tears in her eyes because it hurt so much . David was in shock and Snow didnt know what to say or do. "You have to find him, you have to do something, father , please"- she begged

"Idiot! Im such idiot for trusting the pirate for a second, for allowing him to be around you, here ... in our home!"- He yelled with anger

"Dad!"

"What did he do to you!"- he yelled again, not caring if someone could hear them.

"David, nothing happened. Emma has a little crush on him, its just that, dont worry"

"You knew!"- he asked no so happy to his wife.

"Just from yesterday, after the ball"- she explained.

"And you didnt tell me!"

"Can you stop! This isnt important! I love him and he is going after the Dark One alone, you have to find him"- Emma interrupted them.

"Yes, I will find him... to kill him myself!"- Charming´s jaw clenched and fits forming in his hands. Damn pirate how could he even dare to look at his princess.

"If you kill him, you will kill every chance for me to be happy, dad"- she said, trying not to break down infront of her parents but wanting them to see how much Killian meant to her.

"Emma... how did this happen, when, WHAT did happen"

"David! What are you asking! Emma is smart and she wouldnt do anything improper"- Snow said offended... If they knew.

"We are wasting time here! You can ask me whatever you want to know after you send some men to go after him"

"He is a pirate, Emma, and he didnt ask for any help... Why would I risk my men´s life for a pirate"

"What! Can you listen to yourself!- I love him, he is the love of my life! And You got him into this, You sent him after the dark one and he is trying to help us, to find Henry!"- Oh god, this was unbelievable.

"Oh Emma, sweety..."- he moved closer to her –"You really believe that? He will try to get revenge, Im sure. He is a pirate but he is not trying to bring Henry back, he only came here for the gold, for a price"- he tried to caress her arm but she moved away.

"Yes, he is a pirate but he loves me,dad!"

"This is my fault. Im sorry, David"- Snow said –"I should had been closer to Emma and this would not happen"

"Dear lord, He is lucky he is far away if I had him close now... Im still waiting for some explanation here, princess"

"You really dont want to help him, you wont do it"- Emma said, almost whispering, overwhelming fear running throught her body

"Why would I? When he came into my home and took advantage and manipulated my little girl"- her father answered.

"Im not a little girl! You didnt seem to mind when you promised me to Graham when I was only 16! Im not a teenager anymore!"- She was letting anger overcome

"You know why we did it, Emma. After what happened with Henry, we knew the Dark One would come after you and all those rumors about him planning on asking your hand for himself or his son...We couldnt take the chance, we had to protect you and being promise to someone else was the only choice and Graham... He was the perfect one"- Emma rolled her eyes at the mention of him.- "You were okay with it, until now..."

"I was never okay with it! But I did it because I was young and I just wanted for you to be happy. After what happened with my brother, I was everything you had and I tried , I tried so hard to the perfect daughter, the perfect little princess but I was never happy... And Now... I found him and I was, I finally felt like I could be myself, I finally discovered what happiness was"

"This is our fault, we shouldnt let him to be here and We overprotected you, Emma , to much. So the first man that came into the castle and winked at you and you believed him without second thoughts. He is good looking, I will give him that but he tried to seduce you like he did before with countless women"- Snow said and she really believed all of that.

"Do you have the numbers!"

"You are not the first princess, honey. He has quite the reputation, not matter how innocent his eyes look or how sweet his smile can be"- Snow explained

"You dont know him and his reputation is based in rumors, of course he needed it. He cant be looked as a weak soft man. But there are not truth, he is a good person and YOU! What about second chances? What About you forgiving Regina, of all of people? Why cant you give him a second chance, why wont you believe me?!"

"Because you are blind, you are young and naive"

"Im not! Any of them! Im a woman, Im a woman in love and I need you to save him... I will never forgive him for leaving me, for doing this to me but you have to save him, father, mother , please"- she didnt know what else to say or what she could do for them to do something.

"Im sorry, Emma. He is responsable for his decisions and actions and its the best for you to forget all of this. You will find the perfect one, you will find true love like your mother and I did, and believe me darling. It isnt a pirate"- her father answered and her mother looked at her with pained eyes. That was it.

"I will never forgive him but I will never forgive you for letting him die either"- She walked away, almost running to her bedroom. She felt like yelling and saying mean things and they wouldnt help the situation, so she left, yet with a broken heart.

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As soon as she closed the door of her bedroom, she wanted to drop herself into her bed and sob and forget the world. She gasped when she found a few things over her pillow, slowly with tears falling , she walked toward it. She sat on the bed and her hand went to grab the red rose, she caressed it with her fingers and pressed it against her nose, closing her eyes and she smiled because it reminded her of her 21th birthday private party, the night she gave herself to him, when he made her feel a full woman, his, in the room full of roses and candles, surrounded by smell of sex, roses and Killian. She cried and let the rose on her lap and she moved to her pillow to grab the book on it. She smiled again, It was that book, the one he never read or let her read, his mother´s. Only allow for the Jones to read, not matter how much she insisted, he wouldnt let her touch it, "not yet" he said always with a beautiful smile and Now it was in her power, she opened it softly and it was a note in the undercover.

"Emma, my love, I hope you can forgive me .

I love you, princess. I love you as I never thought I could love.

I will come back, believe me, I will always come back to you, Swan.

Smile, try to be happy. Theres not day will go by I wont think of you

Yours and only, Killian Jones"

She closed it and pressed it against her heart, crying. This was a family treasure and he gave it to her, it warmed her heart knowing that he took the time to grab those things and come to her room before leaving... leaving, oh how could him. How could she love him and hate him so much at the same time. She sobbed again and opened her eyes when she noticed something falling from the book, it was a little papper, she rested the book and the rose in the bed and opened to find a necklace , Oh my dear lord, it was Liam´s navy necklace... She pressed it against herself and cried again, it seemed that crying, sobbing was all she could do and it helped because it made her feel dumb, empty but didnt make the pain go away. The necklace...It was all he had left from his brother, the brother he wanted to revenge, the brother who changed his life and broke him so badly to lose. And she had it in her hands. She had all of his treasures in her hands. She opened the papper that it was covered on and read what it said

"This is a promise, I promise you that you will see me again. I will come back .

I will come back for this, for you.

Treasure them as I treasure your love. Hold onto them and I will always be with you.

I love you, my princess

KJ"

And she couldnt stop crying, He left everything that mattered to him, his treasures... with her. It was a promise, he would come back. In that moment as much as She wanted to hate him for making her feel so bad and broken, she couldnt second thought for a instant that she loved him, with every beat of her heart and she would be damn fool if she let the love of her life get killed by the crocodile or his idiot of son. With her parents help or not, she would do something, even if it was only to kill the damn pirate herself but she had to something.

Yeah, not matter what, she wouldnt lose her true love. Destiny, princess life and parents to be damned.


A/N: what do you think? What will she do?- Until next time, readers :)