Selina's POV
I drove my car back to Saddlebrook with the girls. Caroline and Elena gossip in the back as I headed to my apartment. It was weird going back home. I hadn't been there for a few days and to be honest it didn't feel like home anymore. I guess being at the Boarding House so much that was starting to feel more like home than my apartment. But I needed clothes. I wasn't sure how long I would be staying with Damon, so I decided that I would pack for a least a week.
I pulled into the parking lot of my complex and we filed out of the car. I lived on the second floor in the first building. Walking up I pulled my key out just as I got to the door. I unlocked the apartment and turned on the lights. The girls were behind me and waited in the living room.
"The room is this way." I said to the teens. They smiled and followed me. The second bedroom I made into a walk in closet. The closet that my bedroom came with was small and barley held anything.
Walking in there was decade's worth of clothes. I still had some from 1864. Like the blue dress Damon loved me in. There were also clothes from the 40's and the 60's. As well as the 20's too. And everything up to today. The wall with the door had hooks and storage cubes for bags, shoes, and belts. The wall adjacent to that had a clothing rail higher up the wall for long dresses and pants. The far wall had two clothing rails. The top for shirts and sweatshirts the bottom for shorts or skirts. And the last wall had a heel rack. There were about 4 rows going across the wall. All had heels on them. I walked in like this was normal. The girls on the other hand, gasp when they saw the room. It was stuffed tight with clothes. I had more clothes then all the major department stores in the town.
"I'm sorry Elena, but Selina is my new best friend." Caroline said going right for the dresses.
"I was thinking the same thing." The brunette said back. I smiled at them.
"Now girls, not everything is for the taking. There are some pieces I have carried with me since I was a girl. I would never give them up."
"You have stuff from 150 years ago?" Elena asked.
"Yup, and they were custom made just for my size. Thank god for being immortal my size hasn't changed in a century and a half." I joked.
"Where can we start looking?" the blonde asked.
"Anywhere you want. Let me know what you want. I'm going to my room real quick to pack a suitcase." I said leaving the room.
"She's got more clothes in her room." I heard Elena say.
"She's 150 years old Elena. She has stuff. Look at all the stuff in Stefan's room and he's just as old as her."
I laughed at the conversations the young friends were having. Walking back into my room my mind went to Damon's. My room compared to his was nothing. It was so much smaller. I believe his bathroom was a little bit bigger than this room. It held just a bed, a dresser and an end table. The closet held the new items of my clothing obsession and a few other items. I fished for the suitcase under my bed and started to pack the necessities. I packed for a week, but it looked like I would be staying at the Boarding House much longer. I heard the girls still in the room as I made my way to the kitchen. I still had a few blood bags and was planning to bring them for a few reasons. One, I had to pay Damon back. I knew he wasn't expecting another vampire to be in his house. More blood was being eaten than normal. And two, well I was hungry. I opened the top and slowly drank the metallic liquid. A vampire could never have too much blood. But then again too much blood made us into what Stefan was in the 1920's.
I guess she smelt the blood. Caroline was in the kitchen with her inhuman speed.
"Do you have another one? I haven't eaten in like forever."
"Sure." I grabbed a bag and tossed it to her. She smiled her thanks and popped the top for hers. Unlike mine however, she chugged hers down. "Have you girls found some things you want?"
"Yes! We found some great things. Come see." I followed the young vampire into the spare room. And they had found some nice things. There were two piles of clothes. One closer to Elena and the other near Caroline. "I know we have to get the OK by you so let's start with me." Caroline started showing me what she picked out. I gave the OK to everything she picked. And then Elena started to show me what she had picked out. She came up to a dress that I knew wasn't allowed to leave. She found the blue dress. Damon's blue dress.
"I'm sorry Elena that dress goes everywhere with me when I move."
"Oh, that's fine. It gorgeous. It would look great in the Mystic Fall's parade."
"What's so important about that dress?" I heard from Caroline.
"I had this dress since 1864. It's my favorite. Even to this day. I would give up all my other clothes just to know this one was safe."
"It's that important to you?" the blonde asked.
"You don't know what I went through to get it back." I was tracing the lace details of the dress with my fingertips as I was thinking about all the good times with Damon I had with it on.
"Do I hear a flashback coming on?" the brunette joked.
"You sure you want to hear about it?" I asked. Both girls jumped at the opportunity.
"Anything to hear about 1864 from a girl's point of view, rather than the Salvatore brothers." Caroline joked back.
"Ok, well. My birthday was coming up and father asked me what I wanted. I told him since I hadn't gotten a new dress in a few months that I would love a new one. He agreed, and sent me out the next day to town to get sized and get the making of a new dress made. This is the dress that was made. After I wore it for my birthday Damon had come up to me and told me how he loved this dress on me. It was his favorite. From that day on it was mine as well. I wore it every chance I got with him around. But when I ran away to have Alex I didn't take it. I didn't take much of anything. Even Samantha my maid and best friend didn't bring it with her when she followed me. However, when I turned into a vampire I wanted to get it back. I knew I could slip in and get it. But I couldn't get in. I needed to be invited in. So I went to the Salvatore house to look for Mary. I knew both boys where vampires and their father was dead. I hoped just a little that Mary was still around. If she was that she could invite me into my own home. But the place was abandoned. Mary was gone with the rest of the help. So I knocked on the back door to my home. My father's maid Abigail answered. She looked terrified to see me. It had been over 5 years. I quickly compelled her to be quiet. Then compelled her to invite me in and forget she saw me. I ran to my old room found this dress and ran back to Saddlebrook." The girls didn't interrupt me. The stayed quiet and listened.
"Wow. You kept this dress because Damon loved it?" Caroline said.
"It's not only that. But this dress is the only thing I have left of my human life as well as Damon's. If I did die as a human I would want to have been buried in this dress."
"You went through a lot just to get this dress."
"I knew Mary would help me. So I had to use my vampire abilities to help me get it."
"You never told us how you got so good at controlling your hunger after you were turned. I mean you had to go take care of Alex." Caroline added. And I sighed. As much as I didn't want to say Klaus helped me around that he did. He compelled me to not touch my son.
"That was Klaus. The Original dick helped a little. He compelled me not to touch Alex. And it worked. But that's all he did. Everything else I had to do on my own. Samantha had to invite me into my own home; I had to learn how to feed. I found my own witch for daylight rings. It wasn't easy but I knew that before I asked him to change me."
"I wish I knew." I heard the blonde mumble.
"Why is that?" I questioned her.
"I turned in the hospital. I had no idea what I was until Stefan and Elena told me." I looked at her confused. "I was in a bad accident with Tyler and Matt. I had internal bleeding. Damon gave me his blood to save me, and then Katherine killed me. You know what that means. Well, I took a blood bag from the hospital and turned. I had no idea what happened to me. I hated the sun I couldn't stand sounds. It was horrible. Stefan has been helping me along as much as he can."
"Hey, now you have another vampire friend who can help you threw out your eternity." I smile.
"Good, there aren't many female vamps around here besides the Original sister." Caroline said.
"Isn't she with Alex?" Elena spoke up.
"Yeah, not that I'm happy about it. But he seems to like her." I was going for the duffle bags I had under the bench that was in the middle of the room. I took out two, one for each girl. They started filling their bags as we talked.
"You don't like her?" Elena asked.
"I don't like who she is. She's Klaus's sister. And as we all know. I don't like Klaus."
"Who does?" Caroline joked. "The guy is a complete douche. I think if it wasn't for the fact that he was the head of our bloodline, we would have killed him off long ago."
"Hard to kill the original hybrid." I smirked.
"Don't remind me." the blonde mumbled.
"Klaus has had a small crush on our little vampire. She isn't happy about it." Elena explained.
"What's not to like?" I asked.
"Good point." Caroline said smiling.
After the girls packed their bags we headed back to the Boarding House. It was a fun ride. We blasted some old songs and yelled the lyrics. By the time we got back it was 8. I was starving and could not wait for the dinner I had prepared before. Walking in I smelt the chicken parm right away. I also smelt whiskey. I knew the guys were drinking. The girls walked into the living room, as I made my way to Damon's room to put my bag away. I threw the bag on the bed and made a beeline for the kitchen. When I entered I was welcomed by the site of Damon. He smiled at me as I walked to him. I then went around him and went right to the food.
"I don't know about you Miss. Brighton, but it is polite to say hello to someone when you see them." He said.
"And I assume you would like me to curtsy to you too as well Mister Salvatore?"
"Well, if you're offering." He smirked.
"I wasn't. But I'm starving and as much as I want to say hi, I need to eat." I said as I put the food on a plate and went to the microwave. I hit the desired buttons when I felt his arms around my waist. I closed my eyes and sighed. Even being away from him for an hour and a half I missed him. Honestly, I don't know how I did it for 150 years.
"Can you say hi as it heats up?" he whispered in my ear. Turning around I wrapped my arms around his neck and nodded. He bent down and kissed me tenderly. To say I was in my glory would be an understatement. I wanted this when I was 18, 25, 50, 75 and 3 years ago. And now here I was in the arms of the man I loved more than anything. I would tell anyone that he was my soul mate. Even after 150 years of not kissing him, I still got butterflies in my stomach when I did. "I heard from Alex. He said he tried calling you but you didn't answer." He said taking me out of thoughts of him.
"My phone was in the car, what did he say?" I said pulling out of his warm embrace.
"He's headed to Ohio. His friend from Chicago got him a lead. He's getting a plane in a few hours. You might want to talk to talk to him before he gets on it." I nodded my head and headed to the bedroom where I kept my pocketbook with my suitcase. I searched for my phone and saw that I had a few missed calls from Alex. Why didn't he try Elena? I thought. I pressed the green call button and heard the ring a few times.
"Hey Mom." Alex greeted me.
"Hey love bug. Where are you?"
"I'm at the airport. I'm on my way to Ohio. Vinny got me a lead with a guy name Martin. I'm going to talk to him."
"Does Martin know where Katherine is?"
"He did two months ago. They had like a week-long fling Vinny said."
"I don't trust Vinny."
"I know Mom. But Martin is older than you, so I don't think he would lie."
"Klaus lies. And he's a thousand years old. Be on your guard as much as you can please. Are you still with Rebekah?" I heard him sigh softly. "Alex, are you still with her?"
"No."
"Why?"
"We broke up today. I rather not talk about it right now, I'm still really mad about it."
I wish I was with him. I could hear the hurt in his voice. A mother knows her children. And he was in pain.
"Ok sweetie, if you want to talk about it-"
"I know, I can talk to you. I always do in those situations. Look, I have to go through security. I will call you when I land."
"Do you want me and Damon to come and help you? Or I can send Stefan and Tyler?"
"No I will be fine. And before you ask, I ate before with Vinny he brought me some food."
"Blood?"
"That's it." I knew he had humans around and he didn't want to say it.
"Ok. Call me as soon as you land this time please. I worry about you."
"I will Mom. I gotta go. I love you."
"I love you too. Be safe."
"I will. Tell everyone I said hi."
We said our goodbyes and hung up. I sighed when I hit the end button and stared at the screen. I missed him. We have traveled away from each other before, but under these circumstances it was different. I knew he needed help and he wasn't accepting it from his parents. I finally put the phone in my back pocket and went back to the kitchen. Everyone was hanging out in the living room as I walked passed and back into the kitchen for my meal. I grabbed it and ate at the island. Damon wasn't in the room and as much I wanted to tell him what happened on the phone with Alex, I was glad to be alone for a few minutes.
Alex seemed so upset when I mentioned Rebekah. I wanted to know what happened with them. They seemed fine earlier when we spoke. It must have been bad enough for Alex to call it quits. My son really seemed to like her, and as much as I didn't like her, I wanted my son to be happy with someone. She looked like she made him happy.
Every mother will tell you that there child is the best. That anyone would be lucky to be with them. And I'm no different. But my son, unlike most has been around for over a century. He had been able to see how to treat woman over the decades. He really was the best and any woman, vampire or human, was lucky to be with him.
I finished my meal and went to the sink. I wanted my time to myself. So instead of putting the dishes in the dishwasher, I washed them by hand. My thoughts were drifting to Damon again. He really was treating me as if we were still in 1864. And I loved it. Was this what it would have been like if we were both human and did run away together? I hoped it would have been.
"Selina?" I heard from behind me and I jumped. My vampire hearing was off while I was thinking. I turned as saw the most beautiful man standing a few feet away. "Sorry did I scare you?"
"I didn't hear you come in."
"Some vampire you are. We have supersonic hearing."
"I wasn't listening. And don't judge me Salvatore. I don't always use my vampire senses."
"What happened with Alex?"
"He's heading to Ohio like you said. His friend had a lead."
"Are we going to meet him there?"
"No." I said turning around to finish the cleaning. He walked up and stood next to me.
"What's wrong Lina?"
"He and Rebekah broke up."
"That's good right?" I looked at him. "What?"
"Your son is hurt. He didn't say why. But his voice. I know when he hurts, I know when he's happy, or sad, or anxious. A mother knows her son. And he's hurting."
"Should I call him?"
"No." I shut the water off and put the dishes in the drain board. Then turned to look at Damon. "How did he sound on the phone when you talked to him?"
"Fine I guess. A little distant." That didn't sound like Alex. But he also wasn't fond of Damon yet. I wanted him to see the Damon I was talking to right now. He would see he wasn't the same person he was when we first came to town. I think he would change his mind if he knew how deeply in love with him I was.
"I guess we will find out sooner or later. What is everyone doing inside? Tyler, Bonnie, Caroline, Stefan and Elena were still in the living room when I walked passed just a little while ago.
"Making kill Katherine game plays. I might kick them out soon so we can relax. It's almost ten."
"That's early for the Mystic Falls supernatural beings. We 4 vamps, a hybrid, a witch and human who loves the night. Why not keep them here for a little?" He sighed but nodded his head anyway. I went on my tippy toes and kissed him.
"Are you sure we can't kick them out?" he said wrapping his arms around my waist again. "Because if you keep kissing me I will."
"I guess I can't kiss you anymore until they leave." I smirked.
"Then they are gone."
"No Damon. You really need to learn hospitality."
"Fine. Happy Selina, happy life I guess."
"Isn't that supposed to be 'happy wife, happy life'?" I questioned.
"Are you my wife?" he said smiling.
"I would have been 150 years ago." I mumbled.
"Low blow Brighton."
"Sorry, let's go see our friends." I said wiggling out of his embrace. But he used his vampire strength and held me tighter. "Problem?"
"On the record, I wanted to marry you back then. I would have done anything for you. Breaking the engagement wasn't my fault. I am sorry I did it. I am sorry I didn't come back to you. I wanted to Selina. More than anything. But I couldn't risk hurting you. If I knew you were pregnant I would have come back to you and been there for you and Alex. I would have turned you myself. I would have been the father and husband you and Alex needed. We would have been a family. I would have never went looking for Katherine had I known."
"I know. You told me that."
"Then stop bringing it up. I regret it. I always will." He unwrapped his arms and left. He never said that last part. And it rang in my ears after he left. I needed to train my mouth to shut up. We were just fine until I brought the past back up again. The past is the past, I said to myself. I took a deep breath to calm myself and walked into the living room to help Stefan host our friends. But when I walked in there I didn't see Damon. I looked at Stefan and he nodded his head in the direction of his room. I nodded in understanding. For the next two hours I sat in the living room and helped with ideas to find Katherine. Everyone was gone besides Elena and the little Salvatore.
"Elena, do you mind if I borrow Stefan real quick?" Stefan looked at me with questions.
"Yeah, sure. I'll wait outside."
"No, stay here. I'm gonna go get a bag before bed I will bring him with me." she nodded her head and sat on the couch. Stefan and I walked into the basement and I grabbed a bag and he took one for himself.
"What's wrong?" he asked popping the top of his as I did my own.
"I was wondering if you could stay with Elena again tonight. I need to talk to Damon and if there is fighting I don't want you to hear it."
"I thought you guys were getting along."
"We are. But I said something before that I shouldn't have and that is why he is in his room. Part of me is still living in 1864 with him. And I don't want that to affect any future we may hold now."
"You're still in love with him aren't you?" I looked down at the ground and nodded.
"Very much." I looked back at the guy I loved as a little brother. "Maybe more than when we were kids."
"I know he loves you too. He won't say it though."
"He did when we were younger."
"Vampire Damon doesn't tell his emotions. Human Damon did. You might have to work at it for a while. But he will. He won't say he loves me and I'm his brother. He makes notions with his words though. You might have to read between the lines with him."
"Do you mind stay with Elena tonight?"
"Another night with my girlfriend?" he said as he put his hand to his chin like he was thinking about it. "Yeah, I guess I can do that. If that means you and Damon working things out. For you, my old friend I will." I leaned up and kissed his cheek.
"And that is why I love you Stef. Loyalty to your friends."
"You're family." I smiled and squeezed his hand.
"Thanks." We finished our bags and went back upstairs. "Well, Elena. I'm sorry I have to do this to you. But he's gotta spend another night with you."
"Really? Does he have to? I mean he's a blanket hog." She joked.
"And you snore." Stefan rebutted. I laughed at them as they left the house.
"Night guys." I said as I closed the door. I made my way to Damon's room and went in. He was lying on his bed watching TV. "Everyone is gone. Even Stefan."
"Okay." He said without looking at me.
"Can we talk or am I going to find another room tonight? I could also call Caroline and see if I can stay with her if you want me to."
"Do what will make you happy."
"What the hell Damon? I said I was sorry. I won't bring up the past again."
"Good."
"You know what, if you want to be short with me fine. I'm going to Caroline's. I asked your brother to go stay with Elena so we can talk. But you won't."
"I said what I needed to in the kitchen."
"I heard what you said. And I know you mean it."
"You heard it, but you didn't listen. You say it all the time. Little things like 'in 1864' or 'when we were together' or 'you left me'. Things I know that happened. Things I wish I could change."
"I'm sorry." I said looking down. He was right. I was making him feel more guilt that happened so long ago. "I really am sorry." I whispered again. "I was hurt and I guess I still feel a little betrayed from it. I know it wasn't your fault. Katherine made you do things you didn't want to do. I know what it's like to compel people to do things they don't want to do. So I promise I will try not to bring up history from 150 years ago." Damon got up and came to me.
"Selina, back then things were different. I knew what she was. I just didn't know she was compelling me. Even when I broke off everything my whole body was telling me not to. But I couldn't stop myself. I saw your pain; I saw the hurt on your face. And I knew I caused it. I never wanted to hurt you. You out of everyone knew that. I wanted to run after you and tell you how sorry I was and how I still wanted to marry you but something told me to stop. Until I made the transition I had no idea what it was. When I turned all I thought about was you. Even up until I heard that Aaron Fell got married. I really thought you went through with it. I knew you didn't love him. But I wanted you to go on with your life. I didn't want you to be with a monster."
"You are anything but a monster Damon Salvatore. You are everything that is opposite of a monster." He let down his fangs and changed his face.
"This face is what makes me the monster." Then I changed mine too.
"Then I guess I am one too. I have the same fangs and the same red eyes and the same grey veins you do." Then I changed it back. "But I won't let it define me. You shouldn't either. I told you already, if you came back as a vampire I would have loved you either way. Because I loved the man you were. Not the man she made you. I was really upset when I saw her bite you and your brother."
"Wait, you saw her do it?" he asked as he changed his face back
"Damon, I had to be at your house when Father had meetings with yours. I saw her play you and your brother. But she compelled both of you to stay away from me. I couldn't warn you. I wish now I could have. I also saw her make you drink from her. But again I couldn't tell you. Every time I stepped into the room, you and Stefan walked out."
"Well, it's too late now. We're all vampires."
"I'm sorry for what I said earlier again. If you want I can go stay with Caroline or go sleep in another room."
"I'm not going to kick you out of your room. Your bags are here. Go get dressed and come to bed." He leaned down and kissed my forehead making me close my eyes and give a sigh of relief. Because just like that the fight was over. I went to my suitcase that now was on the chair and grabbed out night clothes and my bathroom things.
As I was getting ready in the bathroom I couldn't help by smile a little. Right there was another reason why I loved Damon. And why I always wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. He could be a dick one minute and the sweetest guy the next.
I brushed my teeth and put my hair in a high ponytail after I slipped on comfortable clothes and walked back out to the bedroom. I put the day old clothes on the floor next to the chair. I walked over to the bed and slipped under the warm blankets.
"Good night Damon." I whispered as my eyes closed.
"Good night Lina." He whispered back as he put his arm around me and I snuggled into his chest.
AN:::: I am so sorry that this chapter took me so long to update. My life has been really hectic the last few weeks. The week I posted my last chapter a longtime family friend died suddenly. He was one of my mom's best friends. So I had to help her. On top of that I got really sick with a really nasty cold. Then I started a new job. As well as being a mom. It has been one hell of a few weeks. I have been way too busy to write anything. I had 5 pages written out for a week and a half before I found time to actually get back to it.
So a fair warning, updates will be coming less and less. I really hope it won't be as long as this one. But please review. I have missed my loyal minions!
