I'm actually updating again! I feel so proud…which is kinda sad since I used to update, like, 3 in a night. Anywho, I meant to update over the weekend but things got really busy :(

So I have one response to a review but I can't remember who posted it. But here it is: this goes to who ever posted about Shogu Chara: I LOVE that manga/anime!!! It's one of my favorites! Along with Fairy Tail, Fruits Basket, Neck and Neck, and Tsubasa by CLAMP. I am a total Ikuto fangirl!!! And a Kyo (from Fruits basket) fangirl. And a totally Grey (form Fairy Tail) fangirl. And a Shihu (from neck and neck) fangirl! I'm kinda a nerd like that! Hahah. Anyway, yeah, Fang does remind me of Ikuto. I was thinking about that before I read your comment!

Enjoy,

Nightwings93


Max POV: Chapter 29

I paced back and forth in my room.

You need to break up with him to keep him safe.

Are you kidding? Just tell him the past. He'll accept you. And then you guys can whoop Sam's ass and live happily ever after.

Don't be stupid. He'll hate you. You ruined the lives of innocent people. It's better to break up with him now and get it over with. Plus, you'll be keeping him safe.

Just tell him

Break up with him

Tell him!

Break up!

"Everyone just shut up!" I yelled.

This is seriously not a good sign. Multiple voices in my head. That's a dead ringer for insane person!

I groaned and flopped on my bed. There had to be a middle ground I was missing. I could just wait until after winter break.

I mean, that would be a shitty Christmas gift for Fang. Merry Christmas! Oh, by the way, I'm breaking up with you.

Yeah, that would suck. Major.

I'll tell Fang after Christmas. Yeah, that'll work. I'll be keeping him and his family safe. But, even though I'm doing something right for a change, I still feel like shit.

* * * * *

"Hey! You ready for practice? The guys are here!" Fang called while knocking on my door.

We had one day until out Christmas Eve gig. One day till I set my 'break-up plan' into action.

Usually, I like my 'plans' and think they're pretty awesome. This plan just sucks. I'd been distant all week, and I know Fang felt it. I was trying to make this break-up easier. If I start distancing myself, it won't be as hard when we really do break-up.

"I'll be right out!" I yelled back.

I quickly slipped my jeans on and ran out the door. I smiled up at Fang. I couldn't help it. He was just so perfect. Maybe it was for the best that I break up with him. He's so amazing, and I'm so flawed. I don't deserve him, and he doesn't need me to constantly drag him behind.

"Ready to sing?" Fang asked taking my hand.

"Of course!" I said in a fake energetic voice.

A shadow passed over Fang's face, and he frowned slightly. He could tell it was fake. It was all fake.

I leaned into Fang and wrapped my arm around his waist. In turn, he wrapped his arm around my shoulders.

I savored the moment. It would be one of our last. I memorized the feel of his arm around my shoulders, keeping me safe from the world. I drank in the sight of the corners of Fang's mouth twitching up into a smile, the sound of Fang's beating heart as my ear rested against his chest, his smell, everything. I didn't want to forget a single thing about Fang. I loved him.

Iggy broke up our moment by sticking his head out of the music room door.

"Ahem," Iggy coughed. "I hate to break up this moment. I really do. But-"

"We need to practice. We've got one day until the show," Gazzy finished as he popped his head out as well.

"They're doing it again!" I complained to Fang. "It's that creepy twin thing."

Fang just chuckled. He gets amusement out of me being freaked out.

I rolled my eyes. "Whatever, let's just practice."

"What song do you wanna start with?" Kyle asked from the drum kit.

"How about we start with Brick by Boring Brick by Paramore? Max hasn't had a chance to sing it with the band yet," Fang suggested as he picked up his electric guitar.

Everyone nodded. I took my position at the front of the band. I wasn't going to play for this song.

"1…2…3…4," Fang counted off and the band started up the song.

Well she lives in the fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of a world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her

The angles are all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12

I hated this verse. It was too close to my life. Fang was my prince. He found me when I needed him more than ever. And now, the clock had struck twelve. I had to face reality.

Well make sure to build your home brick by boring brick
or the wolf's gonna blow it down
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Woah, woah.

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic

This was another verse I hated. I've built a whole around Fang and the Martinez family, but none of it's real. I can't live in their picture perfect world. I don't deserve it.


If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it

But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Or even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da...

The music stopped, and I stood there out of breath. I put everything into that sing. Everything I was feeling. They could tell. Not just Fang. All of them. They saw right through me, and I hated it.

"Um, why doesn't Fang do a song now?" I suggested wanting to get the attention off me.

"Ah, yeah, sure," Fang muttered as he undid his guitar strap and handed it to me. "Electric Feel, guys," Fang told us as he took his spot at the head of the band.

The music started and just as Fang was about to sing he turned and sang directly to me.

all along the western front

people line up to receive

she got the current in her hand

just shock you like you won't believe

sun in the amazon

with the voltage running through her skin

standing there with nothing on

she gonna teach me how to swim

i said ooh girl

shock me like an electric eel

baby girl

turn me on with your electric feel

i said ooh girl

shock me like an electric eel

baby girl

turn me on with your electric feel

all along the eastern shore

put your circuits in the sea

this is what the world is for

making electricity

you can feel it in your mind

oh you can do it all the time

plug it in, change the world

you are my electric girl

i said ooh girl

shock me like an electric eel

baby girl

turn me on with your electric feel

i said ooh girl

shock me like an electric eel

baby girl

turn me on with your electric feel

do what you feel now

electric feel now

do what you feel now

electric feel now

do what you feel now

electric feel now

do what you feel now

electric feel now

do what you feel now

electric feel now

I looked back at Fang and wanted to cry. Why did he pick now of all times to sing to me?

I wasn't worth it. I wasn't worth his time. I didn't deserve his love.

I was about to do the only honest thing my life, break up with Fang, but it made me feel like the worst person in the world.


Hope you liked it! Next chapter is the big, bad break up!

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Nightwings93