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Amy was in med bay still whether she liked it or not. Ratchet was checking over some scans he took to see how the healing process was going. If it turns out to be positive he will allow her to leave med bay as long as she is with some bot at all times.
Her face was getting better although the bruises were still visible, Her wrist would take a few more weeks and Ratchet wasn't sure about her knee. It still hurt a lot if she walked on it too much yet she would not admit it. Her ribs were slowly healing as well but would flare up if she moved wrong.
Optimus had also called the school and said Amy would be absent for a while, but her grades were always so good the school didn't mind so much and Anna brought her homework home and set it on her desk. Amy has yet to see it.
"Alright, Amy." Ratchet said softly walking to her from the computer. She looked up at him. His eyes still held the guilt, hurt, and worry as before. "You may leave med bay for a bit. As long as you are in view of some bot at all times." He spoke softly as he rested a servo around her. She nodded and he gently picked her up. He held her to his chest plates not moving for a moment.
"Ratchet?" She asked. He looked at her before heading to the doors. When they walked out into the main room. Optimus was talking with Jack, Ironhide, and Arcee. They all stopped when they saw Ratchet holding Amy.
"Hey, Amy. How is ya holding up?" Jack asked.
"Fine." She replied tracing a finger on Ratchets hand trying to seem busy. Ironhide stepped forward and offered a servo.
"I'll watch her." He said. Amy looked up at Ratchet who nodded and gently placed her in Ironhide's servo. He nodded to them and headed back to the med bay. Amy watched Ratchet leave and wondered why Ironhide wanted to watch her.
"Amy?" His voice asked. She looked up at him. "If he asks me if I'm alright I'm going to explode." She thought to herself.
"What would you like to do?" He asked. She blinked and looked down unsure of what to say.
"Oh scrape I'm gonna be late for work!" Jack said and ran down the stairs as Arcee transformed and they left leaving Amy with the two biggest and strongest bots on base. She swallowed.
They stood in silence for a few minutes none of them knowing what to say. Finally very uncomfortable with the silence Amy spoke.
"Ironhide how big are your canons?" She asked. His faceplates lit up like the 4th of July.
"Want me to show you?" He asked. She nodded once and he headed off to the training room. Optimus followed close behind.
When they got to the training room Ironhide handed her to Optimus who took her gently. Ironhide transformed his servos into his canons looked back and smirked at her before turning and firing ten times hitting the mark right in the middle every time.
Ironhide transformed his canons back into his servos as he walked back to Optimus. When he looked at Amy she looked down. She didn't want to look in his optics cause she knew what she would see no matter how hard he tried to hide it and she blamed herself for it.
"What did ya think Amy?" Ironhide asked.
"Very cool." She said. Optimus and Ironhide shared a look. "Can I go to my room?" She asked.
"Of course," Optimus replied and headed that way. When he got to his room he set her down and watched her go into her room. She was trying not to limp.
When Amy got into her room she softly closed the door and slid down it until she sat on the floor. She hated feeling like this. She hated feeling vulnerable like this.
...Amy's pov...
"Why does it hurt? Why do they care? What is a dad? Why can't I cry? Why won't I let it out? What have I done?" She froze. "What have I done?" She started trembling. "I've put Anna in danger. It's all my fault."
I slowly got up and limped to my desk and sat down. I couldn't bring herself to do anything with music so I started on some homework. I had gotten a couple pages done when there was a knock on my door making me jump. I growled quietly.
"Yeah?"
"Amy, Ratchet would like you to come back to the med bay," Optimus spoke.
"Coming," I replied. I slowly stood and walked to the door and opened it. Optimus offered a servo.
"I can walk," I said. He hesitated but nodded. I headed for the door trying not to limp or show how much it hurt. Optimus refused to leave my side as I walked into the main room.
"Amy!" I heard Ratchet yell. I tried not to cringe. "You should not be walking on your knee." He said walking over. I glared at the ground not like that. He offered a servo. I clenched my fists. He gently picked me up and headed to the med bay.
When he walked into the med bay with Optimus following he closed the doors.
"Amy?" He said softly. "It's okay. You don't need to fight this on your own." I closed my eyes.
fear is a liar by Zach Williams
When he told you-you're not good enough
When he told you-you're not right
When he told you-you're not strong enough
To put up a good fight
When he told you-you're not worthy
When he told you-you're not loved
When he told you-you're not beautiful
That you'll never be enough
My eyes widened at the sound of Ratchet's voice. It was beautiful. But why was he singing this song?
fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar
He paused to speak. "Let us help you with this. Don't let it consume you." I looked away. I didn't know how.
When he told you were troubled
You'll forever be alone
When he told you-you should run away
You'll never find a home
When he told you-you were dirty
And you should be ashamed
When he told you-you could be the one
That grace could never change
I tensed. He told me all those things. Every single one. Constantly.
Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar
Let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel x4
Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar
When Ratchet finished I almost wanted to let them in but that voice told me not to so I remained silent. I did not know how to cast out this fear. How is one supposed to if they were never taught?
"Amy, I know you don't like it nor do I but Court is in a week." I looked down and tensed. "Are you."
"Fine." I interrupted him. his shoulder plates sagged only slightly.
"Amy, I do care for you. Get some rest." Optimus said. He gave Ratchet a look before leaving.
...time skip late that night normal pov...
Amy was tossing and turning but could not sleep. So she sat up and started singing softly.
"Hold Me Now by Red"
Fall asleep to dreams of home,
Where the waves are crashing.
The only place I've ever known,
Now the future has me.
I see the fire in the sky,
See it all around me.
I said the past is dead, the life I had is gone.
Said I won't give up,
Until I see the sun
Hold me now,
'Til the fear is leaving,
I am barely breathing.
She wanted someone to hold her but she did not know how it let them. Her body could not handle any man touching her. It would fight back. With all the years she spent in hell. She did not know how to break it of the habit, she wasn't even sure if she wanted to.
Waking up and letting go,
To the sound of angels.
Am I alive or just a ghost?
Haunted by my sorrows.
Hope is slipping through my hands,
Gravity is taking hold.
Said I'm not afraid, that I am brave enough.
I will not give up,
Until I see the sun.
Hold me now,
'Til the fear is leaving,
I am barely breathing.
Crying out,
These tired wings are falling,
I need you to catch me.
She needed someone to catch her. She needed someone to hold her even when she tries to get away. She needs someone to love her.
As I burn,
As I break,
I can't take it anymore.
I return to the place,
Where the water covers over everything.
Rescue me somehow.
Hold me now,
'Til the fear is leaving,
I am barely breathing.
Crying out.
These tired wings are falling,
I need you to catch me.
Hold me now,
'Til the fear is leaving,
I am barely breathing.
She was hardly breathing as she finished the song. How could she tell them she needed to be rescued? How can she get the help she so desperately needed?
She curled up and tried to block everything out, but the thoughts kept coming. How? Why? When?
Through the night Amy could not sleep.
over the next few days, Ratchet allowed Amy to leave Med bay as long as she was not walking for very long as could be seen at all times. Her face was doing better Ratchet made her ice it several times a day. Her ribs are slowly getting there same with her wrist. Her knee was still really bad.
The court was two days away and the more Amy thought about it the more she dreaded it.
In med bay, Ratchet was sitting in a chair holding a very tense Amy. He was trying to get her to relax. It failed when the door opened and Arcee walked in.
"Arcee, what can I help you with?" Ratchet asked.
"Actually I am here for Amy." She replied. Amy looked up confused and hesitant.
"Can we talk Amy?" She asked. Amy nodded.
"Alright don't get her worked up." Ratchet said and set Amy on the bed and walked out. Arcee stood for a moment.
"I'm sorry about what I said a while back. Its been on my mind for a long time now." She started. "I was actually hoping to get to know you better."
"Okay," Amy said slowly. Arcee smiled.
"Great. Sometime I would like to go to the um. Mall. To learn what people do there. Like a girl's day." Arcee said. Amy thought about it.
"We might be able to do that." She replied.
"Alright. Well, I hope you feel better soon." She said and walked out. Amy thought about it. "A girl's day? I've never done that before."
The door opened again and Bee came in.
"Hey Bee." He walked over and was about to pick her up but stopped.
"May I?" He asked. She nodded. He carefully picked her up and held her close.
"I hope you are feeling better." He said. She shrugged. Bee looked concerned pulling her back slightly to look her over.
"Bee, Don't." She said quietly. She sounded sad. Bee looked into her eyes but she refused to meet his. He pulled her close.
"I'm sorry. How can I make it all better?" Bee asked softly.
"Just don't look at me." She whispered curling up slightly. Bee's worry grew thousand times over. Why would she say that? What was she thinking?
He held her through the night. She couldn't sleep very long if she did fall asleep. Ratchet and Prime both came in to check on them several different times. Ratchet gave her pain medicine so the pain wouldn't bother her so much.
As the sun rose over Jasper Bee quietly turned on his radio. He did not know why it just felt right.
"What I've Overcome"
I've got this passion
It's something I can't describe
It's so electric
It's like I've just come alive
I feel this freedom
Now that my past is erased
I feel the healing
I found the meaning of grace
(I found grace)
Amy shifted and opened her eyes she looked exhausted but she listened to the words. She sang softly with the next part.
If only you could see me yesterday
Who I used to be before the change
You'd see a broken heart
You'd see the battle scars
It's funny how words can't explain
How good it feels to finally break the chains
I'm not what I have done
I'm what I've overcome
Bee gently ran a digit down her cheek he didn't know what to say. He held her close as the song played on she went quiet.
I know I'll stumble
I know I'll still face defeat
These second chances will define me
So I'm moving forward
I'm standing on my two feet
I've got momentum
I've got someone saving me
(Got someone saving me)
If only you could see me yesterday
Who I used to be before the change
You'd see a broken heart
You'd see the battle scars
It's funny how words can't explain
How good it feels to finally break the chains
I'm not what I have done
I'm what I've overcome
I'll make mistakes and I might fall
But I won't break
I've got someone saving me
"Amy?" She looked up at him. "Why don't you want me to look at you?" She looked away.
"Not right now." She replied quietly.
"Alright. What would you like to do today?" He asked.
"Amy cannot do anything until I look her over." Ratchet said walking in and over to them. Amy surprised herself by reaching out to Ratchet. Ratchet was also surprised but picked her up gently and held her to his spark for a moment.
"I need to scan you." He said softly. Amy looked down and sighed but nodded. Ratchet had her lay flat on his servo then scanned her. He then held her close as he went over everything on the computer. He trembled slightly as he read it all making Amy feel well used. She knew what it all said. She knew what it all said. She hated it. She wanted to disappear.
"Alright. Amy." Ratchet said with a soft sad voice. "You may go for a few hours after you put a knee brace on." He picked one up from the table and handed it to her. She put it on with a little difficulty and a painful expression.
"Bumblebee, I expect a scan every 2 hours." Ratchet told him gently setting her in Bee's servos.
"I will Ratchet," Bee replied and headed out of the med bay. Once in the main room with Optimus, Miko, Bulkhead, Jazz, Raf, and Anna Bee walked up to Optimus.
"Hello Amy, Bumblebee. How are you fairing?" He asked. Anyone could tell he was worried about Amy not many knew he wanted to hold and protect her but he restrained himself not knowing what she would do and fearing it would bring up past memories.
"Fine," Amy replied blankly looking away.
"I wish to take Amy out, sir." Bee stated. "Ratchet said it was okay as long as I sent a scan back every 2 hours."
"I do not have a problem as long as Jazz accompanies you," Optimus spoke. Jazz gave a nod.
"Sounds cool." Jazz piped in. "Where we headin?"
"You pick Jazz." Bee replied. Jazz nodded and typed in a location on the ground bridge and pulled the lever.
"Have fun, Sis. Raf and I will get our homework done." Anna said smiling softly. Amy nodded to her. Bee handed Amy to jazz and transformed. Jazz gently set her in Bee. then the three bots headed through the ground bridge and emerged from an alley in a city.
"Follow me, Bee." Jazz said over the radio and he led the way through the city to a music store. Amy looked at it slightly confused. Bee and Jazz activated their holo-forms and got out. Amy slowly followed carefully of her knee. Bee offered a hand but Amy looked away knowing if she touched him her body would react negatively.
"It's okay," Bee whispered. She nodded and the three went into the music store. there were instruments and CDs everywhere. Pianos to trumpets. Cd's Red to Skillet to Fireflight. Amy looked around with the slightest smile.
"Hello, can I help you with anything?" The lady at the counter asked.
"Na' Dats okay." Jazz replied walking further in. Amy started looking at the Cd's Picking up a couple Skillet ones to read the backs. She had never had any CD's before only looked up the songs online. She hummed. She lost track of time looking through a ton of CDs. She only noticed a lot of time had gone by when her knee started throbbing. Bee must have sensed this.
"Amy, are you ready to go?" He asked. Putting the CD she was holding down she nodded and followed him out. Getting in Bee did she notice Jazz had not come out yet.
"You really like music don't you?" Bee asked sitting his holo-form in the driver seat. She looked at him and nodded. When Jazz came out and got in his vehicle form they drove back to the Alley and called for a ground bridge.
When they entered base Ratchet was waiting next to Optimus. Amy got out of Bee and he transformed. Optimus kneeled down and offered a servo to Amy. She glanced at it then looked away. Optimus remained patient and it paid off. After a minute of silent debate, Amy moved toward it. She careful climbed onto his servo. He slowly stood up and held her close to his spark and followed Ratchet into med bay.
"Amy? The court is tomorrow" Optimus started. She looked down. "We have already worked out details. Everything will turn out okay. We are hoping we can prove it so you do not have to go up and give your testimony." He spoke softly. Amy closed her eyes tightly bowing her head, fearing the worst.
"Would you like me to stay here tonight?" He asked softly. Deep down inside he knew that he should even if she said no.
She shook her head only slightly. He knew he should stay but he did not want to upset her. He looked at Ratchet who seemed as unsure as he was.
"My com number is in your cell if you need me."He paused. "Try to get some sleep." He gently laid her down and tucked her in she didn't move much her eyes were blank. Optimus shared a look with Ratchet before they both left.
Amy laid there dreading the morning. Fearing the worst.
I Hope you all like the Chapter.
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