Chapter Twenty-nine: Morning after

AN: Wow, I need to not update more often, I get more reviews that way. :) No, I'm not done with this story. The characters have too many things they'd like to say. However, I did need a break. The last three chapters were written together, so I was exhausted.

I was pulled ten different directions with where this chapter should go. I hope I made you guys happy with my final choice.

Warning: Okay people, this has a lemon in it and it might be a little more graphic than the last one, I'm not sure. You were forewarned.

Characters belong to Stephenie Meyers

EPOV

Half awake, I was stroking myself thinking of Bella. Slowly coming back to wakefulness, I realized I had lubricant on my hand. I didn't remember moving to get it, but looking to the side I saw the tube beside me. I should have used this on Bella last night. Perhaps it would have made her first time a little more bearable, and then I thought no, she was so wet already, it wouldn't have made any difference at all.

Looking around I saw no one here. Okay… so then last night must have been a dream, right? Clearly I was alone here and I knew Bella wasn't the type of person to leave after something like that. Or was she?

Sitting up, I looked down at the bed and saw the confirmation that we had been together for her first time. Still a bit groggy, it took me a few minutes to come to the full consciousness that she wasn't here. When I did realize it I shot out of bed. Where is she?

Did she hate being with me? No, I was confident enough to know that wasn't it; otherwise women wouldn't throw themselves at me. Wait… maybe that was it; she thought I was going to leave her right after, like I did all the others. Well I'd never dispelled that belief had I? Perhaps it hurt too much, more than she thought it would. Or could she possibly feel guilty after all? We hadn't known each other that long. We should have waited. I knew it.

If I stayed here any longer I was going to drive myself crazy not knowing. I had to find Bella, to make sure she was okay. My stomach was tight in my panic to find her. Then I was angry, we should have woken up together today, that's what I wanted. I thought she'd know that when I held her tight to me before falling asleep.

Opening the door hard, it slammed against the wall. Alice was standing outside of it dancing around. At the sound of the slam she jumped and looked at me, her eyes wide. Then she said "Edward could you please put some pants on or something?" Irritated I turned back to grab some sweatpants, no I really didn't care about pants this morning.

"So… how was it?" Alice asked me, continuing her dancing.

I stared at her. "How was what?"

Alice rolled her eyes and said "Being with Bella? Was it better than all the other girls? Like I said it would be. I know you actually care for her, unlike the others."

"Yes, it was better. Now please get out of my way, I have to find her." I said in more of a panic now. Being with Bella was so much better than the other girls I thought I was going to physically die if I didn't see her, which was a new sensation for me.

"Edward, stop looking like that. I know where Bella is." Alice stated.

"What? Where is she, Alice? I need her." I said. Alice beamed at me. What the hell was she smiling at? This wasn't funny.

"She's downstairs asleep on the couch." She told me.

"Why is she down there instead of in my bed with me where she belongs?" I snapped at her.

Smiling even wider Alice said "Because I told her not to sleep in your bed after having sex with you."

"You? Alice, why would you do that?" I nearly yelled at her. I was more than angry now.

"So you would feel just like you do right now, Edward." Alice said calmly. My sister is insane, she must be.

"What are you talking about?" I asked her.

"Edward you always kick girls out as soon as you are done with them. We all know that. I thought with Bella it'd be different and I was right. I also thought if you woke up and she was there you'd feel trapped instead of like you do right now. Knowing you want and need her with you even afterward. I did it for you and more importantly for Bella. I love her and I won't let even you hurt her." Alice explained slowly to me. Alice loved her? Did I? I wasn't sure. I know I'd never felt like this before.

Still angry with her, I turned and ran down the stairs. I needed to make sure she was still here. Alice followed behind me and said "I wanted her to go back to the dorm, but I think you must've worn her out. She never made it and none of us have been able to wake her. Bella hasn't moved an inch all day."

"I'll let you try and wake her, and get the others out of the house." Alice said, slipping me a condom in my hand. I stared at her blankly for a minute.

Then I saw Jasper coming up behind Alice. "What are you two arguing about?" He looked between us, then his eyes rested on the living room. "Ahh. You know Edward; I do believe Bella is louder than every other girl you've brought here." He said chuckling. Yeah I had already figured that out for myself, thanks, I thought uncharitably.

Ignoring both of them I walked into the living room and saw Bella lying on her stomach on the couch. One arm was above her head, the other hanging off the edge with her face towards us. It didn't look comfortable. I saw someone had put a blanket over her. I turned to look at Alice and she said "Jasper put it on her this morning." Feeling as though my heart was being squeezed tight I looked at her sharply. She shrugged and said "It's just a blanket." Yes, but Bella should have been in bed with me and warm, not down here cold and alone.

"We'll give you some privacy." Alice said and walked away. I tried calming myself down then. Alice! She could be such a busy-body always sticking her nose in other people's business. I wasn't sure how long it would take me to forgive her for this. She might be right, but maybe not. Bella should have woken up in my arms after her first time. Well I was going to try my hardest to remedy this situation.

Watching Bella for a minute, I heard the door close as everyone left. Coming closer to her I tried to wake her up. I wanted to talk to her. I wanted her to know she didn't need to leave my side. "Bella? Bella, will you wake up?" I asked her, getting no response. Was she really that tired after last night? Then I thought back, we'd only had sex twice. Oh, but with all the other stuff before then and the lack of sleep from the night before it was no wonder she was tired. I was used to having sex fairly often, she wasn't.

Deciding to wake her a little more creatively I pulled the blanket down past her ass, but left her legs covered. Kneeling between her legs I pushed them apart a little. Pressing myself against her ass I leaned down without putting my weight on her and picked up her arm that was hanging over the side. I began kissing the exposed skin there and heard a slight moan. Moving towards her face I kissed her forehead, going to her eyelid and cheek that were turned to me. I licked her lips as well as her ear. Bella still didn't stir, but she was moaning a little more.

Raising the hem of her shirt all the way up her back I looked at it and the smooth expanse there, after unclasping her bra. I hadn't really noticed her back before. Planting kisses along her spine I worked from the top all the way down to her ass, moving my hands down her sides. Then I kissed back up her spine and pressing more of me into her I kissed her neck. Whispering in her ear I said pleading "Bella, wake up. I need you now. I want you back with me. Please wake up." I could feel her shudder at the feel of my breath so close to her.

Her eyes fluttered open and she said "No, I don't want to get up. This dream is too good."

"Bella" I whispered. "You aren't dreaming. It will be much better if you wake up."

Stirring a little more she seemed confused about where she was. I sat up and helped her get up. Bringing her to my side, I kissed her neck softly. Then needing her to feel me and all the pain it caused when she wasn't there I kissed her hard. Hungrily I pushed my tongue into her mouth. Her reaction to it was just as violent and hard as though she wanted me to know how much she wanted me too.

Pulling away from her I said "Bella, stand up for me." Not arguing she did as I asked. "Do you trust me?" I asked her, begging for her too.

"Yes" her mouth said, but her body trembled.

"Bella, I want you to trust me. I need you too." I told her and she nodded her understanding.

"Take your shirt off for me." I told her, in complete control. Bella removed it and threw it in the chair. "Now, let your bra drop to the floor." She did as she was told again, letting the bra slide down her arms to the carpet.

Watching her for a reaction I told her "Cup your breasts for me." She did it and I said "Yes, just like that."

"I know this might be difficult for you to do, but I want you to bend your head towards your breast and lick the nipples there." Still cupping her breasts she did as I wanted and I saw her pink tongue flick out over them. I could see her body tremble from desire or fear I wasn't sure. She'd never had anyone do anything remotely close to this that much was obvious.

"Okay Bella, I want you to remove your jeans slowly." Her hands moved down from her breasts down her stomach until they reached the button of her jeans. Looking at me intently she undid the button and unzipped the zipper. Very slowly she bent forward putting her breasts at my eye level and pushed the jeans down her legs touching them every second, finally stepping out of them. I couldn't believe she was doing what I asked of her only better.

"Come closer to me Bella." When she was right in front of me, I pulled her panties down for her slowly and had her step out of them. "Put your feet on either side of my legs." I commanded, still seated on the couch. When she did that I kissed her stomach, licking her belly button and heard an appreciative moan.

"Bella, put one of your feet on the couch next to me." Placing her foot there I had better access to her sex, which seemed to be getting wetter and wetter as I told her what to do. Interesting.

Holding onto her hips I brought her sex closer to my lips as I kissed her thighs and the soft delicate skin there. Working my way inward, I could taste the wetness there and moving my shoulder under the leg that was on the couch I brought her even closer to me. Licking her core I heard her cry out as she put her hands in my hair and held my head close to her. Then I thrust my tongue inside her alternating between that and her core, nearly bringing her to climax several times, but not letting her get there. I could hear her exhale frustrated by it.

Pulling away from her eventually I kissed her stomach again I could tell she was annoyed. "Bella, I told you to trust me. Please do what I ask." I told her.

Bringing her to my lap, I kissed her on the mouth only touching our tongues lightly this time. "I want you to get on your knees with them slightly apart on the couch away from me. Then I want you to lean over so your breasts are over the armrest." Her eyes got wide and a little panicked as I asked that of her, but she did it anyway.

Once I had her in that position I looked at her closely, her ass was perfect. Kissing her ass, I nibbled it a bit between my teeth. Bella moaned at that. Then pushing the cheeks apart I started licking there and Bella turned her head and looked at me eyes wide thrashing. Pulling away, I tapped her ass and said "Trust me." Then I went back to what I was doing.

During the same time I put two fingers inside her sex pumping hard, making them slick. Then I rubbed her ass with the wet fingers and put one of them inside her there, thinking that was probably all she would allow today. I felt Bella jump in shock. "Relax, I won't hurt you." I told her.

Pumping my finger there it felt good to watch Bella go from shock to pleasure. I was sure she didn't even know that could actually feel good. Then I felt her muscles contract around my finger and her outcry.

My erection couldn't have possibly been any harder than right now. So pushing my pants down without taking them off, I rolled on the condom Alice had handed to me. Placing myself between her legs I leaned down and kissed Bella's back. Rubbing myself against her before coming inside I said "Hold on tight, Bella." I watched as her hands grasped the armrest of the couch.

Plunging into her slowly I started thrusting holding onto her hips. I could feel her start rocking them for me. Then grabbing her hair with one hand, keeping the other on her hip I thrust faster making our bodies slap together. I saw her fondle one of her breasts at the same time. I couldn't hold out much longer. "Bella, I'm going to come now. I want you to let go with me." I told her. Our breathing heavy, I pumped faster and the hand that was fondling her breast came down to finger her core. It didn't take long for both of us to cry out in ecstasy.

I held her against me for a few minutes as our breathing slowed and kissed her neck softly. Eventually I pulled the condom off and pulling my pants back up I went to throw it away. When I came back Bella was sitting there still naked not moving. She was looking down at the floor and I could tell her face was red. Why?

"What's wrong, Bella?" I questioned.

"Is it wrong for me to really like that?" She asked me. What? I laughed.

"It's just sex Bella, most people like it." I thought I answered her question.

Shaking her head no she looked into my eyes and said "No, I mean is it wrong for me to like you telling me what to do?"

Wanting to laugh at her, but not make her more embarrassed I held it in. "Some people like being controlled like that sometimes. Some don't. If you enjoyed it, then what difference does it make?" I asked her.

"Because I was taught to never let someone control me in any way is the difference." She replied.

"Bella" I sighed exasperated. "This is sex, the same rules don't apply. You do what both of you like to do."

"I was angry that you weren't with me this morning, Bella. I needed to show you how much I wanted you, so I did. You are over-thinking this. We won't always have sex with me in control like that, but I needed it. Sometimes you'll need it too." I told her and sat down beside her. Folding her into my arms she leaned her head against me.

"Bella, never leave me like that again. I think my heart broke when I didn't see you there with me." I told her honestly. Turning toward me she pulled my head down to her mouth and pushed me against the couch with her on top.