3 Days Passed

Lexi was sat in a chair by Ethan's side. His ventilator whooshing monotonously. He didn't move. He never moved. Never twitched. Not a millimetre in 3 days. All the tests and scans then ran on him worried her. She had read his notes covertly. No response, physical or electrical. She knew what they felt they had to do. There was no way in hell she was gonna allow it to happen! As long as Ethan was breathing then his ventilator wasn't getting turned off! Lexi didn't realise the contradiction in her statement. She stroked his hair and was again shocked at how coarse and wiry it felt instead of it's usual softness.

"When you wake up you'll have to tell me what lynx you want brought in. My personal preference is lynx click but you like the dark temptation one. Don't much like that one to be honest." she told him.

Nothing.

"Yu could do with a change of clothes too. You look too pale with that white gown on. How about we go shopping too yeah? We'll get you stuff and make you trendy. All the nurses will swoon. I'll have to warn them your mine always."

Again nothing but silence. She felt dejected.

"I'm so stupid Ethan. The last year we could have been together. Except all I did was push you away. C'mon open your eyes please. For me?"

The whoosh of the ventilator was her reply.

A doctor walked in.

"Miss Trevanion can I speak to you please?"

She nodded. "I'll be right back." she murmured to Ethan. She pressed a tender kiss to the bandage over Ethan's forehead. Then followed the doctor to his office. They sat down and he looked at her gravely.

"Look Miss Trevanion we have conducted a whole array of tests on Mr Bell. We have had no response from him. Either physical or Electrical. Voluntary or involuntary. We are extremely sorry but as next of kin we…."

"NO! He is breathing. I won't let you kill him if he's breathing!" she yelled.

"Miss Trevanion, Lexi." the doctor said softly. "I know you as a work colleague. I know you know as a paramedic that he isn't breathing. He's being ventilated. You know there's a difference."

She frowned. "But…" she put her hand to her forehead. God he couldn't be asking her what she thought he was asking her! "Look I know he isn't dead so don't try and tell me he is!" she hissed.

"Lexi would he want to live like this? You know he wouldn't!"

The doctor was right. Her chest hurt! "Look Lexi we want to discuss turning off his life support. And about organ donation."

She shot out of the chair she was sat in. "O so that's what this is about huh? The fact you want his….organs" she swallowed thickly.

"He could help a lot of people Lexi you know that!" the doctor told her calmly.

"He is gonna be ok! You aren't taking his …. NO!"

"Think about it Lex."

"NO!" she hissed. "Never!"

She left the doctors office and returned to Ethan. Looked at his body as he lay on the bed. Unresponsive. Brain dead. Those words whirled around her brain.

"Eth your not dead are you?" she whispered. "Just do anything. Blink. Twitch. Anything. Coz I know he's wrong! Move your little finger just a fraction."

Ethan stayed prone. Just like he had the last 3 days Lexi finally accepted the truth. They were right. They were keeping his body alive but his brain was gone. There was no activity in his brain and without that then your dead. She clutched his hand.

"No Ethan your not dead! I won't let you be dead ok! Just do something. Anything I'm gonna have to go back through there and tell them to turn your ventilator off." tears fell. "How am I supposed to tell them to do that to you. That they can kill you? I need you. How do I say goodbye to the person I love? The person I live for? If you love me even a tiny bit just open your eyes. Please Ethan I'm begging you here!" she was pleading tears streaming from her eyes.

Again no answer and no move from the man she adored.

Lexi knew what she had to do.

"I'm so sorry Ethan. He's right. You wouldn't want to live like this. Forgive me honey please. Not that I'll ever forgive myself!"

She walked from the room.

A/N Awwww poor lexi. having 2 make such an awful decision :(

next chapter is how the family reacts will they be supportive or angry?