The Sons Princess


Chapter 16: Birthday


"What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive. I can't keep up and I can't back down, I've been losing so much time."


MPOV

~7 years ago~

Myself, Opie, Jax and Donna were all sat together around a table in the clubhouse. Ellie was in my arms, I was smiling and bouncing her on my lap, the pair of us full of joy. "Wow," Donna said after the boys laughed loudly at a terrible joke they had made. "Ellie's turning 1 next week," Donna reminded us, which was a slight surprise and made me remember something.

Numbling, I stared ahead and looked to a random spot behind Donna and Opie. "Yeah," I agreed, my brother stayed silent, smoking his cigarette and watching me. "My birthday is two days before Ellie's," I informed them as my eyes met theirs. Donna's blue eyes were glued to me, while Opie's hazel ones were on his cigarette before he looked to me.

Jax's eyes were always glued to me, if not, they would glance around at the others that were around us. Remembering the times we shared, I knew he may of still tried to act as though we were friends and I wasn't going to create any scenes. "How about we celebrate them together?" Donna suggested with a shrug. "I mean, it could be fun and that way you can share a birthday party, saves money for two different parties," she stated all the good that could come from it.

Seeing how it was reasonable, I chose to agree with her choice and knew it was a good enough reason to share a birthday celebration. "Sure," I agreed with a nod, glancing at Ellie and playfully waving her arms like she were a bird, which made the others laugh. On the day of the party, it all seemed strange and different. It was awkward at first, but once the presents and cake was out of the way, it was calm. Happy. We laughed as we both placed icing on our noses and smiled at one another. Ellie attempting to clean the icing using her tongue, since that day, we had always celebrated our birthdays together.


JPOV

~7 years ago~

Laughing about something stupid myself and Opie were joking about, I flicked my cigarette and the ashes tumbled into the tray. Ellie was sat on Maddie's laugh, the pair sweet and playful. "Wow," Donna said out of the blue. "Ellie's turning 1 next week," she informed us, reminding us that it had been a year since Ellie's birth. How time flew by in the blink of an eye.

Maddie had stayed silent, her eyes distant as they stared at a random spot behind Donna and Opie. "Yeah," she agreed in a plain tone, as though her neices birthday was nothing to her. "My birthday is two days before Ellie's," she realized as her gaze met Opie's and Donna's at last.

Something in the way Maddie looked to them, but not me, made me wonder what was going on in her head. Wonder what she thought. "How about we celebrate them together?" Donna suggested with a small shrug of her shoulders. "I mean, it could be fun and that way you can share a birthday party, saves money for two different parties," she informed us of the costs that they'd need, if they were to throw two different parties.

Maddie understood where Donna was coming from, mumbling a calm "Sure," with a nod of her head. Maddie then began to make Ellie act as though she was flying, making us laugh as Ellie mumbled and gurgled like the one year old she was becoming. Not a week later, we were all at the party. It was quiet, but it was then enlightened once the presents and cake was done with. Maddie looked radiant, beautiful as she would play with her niece and placed icing on each other's noses. Yearly, we would celebrate their birthdays together, but since Opie's imprisonment and Kenny's birth, I hadn't celebrated either birthday with any of the Winstons.


Present day...MPOV

After the burrial and ceremony, we left to go to the clubhouse and drink away either the pain, or the life Donna had shared with us, remembering her for the good times. Mom and myself made food, deserts and other snacks so people could eat rather than drink. But, the majority of us all drank something in celebrating Donna's life. The men from the club, along with a few others that decided to join, all had gone directly to the bar, took a shot glass and downed it together.

Staying close to my mom and the kids, I watched as Jax slowly migrated into the crowd and made his way towards me. I had been talking and keeping close to my family, knowing that they needed me most at this moment in time. When Jax reached us, we all silenced and mom averted her eyes from us, while Ellie and Kenny watched. "Hey babe, how are you feeling?" Jax asked me as he walked over and placed a kiss to my cheek softly.

Sighing, I shut my eyes and felt comfort from the delicate touch of his lips on my cheek. "As good as I can get," I replied to him, we all knew how everyone else felt, either upset or too drunk to remember they were upset. "Where were you last night?" I asked as he placed a gentle hand on my waist. "I tried calling you, but you never answered," I informed him of my actions last night.

Jax sighed deeply, his eyes shutting for a single moment, leaned in and placed his forehead against mine. Watching him carefully, when his skin touched mine, I rest my eyes and listened to his slow breathing. "Sorry, I was...dealing with things," he excused himself as he opened his eyes and our hazel eyes flashed. His blue tone eyes colliding with my brown looking one.

Frowning, I could still smell the alcohol that ran through my nostrils when we kissed. It was a small hint of a smell, but I knew he had been drinking last night. "You got drunk," I grumbled as I pulled away a little and looked at him, a little disappointed that he'd forget about his son. What could be so important, that could pull him away from his son? "Don't try and deny it, I could smell the sick and alcohol on you," I stopped him from trying to deny it, his mouth parting to say something, but I raised a hand and cut him off.

Stepping a little closer to him, I wrapped my arms across my chest and looked to him with furrowed eyebrows. "What was that about at the funeral?" I asked him as quietly as I could, above all the noise of people chatting and people laughing.

Jax's eyebrows mirrored my own, except his eyes showed me that he was confused, rather than my emotion, which was curious. "What?" he asked as he tried to decipher what I was talking about. "The kiss?" he questioned what it could be I was asking him about. Even confused, he's still handsome.

Truthfully, I was curious about the kiss we shared in public, but I knew what it symbolised to both of us. We were officially together. "Well, that..." I shrugged a shoulder as I looked to the ceiling and raised my eyebrows slightly playfully. "But also the way you stared at Clay and Tig," I spoke seriously. "Is there something I should know?" I asked him, wondering if there was something I was missing to the piece of the puzzle.

Jax didn't answer my question, but what he said was enough of an answer to satisfy me. Taking a step closer, he raised his arms and cupped my face in his hands. "I'm not going to waste any more time, I'm tired of hiding what we feel," he told me honestly as he stared into my eyes. "I love you and that's all that matters," he spoke to me, his eyes staring into my soul and I felt the truth, I knew he meant every word he was saying to me.

Subconsiously, my heart swelled and caused my face to spread into a wide, almost painful, smile. "I love you too," I replied to him and this made him smile softly in return. Giggling, we leaned in and kissed each other repeatedly, the touch soft and action was sentimental. We had been through enough to know, we were soulmates and that we needed each other to survive, to love.

Pulling away, I swore a tear escaped me from the happiness I could now share with Jax. I noticed some people saw us, some people clapped and cheered, but the whole room didn't follow others lead. They gave us our personal moment and space. "Does that make you our uncle?" Kenny asked Jax out of the blue, getting to his feet and gripping my skirt tightly into a fist.

Looking down at him, I was stunned that he'd ask such a direct and unpredictable answer. "I wouldn't-" I went to reply, shaking my head and eyes wide. My mouth was gaping at the thought of adding pressure on Jax the way Kenny had. My sweet nephew, but how the hell do I turn him down gently with this?

Cutting me off, Jax took firm hold of one of my hands and gave it a squeeze. Crouching down, he stared into Kenny's eyes and offered him a small, tight-lipped smile. "I guess it does," Jax answered Kenny's question. "If that's okay with your aunt, grandparents and father," he said as his eyes rose to flash towards me and then to my mom.

Gulping, I stayed quiet for a second and saw my mom look to Jax with a calm, but slightly sad, but happy expression. It was a mixture in a time like this. "It's okay with me Jackson," she agreed with a nod, her own tight lipped smile reflected Jax's but her eyes screamed uncertainty. Does she doubt we'll get very far in our relationship?

Kenny then enveloped Jax in a hug, making the boy happy for a moment in this sad time and Jax let go of my hand. Wrapping his long arms around my nephew's small frame, I saw how Jax looked to me, Ellie and my mom. Mouthing a proud 'Thank you' to him, I watched him sigh and shut his eyes. When Kenny moved away, he went back to his seat and walked beside Jax. The pair of us turning to make our way towards the bar. "Uncle Jax," I savoured the sound of it. "You sure you can handle that?" I asked him as I looked to him.

Taking hold of my hand again, he turned me to face him and stopped me in my tracks. "I'm a dad and a son. I think I can handle anything, babe," he teased with a smirk, his eyes glued to mine and I couldn't help myself. I leaned in and pressed my lips to his once more. "Your dad and brother are watching," he mumbled against my lips as we pulled away and looked towards the bar. "Guess it's time to talk to them, huh?" he suggested as we continued towards them, noticing how my father and brother drank their beers while watching the pair of us.


PPOV

Watching Maddie and Jax, I felt a swelling in my heart in seeing her happy, happy with someone I knew we could trust. But, I also knew that with relationships, there were rocky patches, but with a Son, it was a huge bump in the road most times. I also knew that I wouldn't be able to protect her like I had, especially with Jax telling her secrets and possibly business that I would of never told her.

They smiled, they talked and they kissed. Holding one another's hands, they made their way to myself and Opie. Our bud in hand and eyes glued to the couple as they made their way towards us. "So...the kiss..." I began as I watched them order themselves a drink. "What was that about?" I asked them, eyeing them curiously.

Jax was the one who looked at me directly in the eyes, Maddie watched Jax as he manned up and spoke directly to me. "I'm in love with your daughter, Piney," he answered my qestion. "Think I loved her the moment she was born," he confessed something that made sense, but left me feeling stunned that I didn't know for many years.

Sitting up a little more, I watched as Jax and Maddie stood closer. Truthfully, they looked similar and yet, very different at the same time. Blonde hair, hazel eyes and pale skin. Except, Maddie had Opie's similar shaped nose, golden hair and streaks of dark brown. Jax had dirty brown mixed with dirty blonde in his hair, but he had hazel eyes that differed to Maddie's. Maddie's eyes would turn brown at times, while Jax's stuck closer to a clear blue.

When they were stood together, smiling, laughing and holding one another. They looked like a perfect couple. Beautiful, young and happy. "You going to treat her right?" I asked him, sounding serious and keeping my role as a father before my role as a Son. "Stay faithful?" I questioned him, knowing that at times, we would use Crow-Eaters without warning and it would hurt our old ladies.

Jax's eyes never wavered from mine, his bright blues were focused and I knew he was being honest. I knew he was being just as serious about this topic as I was. Yet, he was never backing down. "Yeah," he answered my questions. "There's no one else I want to be with, only her," he informed me with a single, firm nod of his head.

Maddie kept a serious and curious expression. Her voice silent and her eyes would dart between myself and Jax. It was as though she was nervous that something bad would happen, that either of us could get in a fight with one another on the very spot. "I am here, you know?" she tried to remind us as she smiled softly at Jax's response.

Opie had stayed silent too, but he'd been out of his mind lately. Staring off into the distance, watching people and then watching his family. After a sip of his drink, he placed the now emptied bottle to the bar and looked at the couple. "Does he make you happy?" Opie asked, directing it to Maddie first as she looked to her brother.

Since children, Opie had always been overprotective of his sister and still was. Instantly, I knew he cared more about her happiness than Jax's. I knew he was being the good brother he always was. "More than you would know, brother," she told him as she smiled, took hold of Jax's arm and stared up at the man she was now calling her boyfriend.

Jax seemed like a good match, but simply because he knew her for years and always cared about her. He always showed her affection and understanding. Somehow, I knew he loved her, but I worried for where that love would lead them. "Does she make you happy?" Opie then flashed his eyes to Jax.

Jax had been staring down at Maddie, but the moment Opie asked him this question, he looked to Opie to exchange a glance. A wide smile spread across his face and it was reflected between both Jax and Maddie. The pair happy with one another, in love and very young. "More than you would know, brother," Jax replied, using the same exact words that Maddie used.

Seeing their happiness was enough, knowing that they were in love, happy and had been fond of each other for years, I knew it was real. I knew they were meant to be together, but it wasn't as though I could decide who either of them could love. "Then, it's fine with me," I said with a nod of my head. "Just know, if you hurt my daughter..." I went to threaten him. "I'll find you Jackson," I growled and glared at him as I got to my feet. "And put a bullet in your goddamn head," I informed him and snarled at him at the same time.

Opie got up and ordered himself another beer, but I knew I had to go to the John and take a piss. I needed to take a piss. "Same thing here," Opie agreed with me as he went to numbly threaten Jackson. "I'm happy for you two. Seriously," he gave a nod and went to clink his drink with the three of us.

Maddie, myself and Jax clinked our beers with Opie's fresh one. "Thanks," Maddie smiled at her brother and stared at him with happiness. "I love you two," she said as she pulled each of us, myself and Opie, into a hug. "The three most important men in my life," she spoke proudly as she looked between Jax, Opie and myself.


OPOV

Everything was...strange. As though I was underwater, my ears blocked and a muffled sound surrounded me. Except, I could see everything clearly, but the room spun and swayed. Everything felt wrong. I was drinking to my misfortune, while everyone drank for the rememberance of my wife. Remembering her and cheering on for her life, the memories they shared.

It wasn't right. I felt as though I was going insane with either anger, or depression. The way everyone laughed, drank, cheered and spoke to one another, it made me feel as though they were happy my wife died. Donna...you didn't deserve to die. That hit was for me, but it went to you and you expected something like this to happen. I wish I was dead and you still lived. But now, I have to live with that mistake. Everything inside of my told me I needed to leave.

But, not everything seemed too happy for a situation like this. Naturally, I was happy that my sister found love. Surprisingly, with my best friend and someone she grew up with. Although, I knew she was happy and that Jax meant all he had said and done for her. I understood the necessity to live their life the way they wanted, to not waste time hiding their love and letting them grow as people, together. As I had wished to with Donna. Something in me, knew it was childish, but I couldn't help but feel like Jax was using Donna as an excuse to reveal he was with my sister and in love with her all this time.

As though, my wife's death was the perfect opportunity to start a relationship with my own blood. With my sister. Yet, I couldn't be angry. Maddie looked vibrant, happy and naturally beautiful. Wearing a smile on her face, a gold tone in her hair, her skin healthy and her eyes bright with happiness. Somehow, I could tell there was a slight spring in her step. The way they spoke, the way they stared, and the honesty and love that dripped from them, was enough to convince me they were doing the right thing. Not just because it was Donna's death, but because they both realized it was time to be honest with us all, along with themselves.

Seeing Maddie head up to the roof, leaving me alone and Jax then went to talk to Tig and Clay. I realized, I needed to get home and I didn't know when. But, I knew I could no longer stand hearing the people in the room with me. Laughing, smiling, drinking and partying like it was a normal church meeting, rather than a funeral get-together. Jax then left the church room and looked around confused, instantly when we met gazes, I knew he was wondering where my sister was. Pointing in the direction, I then took my beer and said my farewells, leaving with my family and needing some rest. Tired of the festive atmosphere towards my wife's death.


JPOV

Seeing Opie, I looked around confused. Eyebrows furrowed and eyes locked with his. He pointed towards the stairs, I gave him a nod and knew that Maddie was on the roof. Climbing up, I saw her silhouette crouched over the seat that we would all rest on. Making my way towards her, the sun was already setting and her whole figure looked like it was glowing. Angelic and beautiful, like she always was. For a moment, I had to take in the sight of her and savour it. Smiling, I took a few steps closer and her head turned slightly to look towards me. "Hey, what are you doing up here?" she asked me when she realized I had come up to join her.

Not needing to scoot over, she had already left me a space and pat the spot beside her. Her nails long and perfectly manicured. "Needed some fresh air," I told her as I sat beside her and dug my hands out of my pockets, desiring a cigarette, I knew better than to pull one out in that moment. "What are you doing up here babe?" I asked her as I stared into her honey colored eyes.

Maddie's eyes shone in the light and in a strange feeling, from my presence too. "Can't I spend some romantic time on a roof with my boyfriend?" she teased as she took hold of my arm and smirked at me. She pronounced the word 'boyfriend' blatantly, to already place a label on me and claim me as hers. I like the sound of being hers.

Chuckling, I couldn't deny her anything and was pleased she was finally referring me as her boyfriend. Already slapping on a label to what we had and reminding me that we were together. That she was my girl. My old lady. "Of course you can," I teased as I smirked back at her.

Wrapping my arm around her shoulder, I brought her closer and we both scooted closer to one another at the same time. Both of us laughed at this action, before we stared at the sky and watched the sun set together. Her head resting on my shoulder and my head resting against hers. "Wow," Maddie whispered after a few moments of comfortable and calm silence between us. "I don't think I'm ever going to get used to calling you that," she said as she turned her head to look at me.

Curious, I moved my head to look down at her. Surprised by her words and wanting to know what she had meant about me being her boyfriend. "Why?" I asked her, my eyebrows furrowed and I knew I needed the cigarette. Pulling out my packet of smokes, I pulled one out and placed it to my lips. Lighting it, I took a deep breath and knew that Maddie didn't want one. Maddie never smoked then and still doesn't.

She looked to me with a small smile, as though she was appologetic for the confusion or curiousity. "Because..." she began as she tried to meet my eyes, but I was already becoming nervous about what could possibly be wrong. "It's not like I don't want to be with you, I do," she assured me. "It's just strange to call you that," she tried to explain herself. "After everything we've been through," she shrugged.

Understanding where she was coming from, it wasn't as though I could blame her for what she felt and thought. "We never got to this point, but now we're older and wiser," I agreed with her empathetically. "I've always wanted you, but you took your sweet ass time to figure out you wanted me too," I teased as I looked down at her and slithered my hand down to touch her back, moving my hand towards her curves and then to the top of her hips. She has a beautiful figure.

Giggling, she elbowed me in my ribs and made me burst into laughter. Thankfully, my cigarette was between my fingers and not in my mouth at that moment in time. "I've always wanted you, just didn't want us to get hurt," she repeated. "And I didn't want to ruin your relationship with my family, with the club," she explained her motives in why we weren't together before. "I'm sure you can understand that," she tried to convince me to be understanding.

Of course, I was going to agree with her and be putty in her hands. "Yeah. Thank you," I agreed and thanked her at the same time. "But now, you don't need to worry about anything, babe," I assured her as I brought my hand up, so that I could rest my arm over her shoulders once again. "It's you and me," I stated with a nod of my head. "That's not going to change," I promised her. "Never has and never will," I spoke with confidence, knowing that Maddie was my present, past and forever.

Making her smile calmly, I knew that we were in a good mood and that she was happy with the words I had said. I knew that she too was offering to give us a try. She was as ready as I was, and I was excited for where our journey would lead us. Placing her hand on my cheek, she waited for me to take out my cigarette from my lips and replaced it with her lips. "I love you," she said softly after she pulled away and rest her forehead against mine.

Her eyes were shut, but there was a heavenly aspect about Maddie whenever I was around her. Touch gentle, kisses sweet and her every breath was a step closer to heaven. "I love you too," I whispered to her as we sat there for a while longer, enjoying the sunset and talking calmly between ourselves. This, was my personal heaven.


~A day later~


OPOV

Thinking over everything the moment we got home, I had spent most of the night deciding what to do with myself. Knowing what was best for me, I needed time and I needed the support. Waking up, I wandered into the kitchen and allowed the children to watch their show on TV. "Hey, mom?" I asked as she made my breakfast. "Could you stay here?" I asked her, being vague as to why. "For a few more weeks, look after the kids," I suggested in a tone that was questioning. "I need some time to myself, to get past what happened to..." I went to say, but I could hardly get Donna's name to escape my lips. It was still too painful. To real.

Mom understood where I was going with my sentence. Knew that I needed time to myself, where I could go and do what I needed to. To get over Donna's death alone. To recover the only way I could see possible. "Sure," she agreed with a sad, small smile and nod of her head. "Take however long you need," she encouraged me. "But...I can't and won't be here forever Opie," she warned me.

Myself and Maddie knew that at best. Sometimes, I still felt guilt for leaving her behind with our mother. Yet, she was still very young and didn't understand our choices, or the choices our parents had made. All she knew, was that our mother wasn't the best we could have and tend to leave us on a regular. "I know that," I nod to her. "Thanks mom," I told her and this made her mumble a soft 'Yeah.'


MPOV

We had recieved a call from Opie, telling us that he wanted myself, Jax and dad to meet him at the cabin. Gathered around a table, Jax, dad and myself sat around a table while Opie hesitated to follow his own instructions. "I wanted to talk to you guys first, so that you all know what's going to be happening these next few weeks," he began. "It's important and I wanted you guys to hear it from me, before I sit down with the club," he went to tell us further.

Looking around confused, I was unsure what would be important to talk about, that he'd need to see me and those closest to him, before the club. Jax leaned forward on the table, Opie was sat with his back straight and eyes dark. I could tell he hadn't had much sleep these past few nights. "Sure, what's the matter Ope?" Jax asked my brother, his eyebrows furrowed and expression of concern colored his face.

Opie kept calm, his voice level and tone was relaxed. "I want to be on the road for a while," he revealed to us. "I want to be away from the club," he continued. "Away from Charming," he added, being specific on what he wanted to do. "Only for a few weeks," he assured us all, before any of us could protest. "So that I can move past what happened to Donna," he said Donna's name with a slight forced hesitation, as though he wasn't used to referring to his wife anymore by her name. "Be by myself for a while," he spoke in a sad tone.

Honestly, I was speechless and I didn't know how to take what he said. Part of me knew he needed his own way to get past all the shit that happened to him in the span of a few short weeks. But, I also knew that he needed to be there for his family and brothers. "Take all the time you need, we'll be here waiting for you brother," Jax was the first to speak.

Jax had been kind, understanding with him and gave a look of sympathy to him. Both Jax and Opie had always cared about each other, they were brothers the moment they were born and it was always shown in every vulnerable moment. "Do what you have to do son, but don't forget your family," dad said to Opie, reminding him that we were here too.

Opie's family included myself, dad, Ellie and Kenny. Mom was part of it too, but she would hardly stick around then and she'd possibly go when the next opportunity arose. "What about Ellie's birthday party?" I asked, remembering that mine and Ellie's joint party would be in a few weeks time.

I wasn't sad about the thought he'd forget it was my birthday, truthfully, I didn't care if he had. The person that mattered to me on that day, was Ellie, because she was his daughter and he had to be there. Not for me, but for Ellie. "I'll be there," he said as his chestnut brown eyes stared into mine. "I'll figure it out," he assured me. I hope so, brother.


JPOV

Since we had all sat in the cabin together, we agreed that we'd help out and try to convince the club to give him some time. Maddie seemed the most hesitant, but she was only worried for what could be the outcome of it all. Opie had then called for a meeting, wanting everyone to be there and alerting Clay that it was important. Riding to the clubhouse, we all hugged each other and went into the Chapel. "All right," Clay began once we all took our seats, minus Bobby who was still locked up for the accusation of Hefner's murder. "Opie, you wanted to call this church meeting, what do you want to bring to the table?" Clay asked curiously.

Opie took a moment to figure out how to phrase what he wanted to say, or to at least figure out how to break it to them. "I was thinking, long and hard about this," Opie began as he picked out a cigarette from his pack. "I want a few weeks to myself, so that I can get over what happened to Donna," he explained what he was proposing for himself. "I want out of club business for a while," he continued to explain further, not leaving anything in the dark and wanting them all to know exactly what he wanted.

Everyone stayed silent, the majority of us were being respectful in the thought of Donna and what had happened. Tig and Clay looked the most guilty, but Chibs and Juice were upset at the fact an innocent woman had been murdered. "That's fine with me," Clay said after his sniffed and cleared his throat. "Take the time off you need," he encouraged Opie. "I'm sure the kids have someone to look after them while you're away?" Clay asked Opie as Clay leaned forward to rest his arms on the table.

Gulping, I knew what I was about to say was something out of the blue. But, I knew that Maddie would want me to say it and I knew I would mean what I was going to say. "Maddie and myself can look after them whenever you want," I spoke up and nod my head once in Opie's direction.

Our eyes locked and Opie offered me an expression that showed he was thankful for the offer, that I was also considering myself a closer member of his family. Considering that his children were already calling me their uncle. "Same with me," Piney stutted. "They are my grandkids," he pointed out with a shrug, it was fact and he felt that the point needed to be said.

Opie glanced between both myself and Piney. Nodding and lighting his cigarette, he kept silent for a few moments. "Mary's looking after them until I get back, but you guys can look after them too," he began to tell this to everyone, but the final part was directed to Piney and myself. "Thank you," he thanked us both.

Clay gazed around the room, noting that everyone was respectful and taking in every word that was being exchanged. "When you get back, we can handle the Donna retalliation," Clay waved off, like it was nothing. "So, we take this to a vote," Clay ordered of us all. "All in favour for Opie to take time off from the club?" he asked as we all raised our hands for Opie's request, causing Clay to slam the gavel down. "Come back to us when you're ready brother," he encouraged Opie to take all the time he needed.


PPOV

After the church meeting, Opie was planning to leave in the next few days, he was getting ready and deciding the routes he was going to take. Visiting the kids, I had spent some time with them and decided to talk to Mary about everything that had been going on. We were together in the kitchen, Mary was making the kids some food and I took this opportunity to talk to her privately. "Never did I think that we'd be sat here," I said as I looked towards Mary and then to our grandchildren, the pair playing a board game together. "You...looking after the kids," I mumbled cautiously, knowing that Mary could take it as an insult.

Mary was chopping up carrots and keeping her eyes on her knife. Each slice, I noticed it was a little more angered and louder. "Yeah," she agreed numbly, with no tone of voice in the way she spoke. "I'm surprised you're not drunk right now," she teased about me, she then stopped and looked at me. A hand resting on her hip and her eyes glued to mine. "What are you getting at Piney?" she asked me.

Clearing my throat, I took a step closer and kept my expression cold. "Shit has been hitting the fan constantly these past few weeks," I informed her. "But, I never suspected this to happen," I spoke, surprised that everything had turned out for the worst, rather than for the best. "Donna, the kids, our grandchildren..." I listed the things that were happening, people who were affected by all the things that had happened. "I don't know what to do anymore, except wait," I explained, unsure of what I actually could do.

Mary turned her body to face the chopping board once more, her hands working away at preparing the food for the children. "Maddie's with Jackson," she said as she began chopping. Slice. "Donna's dead." Slice. "Opie hardly knows his children, now he doesn't even see them," Mary commented about our son's relationship with his children. "The children don't know that their father plans to go away again," she said as I thought of Opie, who was possibly with Juice and figuring out what routes to take. "What the hell is happening Piney?" she asked me, surprised by how much shit was going on.

Not having the answers she was looking for, I couldn't help but think of everything she had said and knew that things were difficult. Yet, I had hope that things would get better and that Jax would save us from Clay's corruption. "I got no idea," I answered her question with a shake of my head. "What do you think about Maddie and Jax?" I asked her as I squinted my eyes at her and furrowed my eyebrows in curiousity.

Stopping her attack on the vegetables she was chopping, she looked to me and then went back to her chopping. "They seem sweet together," she told me calmly. "Reminds me of us sometimes, but I'm afraid of what it's going to do to her," she admitted, which was what I was thinking as-well. "Being a Princess, is different to being an old lady," she informed me.

Knowing Jax, he would tell her anything she asked for. So, if she asked for the truth, he'd give it to her. "She's going to know more than I could ever protect her from," I sighed out, remembering the promise I made the moment my children were born. "But, she's smart and strong," I was confident about this, knowing that she could handle herself. "She'll figure it out," I assured her. "You afraid they'll turn out like us?" I asked Mary, curious as to what her answer would be to this.

Mary's eyes were glued to the food and I kept my eyes on her face. Catching any expression or twitch of her skin. Any signal that told me she was either lying or thinking of something else. "I'm not sure," she told me. "Only time will tell," she spoke wisely. "I just hope they're making the right choice," she hoped for our daughter and a man who I treated as a son.

"Me too," I agreed. Truth be told, I was hopeful they'd be good together, but I knew that only the future would determin what was to happen to them and their relationship. I only wanted my daughter to be happy and safe.


MPOV

Hearing the front door open, it was late and I had fed Abel a little over an hour ago. Sat in bed, my hair was up in a messy bun and my eyes were glued to a book I was reading. Under the covers, I was warm and comfortable. Wearing my sleep clothes, I was ready for Jax to come home and found it impossible to drop the book. It was interesting and showed me insight on revenge. "You asleep?" I heard Jax ask as he opened the door slowly, keeping his footsteps quiet and his voice an almost whisper.

Sitting up a little more, to get comfortable, I smiled at Jax and shook my head. "No," I answered as he shut the door behind himself. "Reading this book, about revenge," I informed him as I waved the book in my hand slightly, a finger between the pages so that I wouldn't lose it. "It's actually very interesting," I gave Jax my opinion as he slid out of his clothes and got ready to get in bed.

Jax chuckled, he was now shirtless and his hair was a slight mess. "Glad you're enjoying it," he spoke with a charming smile as he got out of his pants, socks and sneakers. Pulling back the covers, he looked at me curiously. "Has Abel been fed recently?" he asked me.

Nodding, I pursed my lips and couldn't help but stare at him. He was truly a work of art. Blond hair, hazel eyes, sweet face, strong jawline and a perfect slim figure. He had gained a small amount of muscle, but he wasn't chiseled, he was slim. "Yeah, a little over an hour ago," I told him as my eyes trailed his frame. "He's had his diaper changed too," I said as my eyes flashed up to meet his. "How was everything today?" I asked him, wondering if he'd tell me everything about what he had done today.

Sighing, Jax was now relaxed and snickered when he noticed me checking him out. Sliding under the covers, he got comfortable beside me and gestured for me to lay down with him. "Opie can now go for however long he needs to, but I'm worried he's distancing himself too much," he told me as I placed my book to one side and slipped under the covers with him. "Not that I'd blame him," Jax spoke softly. "You know, the whole time Donna had been murdered, I couldn't stop thinking about you," he said, surprising me and leaving me with a million unanswered questions.

The only question that slipped out of my mouth, was the first and simplest one I could think of. "What?" I said in shock as it escaped my lips. The word floating in the air and echoing quietly in the room. Jax was the love of my life, but to compare me to a dead sister-in-law, it almost left me speechless.

Jax realized my shock confusion. "I couldn't stop thinking about how glad I was. That it wasn't you, in Donna's place," he began to explain. "Made me realize that you were the only woman I have ever loved, that I should stop wasting time and stop hiding our love," he said as I shuffled closer to him, resting my head on his shoulder and staring into his eyes. "To cherish every moment I have with you, because life is too short and it's pathetic to waste what we have together," he explained with an adoring love he had for me. A love that was undying. "I mean it when I say I love you Madison," he whispered in the softest, calmest and most honest tone I had ever heard him speak.

The words that escaped him, made me sad to think that the death of my sister-in-law was the reason he realized we needed to make everything official. Yet, every word that he said sent shivers down my spine and a warmth in my heart. I felt like melted butter in that moment. "I love you too Jackson," I responded to him, knowing that what I felt for him, would never disappear. That with him, my love was stronger than it ever was and that we no longer had to hide. Leaning in, we both kissed one anothers lips at the same time, with passion and love. Eventually, we made love for the night and fell asleep in each others arms.


JPOV

Being with Maddie publically since Donna's funeral, was something of a relief and a blessing. She had been free to do as she liked with me, we were able to kiss in public and whenever I was with her, I always felt happier. More at peace and yet, I still felt restless with the truth I had to keep from her. Knowing it would destroy everything for her and Opie. Maddie was unlike any other woman I had been with. Although, every other woman I had slept with never had the same connection myself and Maddie had.

But relationship wise, Maddie was so far calm, sensitive and understanding. We always laughed, smiled and talked. She never hesitated to tell me why she couldn't meet me and we'd always ask each other if we were going to see one another again. Sex was regular, but I believed it was because we were now free to do what we wanted and no longer had to hide. I felt alive, free and the happiest I could ever be, now that I was with her.


~Two weeks later~


JPOV

Calling mom, I had woken early and so did Maddie. She was feeding Abel while I was making us breakfast. Placing the cellphone against my ear, I waited for mom to pick up after the second ring. "Hey, baby," she greeted me, her tone soft and sweet. "What's going on?" she asked me.

Glancing around the corner, I saw Maddie was still cuddling Abel and feeding him from his bottle. "I wanted to ask you for a favour," I told her quietly. "Could you keep Maddie occupied today?" I asked her. "I need to go buy her and Ellie a gift," I informed her of my plans today and why I needed her help.

Subtly, this showed her that I didn't want her to go shopping, in case Maddie would see me. "I can do that, baby," she assured me, judging by her tone of voice, I could hear the smirk on her lips. "Whatever you need," she told me and we said our 'love you's and our goodbye's.


GPOV

Driving to Jackson's house, I knew that he had left, seeing as his bike was no longer parked outside. Although, Maddie was still at home and had the day off from work. Using my keys, I opened the door and stepped inside. Maddie looked as though she was ready to leave, keys in hand and she spun to see me enter the room. "Hey," I greeted and pulled of my sunglasses. "I was wondering," I began as I shut the door and took a step closer to her. "How about you, me and Abel go to the park together?" I asked her.

She smiled at the suggestion, but she then sighed and shook her head. "I would love to, but I need to go pick up Ellie and Kenny," she told me why she was in a hurry to leave, yet relieved that I was here. "Mom wants a little break from the kids," she explained why she was picking up her nephews. "Taking them shopping, get them some new clothes for the party next week," she mused in her thoughts, planning what she was going to do with them.

Knowing that Jax was going to be shopping, I couldn't risk them going into the same store and Maddie seeing her or Ellie's present. "Oh, why today?" I stopped her from getting out of the house, blocking her way out. "It's a week away, right?" I asked her. "A lot can happen in a week," I told her, which made her rethink her options. "How about we go pick them up and take them to the park?" I suggested with a small smile.

Somehow, I always knew that Maddie could come around when she saw it as a sensible reason. "Fine," she sighed with a roll of her eyes and smiled at me. Fixing up Abel for travel, Maddie strapped him in and fixed up a bag full of baby things. "Let's go," she told me and we left for her car.

Picking up the kids, I kept Abel on my lap and the carrier in the boot of the car. Heading to the park, the kids played while I sat with Maddie and Abel on a bench. "So, how is everyone?" I asked her. "After what happened to Donna," I explained what I was specifically asking about. "It was terrible, what happened to her," I commented sadly, knowing that she didn't deserve to die. That not even Opie deserved to die, out of Clay's mistake and Stahl's framing.

We were watching Ellie and Kenny, they seemed happy at the park, but when they get home it could have been a different story. "Yeah, it was," Maddie agreed with me. "I guess everyone is adjusting in their own way," she shrugged. "Ellie seems the most affected right now, considering her birthday is coming closer every day," she sighed out. "It's hard living a life without a mom," she explained, which was true in most cases.

Knowing that Maddie was a tough girl, she was smart and had gone through a lot through her life. I was one to witness all of it, but I cared for her like a mother would care for her daughter. Brought her up as one. "But you got through it," I stated to her. "So did I," I reminded her of the relationship I had with my mother, which made Maddie hum in agreement.

Except, I could see the look in her eyes. "My mom is alive, but she is never here," she reminded me. "There's a difference, Donna wanted to be with her kids, with her family," she informed me bluntly. "She was nothing like my mom," Maddie stated sadly. "Donna was always a good mom, always stood by her family, no matter what happened. You can't compare Donna to Mary," she spoke coldly.

Feeling guilty, I knew I was treading on ice with this topic. I hardly knew Donna, but I knew she faught for her family. I knew she cared for her children. Yet, I made a pathetic comparison, because everyone was different and we all weren't the same in any aspect. "That's true," I agreed with her. "I'm sorry," I apologized for my stupidity.

"Kenny is better than we expected, there are nights he cries for his mom," Maddie said, her head no longer bowed and her eyes were glued to her nephews, playing, laughing and having fun. "But, he'll get better," Maddie assured me. "Mom seems good, dad wants revenge for what happened to Donna," she told me. "The one I'm most worried about, is Opie," she admitted as she looked down at her palms on her knees. "He's lost, I can feel it and I don't know how to help him," she worried for her brother, which showed she truly did care for her family.

I had always respected Maddie, but since she had returned, I trusted her more and saw the woman that my son had loved all those years. It had finally hit me like a fresh, well needed slap on the face. "Losing the one you love, sometimes no matter how much people help you, it can never fill the void that was created since their disappearance," I tried to explain to her in all the detail I could muster. "It's what happened to me when I lost Thomas," I informed her. "Then John," I added, who was another person I missed and loved.

Both of those that I had mentioned were people I had met, people I had loved and lost at the same time. People I now missed. "Life sucks," Maddie said with a sigh as she looked back up. "But, we all get through it in the end," she noted, knowing that with time, things could heal and sometimes, the wound was small, but sometimes it was still there.

She was smart, strong and everything good that we had helped her turn out to be. Someone to admire and be proud of, which encouraged me to know that Maddie was the best partner for my son. "Yeah, we do," I agreed, knowing her wise words were the truth.


JPOV

A few days ago, I had ordered for my presents to be ready at the jewlers. Knowing today was the only day I could go pick up the presents, I had also asked for the box designs to be prepared and one of them to be wrapped up. The one I was going to give Maddie had everything it needed. The box, the wrapping paper and even a little bow on it, with a personalized message on it. Picking it up from the store, I checked the designs and placed one in a bag and the other in my cut pocket. Visiting my mom, I told her to keep the present of Maddie's, in case Maddie would try and peek at it or find it by chance. Ready for the birthday party, I hoped both Maddie and Ellie would like their presents that I had got them.


MPOV

I was in the living room, starting a new book which was larger and lengthy. Hearing the door open, I was pleased to see it was Jax who had returned home and watched as he locked the door. Slipping his cut off, he placed it on the hook and smiled at me. "Hey babe," I greeted him once he saw me laid out on the couch, snuggled under a blanket and reading a book. "Anything interesting to tell me?" I asked him.

On impact of seeing him, I couldn't stop the smile that grew on my face and looked up at him happily. "Not much, mostly club business," he answered as he leaned over me on the couch, his face inches from mine and his lips getting closer to mine. Pecking my lips, I laughed and understood he was already keeping something from me. Deciding not to read too much into things, I knew our realtionship was new and only starting. "Figuring out who killed Donna and how to retalliate," he told me. "What did you do today?" he asked as he moved my legs so that he could sit down, placing my feet to rest over his legs and the pair of us relaxed.

Knowing today had been a long day, I chose to keep things short and simple. Not needing to tell him how many times I changed Abel, fed him and also the fact I had washed him. Slowly, I realized I was becoming a mother figure to the child and it didn't startle me. "Was with the kids, your mom and Abel," I informed him of my day.

Sighing, Jax chuckled lowly and ran his hands along my legs. Possibly, he was enjoying the freshly shaved and smooth surface. "Can't imagine how that could have gone," he laughed and smiled widely at me. There was something about his smile that kept me guessing, as though something good happened to him today. What's wrong with him? Why is he so happy?

Biting my bottom lip, I knew he was only being a tease and jerk about it. Naturally, having Gemma as a mother-in-law type figure was strange and a little overwhelming. Yet, I could manage. "It wasn't too bad," I shrugged, brushing it off like it was nothing. "We just went to the park together, talked about things...about Donna," I told him honestly.

For a moment, I noticed Jax was hesitant and became stiff beneath my feet. His muscles tensing and not in the way I would of expected. Something's wrong. Did I say something wrong? Why is he suddenly tense at the mention of Donna? "What about Donna?" he asked me. His tone was awkward, hesitant and quickly recovered as his eyes met mine.

"Just how the kids are taking it and how people can be affected by loss," I mumbled, unsure and confused with his reaction. It was normal what we had talked about, but the way Jax responded left me with questions left unanswered.

Nodding, Jax understood where I was coming from and took it in a calm way. The atmosphere was strange, but I wasn't going to question any of it. Brushing his reaction away, I knew it could have been a reflex, like it had been with Opie and prononcing her name. The dead could change people. "Can change someone, losing a loved one," he agreed with a repeatitive, slow nod of his head. Sitting in silence for a moment, we sank into our thoughts and stayed there for a while. "I've got Ellie's present," Jax groaned as he lifted my legs once more and went to sit on the ground, facing the table and picking the small bag out of his pocket. "Want to help me wrap it?" he asked me.

His eyebrows were raised, his expression expectant and I knew instantly that he wanted me to help him. Not that he was asking for it, but more like demanding me to help him. As he always did. "Like you ever could wrap presents," I teased as I kicked the blanket from my legs and sat cross legged beside him, all whilst he sat comfortably on his knees.

Laughing, Jax's face lit up in pure happiness and it warmed my heart in an instant. Wrinkles appeared around his eyes, his smile stretched across his face and there was a glimmer in his eyes that reflected love. A love we both shared. One neither of us could control. "Hey, I can wrap other things, just not the type of presents you'd expect," he joked, speaking of another topic that made me blush lightly.

The heat rose to my cheeks, making me hold in the laugh, but burst and smile widely. Every emotion he felt, I was slowly realizing I too felt the same emotions. We were mirrors of one another and it was only in that moment I realized. "Ever the charmer Jackson Teller," I laughed and nudged him playfully.

Smirking, I knew he was in the best of moods and it made me wonder if it was simply my presence that made him this way. Doubting it to be possible, I then remembered that being him could inflict such happiness and knew that it was possible. "I can be charming...sometimes," he waggled his eyebrows and pulled out the small box of the bag.

Getting up, I had found the wrapping paper the other day, so that I could wrap Ellie's present. Finding the rest of the tools I'd need to wrap the present up, I sat back down and got to work. Jax helped me, placing his fingers and holding it where I told him to. "You know, the other day, I finished the book about revenge," I informed him, simply for conversation. "There was something about it that stuck with me," I told him as I cut a piece of tape.

We sat close, I was focused on my work and he was watching me carefully. Following my orders and also listening to me as I spoke. "Oh," he mumbled, his eyebrows raised and his eyes flashed to look at me curiously. "And what's that?" he asked me, curious as to what I could possibly have thought was interesting, but which also affected me.

Remembering what I had read in a book, it was a quote I had decided to rephrase. Taking a deep breath, I looked to him and smiled. "Upon embarking upon a path of revenge, Confucius warns that one should dig two graves," I told him what I had learned, but I kept it vague.

Knowing that Opie would be back for revenge for what happened to Donna, I knew there was nothing else I could do, except encourage Jax to stop my brother from losing himself. Jax was curious as to what the meaning stood for. "Why's that?" he asked me, which made me answer him with a smart 'Figure it out.' "Anything else you've learned?" Jax questioned me after he chuckled, which led to me continue talking of all I had read from the book, recommending him to read it too.


OPOV

Truthfully, riding the roads endlessly and stopping only to sleep, do my business, meet people and eat was good enough. It made me feel more alive, made me forget about my responsibilites to the club, to my family and most of all...it made me forget Donna for a short amount of time. Yet, I knew I needed to get back, that riding all day and meeting different people wasn't going to solve any of my problems. That it wasn't going to keep my family fed, or my anger towards Donna's killer satisfied. I knew I needed to get back, but I was afraid of when it would be.


PPOV

Getting a call from Maddie, I was sat at home, alone and was drinking some alcohol, so it could get me to sleep easily. "Hey sweetheart, how are you?" I asked her as I answered her call and raised the cell to my ear. My question made her reply with a quick and calm 'Good, how are you?' "I'm good, good," I replied with a nod of my head. "Is there anything in particular you want to talk about?" I asked her, knowing this was her usual call at night, but I knew that she would bring up a new topic each day.

Somehow, in my gut, I knew she was going to want to talk to me about whatever happened with her. Or something that was going on in her mind, or heart. All I knew, was in my gut, she wanted to talk about something serious. "Well, I did want to talk to you about something," she warned me, making me place my drink to rest on my bedside table. "Opie," she said a single word, one that told me everything. "Do you know if he'll be here for the birthday party?" she asked me.

Knowing what she meant, instantly I realized she was talking about hers and Ellie's birthday party. The one that was going to happen the Friday coming closer to us. "Yours and Ellie's?" I asked her, making her hum as a reply. "I think he will, but I wouldn't be counting on it," I answered her question and gave her my opinion.

Maddie had always been concerned for her brother, always wanted to be with him when he was in prison, but was afraid it would make her feel worse about his situation. "He needs to be here dad," she spoke seriously, her tone blunt. "Not for me, but for Ellie," she told me. "It's enough that Ellie has lost her mother, who won't be there for her birthday," she reasoned to me. "But, to not have her father there too, I don't like the feeling it gives me dad," she explained as to what got her the most when it came to the topic of her brother.

Understanding her point of view, I too felt the same way and knew that Opie had to be there. That his child needed the support, along with the sight of her father on a day of celebration when she would be depressed in not seeing her mother there too. "I get it," I nod along to all she was saying. "I'll convince him to be there," I assured her, knowing that when I wanted to be, I could be convincing to my children.

Maddie needed me to do this, but she was doing it in the thought of her niece. Of her family. Trusting me, I knew I couldn't let either her or Ellie down. "Thanks dad," she smiled into the phone and I felt a sense of determination in the sound of this. "Love you," she began to say her goodbye this way, the usual way we would always do it.

Glancing around, I knew that the responsibilites of a father weighed heavy on one's shoulders. Which must have been heavier for Opie in this time, but he needed to grow a pair and handle his family. To be there for his daughter's birthday. It had to be done. "Love you too," I replied softly and we both hung up at the same time. Time to call Opie.


OPOV

I had stopped at a random motel for the night, hearing my cell ring, I had stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. "Hey Pop, what's going on?" I asked him once I saw who the caller ID was. Dad answered with a rough 'Nothing, how are you?' "I'm good, just found an old bike I'm planning to be working on, you should see it dad," I told him of what I had picked up along my journey.

Dad seemed hesitant as he spoke, but I could sense I needed to gear myself up for whatever he was about to talk to me about. "Well, maybe I will, when you decide to come back to your home and be there for the birthday party in a few days," he said as bluntly as he could. "You are coming, right?" he asked me, it was questioning and I knew he was judging me silently.

Blinking a few times, I felt stunned at how forward my father was being in that very moment. "I...uh..." I mumbled, running my fingers through my slick and wet hair. "I don't know," I answered him truthfully, knowing I didn't have plans and that I couldn't disappoint my family back at home. "When is it?" I asked him.

Having to know better, I somehow felt the need to ask the question to be certain I could make it in time. "This Friday," he answered my question. "Son, you need to be there," he spoke honestly, starting to tell me exactly what he wanted to. "Maddie is getting worried," he informed me. "But it's not because it's her birthday party too," he told me. "You need to come down here. Now. Because if you don't...well son, we'll all be disappointed," he stated. "But not just us, but the ones who will be most disappointed are your kids," he pulled at my heart strings, knowing that they too needed me there. "The same kids that have lost there mother, when you lost your wife," he reminded me of their pain and suffering.

Feeling the guilt, I could sense the tears threaten. I could feel my heart clench, cutting the air to my lungs and forming a lump in my throat. "Dad I-" I tried to make him stop me from feeling the pressures. The responsibility I had to my children and family. To the people I had left behind, to those who suffered as much as I did in losing Donna.

Dad wasn't having any of it. "Don't cut me off!" dad shouted down the cell. "You're going to listen and you're going to come to this birthday party," he ordered. "You may have lost your wife, but can you imagine the smile your daughter will wear for the entire day, just to see you at the party?" he asked me, making me imagine her sweet face, how Ellie had resembed much of Donna. "Or would you rather imagine the pain on her face, to not only her mother no longer be present at her birthday celebrations, but also because her father was too selfish to be there with her," he spat in disgust. "To support her," he added for more impact.

I felt like I was drowning, like I could no longer push against the pressure that was being forced onto my shoulders. The guilt was too strong for me to fight against. "Pop, please-" I pleaded, wanting him to listen to me and to make him stop trying to convince me.

Yet again, dad cut me off. "Because I swear to Jesus Christ," dad spoke loudly into the other end of the cellphone. "If you don't turn up to her party," he began to warn me. "I'll know that you weren't the man who I raised," he told me disappointedly. "You'll no longer be the son I recognized," he added. "Got it?" he questioned me in a threatening and loud tone.

He was always demanding, and was the only one to ever get me to be convinced. He knew how to make me see things, how to realize that I had been wrong and where my duties were. I had a duty to be a father to my children. "I got it, old man," I assured him. "I'll try to be there, I promise," I answered him, knowing that it was a necessity to be there for my children, the vision of them made me push myself to do it. For them.


~The Birthday Party~


JPOV

Waking up, I was covered by the covers and was still in my boxers. Wiping the sleep from my eyes, I glanced beside me and saw that Maddie was no longer asleep by my side. The sunlight seeped through the curtains and made the room illuminate in a warm yellow glow. Perfect for the day that was to come. Slipping out of bed, I made my way towards the kitchen, where I saw Maddie was cooking breakfast.

I had glanced inside the bedroom of Abel, seeing him fast asleep, I couldn't help the smile on my face. Him and Maddie, were the main reasons I was alive and why I was working hard on changing the club. Seeing Maddie, she was in a pair of my boxers and a tight gray tank-top. Leaning against the door frame, she noticed me staring and smiled. Walking towards her, I wrapped my arms around her waist and kept my front pressed to her back. "Mornin'," I mumbled against her skin as I kissed along her cheek, all the way down to her neck and left a trail of kisses on her. "What's cooking good lookin'?" I asked her with a small chuckle.

Watching her cook, was one of the most seductive things I had ever seen and especially in my boxers. Which suited her more than it did me, in a strange way. Laughing, she nuzzled her neck and tried to stop me from kissing her skin. "Bacon and eggs," she informed me. "You hungry?" she asked as she looked over her shoulder and at me.

Snickering, I placed a kiss against her lips and stared into her eyes as I pulled away to speak. "Yeah," I answered her. "But not for food," I smirked, which made her giggle and turn her head back down at the pan in her hands. Continuing to cook, I watched as he breasts jiggled slightly with each movement of her hands, causing my arms to curl tighter around her and lips to suck and bite her skin gently.

Running my hands along her front, I wanted to touch her every skin and feel her against me. A primal part of me wanted to rip her clothes off her, to take her against the kitchen counter and give her a great start to the day. Her laughs and stiffled giggles encouraged me more to spur her on. "Jackson, stop," she wriggled in my arms in protest, making me ask her 'Why?' "Your mom is-" she went to answer.

The moment Maddie said 'Mom', I knew that it was either going to be an excuse that she was going to be here any minute. Except, seeing my mom enter the room, a surprised look on her face and her eyes flashed between the pair of us. "Morning," she greeted us. "Can see you two are already celebrating," she teased as she moved into the kitchen, making me groan against Maddie's neck and shut my eyes. Cock block.

Glancing behind me, I noticed mom had her bag perched on the seat in the kitchen and I felt dumb for not noticing it. Groaning, I stepped away from Maddie and gave her one last kiss to her cheek. "Suddenly, I don't feel hungry anymore," I mumbled, making Maddie laugh and blush. "I should be the one doing your breakfast," I complained about her cooking, knowing she needed to be treated like a queen today.

Mom was watching us, with a small smile and would avert her eyes from time to time. As though she was giving us some privacy. "Too late," Maddie shook her head and pursed her lips, finishing up, she placed the food on a plate and served it to me. "You should have woke up earlier," she told me with a small smile.

Worried about later, I knew she was going to like my present, but I wasn't sure if it was going to be something she wanted. Taking the plate from Maddie, I pecked her lips and dug into my breakfast. "What you doing here so early, mom?" I asked my mom, with a mouth full of food and my back pressed against the kitchen counter.

Pulling out banners and balloons from her bag, I glanced at Maddie and had enough answers for my question. Gulping down the food, I licked my lips and stared at my mother with furrowed eyebrows. "I was helping Maddie with the decorations and looking after Abel," mom sighed as she waved the things she held and scrunched them into her hands neatly. "You do remember it's the party, don't you?" she questioned me with raised eyebrows.

Nodding, I felt like she was only playing me or pretending to make me look like I had forgot. "Yeah," I told her as I placed the plate to one side, all the contents that were on it was now in my stomach. "I'm going to go freshen up, get ready for the guests coming over," I informed them as I turned to Maddie, who stood beside me. Wrapping my arms around her waist, I stared down into her eyes and swallowed my saliva. "Happy birthday. I love you," I spoke to Maddie softly before I leaned down and kissed her slowly, our lips soft and gentle as they caressed one another. Pulling away, I gave her a tight lipped smile and slithered out of her hold, her arms were wrapped around my neck and I wandered back towards my room.


GPOV

When Jax left to his room, he took some clothes and went to have a shower. Instantly, Maddie went to work on cleaning the dishes. "Hey," I said as I took a step closer, so that I stood beside her. "I'm happy you're here," I told her truthfully. Seeing Jax and Maddie together, showed me they were both happy with one another and brought a warmth to my heart. "Glad you're helping everyone out," I added. "I think everyone is," I concluded.

Confusing Maddie, she looked to me and kept doing the dishes. "Why do you say that?" she asked me, curious of what I could have meant by my words. Knowing that I could have been speaking from my ass, I needed to assure her it was nothing bad and that it was all positive thinking.

A tight lipped smile formed along my lips, placing the decorations to one side, I looked back at her and stared into her hazel eyes. "Lots of us have missed you," I informed her. "Jackson the most," I revealed to her. "Missing someone, it's a little like when losing someone," I tried to explain.

Maddie was nodding, she somehow understood and cut me off before I could explain it further. "You can't stop thinking about them," she agreed. "I know that. I felt the same whenever I thought of Jackson, which was almost all the time," she told me. "I know what loss and missing someone feels like," she informed me as she looked into my eyes, as though she was warning me to not treat her like a child with no experience.

Placing my hand against the kitchen counter, I rest my other hand on my hip and looked directly at her. To intimidate her and to test her, to see if she had the guts to face me directly. "You're an aunt, a daughter, a sister, a lawyer, a Princess..." I listed all the things she was. "Are you sure you can handle being a mother to Abel and an old lady? All at the same time?" I questioned her.

Curious to hear her answer, she simply finished the dishes and dried her hands with a cloth. "An old lady isn't much different to a Princess," she believed as she looked at me directly in the eyes as she spoke. "Besides, I've been caring for my nephews like they were my own, ever since they were born," she pointed out to me truthfully. "There's not much difference," she shrugged.

Evidently, she was wrong and was going to eventually find out. Old ladies had to be strong, smart and show they had power. That they had their place, beside their man and that no one else could have him. She had to know how to fight, how to use a gun, how to keep secrets and how to protect the club. Yet, most of these things she already knew, except being an old lady was tougher. "Oh sweetheart, you don't know what you're getting yourself into," I told her honestly with a small shake of my head and pout of my lips.


JPOV

Finishing my shower, I changed into my clothes and saw that Maddie was getting ready in my room. Fixing up her hair, she had slipped into a dress that complimented her figure and made me smile at her. Her eyes were glued to the mirror, fixing her ear-rings and noticed me in her reflection. "Opie called last night," she informed me as she smiled at me.

Taking a few steps closer, I sighed and pulled my hands out of my pockets. "Did he?" I asked her and smiled in return. She looked beautiful, like always. "What did he say?" I questioned her, she had nod to me in silent reply and knew there was something to it. That Opie must have called for a reason, rather than Maddie calling him first, like she usually did.

Placing my hands on her lips. I felt the soft material hugging her curves and enjoyed the feel of it. "He's going to be here for the birthday party," she informed me as she pulled my hands to wrap my arms around her. All so that she could wrap her own with mine.

A wide smile appeared on my face, I knew this was good news and it was something to look forward to. Myself and Maddie discussed her brother and both agreed that he should be here, not for Maddie in particular, but for his children. "Good," I said as I rest my head on her shoulder and swayed us slightly on the spot. "I'm glad you're spending time here a little more...permanently," I told her softly after a few moments of silence.

Looking at me curiously through the mirrors, our eyes were glued and we looked identical, yet completely different. Her blonde, long hair was perfectly swept and formed to compliment her face. Whilst mine looked messy and untamable. Maddie's eyes looked darker, while mine looked lighter, like an almost blue. Yet, Maddie had a radiant look to her skin, a soft glow that made me feel as though I was staring at an angel. "What are you saying?" she asked me with a calm expression.

Her eyes had this shimmer in them, like she was in absolute blis and I couldn't help but watch her in awe. She was one of the most beautiful creatures I had ever seen. My son being the most beautiful thing I had ever created. "You're spending more time at mine, compared to time at yours," I informed her innocently, knowing that this could start a topic I didn't know how it would turn out.

Mom was possibly still fixing up the decorations and Maddie said she was going to prepare the food, to which I was going to help her with. "Are you telling me that I should move in?" she asked me with a small giggle, her lips curving slightly to form a small, mischievious smile.

It was the type of smile that did multiple things to my body and made me more turned on, than serious. "Only if you want to, I wouldn't say no," I told her as I placed delicate kisses to her cheek and shut my eyes. Feeling her skin stretch, I could tell she was smiling widely at whatever I was either saying or doing.

Giving my arms a gentle squeeze, she shook her head and caused me to look at her through the mirror once again. My lips still connected to her cheek. "Not yet, it's too soon, but...I will move some of my stuff here," she partly agreed to my suggestion. "So I'm not always using your clothes to work, or to sleep in," she informed me as to why she'd bring her clothing with her.

Smirking, of course, with my front pressing her back, she must have felt the slowly burning desire I had for her. Yet, I chose to act more sexual than normal, but only because I had plenty of plans for her later. "There's always the option for you to sleep naked," I teased as I gently kissed her cheek once more.

This only made Maddie laugh and turn to face me. Her body turned in my arms and her hands were then placed to my chest, resting against my heart and ribs. "Not a chance in hell, wise guy," she laughed and nudged me gently, her smile wide and it only made me lean down to place a kiss to her lips softly. Man, do I love this woman.


MPOV

Slowly, visitors came through the door and they were welcomed. My dad, mom, nephews and the club members were some of the few that had entered the house first. We were all eating, chatting, drinking and enjoying the time. I had given Ellie a badge and a tiara with her age number on it. Sipping on some beer, I smiled and spoke to Ellie. "Here," Jax said, surprising me and offering me a small box that was professionally wrapped.

Instantly, I knew it was my present and gently, I took it from him. He had startled me slightly, but I had recovered quickly with a gasp at the surprise. "You didn't have to Jax," I said as I began to unwrap the gift, while he watched me with a smile on his face. His eyes darting between me and the present in my hands. "Oh my God..." I whispered once I opened up the box. "Thank you Jax," I thanked him as I got to my feet.

Wrapping my arms tightly around him, he chuckled and we kissed softly for a few moments. It was a bracelete, a charm bracelete specifically. One that had the initials in different styles. It held an O, P, E and K in that order. What struck me most, was the 'D' charm that was carved in a cross. Another charm, was a heart with a 'J' inside of it. What they all stood for were the people who mattered most to me. Opie, Piney, Ellie, Kenny, Donna and Jackson. "You like it?" he asked me.

Smiling, I could hardly contain the happiness and love I had for him in that moment. A swelling in my heart made tears begin to form in my eyes. "I love it," I laughed and hugged Jax tightly in my arms. Jax then pulled out the present that was meant for Ellie and handed it to her, telling her a kind 'Here you go, Ellie.' "What do you say?" I asked her, reminding her of her manners that myself and Donna had taught her.

Shyly, she looked up at Jax and smiled. "Thanks uncle Jackson," she told him. Opening the gift, she unwrapped it and opened up the box inside of it. It was a necklace. A heart-shapped locket. One that she could open up and see pictures of her father and mother. Both of them in seperate sides, both of them looked beautiful and young, happy. On the outside of the locket, there was an insane amount of detail carved onto it.

It was a work of art that everyone admired. "You're welcome kid," Jax told her as she smiled and stared up at Jax. Tears formed in her eyes, yet I was unsure if it was tears of joy or sadness. "That way, she'll always be in your heart, no matter where you or they are," he explained his reason in why he chose those pictures and this jewlery choice. The gesture was sweet and warmed my heart, more than what his present did for me.


JPOV

Opening the door for guests, I saw a pair of women stood at the door, women I had never seen before. Yet, when Maddie moved to stand beside me, she recognized them in an instant. "Anna?" she asked to one woman. "Emma?" she laughed as she hugged the pair of them. "What are you two doing here?" she questioned as she lead them into the house.

Both women were slim, tall and had the same type of features. Pale, wide eyes and long hair. One had wide brown eyes and black, thick, curly hair. The other woman was younger, compared to the woman beside her, her hair was a lighter shade of brown and her eyes were chestnut and light brown color. "Well, we're here today for your birthday party and to say our condolences for your loss," said the younger woman. "But, we're also going to be here for another reason," she said as she looked to Maddie with a wide smile.

Something about their names struck me, as though Maddie may have mentioned these women to me once or twice. "What's that?" Maddie asked curiously, taking hold of them, she lead them futher into the house and the older woman glanced around, her dress was more formal compared to others. It was as though the older woman was here to go to some rich party, rather than to be at a small get-together.

The older woman's eyes connected to mine, before she glanced at Maddie with a wide smile. "We'll tell you later, dear," she assured her with bright eyes. "First, I think an introducing is in favour," she spoke directly towards Maddie but glanced at me, as though I was the person she wanted to be introduced to.

Maddie looked to me, realizing that I was stood behind her and remembered I too was with her. "Oh!" she jumped and laughed softly. "Jax, this is Anna and Emma Richards," she introduced me to the two women in-front of her and took me by the arm. "Emma and Anna, this is Jax my boyfriend," she had labeled me in-front of her friends. "This is Ellie and Kenny, my niece and nephew," Maddie introduced as she took them by the shoulders and faced them to her friends. "Him over there, is my father, Piney Winston," she pointed towards where Piney was, sipping on his beer and laughing with Chibs.

Emma, who was the older woman and the mother of Anna, looked around the room with a worried look in her eye. Something told me she wasn't one for a party, with a room filled with outlaw bikers. "Where's your brother?" she asked Maddie curiously, as though she was searching for Maddie's brother, but I sensed there was something she was hiding.

Maddie smiled at Emma and shook her head. "He's not here yet," I informed her curious friend. "But, it's lovely to meet you both," I smiled to the pair, even though Emma seemed distant and awkward with her surroundings. "I've heard some stories, but I get the feeling Maddie's keeping some of them secret," I teased as I pulled Maddie to my side and shook her playfully.

Laughing, Maddie began to mumble a chorous of 'no's, but she then stopped and bit her bottom lip playfully. "Maybe," she teased and smiled up at me. "Anyway what are you-" she went to ask the girls as she turned her gaze to them.

Instead, Happy cut her off as he wandered over to her and clapped loudly. "Hey, Princess," he took her attention and had a chair pulled up for her. All the ink he needed was placed on the side of it, where he too would sit on another chair and smiled at her. "My gift is a tattoo, but only if you'd want one," he pointed a finger at her, warning her that it was free, but only if she wanted a particular tattoo.

Shocked, she had been pulled away from her friends and thrown back into the world we had grown up in. "Wow," she spoke shocked as she blinked from the surprise. "I ah...yeah," she hesitated as she thought it all over. "I want one," she agreed and gave him a nod. Showing Maddie a bunch of tattoo designs, Maddie examined some whilst Happy asked her 'Which one?' "This one but, with a crown on it's head and a J in the heart," she told him.

Wondering why she suddenly wanted a tattoo, it then made me curious as to where she'd want it and what it symbolized for her. Maddie had left to get something appropriate on, so that Happy could tattoo her without her showing too much skin or underwear to everyone. "Why the crow?" I asked her as she took her seat beside Happy, who had already picked out the inks and the design he had quickly sketched for her.

Happy was the best ink artist we had and he could handle whatever Maddie asked of him with ease. "Well, I'm technically a Crow-Eater, but I'm a Princess and I'm your Crow-Eater," she informed me as she raised her top and pulled down her yoga pants a little. Showing Happy her waist to the top of her hip bone. Happy looked down at the skin she was showing and asked her 'Where do you want it Mads?' "Between my hip and waist please Happy, thank you," she pointed to the section of skin she wanted the tattoo on.

Her response was reasonable, which made me question how long she had been thinking about getting a tattoo. As we hadn't been together long, yet we had loved each other for many years. "Think I might have Abel written across my heart," I mumbled to myself, to which Happy said 'I can do it for you after I've finished Maddie's tat.' "Thanks Hap, I'd appreciate it," I thanked him for the offer and took it. The end results proved to be brilliant, Maddie's crow was personalized and it suited her more than I had imagined.


OPOV

Parking outside, I saw that there was a row of cars and bikes parked outside. Walking to the door, I knocked and was greeted by one of the friends of the club. Entering, I looked around and saw familiar faces, along with new ones. Wandering to the back yard, I saw that Ellie was sat straight, staring at Maddie who wandered out with a large cake in hand and everyone was singing happy birthday. Ellie smiled and laughed, but her eyes widened and smile grew wider than I thought possible the moment she saw me. Blowing out their candles, they both swiped a finger along the icing and slapped the icing on each other's noses.

Laughing, everyone clapped and cheered at them. Exchanging a hug, I then noticed mom was staring at me and dad smiled at me. I could tell he was proud of me and Jax wandered closer to greet me. Hugging those that I knew, the party went back in motion and Maddie began cutting the cake for everyone. I knew that I needed to see Maddie and my kids, it was an important day and yet, I couldn't help but feel guilty.


MPOV

Seeing Opie enter after the candles were blown and the cake was cut. I handed out plates for those around me, smiling, I would thank them for being here too and when I noticed Opie, I wiped the icing off my nose with a tissue and rushed over to him. "Sorry I'm late," he apologized as Ellie and Kenny engulfed their father in a hug, making me smile wider. "I...uh...also forgot the presents," he spoke ashamed that he'd forget something like that, shaking my head, I couldn't help but feel happy for him showing up.

Ellie wasn't sad, but she looked a little shocked and confused by his words. "It's fine, we're just happy to see you," I assured Opie that it wasn't a problem and that we'd rather he'd show up, presentless than not show up at all. "Aren't we Ellie?" I asked her as she pulled away from Opie and I held onto her shoulder lightly.

With a smile and nod, Ellie agreed with me and this was when both Ellie and Kenny went back to the party. Hugging Opie, I thanked him for being here and that it meant a lot to all of us. "Weeks. Weeks without being here for your kids, leaving them behind and keeping them here with me and the rest of us," mom began to complain as she came closer. "They need their father," she stated to him. "I respect you for being here, but you needed to be here for when she was opening the presents," she snarled at Opie through gritted teeth. "Even Jackson is a better father to your kids," she spat insulting to him.

Mom had crossed a line, one I wasn't going to let her continue to cross. Not today and not in-front of all the people that were surrounding us. And now, they were watching us curiously. "Mom stop!" Opie demanded through clenched teeth and his eyes were shut. Knowing this expression, it was a mixture of anger and guilt.

Our mother had a right to educate us and try to convince us to do what was right. But, she hardly ever listened to her own advice all those years back. "Don't," I ordered of my mother firmly, noticing her mouth was opening for her to talk back at Opie. "Not here, not in front of guests or the children," I glanced around the room, a few prying eyes looked away and some kept watching. "This conversation is to be saved, for another day," I told them. "Have some respect," I spoke with disgust, not enjoying the fact that he had showed up and my mom was already causing a fight to happen.


PPOV

Maddie had told her mother to pipe it down, which was the right thing to do as she knew that now was not the right time for family discussion. Jax was going to go over to Maddie and help her, but she handled it and I stopped him from leaving my side. Maddie then walked away and left to possibly do something else. "You know, you both make a good looking couple," I began a conversation with Jackson. "You make her happy, you make her smile and laugh," I listed all the things that Jax did for her. "That's all a father could ask for when he looks to the little girl that became a woman before his very eyes," I spoke honestly.

Staring at her, she was floating around the room and talking to multiple guests. Laughing, brushing strands of her hair back, smiling and nodding along with those she'd talk to. She seemed in her element, out of her shell compared to how she was a few years back. "She's always meant something special to me," Jax admitted to me as he stared at her in awe and adoration.

Chuckling, I took a sip of my beer and smiled at the man. He truly cared about my daughter and I could see it through his eyes. In the way that he stared at her. "Good," I nod a single time as I looked at him. "Make sure it stays that way," I warned him. "Because if you hurt my little girl, Jax," I began to threaten him. "I know where you live and I will find you," I told him seriously, pointing a single finger and staring at him directly in the eyes.

Jax took a sip of his beer and looked to me after a few moments of staring at Maddie silently. "I know you'll come looking for me," he agreed with my words, knowing that I would do as I said if anything happened. The boy knew me well, for I was more a father to him than what Clay ever was. "But, I can promise you...I will never hurt her," Jax assured me. "Ever," he said as he stared directly into my eyes, he was honest and I could sense it. His gaze then turned to his girlfriend, to my daughter and stayed there as I watched him. I hope you keep your word, son.


GPOV

The party wasn't a complete disaster, seeing as I had looked after Abel and spent time with the guests. Laughing, talking and meeting some new people. Mary went to teach Opie a lesson, except, Maddie had stopped her before a scene could burst in-front of the guests. Everything seemed more or less perfect. Maddie had a crow-eater tattoo marked on her left side of her hip and Jax had a beautiful tattoo of Abel across his heart.

Cleaning up, I found myself glancing around the house, which was now empty and I had help from all the girls. Along with Maddie and Jax, who had also helped out in cleaning the house up after everyone had left. I was the last one there, glancing around, I knew it was now a home. A home that Maddie, Jax and Abel now shared. They were their own, new and small family. One I was proud to be a part of. Nodding, I smiled and left the family to their private celebration.


MPOV

Moaning, we were both sweaty, sticky and hot from our actions. Shutting my eyes, I could feel Jax's hands gripping my hips tighter with each harsh and deep thrust. With a groan, he emptied what he had into the condom and fell to the bed. Removing the latex material from himself, he had moved to sit upright on the bed, wrapped the material in a tissue and threw it in the trash. Moving away from the position I was on, which was on my hands and knees, I fell back with him. The pair of us panting and wrapped in one another's arms. "You're welcome," he panted out.

Resting my head on his chest, I was curious as to what he had meant. Enveloped in his arms, we were surrounded by the bedcovers and I couldn't help but stare up at him in confusion. "For what?" I asked him, my eyebrows furrowed deeply and my eyes squinting up at him.

Chuckling, his fingertips brushed along my back and left a ghostly shiver run down my spine. "The birthday sex," he answered, a wide smirk appeared on his face and I couldn't help but laugh at his response. He has got to be kidding me, right?

My own fingers were creating patterns over his new tattoo, which suited him and looked perfect on him. Abel. After laughing, I smiled at him and slapped his chest lightly. "You should be thanking me," I threw back at him. "Because from the way it turned out, I think you enjoyed it a lot more than what I did," I concluded from my judgement of how our actions became rough and made Jax the dominant one.

Jax laughed, wrinkles formed around his eyes and his smile was wider than before. "Don't lie," he nudged me, but his fingers were tracing patterns along my hip, where my fresh and new tattoo was placed. "But, I will admit, I did enjoy the view and your moans and..." he went to list all the things that he enjoyed out of it.

Blushing, I couldn't stand the way he'd compliment me in the most innapropriate of ways. "Stop it," I hushed him and tried to cover his mouth, except he licked and bit it playfully. Giggling for a moment, we both laughed and smiled. Regaining our breaths. "You know, I've been thinking...I might buy myself a bike and start learning how to ride it," I considered after a few moments of silence to tell him this.

My head resting on his shoulder once more, my fingers tracing the letters and I kept very calm. Very still. "Nah," Jax disagreed, making my eyebrows furrow once again. "That ain't going to happen babe," he told me with a kiss to the top of my head.

Lifting myself to prop my head on my elbow, I looked at him curiously and slipped my fingers into my hair. "Why not?!" I questioned him, surprised at what else he had to tell me. Curious as to why I wasn't permitted to ride a bike. "You don't think I can handle it?" I asked him, challengeing him subtly.

Jax laughed, his eyes glued to mine and his smile was large. "Oh, you can," he answered me. "I have no doubt about that," he chuckled. "I prefer it if you ride me and not a bike," he spoke mischieviously with a smirk plastered on his face. "Besides, I ain't having my girl ride any bike," he told me honestly. "My back seat is only reserved for three people," he began to inform me. "My mom and brothers if necessary, but that seat..." he stated what the seat was used for. "Is reserved...for only you," he informed me as he kissed my lips between each few words.

Snickering, I gently took hold of one of his cheeks and scooted closer. "Shut up," I orderered in a whisper, pressing my lips lightly to his in a delicate, slow and calming kiss. "Thank you, for both my present and for Ellie's," I began. "What you gave Ellie was sweet," I told him. "Thank you for giving me a wonderful birthday surprise and present," I thanked once again as I rest my head on his shoulder.

With a small mumble of incoherent words, he slithered out of my weight and placed me, so that I was laying on my back. His body resting above mine and his eyes staring down into mine. "Anytime babe, but...I still haven't finished giving," he answered as he kissed my lips once, then began a trail of kisses down my body. All the way to where he had once been, giggling, I couldn't help but smile and bite my bottom lip. Until I felt his lips press against the parting of my legs, which caused me to moan and gasp in pleasure.


"'Cause it's you and me and all of the people. With nothing to do, nothing to lose. And it's you and me and all of the people. And I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you."


Hope you liked this chapter. It's going to go into season 2 after this, but things are going to be different. Considering Maddie isn't Tara and how these differences will add something new to the story. Some scenes will also make more sense with Maddie, but it's going to follow the series more than you might like. Except, Maddie has a different path to carve out, compared to Tara. So, prepare yourselves! Also, I imagine Emma to look like Madeleine Stowe and Anna as Sarah Wayne Callies. This chapter's song was 'You And Me' by Lifehouse.


Questions I'd like to be answered in reviews:

1) Where do you see everything going?

2) Will Maddie and Jax last?

3) Do you think Maddie will figure out it was Tig and Clay? Who's side would she be on?


Until the next chapter, which I'm currently working on at this very moment.

Much love!

HeroJustInTime90 xxx