Hello guy! I'm so sorry for the late update in accordance to what I said during my latest update at Pool Party. I lacked some inspiration but here I am and I created this. I apologize if this is not that great, it feels like I could have done better but nonetheless, after re-watching a few F.T episodes, read a lot of fanfics, searched a few fanart and downloaded photoshop (probably will start digital art xD) I finally came to this :D

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Between Two Neighbors

"I love you" The words left my mouth even before I could stop them. The beating of my heart pounded in my ears, he obviously could hear it. Natsu froze and we stopped swaying. I was still looking at him while understanding what people meant. What Levy meant. This is what she's talking about, this is my answer. There's no questioning my feelings for him, I love him and that's it. I waited for him to say or do anything but he remained rooted to the ground with his hands on his sides.

He was driving me crazy, each second grew longer than the last. We were both not doing anything, he wasn't doing anything even after what I just said. I was passive on the outside but in my head I was screaming on his face to say something. But he didn't. So, I did the least sane thing my intoxicated mind could process. Maybe my confidence was driven by alcohol and pure love itself. But I took his frozen face in between my hands, clashing my mouth against his without hesitation. His lips against mine never felt so right, even though he partly tasted of the same alcohol, he also tasted like fire and mint. My mind drifted off when I slanted my face to gain better access, I couldn't think of a right word to describe this feeling. All I know is that my heart along with the rest of me felt like they were going to explode at some point. His mouth felt so warm, I just couldn't stop.

And neither could he. When he responded back, wrapping a strong arm around my waist—holding me against him with his free hand cupping my cheek, I was sure that I never wanted to stop. For no particular reason, tears started to pool from my eyes and suddenly, the soft lip locking turned into an intense battle within a second, when he hungrily inserted his tongue. He devoured me whole, I could feel my back pressing against the wall, along with his long-fingered hand guiding my leg to wrap around his waist. I let him have his control, he lets himself become aggressive. We continued trailing our tongues into dominance, his occasional groans sending a hot feeling down my belly. But out of pure haze and intoxication, I bit his bottom lip.

Natsu immediately snaps. His half-lidded eyes growing wide as he pushes himself away from me. I was too busy catching my breathe to ask what was going on. When he sets his slanted eyes into a vicious glare. "Why did you do that?" He growled as he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, the warm feeling in my chest was immediately replaced by cold fear. I've never seen him this angry before.

"You broke the promise! Y-you don't love me, you're just drunk"

He has never been so wrong. I have never been so wrong. No, I don't love Sting. I may have liked him but there are a few things this guy could make me feel that I never felt before. Guilt started to build up inside me now that he mentioned the promise, I am not the right person to break promises, I have told him that before and he trusted me.

"I'm sorry that I did. I kept telling myself that I like Sting when you made me promise... I never knew I already broke it until then. I'm so sorry. But I love you, Natsu" I was crying, hot tears were rapidly falling down my face.

I watched as he runs his hand across his disheveled hair. "No, you can't love me. That's impossible... Stop this" I couldn't tell anymore if I should be sad that he thinks that way or be hurt that he's denying all this.

But I took a step closer. "But I did and I won't. I know that you feel the same way, Natsu... Why are you pushing me away?" Natsu looked away from me, he seemed so obvious that he wants me just as much as I want him. And it was annoying, why can't he accept this?

He glares right through me, his eyes felt so distant. "I don't love you, Lucy! Stop this, right now!"

I will not stop, not now. Not after knowing that he feels the same way.

I angrily took another step forward. "That's bullshit and you know it! Why did you kissed me back then, huh?" Just like what I expected he couldn't answer my question, he continued looking elsewhere. I sighed in frustration as I forced him to look at me.

"Natsu, look at me..." He was taking interest on the floor. "Please..." Slowly, he finally casts his eyes towards me.

"Tell me why..."

He placed his warm hands over mine as his face morphs into a bitter smile. "Can you still love a monster like me?" What is he talking about?

"I don't understand..." I admitted and he gives a hard squeeze on his vice like grip before removing my hands from his face. I felt hurt by the gesture.

"Of course you don't! Do you really want to know why? Do you really want to find out why I'm holding myself back from you?" It was more like a threat than a question but I bravely nodded my head. I'm dying to know.

"Lucy, I'm a killer! A hitman hired by people to assassinate, to murder! I live to kill, Lucy... Does that answer your question?" I opened my mouth to say something, anything but there's no word to describe his revelation. It was easier to accept that he's a mythical beast with wings and claws than having him as a real monster.

"Can you still love me knowing that I killed a person? I killed a lot of people. Someone lost a father, a wife or a son because of me... Can you still love me?" There were tears threatening in the corners of his eyes. The whole idea, himself as a whole this time, kept me from saying anything. I was too speechless, I couldn't believe him. There were a million thoughts left unsaid.

"I thought so" Was the last thing he said before he walked away.

My chest hurts. This is not just because of my drunken state. I'm not even drunk anymore as I processed what Natsu said, his revelation made me realize a couple of things. So that is why he's wearing that combat-made uniform, had so much scars considered to be from bullets. His job is illegal and immoral, this is what he was talking about. This was why he didn't let me ask for help when he was wounded. He was being followed that day when we met at the supermarket. He was so distant every time I asked him. The neighborhood was right about them.

This made my heart ache along with my head because it all makes sense now. The thought alone seemed believable with each point connecting together and it hurts to think that Natsu, along with Sting and the rest of them is a killer. This leaves a bitter taste in my mouth as the guy I'm in love with raises more questions than answers.

Are all of them trained to do this? At what age? How does he take it, knowing fully well that someone will lose a father, a son? How long was he doing this?

I never took them as the type to know what the feeling of blood is under their shoes or taking the life out of someone else. Natsu, Erza, Gray and everyone I have grown into liking are all monsters with a heart of stone towards the life of an innocent. I'm supposed to be angry, scared, sad...

But in the end, even as I dissect my heart and thoughts, I still consider them my friends, my family.

And I still love him.

So, with the little bit of my energy left, I threw my front door open—only to realize that I was too late. My eyes were swollen red and the tears wouldn't stop from falling, along with the painful daggers in my chest.

"I still love you" Before I collapsed on the floor, letting myself drown with sadness.


It was so wrong and so stupid of me to have kissed her back. I've been holding out for so long, I didn't know how much I wanted her until now and it makes me sick to think that I couldn't have her. Not when I am vowed to follow the rules, not when I can be a reason to lose her for good. I was already frustrated when I just loved her from afar but now, I'm going to lose my mind knowing that she feels the same way. This shouldn't be happening, Sting is right. History is going to repeat itself if I don't stay away from her.

But it's a good thing that she knows what I do, what I am capable of. It gives her enough reason to stay away from me.

I was walking aimlessly around the village, there was nowhere else to go and I just needed to clear my head.

I cursed heavily when there's still a trail of Lucy's taste in my mouth, even with alcohol, she tasted sweet just like what I imagined. Even if I deny it to myself, no matter how wrong and stupid it was, kissing her is the best wrong thing I could have done. But even then, she broke the promise. I was so sure that she loved him, liked him at least but when she said those words, I was actually more surprised than angry. I am not mad at Lucy, I can never be mad at her. In the end, there's a part of me that's relieved and happy that she loves me back.

But this situation I'm just in is unfair, it's so unfair that I can't be with her.

I made my way inside a convenient store, randomly buying some tub of vanilla ice cream before sitting on the sidewalk. Normally, I would prefer something hot but right now, I need something really cold. I could still see the vivid image of what happened between me and Lucy a while ago. It is so distracting, I need to wash it down.

"Excuse me... But are you alright?" A high-pitched voice coming from a short girl asked from behind. Based from the light emitting from the store, I could tell that her hair is blue and just as disheveled.

My eyes widened for a while only to realize that I've seen this girl before, when I infiltrated where Gajeel has been taking his time. I know her.

"Um I'm fine" I muttered, taking a spoonful.

"Are you sure?" She looked worried and I couldn't help but think that she could see right through me.

"Yes, do I know you?" Admittedly, I do.

She beamed a small smile, sitting beside me. "Not really. I just figured that you need someone to talk to right now" I eyed her once again. Is this girl for real? Clearly, she doesn't know who I am. And I plan to take it that way.

"Thanks but I'm just really tired. There's really nothing to talk about"

"Then at least try"

I don't know about her but something tells me that she could at least help. I have been breaking so many rules in one night, might as well break another one. I took a deep breathe before telling her what happened in an anonymous and subtle matter.

"So you're saying that even though you kissed her now, you can't be with her because your parents don't like her?" It's the closest thing I could ever tell her. I nodded my head.

"Can't you like have a secret relationship?" I've been there before.

"No, if they found out, they'd send me to another university"

She gave me a thoughtful look. "Well it's your choice actually. If you really want to be with her, might as well take the risk right? But then again, waiting for her to finish college will be worth it in the long run, so I don't really know. Just weigh your choices"

In reality, I don't really have to wait for her but it's the other way around. How can she wait for me when I am forever bound to follow my vows? Will taking the risk be worth it? If so until when? How long will it last until they take my happiness away from me? Somehow, she really did help me. I have never thought of those things before.

"Thanks. I really needed that" She smiled like it was no problem and I just have to ask her.

"But how did you know that I'm having some trouble?"

She laughed lightly before answering. "You walked in wearing a wrinkled suit, you bought ice cream and sat here... That's a bad day for me"

"Yeah, that is pretty obvious"

She stands up and I couldn't tell if she's really standing up but she dusts herself off as she offered one last smile. "Well, I better go. I think my boyfriend's here"

Knowing fully well that it's Gajeel, I nodded my head. "Goodbye and thanks again"

She waved at me before walking into the darkness while I just sat there eating my ice cream. She was right though, it's my choice to either take that risk or not. No matter how great that sounds, there is also a risk of them finding out and I don't know what they'll do to her. It is Lisanna all over again if it happens.

Seconds turned to minutes when I was having a frustrating debate with myself, when it started raining.


Is it really wrong to love him? For the past few hours, I have been convincing myself that it was just the spur of the moment or I was just drunk but no matter how hard I try, the more I realize that I really am in love with Natsu. It's why I feel the safest when I'm in his arms, it's when I look forward to every night whenever he jumps over my balcony, it's why I felt deliberately hurt when he distanced himself, when I first found out his reason to live when he was almost in the verge of death. There are still a lot more and I never realized until now that he did so much things to me. I almost felt like crying again but decided against it when I raise my head up on the twinkling sky above.

I smiled to myself, remembering a recent memory of Natsu pointing out Venus, Mercury and Jupiter while I taught him a made up constolation of our own. Surely enough, there are two bright stars closest to each other.

That's us. But somehow, I'm not so sure anymore, now that I ruined what we had, I mean I could have kept it to myself but if he didn't do what he did, would I have realized these feelings on my own? Maybe, but maybe not today. I touched my bottom lip, immediately remembering how he touched me, how he kissed me and how aggressive he was. Kissing him was a bold move but I don't regret any of it, knowing that it could be the last time.

The horrible thought sends a shiver down my spine as a hot tear escaped from my eye. It could be the last time.


It was way past midnight when I entered the house through the back door but instead of making my way to my room without causing much trouble, the kitchen light turns on—catching me off guard by none other than Gray.

"What do you want?" I was in no mood to talk, not now and probably not later.

"What happened back there?" He crosses his arms over his chest while I walked passed him.

"I don't want to talk about it. I'm going to sleep" But I know Gray, he's not going to give up any time soon or until I tell him. But I'm really not up for it, when the girl made me realize a few things, I never thought that I've chosen Lucy from the start knowing fully well what might happen and still I let her enter into my life. It sickens me that I've been this careless.

"Something happened and you're going to tell me... Or do you want me to tell Erza?" His threat actually worked, I stopped climbing up the stairs for a moment. Erza is quite scary anyway and I don't want any more people to find out.

"Why are you doing this anyway?"

"Cause I'm your friend... We're all your friends here, Natsu" It's funny how I stopped treating them my friends when the incident with Lisanna happened but then I met Lucy. I looked at Gray dead in the eye.

"I kissed Lucy" He opens his mouth to say something but closes it again. There's no fixing this problem, right? The damage has been done.

"She-She... She loves me" I let both of my hands cover my face, I could already feel the heat rising from my face. "And I love her" My hands trembled as I used the railing for support. Gray in the other hand, continued staring at me with bewilderment.

"You know that it doesn't work out" By both of our experiences, I'm well-aware of that.

"I know. That's why I'm staying away from her for good" I sat on the staircase, giving up on the situation.

"Can you?" I slowly seethe at him. It's not like I should be with her 24 hours a day, she can take care of herself. As much as I just admitted my feelings for her, there's nothing much I could do but avoid it. It's not like I'm going to die without seeing her. Lucy is not my weakness.

"I can and I will..." Buckling myself faster, I slammed my door shut. But did I really mean it? Can I really stay away from her? Gray is right, it will never work out and it could go downhill from there. I glared at the ceiling, the heck with it, I can do it. If Gray did it back then, why can't I?

But just like what I expected, I couldn't sleep—almost as if I'm more awake than tired. There are a lot of thoughts in my head right now and the more I try to avoid them, the more it sinks deeper.

I sat up and was about to go to my balcony, when I saw her lying across her back on her side of the balcony with only a blanket covering half of her body. She was smiling, I could tell even if it was dark and slightly a few feet away. But something had glistened and when I squint my eyes long enough, Lucy was actually crying.

The sudden urge to go there intensifies but I had to restrain myself, no matter how crestfallen she is, no matter how much she affects me.

"I'm sorry, Luce" In my head, I'm saying something else.

But we can't be together.