Dear-
Dear R.M.,
Everything hurts once in your life. Emotional pain, Physical pain, and Soical pain. What hurts me the most is my emotional pain. I can deal with getting stabed or beaten up by some butchy looking guy. What I can't take is someone telling me that I'm useless, or they hate me, or that I shouldn't have been born. But I put up a strong front. I march on. I look forwards and never look back. I try to reach my goals, even at my uselessness. Sure, maybe I shouldn't have been born.
But that doesn't mean, I have to admight it. It doesn't mean that their right. Cause, I'm not useless to you. Am I?
I hope I'm not. I'd hate to be useless to you. After all I am your dog. That sounds so wrong.
Sometimes I can't control myself and I end up hurting him too. I feel guilty and sad when I hurt him. He's the only thing I have left. Sometimes I wish that he'd hate me. He needs to hate me. It's all my fault.
I guess I'm writing this to you, cause I feel like I'm slowly braking down. Piece by piece. Their not small pieces either. Thier bigger then I am.
I'm sorry I wrote this to you.
This is so out of
character for me.
I'll stop now.
From,
E.E.
