FYI: Brutasha never happend.
XXIX.
The flight from the facility to Manhattan took forty minutes but to Steve it felt like a lifetime. Tony wouldn't shut up about ideas to win Natasha's heart back and Steve did his best to block him out. He didn't see how a gigantic stuffed rabbit is gonna help him win Natasha back. The closer they got to SHIELD the more his heart started racing, he was surprised it didn't jump out of his chest. He wore dark jeans, a grey henley shirt and threw his black leather jacket on. He knew that Natasha liked him in these clothes and he was gonna use every trick to get her attention. He was a desperate man in love.
The jet landed on the roof and Steve could see that Coulson was waiting for them. There was a blonde head peaking over Coulson's shoulder. Natasha? No, she dyed her hair back to red. God, he never had the chance to kiss her hair when it was her natural color. It was probably Morse behind the director. He and Tony walked down the ramp of the Quinjet and Coulson moved to greet them.
Now Steve could see the woman behind Coulson. It was not Agent Morse but Sharon. What the fuck was she doing here? He groaned and Tony gave him a funny look. He didn't tell the others why he asked for a new CIA liaison officer. He was still mad that Sharon said so ugly things about Nat. He could already feel his blood boiling again.
He chose to ignore Sharon. "Coulson, good to see you" He greeted him and shook his hand.
He could see out of the corner of his eye that Sharon waited for him to greet her as well but he kept ignoring her. He just didn't have the patience to deal with her. He was only here for Nat. Oh god, did Sharon and Nat talk to each other?
"You can be glad Pepper is not here, Phil. I think she would have thrown you of this roof" Tony said to Coulson and gave him a half-hug.
"I was ordered not to tell you" Coulson smiled sheepishly at Tony. "I really wanted to though"
"I have so many questions for you!" Tony wrapped his arm around Coulson's shoulder and walked with him inside. "Did you see Elvis? Curbain? What did God say when you arrived at the Pearly Gates? Was it 'I thought your first name is agent'?"
Coulson groaned and tried to get Tony back on track and to Ross.
"Steve?" Sharon blocked his way when he tried to follow them inside. Boy, the Lord was really testing him today.
"Get out of my way" He snapped and walked around her. Tony and Coulson already took the elevator and he had to wait until it came back. Great and he didn't know what floor he had to go. But Sharon probably did. Fucking fantastic.
He stared at the elevator doors and could sense that Sharon now caught up to him and was standing next to him. "Couldn't even wait for us."
Steve still didn't pay any attention to her. Some people might consider his behaviour childish but reacting this way was better than screaming at her. Fucked her way through SHIELD. She would only use you for sex. He scoffed, wasn't he afraid that Natasha could think he only wanted her for sex because he couldn't keep his hands off of her?
The elevator came back and they both went in. Sharon pressed the button for the 24th floor. They already reached the 28th floor when Sharon suddenly pushed a red button and the elevator stopped.
"Okay, that's enough!" She moved to stand before him. "I can't deal with this silent treatement. Why am I not the liaison officer anymore? Why are you not talking to me?"
"The Avengers have no use for someone who doesn't respect the chain of command. Natasha is my second in command and deserves the utmost respect. You showed that I can't expect that from you!" He went to push the button to get the elevator going again but Sharon stood in front of them, blocking the bottons with her body. God, didn't she know that he could just pick her up and remove her?
"Steve" She sighed. "I am sorry if I upset you. I didn't mean to. Romanoff is a good agent, I never said anything else. She just not a woman you should date. Don't you know what she did? What I said about her is true. Everyone at SHIELD talked about that. She's not good enough for you. You deserve so much more!"
His hands by his sides were curled into fists. "Everyone? Did Fury say that? Coulson? Hill? Or Barton? Or me?"
Sharon shook her head and looked to the ground.
"And if anything, I'm not good enough for her. If I ever hear again that you speak about Natasha like that, you and I are gonna have a problem. I am not gonna let you trash-talk the woman I love. Understood?"
Sharon nodded and moved to the side so he could push the button.
"I'm sorry." She whispered. "Aunt Peggy always spoke so highly of you. I pretty much have a crush on you since I was a kid. Then I was assigned to protect you and then two years later we met again and we kiss... I really thought that was fate. My jealously doesn't excuse my pettiness but I'm sorry"
"You're still not coming back to the facility" Steve answered. He needed her to know that. She was unprofessional and he had no time for that.
"I understand" They reached the 24th floor but only Steve walked out. "I better take a coffee break. I don't want to cause more trouble." She pointed at her head at something behind Steve and the doors closed.
Steve turned around and there she was behind the glass wall. She looked so beautiful. She had her red hair in a ponytail and wore a bomber jacket with the SHIELD logo on. Did she rejoin the agency? No, please don't. Your place is right beside me. Leading the Avengers.
Tony was standing next to her and something he said made her laugh. She threw her head back and when the glass door opened he could hear her deep and velvet laugh. It made him feel all fuzzy in his chest. God, he missed her so much.
Okay, he straightend his shoulders and walked through the glass door. Time to win your girl back, Rogers!
He realized he was still standing in the door frame and staring at Natasha until a woman with a British accent spoke up.
"Um, excuse me? I need to go in and you're blocking the way, Sir"
He turned around and she seemed to recognize him. "Oh Captain Rogers. I didn't recognize you from behind." She held her hand out. "I'm Jemma Simmons. I'm part of Coulson't team"
He took the offered hand and shook it. "Steve Rogers, Ma'am"
She had a pile of files under her arm. "I take it you're here because of Ross?"
No, I'm here for Nataha.
"Yeah"
"Agent Romanoff is going to interrogate him in an hour. Coulson's already very excited. Can't stop talking about how she tricked Loki" She told him while they walked to Coulson, Tony and Nat.
Is this love, Agent Romanoff?
Love is for children. I owe him a debt.
There it was again. Love is for children. Where did that come from? Was it a phrase the Widows needed to repeat until they believed it? He thought after New York and before Ultron that Natasha and Clint were together. And that's why he never made a move on her. Okay, he also never made a move on her because he couldn't imagine that Natasha could possibly like him. He always imagined that if he asked her out she would laugh in his face. But then Ultron happend and they had to hide at Clint's farm. And Clint had a wife and children. And the children called Natasha Auntie Nat. And Steve thought that maybe, maybe he had a shot. And at night when everyone was sleeping and he couldn't, he walked outside and found Natasha sitting on the porch in a robe and with wet hair. She turned around to him and patted on the spot next to her and he happily sat down. They were sitting so close to each other that he could smell her shower gel.
"Couldn't sleep, Rogers?"
"No, not really. I guess you couldn't either"
She chuckled. "No"
She looked at him with sadness in her eyes. "What did that Maximoff girl show you?"
"Something I could never have. Something I'm not sure I still want" He answered. Because what I want is right in front of me. But he was too chicken to tell her that.
"She showed me my past. All the horrible things I did. I spilled so much blood that I could fill a lake with it." She smiled sadly. "I guess Banner's not the only monster on the team"
He was shocked. "You're not a monster, Natasha! Don't ever think that! When you were offered the chance to change your life you took it. You're saving people now. A monster wouldn't have done that"
She seemed amazed by his words. " That's probably not true but thank you, Steve"
He wanted to say more but she leaned her head against his shoulder and the physical contact made him shut his mouth.
He snapped out of his memories when he and Simmons reached Coulson, Tony and Nat.
"Ah you met Agent Simmons. She's one of our brightest minds" Coulson said.
"Ah, you're one part of Fitzsimmons?" Tony asked and she nodded. "I'm gonna need to talk to you later. I'm sure you, me and Fitz will get along perfectly. We geniuses have to stick together."
Simmons nodded, gave Coulson the files and left.
Natasha wasn't paying attention to him or anyone, she was looking at the tablet in her hands. God, he wanted to take the tablet out of her hands and kiss her until they were both out of breath. He wanted to trace her plumb lips with his fingertips and tell her over and over again how much he loved and needed her. But that was probably inappropriate since they were surrounded by SHIELD agents and Tony and Coulson.
"Natasha" He breathed out and he almost expected her to ignore him.
She looked up and raised a perfect shaped eyebrow at him. "Rogers?" Her voice was neutral. It didn't sound loving like it did when they were together or teasing before they got together.
He didn't need to turn to Tony to know that he was watching the whole scene with interest. Coulson was standing next to Natasha and seemed oblivious. Not that he thought Natasha would have told him about them.
"Um, can we talk? In private? Maybe walk around the block?" He managed to stumble out and now Coulson seemed to be interested as well. Oh great.
She looked at him confused. "Why?"
Was she really acting like they never were a couple? Just one and a half weeks ago they couldn't stand the thought of being apart from each other and now she treated him like nothing ever happend between them? He tried to remember Bucky's words. It's her Black Widow persona, she's protecting her heart.
"You know why" He whispered and Coulson kept glancing between Natasha and him.
"I have to prepare for Ross' interrogation" She said and left. At the door she turned around. "Why don't you ask Sharon to take a walk"
"Ouch" Tony whispered. But he ignored him and ran after Natasha to catch her.
"What's going on?" He could hear Coulson ask Tony while he made his way to the elevator. Nastasha was already in it and the doors were closing when he jumped through the gap.
"What?" She sounded annoyed.
He didn't say anything. He only cupped her face between his hands, crashed his lips to hers and pressed her against the elevator wall.
Natasha let a surprised "umpf" out and he took that moment to slip his tongue into her mouth. He could hear that the tablet fell to the ground and then she grabbed the collar of his leather jacket and kissed him back. The elevator could crash down at that moment, he wouldn't noticed. All he noticed was Natasha. The way she felt against his body, the way she smelled and the way her mouth tasted. He poured everything in that kiss. The love he had for her, how much he missed her, how much he needed her, how scared he was and how much he wanted her. He hoped she could feel it. Their tongues fought for dominance and he let Natasha win. She explored his mouth and he moaned into the kiss. He kissed her jaw and moved to her neck to suck on her pulse point which he knew would make her gasp. God, he needed her so much. Could they get away with a quickie in the elevator?
"My Nateshka" He murmured between kisses against her skin and was about to slip his hand into her tight jeans.
He could feel Natasha tense and she pushed him away and picked her tablet up.
"We shouldn't have done that" She said wiping her mouth and fixed her appearance . The elevator doors opened and she walked out.
He couldn't move and just stared at her back until the doors closed again and she was out of his sight. What did she mean? They shouldn't have done that? But she kissed him back. That meant she still wanted him, right?
"Um, Ma'am?" The Level 4 agent stuttered and stared at the screen before him. He was on duty to check the surveillance footage and right now the feed from the elevator showed Captain America and Black Widow making out.
"Not a word to anyone if you value your life" Agent Hill hissed. "Delete the footage. This never happend"
Damn, she couldn't believe that Nat didn't tell her that she was banging Captain America. Did Fury know about this? How would he take it that America's favourite son was groping his deadly protégé? It was no secret that Nick was fond of Natasha. He was probably the only one who would disapprove of Captain America as a boyfriend.
Man, too bad Steve was taken, he had a nice ass.
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