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Holding her to him, he sighed as he sat down on the bed, her arms remaining around his neck as she sat down with him and clung herself to him. He couldn't think about anything. If Kate was pregnant and it wasn't his, then it was Josh's and he didn't know whether he could spend the rest of his life bringing up the child of a man he hated more than anything just so he could be with Kate. He knew he'd do anything but whether he'd be able to cope with another man's child in the equation, he was finally beginning to doubt himself. Moving her arms from his neck, she slowly took hold of his hands, clinging onto them desperately as silent tears ran down her cheek, her hands bringing his to her lips as she slowly pressed a kiss against his skin.
"If I am Rick, you won't leave me will you?" she asked, waiting for him to answer as she remained silent, unable to look at him. "You'd leave me wouldn't you? You wouldn't be able to stay because I'd have someone else's baby inside me" she announced, his head shaking as he lay down on the bed, watching her lie down next to him, his arms wrapping around her body as he pressed a kiss to her neck. "I'd do anything to keep you in my life Rick because you're all that matters to me" she muttered through the tears as he continued to hold her. "I don't want a baby if it's not yours" she sobbed, rolling around so she could bury her head against his chest.
"Have you done a test?" he asked her head shaking quickly as he sighed. "Tomorrow, first thing we'll buy a test and then we'll know for certain" he whispered as he ran his hands up and down her back, trying to stop the tears from rolling down her cheeks.
"I need to know Rick; I need to know whether you'd stay with me even if I was pregnant with his child" she whispered, her voice getting quieter as she realised that she'd have to see Josh again, she would have to share something with him again, spend the rest of her life connected to a mistake she made through desperation and a need to feel love. "You wouldn't would you? You'd be scared off because it would be Josh's child" she declared, sitting up slowly as he grabbed the pillow and covered his head with it. He didn't know what he could say because he didn't have an answer. He needed to think about everything, register it all before he could give her a decent answer. Sliding out of the bed, she walked towards the small couch and sat on it, her arms wrapping around her knees as she realised that if she was pregnant she would lose Rick forever and she couldn't bare that. Walking over, he knelt in front of her, reaching up to touch her hand as she looked up at him, tears streaming down her red face.
"If you're pregnant Kate I won't leave you" he announced, staring into her eyes as she watched him. "I won't leave you because I love you and this child might be his but its yours too" he declared, smiling as she climbed onto the floor and hugged him, her head burying into his shoulder as she shut her eyes. "And I'd do anything to keep you in my life Katie because I love you" he sighed, knowing however much he might hate the child that might be growing inside her because it was Josh's he wasn't going to lose her again because of motorcycle boy.
XOXOXOXO
Staring at her as she lay in bed fast asleep, he sighed, running his fingers down her cheek as she moved onto her back, the blankets moving off her body to reveal her long legs and the shirt that barely covered her body. He had to admit he was terrified. If the test was positive, he would have to spend the rest of his life living with the child of a man he hated so he could live a life with the woman of his dreams and all he could think about was how it might end badly if he reacted in the wrong way to her baby. It was still her baby, fifty per cent her and he knew he'd have to love it because of that. But he would never be the child's father, he would always be the man who was sleeping with its mom, perhaps one day married to her and he couldn't be the villain, it wasn't like him. Lying down next to her, he took hold of her hand and kissed it gently, wanting to keep her close forever so if reality crushed the dream, he got to have those moments with her before it got crushed.
"Hold me" she whispered causing him to look down to see her staring at him. "I need you Rick, I need to know you still love me" she begged, a small sigh leaving his lips as he wrapped his arms around her and kept her close to him. "And yes, one day I want to marry you" she whispered, a small smile appearing on his face as he pressed a kiss against the back of her neck.
XOXOXOX
Entering the room the following morning, he smiled as he saw her sat at the end of the bed, her legs crossed as she stared at him. Passing her the bag, he smiled as she stood up and nodded, holding onto his hand for a moment before they both nodded and she crept towards the bathroom, neither of them knowing what to say to each other. Sitting down on the bed, he stared at the shut door waiting, feeling the weight of the world on his shoulders finally realising that this wasn't just about him. It was about Kate. She'd have to spend the rest of her life seeing Josh, putting up with a man who had treated her like rubbish over the years of their marriage and he had to be the strong one when she was weak because that's how their relationship worked. He was Richard Castle and all he cared about was Kate Beckett and he was going to be there for her, baby or no baby.
Standing there, she stared at herself in the mirror, waiting for the time to pass. Was she ready to be a mom? Especially to the child of a man she hated more than anything in the world. Running her hand through her hair, she felt a tear run down her cheek wanting one thing and that was to go back to the time where Rick had screamed that he loved in the middle of a busy city just to make it official and where she'd kissed him in public because she felt like it. She wanted to be happy. She wanted to be able to sleep in his arms without having to ask like she'd done the night before. Picking up the test, she slowly walked towards the door, not yet ready to look at it. Opening it, she stared out, their eyes connecting as she bit her lip and looked down.
"Rick I'm…".
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