"Roxas!" suddenly I was literally jumped from my sleep. My body sprang up in the air- a tingling shiver jolted down my spine all the way to my toes as the sudden lack of a soft compression on my back gave me a startling feeling of falling. "Roxas!" again I heard someone call, my body sprang up when the warm and poofy covers were stolen off my body, "What?" I cried, my eyes wide as I sat almost terrified on my bed, I saw my brother kneeling at the far corner of my bed, a giant smile on his face as he held the blanket in his hands, "It's time to get up," Sora laughed.
"Why'd you wake me up like that?" my voice came out a little rushed- it was quite a wakeup call, he only laughed more, "Your face…" he started, he continued to laugh about my face between gasps for air before he formed a slow and somewhat coherent sentence. "You… I was trying… to get you up… You were so scared!" he began laughing even more, "I tried to get you up… but.. but you just kept snoring away," "I wasn't snoring," I mumbled while he laughed, he fell over on the bed, holding his sides, "Oh ow," he laughed more, "You- I should've recorded that!" I glared at my brother but his eyes were closed tight and leaking as he slightly rolled around at the end of my bed- causing my evil glare to go unseen.
Sliding my foot straight I pressed my toes against his upper arm as he continued to gasp and laugh, I stretched my muscles to allow me to push him off the bed but I only managed to move him a few inches before he rolled over and sat up again. "Heh… anyways," he chuckled a little more, "I tried to get you up but you just ignored me," he sighed, "I asked Zell if it was really important you get up- he told me to dump water on you if I had to but I knew that would just get you angry…" he began to chuckle again, "I'll have to remember that next time though- and to video tape it," that's it. I grabbed a pillow and knocked him upside the head as I threw it, his body fell backwards as he landed on the floor- laughing his entire fall down.
Slowly I climbed out of bed, walking over to my dressers before turning to ask my brother a question, "What did Zell want?" my brother was sitting back on his hands with his legs slightly bent in front of him, "Huh? Oh… um… I think he said something about him being busy tomorrow- so I guess he wants to hang out with us today instead," nodding my head I looked at the dresser again- I didn't really feel like getting dressed. "What does he plan on doing?" "I don't know, I'll go ask," he stood up and ran out of the room, running to where ever Zell was, "Roxas," I heard my brother call. Crossing my arms for a little more warmth I slowly walked out into the other room.
"It's up to you where we go," Sora said with a smile on his face as he spun around in the barstool, I sat one away from him, not wanting to get hurt if he fell or decided to kick. I sat against the cold chair and scooted back before pulling my knees up to my chest, my bare heels hooking on the edge of the seat, I continued to watch Sora in amazement before looking at Zell- who was looking at my brother over his coffee mug with the same amazed look I had. "What do you wanna do today?" my brother laughed as he spun back and forth in the chair- no longer around in circles. I continued to look at him before asking, "Did you have sugary cereal this morning?"
My brother stopped instantly and looked at me with a very serious look on his face, like he wasn't sure if he should believe whatever I asked or something. "Maybe…" he finally mumbled, I smiled and my brother's giant grin returned before he began spinning again, I looked over at Zell, "You didn't give him coffee… did you?" Zell looked at me like I was insane, he started shaking his head, "No… even I know better than to do that," I began nodding my head- Zell did know my brothers hyper side, "He helped himself," he quietly said before sipping his coffee.
"What do you want to do?" the older blond asked me as Sora stopped spinning and jumped up, almost falling but laughing the whole time before he began walking and opened the fridge, "I'm hungry…" he mumbled, "Yeah," I started, "Me too." Zell looked at me like he was shocked before he smiled, "We could order food later or go to a restaurant or something," he said as he put his cup in the sink. I nodded my head, I'd like that a lot, "Roxas!" my brother cried, I jumped and looked over at him in panic only to find him now standing in front of a closed fridge and looking at me with a huge pout on his face, "Zell got doughnuts and didn't share," I smiled, "It's Zell's money…" I started but my brother cut in, "You're a teacher, aren't you supposed to be the epitome of sharing and stuff?"
Instinct told me to tread carefully- Genesis would've gotten either really angry or start laughing if Sora made that comment to him, Zell's face only looked a little shocked before he raised an eyebrow, "Is that your way of asking if you can have one?" Sora shrugged, "If I did ask would it be a yes?" "Most likely," "Then- can me and Roxas have a doughnut please?" Zell smiled before nodding his head, he walked over and grabbed the box from up top a cabinet before holding it open for Sora, instantly grabbed a jelly filled doughnut, Zell took a few steps to stand in front of me on the other side of the counter. "Do you want one?" "Hmm… maybe, what do you have?" I leaned closer, letting my feet hook on their intended place on the barstool.
"Can I have that chocolate and glazed one?" "You can have any of them," Zell voice sounded like it was trying to negotiate with me or something. Slowly I reached towards him and pinched the chocolate ring doughnut that was also glazed. I wiggled my hand to get the other doughnut unstuck from it, I pulled my hand back slowly and glanced up a few times to find Zell staring at me intently. "Thanks…" I said quietly, unsure of why is was staring at me and hoping it was just because he wanted me to thank him but he continued to stare at me a little while longer before his eyes moved over and our gazes met, a giant smile on his face, "It's all good- if I had known you guys like doughnuts I would've bought them sooner. "
I began picking at my doughnut while Sora's was pretty much gone, "Sora, how did you know he had any doughnuts?" "Huh?" he said with doughnut filled cheeks, "Oh, I saw him bring them in and I forgot all about them till just now." nodding my head I continued to eat it, Zell was leaning against the counter with a serious look on his face but he was zoning out and I didn't want to get him angry or something by asking him why. Sora also noticed Zell's change in demeanor but he spoke up, "They're old…" he mumbled to Zell, who snapped his head up to look at Sora in surprise. Looking from one to the other- I was so confused, what was old? "Some were accidents… but most of them only happened when he was hanging out with Angeal."
Suddenly I realized what they were talking about- it wasn't all that sudden, I mean, Sora had just pretty much told me flat out what they were talking about. My doughnut was gone now so I stood up, "I'll be back in a minute," I mumbled as I walked to my room, finding my short sleeve hoodie on the ground before walking back out and walking into the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror, there wasn't anything really all that bad to be shown where my beater didn't cover, but I stretched my arm across my chest and turned around a bit, looking at my shoulder blade and arm in the mirror. And just like I thought, scars.
There was a few dark circular ones- cigarette burns, but they were scattered, it's not like he planned them out, and it's not like there was very many- I could only see two. But there was also some thin and short scars that shinned white in all random directions- just small little scars like I landed on glass or something- which is probably what happened except the word 'Landed' was something more like 'thrown' and something was more like 'pushed against' .And then there were a few dark and thicker but not bulging or deep marks- also scars, except these were from fingernails. And nothing sexual, just, "Oh let me 'catch you', oops only my nails made contact," sort of thing.
And when I moved Zell saw a few, I let out a sigh- I never thought about scars, except the ones on my fingers… I wondered if Axel saw them every time I wore a beater- I wonder what he saw in those rare occurrences I changed my shirt in front of him. Well that was never happening again. I pulled on the hoodie and zipped it up 3/4ths of the way, before opened the door and walking back out into the kitchen room and sitting on the barstool I was before, "What?" I asked when they were both looking at me with something like concern, "It's too cold for my liking," I bluffed- it was a little chilly but that was because I wasn't really awake, awake, yet.
Neither of them said anything, Sora's face looked sad before it suddenly lit up and he looked at me with a huge smile on his face, "We should play stories," my brother smiled, I looked at him a bit shocked, shaking my head a little, "We haven't done that in years Sor…" "I know Rox… I miss playing it though…" his smiled continued. "Stories… I don't know that game," Zell started as he looked from Sora to me, my own eyes stayed on my brother. "It was a game Sor and I used to play all the time- almost every day, sometimes more," "We played whenever we were upset," my brother said matter-of-factly, our eyes stayed locked the entire time, Sora was trying to open up in front of Zell and he was bringing me with him. "Well… how do you play?" the older blond asked. "It's sentence for sentence, usually- Rox would start with a really long sentence and then I would add a sentence…" Zell nodded his head like he understood and was waiting for my brother to continue but Sora was gently staring at me.
"It would always turn into something more than that though… we would start have these big ideas about what the place would be like and it'd turn into a discussion…" my brother continued. "Yeah," I started- deciding to add in, "And usually there would be something wrong with the place or something wrong in the place and for some reason I'd be captured or taken and Sora was always the hero that saved me and the world in the end." "I'm an underdog," my brother shrugged with a carefree look on his face, "Underdog?" I asked curiously, my brother's tone was so neutral I didn't understand what he was saying. "Yupp, I can never do jack shit for you in real life, so in some make believe world I come through for you," he smiled.
Before I could say anything- before this whole moment could become even more serious, Zell spoke. "Okay… so you two want to play stories?" My brother nodded his head quickly, that smile still on his face, Zell looked at me and I nodded my head while shrugging my shoulder. We moved to sit in the living room, I sat on the big couch, Sora on the floor looking at me while Zell sat on the smaller couch- we were all pretty close together considering any other time.
"So how do we start?" the older blond asked, he looked out of place- like he had no idea what we were doing even though Sora did a pretty good job at explaining, Sora smiled, "Normally Roxas starts with describing the scenery and stuff," Sora looked at me expectantly. "Umm… okay…" I began, thinking, looking up at the ceiling instead of their faces like it would help me in some way. "In the far future the world will split into many tiny planets that look like nothing but stars, on one special planet- the world is made of water," I looked down at my brother's eyes, which were wide as he imagined what I was saying. "There is a few islands in the water, small enough to walk around a few times in a day- and yes, people soaked and bent the trees to make homes and shops, and it's beautiful to look at, but the real beauty of the planet is found much, much, higher.
"Floating among the lowest of setting clouds- rests the floating islands. These islands spot all across the planet- looking at the masses themselves is breath taking, the dark earth from where the land was once attached below still remains- the roots of the trees and plans stretch far down to dangle and be seen where the soil was now solid enough." Sora was smiling as he zoned out while looking at me. "As you can imagine, cars have no use- and planes are too big, so each person owns a specially tuned bike. Said bike looks a little funny to us now- instead of round wheels it has something like little slabs all lined up back to back with a few inches between. And somehow- the small contraption attached to the core allows it to float, allowing people to travel around their islands in the sky and allowing them to travel even greater distances to other islands.
"Technology on this planet has excelled amazingly, to the point where things like cell phones and computers were pointless- people will return to their simple way of life, tinkering with steel and steam while still respecting the greenery around them. Even auto people have been created- not robots, and not in masses, but rather, a body that was built by tens of people with a purpose. This purpose had to be so great it had to spark interest in the metal men and create life and wanting inside them. But with their responsibility came a physical heart- that beat and pumped and allowed them to care…" I let my voice fade as I could tell Sora was thinking.
My brother instantly began speaking, "All said iron metal men had completed their responsibilities and now, only one remained." Sora turned to look at Zell who looked like a deer in the head lights, "Umm… the one that remained was special though…" We watched him to make sure he was done before I continued. "His job was to protect everyone from outside harm, he often sat at the highest point- to see over the trees and sheet metal houses to watch over everyone, never sleeping or resting because all that mattered was to protect everyone." "He was also very special because unlike others before him, he came to life at the hands of one," my brother held up a finger for emphasis, "person, his life was sparked by the simple needs of one child."
Zell looked like he was getting the hang of it as he began speaking, "And because he was created by a child, the metal man was nothing more than a child himself- a few years older than the little boy to be like an older brother." I turned the story dark, "But tragedy stuck, in the calm of night- when the boy rested in his soft bed with the stars and planets shining through his window, an evil dark smoke filled the streets." "The normally happy and colorful fog that rested around the ground- because it was in the clouds after all, disappeared from the black smoke," Sora always got so into the stories.
"The man of metal was quick to notice this, he watched, trying to think of what it was and how to get rid of it." "He would've continued to panic but he noticed that the trees and flowers and even grass had not died where the smoke touched- meaning no living thing was harmed." I was always into the story telling, I'll admit. "But- he learned that wasn't the real problem, as he watched the smoke he saw a dark figure with glowing eyes walking towards him." "The metal man watched from a distance as the man walked the roads getting closer and closer."
My turn came again, "As he watched the man he noticed that he wasn't looking anywhere- what the man was doing was keeping eye contact with the metal man." "The man stood in front of the metal man, "I'm the ringmaster of nightmares," he said in a calm voice, "And you've been blocking my nightmares from the townspeople," he said to the man of metal." It was Zell's turn but Zell looked surprised and didn't know what to say. We waited for him to start but he seemed like he was dumbfounded- Sora began speaking, like he always had when we were younger he took over, and I don't mean that in a bad way, I loved with when Sora got so into it.
"The Ringmaster told the metal man, "You've killed many of my best nightmares- my remaining minions want revenge- I've been holding them back, but only because I've been waiting for something…" the metal man didn't know what to say but he knew if an army came he wouldn't be able to fight all of the creatures- and if there was an army then the townspeople would hear about the nightmares that had been attacking them. And he didn't want that." My brother was so into the story already.
"What'd the ringmaster want?" I asked, "Hmm…" my brother began, "The metal man's heart!" he said it like it was brilliant, "That's it, the metal man panicked, "What do you want?" and the ringmaster laughed because that was what he wanted, "I small thing, nothing bigger than my fist… your heart," the metal man was not at all happy with that but he was desperate. "But… if I give you my heart I won't be able to protect the village," "That's okay," the ringmaster said, "I promise to stop all nightmares from ever setting foot here again… all I ask for is your heart."" Zell looked rather intrigued when I looked over at him, "Then what happened?" he asked like a little kid.
My brother smiled, "Well, the man of metal gave up his heart," Sora's tone started happy but it slowly got darker, "He opened his chest and stared at the man, "But if I give you my heart, you have to promise that you won't attack the people," and the ringmaster promised. He walked over and pulled the heart from the metal man's chest, the metal man fell to kneel on the ground- his chest compartment still open. And the ringmaster laughed, "I won't attack tonight… but I've never been one for restraining." And he left, just like that, the ringmaster walked back out- taking the smoke with him and the few minions that followed to watch."
"What's going to happen to the town now?" I asked, not wanting my brother to stop but not sure how it should continue. "When the boy wakes up- he sees that his friend is heartless, he doesn't know why but he hears from a caring neighbor of the deal made the night before, the man was too scared to step in the night before but he wasn't going to make that mistake again." "What're the people's names?" the other blond asked, "Names?" my brother looked up while thinking, "The metal man can be Vanitas. The boy can be called Ventus… and the evil nightmare guy can be called Xehanort," I smiled, I was used to Sora's weird names but I knew Zell wasn't so I looked over at him, he had a strange look on his face.
"Where'd you get these names from?" he asked, raising an eyebrow, "I dunno." "What about the man that saw but was too scared?" "His name can be Zeru," my brother had a huge childish smile on his face, "Ventus didn't know what to do, he thought he was too weak to go after the ringmaster, but the next night everyone was plague with terrible nightmares- Ventus couldn't even sleep at all, so him and Zeru left and tried to find help. Zeru told Ventus about a man on a high island- much like a mountain, they traveled for days, nightmares following them all the while, before they reached the top. The man- who didn't have a name," my brother gave me a look saying he couldn't think of another name.
"He told them where to find the ringmaster's island- far south to a burning hot place."
Sora continued in detail how the island was in a place much similar to either Hell or the equator, he talked about the journey they went on and the battles they had to fight. Finally Ventus and Zeru stood in front of Xehanort, "Ventus started talking, "Give us back Vanitas' heart!" but the ringmaster only laughed, "I don't have the heart, the heart was not mine to take." That confused Ventus and Zeru so they asked, "What do you mean?" but that only made the man laugh more. "The heart was simply not mine to take- it's in its true bearers hands," again that only confused the two more." My brother took a deep breath and was quiet for a little while, thinking.
"The ringmaster said the heart was in a man named Ansem's hands… he was the man of ideas- but began to cling to the dark where nightmares were and stuff, but he was basically the creator that granted Vanitas life." Sore gave a small smile before zoning out at the ground, "Ventus was ready to show Ansem that he couldn't have Vanitas' heart and that he never would be able to because even if the nightmares haunted him- even if he suffered, he wouldn't let Vanitas' remain cold and heartless." My brother's voice was getting more and more depressed.
But Sora stopped talking soon, "You normally keep adding in Rox…" he mumbled, I could tell he wasn't very happy about something but I didn't understand entirely. "I'm sorry… I thought you were doing good…" "Yeah…" he scoffed gently. My phone started blaring with a blare of Breaking Benjamin's Dear Agony, "Someone's calling…" I unfolded my legs and walked hurriedly to my room, by the time I got there it stopped, meaning I had missed the call. Axel had called me but before I could call him back I got a text, "I'll talk to you later, I love you." I found it really weird that he was saying that- he'd never really just out and said, "I love you," but it made me smile nonetheless.
I pressed the phone against my chest as I thought about his words, I smiled and stood up quietly opening my door and walking back out, but before I got to the end of the hall I could hear Zell speaking. "Sora… that story…" "What about it?" my brother's voice is what caught me off guard- he sounded so angry and as bad as I wanted to go out there and figure out what was wrong I wanted to let Zell handle it because I knew that Zell would want the chance and it could be a moment for Sora to get close to someone other than Riku and I.
"The metal man… was that Roxas?" "Why are you picking apart a simple story?" again my brother sounded angry, but Zell started in before I could step in- it was so hard not to just walk out there. "And Ventus- the boy… that was you?" my brother wasn't even talking but he still sounded angry. "Xehanort… he was Genesis and Ansem was Shuyin," "What're you getting at?" my brother practically hissed at Zell, if my brother hushed a scream like that one more time I would have to walk out there. "Zeru was me… Did you tell your brother yet- about you asking me for help?" "I told you he already knows about that," "I know you didn't tell him because I've had a similar conversation with Roxas a few months ago- he had no idea about any of our meetings."
"Just leave me alone- and if you hurt Roxas," my brother left off on the warning but I couldn't take it, I started walking around the corner but my brother was right in front of me, "Roxas?" his voice was surprised, I could either question him or blow it off and figure it out on my own later without hurting Sora. "I just got off the phone with Axel," I began innocently, "Where you going… aren't you going to finish the story?" my brother only looked down before smiling up at me, "Maybe next week- I'm a little unsure about the ending," he nervously scratched his head before walking around me and going into his room.
I stayed standing, not knowing whether or not if I should follow him into his room and question him or just let it go for now, but as soon as I could hear the vibrations as he blared Linkin Park's Papercut I knew I should just let him be for a little while. Slowly I continued to walk back into the living room, wanting to disappear in my room but this was my chance to ask Zell what they were talking about. He was sitting on the edge of the small couch, his fingers running through his hair as he let out a sigh that was barely audible with my brother blaring music.
"Zell…" I mumbled as I stood in the hallway, my phone still stupidly held to my chest, Zell jumped and halfway turned to look at me, almost falling off the couch had he been a few more inches over. "Roxas- how long have you been there?" I looked around slowly, not really knowing how to answer his question, "What… umm… what was Sora talking about…?" I felt like I was betraying Sora by asking but I wanted Sora to know that he didn't have to be the strong one even if he'd only find out through Zell.
"Roxas… I don't know if Sora wants me to tell you…" Oh no, no, no- there was no way I was putting myself out there for Zell to just tell me off. I stood at the end of the couch, "Tell me," I said again, Zell moved back to sit with his hands running through his hair as he let yet another sigh, Linkin Park's One Step Closer. "I really think you should wait till Sora gets around to tell you," he continued to talk but I stopped him, "No." I snapped, happy Sora couldn't hear me, Zell looked shocked that my voice was so stern- if I had ever done that with Genesis I would've been knocked on my ass so fast. "You know why my brother's like this," I pointed behind me at the wall to Sora's bedroom but before I could continue Zell began speaking, "He'll tell you on his own," "No he won't!" I almost yelled, hushing myself so Sora couldn't hear me.
"Sora's not going to tell me anything- he hasn't told me anything! Ever since we got back to Traverse Town he won't tell me what's on his mind, he won't tell me what's wrong; he says everything's fine when I know he's not okay!" Zell looked shocked that yet again I was yelling at him but he started talking right back. "Roxas… don't take this the wrong way- but how is that any different from what you've been doing to Sora his entire life?" "That's different." "No. It's not." "Yes it is." I wanted to yell at him all the reasons why it was different, but I knew if I started I wouldn't stop and I knew that I needed to not be a baby to Zell and start screaming my head off now.
"Sora's not as… unobservant as you think- he notices more than you realize," I didn't like that he wasn't telling me so I stayed quiet, and just waited for him to tell me what I wanted to know. "Roxas… this is a conversation better left between you, Sora, and Vincent." I looked down, feeling like an idiot, "Yeah…" I mumbled, not happy that I still had no effect on my brother blaring Linkin Park in the next room. "Sorry…" quickly I walked back to my room and shut the door behind me, sliding down it as I buried my face in my knees, not at all happy with how the day was going already.
"Call me as soon as you can, I love you too," I texted Axel back, but he didn't respond for the rest of the day- and for the rest of the day I stayed in my room, listening to Sora blare music across the hall and knowing if I even bothered to ask him to explain why he was feeling like that- he'd just turn me down or tell me to back off. I wonder if Riku would tell me what's up with Sora? But I couldn't figure out how to phrase it without sounding like a paranoid parent to a teenage child. I closed my phone and threw it across the room onto my bed, not bothering to look at it when it vibrated three times meaning I got a text message. Looking over at my clock I realized I had been in my room for almost 3 hours, it was lunch time now but that doughnut was enough for me to stick to my pride by staying locked in my room.
Hearing a knock on my door I pulled my knees closer to my chest like hoping to disappear- saying I was 'locked in my room,' wasn't really true, because I hadn't locked my door. The knock continued quietly with an echo, before the door clicked open and then shut, "Roxas?" I knew that voice- and it wasn't Zell, but I still wasn't coming out, I pulled my legs closer to me still, hoping the chair would hide the fact that I was sitting curled up under the desk. I don't know why but I wanted to hide from the naked eye and the closet was too dark and small for my liking, but sadly I heard them place their hands on the chair, but before they could pull it out they let out a sigh and moved away from it.
"Roxas… I've never seen you hiding under a desk before…" Cloud said, "I'm not hiding," I mumbled back, his laugh was short and sad, "Then what are you doing Rox?" I didn't know. "What's wrong?" "Nothing," "I know that's not true," his voice was smooth and even- even though I knew he wasn't happy. "Why did you come over….?" my voice quiet as I carefully pronounced the sentence- not wanting to sound mean or like I didn't appreciate his company. "Zell had to leave… he didn't want you two alone… and he wanted someone to talk to you two." Rolling my eyes I looked at the shoe smudges on the hardwood and began to slide my finger over them to rub them away, I didn't need someone to talk to and I was really starting to not trust Zell- he always tells Vincent about what happens between Sora and I and now he's even calling Cloud and Zack.
"Cloud… there's nothing to talk about…" "There's a lot to talk about… I don't know what happened today but I can tell Sora's probably a mess in his room, you won't come out of your room and are hiding, and Zell… Zell is too concerned with the two of you to know what to do." I stayed silent as Cloud sat on my bed, my cell phone in his hand, he opened it, "You've got a text message from Axel…" after a few more seconds of silence I quietly pushed out the chair and held my hand out for him to toss me my phone. Cloud gently nodded his head and threw the phone into my hand, I quickly read the message, "Sorry, but I don't think I'll be able to till tomorrow," he'd sent it so long ago he probably thought I was mad- I would've been if I read it when he actually sent it but now I wasn't.
"It's okay…" I texted back, snapping my phone shut and sitting back against my dresser, looking off to the side, "What happened to your face?" he asked, I had forgotten all about the fight the other day, "I fell…" "Onto someone's fist?" I looked up at him a bit surprised, "No… why would you think that?" my voice was quiet and before I was even halfway through the sentence Cloud began to speak, "Come on Rox… I've seen you with your face beaten before- and it looks the same now is it did all the other times before." "Doesn't matter…" I decided to mumble, Cloud only shifted and leaned forward with his elbows on his knees, "Look… I'm not saying this in a bad way or saying you have to and you have no choice," I looked up at him, we looked so similar it was strange, "But I think it would do you some good if you stayed over with Zack and I every once and awhile."
"What?" "I'm not saying you have to and I'm not saying it has to be for a while- just to visit whenever you want maybe a weekend every few weeks or something…" "Why?" nervously I asked, I knew Cloud and Zack wouldn't try to do anything to hurt Sora and I- including our bond, that I was began to think no longer existed. "I think sometime between your brother and you would be good," "We did have time- the five months apart," "Yes… but in that time Sora had to get used to staying alone- without you… he's made choices and decisions that… that some time here and there wouldn't be bad." Nervously I watched him, "Are you saying because we spent time away from each other that now- we can't stand to spend time together?"
"Roxas… I'm just saying- you two are your own people… your worlds don't have to revolve around each other." I didn't want to agree with him but I knew where he was coming from to say that. "So… what do you want me to do?" nervously I asked, Cloud watched me for a minute, "Do you want to come over to our house for the weekend?" I really didn't want to… but if giving Sora space by going away for a few days would help him then I'd want to do anything to help. "Do you want me to?" instead I asked, "Rox- you and Sor are always welcomed to stay with us- you know we think of you as our younger brothers," I wanted to make a snide comment about how they were the only ones who thought about me and Sora that way that hadn't killed themselves.
But I kept the comment to myself and looked off to the side, "Whatever you want…" I whispered, I could see Cloud open his mouth about to say something but he snapped his mouth shut and nodded his head, "Zack or I can drive you to your session on Monday and Zell can pick you up…" "Are you sure he'll be okay with that?" "I'm sure he'll be fine… do you want help getting some clothes and stuff together?" slowly I shook my head, "No… I got it… is Sora okay with that?" "Roxas." Cloud said suddenly, his voice was stern and surprised glare caught me off guard, I looked up at him confused and not gonna lie- I was a little scared, he slowly shook his head.
"Rox… you are a 16 year old boy- you should be going out every once in a while, spending nights at friend's house and sneaking out to go to parties. Sora should be doing the same- you don't have to run every little thing by your brother." Looking off to the side again I tried to ignore the fact that I wanted to yell something back at him. "I'll be waiting in the living room for you so we can leave." He stood up and walked out, pausing in front of my door like he wanted to say something but that didn't last long as he opened the door and quickly shut it behind him. Sighing I stood up and grabbed my backpack and grabbed out some clothes, I wanted to grab just a beater to sleep in- but then I remember the scenario where Zell got to see the scars… meaning everyone else had when I wore just a beater.
Not again. Zipping my bag shut I looked around my room, grabbing my phone charger and some other essential things before walking out of my room. I hadn't noticed but I did in that moment that my brother's music had gone down. Silently I shut the door behind me but before I could start walking the door in front of me opened, Zack let out a sigh as he shut my brothers door and rubbed the back of his neck, when his eyes opened he was looked down, "Huh?" he followed my legs up to my face, "Oh hi Roxas…" he looked at my hand, "You coming back with us?" slowly I nodded my head, he gave a small smile which soon turned into a grin as he threw his arm over my shoulder while pulling me closer and suddenly I found myself walking out into the living room with Zack.
I was told to wait outside on Cloud's bike but once I got out there I didn't know which one to wait by- they both drove their bikes and their bikes looked the same to me. So instead I kicked stones on in the driveway- till I heard someone call my name. "Hey Roxas, where you going?" looking over I saw Seifer walking towards me, "Oh… hey, I'm going over to Cloud and Zack's for a while," he nodded like he might know who they were but then stopped, "And who're they?" "Friends of the family." I shrugged, "They live around here?" "Yeah, the live in town…" "Well don't be gone too long, I like beating the shit out of you every once and a while," he smiled but I jumped when the door opened.
"Roxas…" he looked rather angry about something all of sudden, but he didn't say anything about it, "Let's go," he jumped on the bike closes to the house- which in truth I didn't think was his, I was voting more for the other one, before he looked at me, "Bye Seifer," I mumbled, "Yeah, bye Roxas," I jumped onto the bike, used to riding with Cloud and Zack by now on how to ride a bike and not get burned, and I could tell by the way Cloud cranked it out of there that he wanted to get away as soon as possible. Minutes passed and it was quiet- it's not like we could really talk anyway, before we pulled up to the familiar house, I didn't want to go because of the memories, but I figured if I stayed maybe it'd help the relationship between Sora and I, and maybe I'd be able to get over the fact that Leon was always here- and if not then I'd talk with Vincent about it when I got to individual in two days. When I got off the bike Cloud was giving me a look that told me he wanted to give me a lecture, and this time- it looked like he was planning on giving me that lecture.
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