Wow it has been such a long time since I have looked at this story life has gotten in the way and for this I apologize. As most of you know I have a young son who has severe disabilities and it came to a head last year spending a little over three hundred days in the hospital not to mention also having a baby who is now a little over three months old. That is no excuse though as I had started a new story which I couldn't get out of my head, the truth is I had lost my mojo for this one but I am back and hopefully with vengeance.

A lot of people have asked me what my beef with Lissa is and truth be told I never liked her in the books finding her blinded and self-centered, only after being pointed out the obvious that she helped or noticed her so called friends pain and that has never sat well with me. She may have come good in the end but the damage was done you only get one chance to form a first impression so sucks to be her . Now onwards we march….

Chapter 29 (I think)

Lissa's Pov

I approached Tatiana slowly not knowing how my presents would be taken, I had lied to her after Dimitri was returned well more mislead her and allowed her to belittle my friends whilst basking in the awe of the guardians and Moroi for something I had played only a small part in. Some of it was due to the charms that Tasha had placed on me but for the most part it was all me, I was jealous of my friend someone who had loved me from the first day I had met her. If I was truly honest with myself I had always been a little jealous of her, her passion and conviction, her love for Dimitri. It consumed me the thought that she had loved him more than me, I never even thought of her deserving to be loved or that she needed to be loved she had me and that was enough right?

Oh how I really despised myself right now. I wish I could turn back the clock and fix all the wrongs I had committed against my sister and bond mate. What sort of a bond mate was I that I never noticed its loss? I felt a million miles away from Rose right now, we were two different people, to be honest I was different Rose was still the same as ever just with an upgrade.

"What can I do for you Princess?" Tatiana asked me

"I need to tell you the truth" I said looking down in shame and that's exactly what I did. I told her about everything Rose had done for me starting from the day I met her, the truth about the damage I caused that Rose had taken the blame for and everything else that followed.

It took hours for me to finish talking, once I started I couldn't seem to stop although I did hesitate when it came to breaking Victor out of jail, I shouldn't of been surprised that Rose had already told her though. The more I talked the more weight seemed to be lifting off my shoulders.

"I have known for a long time about the breakout of Victor, and have long since pardoned Rose and Guardian Castile for their part in it. Truth be told I was proud when she had told me what you all did, angry but proud" she told me quietly.

I looked at her surprised and shocked, none of us were arrested for it. She must have known what I was thinking as she continued to speak in a low tone.

"Don't get me wrong I was furious at you all for doing it and wanted to throw you all in Taresov immediately but after talking to Rose and seeing the damage to her person I thought she had paid enough. To be loved the way she loves her Comrade well it is just amazing really, and I only hope it the time that I have left in this world that I find a love as great and love as great as she does".

"You have really changed" I said just as quietly

"Yes I have and for the better of us all I hope, now you wanted to talk to me about something else I assume" she indicated to the paper work I had in my hands. Several hours later I walked toward my father in laws suit where I hoped to find Christian. I needed to be a better wife, a new leaf starts now.

Roses Pov

God damn my legs still felt like jelly when I awoke the next morning, I was slowly adjusting to being back on Moroi time. Felix and I had spent the last years doing as we pleased so the transition was a little rough not to mention the last week had really taken its toll but I did feel more in control of myself, calmer and centered.

I left Dimitri with Christian and his father knowing I had no experience into how he was feeling. I hadn't been able or allowed to help my Comrade and that still made me mad and sad but there was nothing I could do about it now. It was time to let that go. We were married now and had to look to the future not the past as difficult as it was.

I was also thinking of my mum, how things could have been if her childhood had been different, but again that was something that I couldn't change and knowing that she loved me and wanted to have been there made me think of her differently. Would I have done any better as a parent after going through the things she had? Well I'd like to think so, but I couldn't and wouldn't hold the past against her once we got her back, of we could get her back.

I had caused her some serious damage yesterday, could her arm be reattached?

After eating I put on some running gear and started to make a slow pass round the property, Bubba had a few paths cleared with a snow mobile which made it much easier to run. Markus and his workers were bustling around preparing everything for the weddings, he and his mother were in their element and just from the food stuffs that were being unloaded and the décor I knew the weddings would be the coup de grace for the business. I was on my third lap when Eddie and Alberta joined me, easily matching my pace. I wasn't out here for training just fresh air really so I wasn't in any hurry to start pushing myself.

"It is good to see you Rose" Eddie said "I've missed you"

"I have missed you too Eddie" I said cautiously the last time I had seen him before his arrival was at court and he hadn't been very happy with me then, not that I blamed him for that but I had missed him over the years and often thought about contacting him.

"Why Rose?" he asked me is a slightly trembling voice.

"It was safer for you, and to be honest I wasn't in any frame of mind the first couple of years to call any one". It was a cop out I knew and he knew it.

"Bullshit" he stated angrily "Not even a lousy letter or text, for all I knew you were dead".

"I may as well have been" I stated and that was a fact. I stopped running lost in thought. Eddie knew of the wings but had no idea about my chest so I slowly started to lift my shirt. I think he knew the big bad ugly was approaching as he took a deep breath and then his eyes shifted to my chest.

"What the fuck?" He yelled. I gave him credit for not losing his breakfast; he was looking a little green though, nope there he went I reached him before he hit the ground in a dead faint.

"It looks a little better than the last time I saw it" Alberta said softly. I had forgotten she was there "How did Dimitri take it?"

"As well as you could expect, he blames himself but more so Lissa and Tasha"

"I can't say I can find fault with that" she replied "do you think one day you will forgive her?"

I hoisted Eddie over my shoulder and headed toward the house, I didn't answer her and she didn't push. Would I forgive Lissa? Maybe someday but not anytime soon. There was a lot of hurt and anger still and I knew she couldn't control the turn of events from the trial onwards but before that was all her, she reveled in my pain, in her self-importance and that is not something I would easily forgive and I certainly wouldn't forget it.

So there you go another chapter, I hope it was worth the wait and once again I am so sorry for the long delay.