Hey guys.
This chapter was really hard to write. I was meant to have it up sooner but I got halfway through and had to take a break. I based this chapter on what happened at my uncles funeral a few days ago. Once I left it for a while I came back to it and now I'm very happy with what I wrote. Sorry if there's typos I couldn't bring myself to proof read it. ):
The next morning I woke up in Nate's arms. I wiggled out of his arms and went downstairs. I met my mom, Rachel and Jennifer in the kitchen making breakfast for everyone. "Amber will you set the table?" my mom asked.
"Sure." I took out ten plates and put the on the table. I got two extra chairs and then got knifes and forks.
"Girls go wake the boys." mom ordered. I walked upstairs and into my room, Nate was still fast asleep on the bed so I walked over and shock him.
"Breakfast?" he asked.
"Yeah come on." he jumped up and ran into the spear room to wake Charlie we all went downstairs and sat at the table.
"I'm not hungry." I said playing with the food on my plate.
"Baby, please eat something you need it to keep your energy up for today.""But I don't want to eat it.""Just eat some bacon and toast.""Fine." I start eating it while the others ate there's.
"Guys I need you to carry the coffin. I need you four to carry it and then two of Anthony's friends will too." mom said.
"Who?" I asked.
"Dave and John." "Oh their here?""Yeah." I nodded and finished my breakfast. I got up and headed up to my room to change. I got into my black dress and left my hair down and applied some make-up. Nate's suite was in Jason's room so he wouldn't be coming in. I walked over to my window and stared out. I looked out at the little kids riding their bikes down the road laughing and smiling. Then I watched women out with their friends walking their dogs down the side walk. I watched life go by and everyone seemed to be happy besides me. A long black limo pulled up outside the house and I didn't bulge. The news came on in the radio in the background and I listened while I looked out.
Today Amber Johnson will bury her father who died of a heart attack only days ago. No one has seen Connect Three or Amber since the news of the death and they are all staying in Amber's house. Connect Threes manager is here to ask us a favour.
"Hello John, what would you like to say?""I would like to ask all paparazzi and fans to stay away from the funeral and let Amber mourn over her father. I know Amber very well, she's a very kind person and this shouldn't have happened to her. Nate rang me last night begging that no one comes today and let Amber say goodbye to her father. He said she is very upset along with himself and the rest of Connect Three."
"Ok you heard it guys. If you're a fan and happen to see them leave them alone. Let Amber have this terrible day to herself and don't make it worse. All paparazzi have promised they would stay away so lets hope they keep the promise."
As I looked out the window I watched Shane go out and talk to the driver. Behind me I heard footsteps come into my room.
"Amber, we have to go." Nate said.
"I don't want too."
"I know you don't but if you don't go you'll never forgive yourself this is your chance to say goodbye."
"I don't want to say goodbye." I said sharply turning around to look at him. "He didn't deserve to die. He was a good man and never did anything to hurt anyone why did he have to die? Why Nate?" I hit his chest in anger while I cried.
"I don't know baby. I wish there was something I could do but there isn't.""Your right Nate. Your money cant bring my dad back, your fame, your band nothing can bring him back. Nothing!"
"I'm sorry baby please." he begged tears forming in his own eyes.
"I miss him Nate. I want my daddy back. I wish I was the little girl that would sleep in his lap and cry about my cut but now he's gone.""It's ok. Don't worry everything will be ok." he pulled me into his chest and let me cry into him. My tears soaked through his expensive suite but he didn't care.
"Lets go." I sobbed. Nate took my hand and we walked out. We went out to the limo and climbed in. The others all looked at me and I closed my eyes trying to block out the tears.
When the car pulled up to a stop we where at the funeral home. We got out and everyone was already there saying goodbye to my dad. My mom went in and I looked at Nate.
"Will you come with me?" I asked. "Ok." he swallowed hard before we walked in. people where in there crying their eyes out. The others all came in behind me and we walked up. Everyone cleared the way to let me in. The minute I seen him lying in the coffin I start crying. He was lying there looking so peaceful. His eyes shut and his hands together as if he was praying. He was wearing his favourite suite and his dickey bow that mom hated but he loved it so much. I bent over the coffin and kissed his cheek.
"I love you daddy and I'm going to miss you so much." I sobbed. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up at Nate. I turned around and hugged his torso tightly crying into his chest again. He rubbed my back and buried his head in my hair.
"It's ok. Its going to be ok." he whispered over and over into my hair.
"Sorry people your going to need to head over to the church." a guy came in with a stand to put the coffin on. Nate whipped my tears away once more and we walked outside to see Shane shouting at someone.
"Do you not have any respect! Her dad just died. Jeez get outta here will you!" he yelled at some paparazzi. There was only one of them. Nate put his arms protectively around my waist and pulled my closer. The guy ignored Shane and start taking photo's of me crying. Nate's hand reached up and whipped them away then kissed my cheek. We climbed into the limo and it start driving to the church.
"Jeez the nerve of him coming!" Shane grumbled.
"Shane let it go." Nate said.
"I know but come on. Leave Amber alone for a day. How hard is it to ask?"
"Shane just shut up." Nate sighed putting his arm around me. I looked out the window to see we where just here. The car pulled up and we all climbed out. Nate pulled me into his arms and kissed my head.
"I have to go." he whispered. I nodded and he walked off. I stood in between Rachel and Danielle as I watched the guys walk over to the car and pull my dads coffin out. Nate and Shane where in the front with Josh and Jason behind them and Dave and John at the back. They walked by us with the coffin and I burst into tears. Rachel pulled me into her and I cried. Once the boys walked in I followed. I took Jennifer's hand and we walked to the front of the church. We sat in the front row beside my mom and Danielle and Rachel sat behind us. When the guys put the coffin down I motioned for Nate to sit with me. He came over and took my hand. Josh sat down beside him and the priest started the mass.
"We are gathered here to say goodbye to Anthony Johnson. He was a friend, a husband and a father for a lot of people. Today I will send Anthony up to heaven to live with his mother and father and to ask him to watch down on all of us here today."
Nate handed me a tissue and I cried into it.
"Now we have Anthony's daughter Amber up." I whipped my eyes and walked up. I hadn't prepared what I would say because I wanted to say what was in my heart and that wasn't something you could prepare.
"My dad was one of the best men I knew. What ever I wanted he would make sure I got it. You might call me spoilt but I'm really not because I never asked for anything you could buy. Every sunny day my dad would bring me and my brother Josh out to the garden and play football. I never like the game but I played it for him then he would play tea party with me." I laughed. "I remember the time I was only five and he helped me built a tree house. I asked if I could hammer and he agreed a pretty stupid thing to do but he did because it would make me happy. I ended up hitting his thumb but he just laughed it off and said that would hurt in the morning. My dad was a quiet man, yes he had many friends but he would rather spend time with me and my mom and Josh when he was over. The last thing he said was that what ever I do he will be proud of me and I'm going to do everything I can to make him proud. He doesn't want us to sit here and cry that he's gone he wants us to celebrate all the great memories we all have with him. No one will have the same memories and I'm sure every memory is great." I whipped some tears away and everyone clapped for me. I walked back down to Nate and he kissed my head.
"That was great." he whispered.
"Now we ask people to join us in the grave year where we will burry Anthony." the priest came over and shook each of our hands before walking off. People start coming up to us one by one to say how sorry they are for our loss.
After nearly an hour we got up and went back to the limo. I put my head on Nate's shoulder and sighed when I saw the cemetery out the window.
"Will this day ever end?" I asked no one really.
My door was opened and we all climbed out. It was freezing out here. I held onto Nate's arm trying to heat up. He pulled my hand off his arm and slipped out of his blazer putting it on me.
"Your going to be cold.""Baby, I'm not cold." I pulled the jacket tightly around me and Nate put his arm around my waist. We walked over to the grave and everyone moved to let us up the front. The car came with the coffin and men pulled it out. The priest said some things then the coffin was lowered into the grave. I began crying again which I didn't think was possible after crying so much. I held a rose tightly in my arm then leaned over the grave.
"I'll miss you dad." I dropped the rose and watched it fall. A single tear drop fell down with it and I tightly closed my eyes. Nate pulled my back by the waist then my mom leaned forward. She couldn't find her voice so she silently dropped her rose. Then it was Josh's turn. He knelt down on the ground and looked down.
"I wish I spent more time with you instead of wasting it." he dropped the rose then stood back up.
Nate walked up and dropped his rose "I wish I had more time to get to know you." he sighed then stepped back to me.
"You where like my dad." Rachel dropped her rose then stood beside me. I took her hand and squeezed it. Rachel's dad had left when she was a baby and she grew up with her brother being her dad figure but she treated my dad as hers.
Jason, Danielle, Jennifer and Shane stepped up and dropped there roses next. After that everyone start saying different things and dropping hand full's of muck in. When it was finished men start shovelling muck into it filling up the hole.
Nate took my hand and we start walking back to the limo. On the way Charlie ran up to me and hugged me around the waist.
"You okay Amber?" he asked looking up at me.
"I will be." I smiled at him.
"I hope so. I miss the chirpy Amber that tells Shane off." he said putting his head on my chest. I laughed at him then his mom and dad walked over.
"Amber I hope your ok." Denise said.
"I'm getting there."
"Are you going back to New York?"
"Yeah, I don't think I can stay in my house much longer it hurts me just to stay there anyway my mom's moving in with my brother.""Oh Nate told me about that.""Really?" I asked looking up at Nate.
"What she asked?" he shrugged his shoulder causing me to give my first real smile. Leave it to Nate to make me smile again.
"Anyway. Do you wanna come back to my house? We're all going back just a few snacks nothing big.""Sure we'd love to."
We all walked to the car park then went our separate ways. When we got in the others where all waiting on us.
"Your mom's gone to the hotel with Dave for a while." Jason told me.
"Ok." I smiled. I was happy that my mom wasn't going to be upset that she would get on with the fact that he was gone and I would try do the same. We pulled up at the house and I let us all in. Charlie ran in a few minutes later and Denise and Kevin followed.
"Is your mom okay?" Denise asked.
"Yeah she went to a hotel my dads friends are staying at.""Oh that's good.""Yeah it's great." I smiled.
"Now where's this brother of yours?"
"Oh I'll get him now." I turned around and looked for Josh. "Hey Josh come here for a second." I called.
"Yeah?" he asked when he came over.
"These are Nate's parents, Denise and Kevin." I gestured to them.
"Oh nice to meet you." Josh smiled.
"Amber quick come look at this." Jason called from the living room. I walked in and sat down on Nate's lap.
We have got some photo's from the funeral. A paparazzi went to the funeral and Shane Grey start shouting at him to have a bit of respect. He told him to leave but the man stayed put. He got photo's of Amber and Nate coming out together and photo's of Nate whipping away Amber's tears. It seems that Nate is a very good fiancé as he ran off the set of an interview when Amber was crying. The photographer followed them to the mass and it seems that the Connect Three boys carried the casket. We will not show these photo's as we have respect for Amber and her family. The guy that went to the funeral was not so lucky. He was fired from his company and now everyone seems to be hating him. Girls have been texting in saying all they hope Amber will be ok and to pass on the message that they have sent her some emails. So Amber if your listening to this you need to check your inbox.
"So Shane it worked shouting at that guy." Nate laughed.
"What? He deserved all he got.""I agree Shane but you cant go around shouting at people." Denise frowned.
"Sorry mom."
"Do you have your laptop?" I whispered in Nate's ear.
"It's upstairs." he whispered back.
"Guys I'll be right back." I smiled getting up and walking upstairs. I pulled Nate's laptop from his bag and sat down on my bed. I signed into my email account and was shocked when I saw how many emails I had 210! I clicked the first one open and read it.
Sorry to hear about your dad. Love your music please make another CD.
I opened tons more and looked through them. A lot of them said the same things. I heard the door squeak open and I looked up to see Nate coming in. He came over and sat beside me.
"You okay?""Yeah." I smiled.
"What have they said?""Much the same things; sorry about your loss, cant wait for the wedding, cant wait to see some baby Grey's."
"Well they wont have to wait long. Danielle's about to pop.""Nate!" I hit his shoulder and he laughed.
"There's the Amber I loved and have missed. I missed your smile, your laugh, the way your face light's up every time you learn new information." he pushed the laptop off my lap and onto the bed then pulled me into his lap.
"I've missed how when you feel scared or lonely you look around the room to find me. I miss how your eye's light up every time you see me. I miss how you joke around with Shane and how close you are to Jason. I miss the motherly side of you when your with Charlie. I miss the feel of your lips against mine when you smile. I miss how your eyes go teary when ever I say something stupid that you find cute just like now. I miss my Amber. The one who always has a smile on her face even when I wake her up with only five minutes to get ready, I miss my Amber who covers her mouth when she smiles even though she's covering her beautiful smile. I miss her and I hope she comes back to me soon."
"Nate I love you. Take my pain away and I promise you that you will have your Amber back."
"How can I do that?""Kiss me Nate. Kiss me so hard that I forget everything that has happened over the pass few days." I didn't have to ask him a second time. He pressed his lips to mine and put his hand at the back of my neck to push our heads closer together. He lay back on the bed so I was on top of him. He had his other hand on my lower back pushing us closer together. He flipped us over so that he was on top of me. His hand was still under me and pushed me into his abdomen. I hooked my legs around his waist and he deepened the kiss. Our tongues moved in a dance and his hand slipped up my dress and rested on my thigh. He circled his thumb on it. I opened his shirt buttons and he broke the kiss to help me pull it off him. His lips came crashing down onto mine and I moaned into the kiss.
"We have to stop." Nate breathed pulling back.
"I agree." he kissed my cheek then got off me. He picked his shirt up and pulled it back on. He buttoned it up and stuffed it back into his pants. I walked over to the mirror and picked my brush up and ran it through my hair. Once I was sure that it was ok Nate took my hand and we walked downstairs.
"Where were you two?" Shane asked. Once his mom and dad turned around to look at us he winked.
"Amber was a bit upset so I was trying to calm her down." Nate said easily.
"Sure." Shane dragged out the r. I knew this was gonna be questioned once everyone was gone. I felt better now. I felt as if now that I had said goodbye to my dad I could move on with my life but that I would always remember him and remember all the times we had together.
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