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Chapter 29: Masks 1

Bookman

49th Alias

Lavi

("If they are just pieces of history, then where am I supposed to belong?")

The crescent white moon hanged in the sky line a half smile of darkness along with two stars that acts as its eyes. The wind murmurs softly with a language that registers to humans as a cool sensation. Indeed, the night is creepy as that red haired exorcist with a huge mallet bows his head down tasting the bitterness of defeat and the confusing way of the war they are fighting in. His two companions guarded him from the three attackers who they have been fighting for the night.

He was trying to hear what his two companions are telling him but somehow his talent, reading lips, doesn't pay too much. He couldn't hear a word. He wouldn't after those two powerful left and right hooks that hit his ears. His sense of equilibrium was lots as his ears bled. His vision was also failing him as he coughed a handful of crimson fluid coming from his mouth. He's beaten terribly.

"Lavi! Are you alright?" Miranda asked while she held the red haired bookman with both arms.

There was no response at all.

He went recklessly at the three former exorcists without consulting Hana. She tried to stop him but she was already too late. Chaoji was on fiery rampage using his knuckles to destroy the Bookman Jr. His attacks sent Lavi backwards into his agony. The mallet rested on the lap of the red haired exorcist. At least, he still has his loyal innocence that helped him protect the one he held dear in his heart. He was reminded of the people who inked his life feeling this certain irony. Maybe it was just natural for people who were visited by Death. Time to go. At least, for the very last time, before closing his dying eyes, he would at least be reminded of her and those memories they shared together. Even if those are coated with pain, he would like to savour every second of it until he would submit into the long embracing darkness. For every fading heartbeat, he would trade them for a memory of her.

(Flashback 5 years ago)

(Gray Note: Hey, is it okay if I install flashbacks because I noticed that every time I post a chapter, there's always a flashback. Does it suck? Am I still doing good? Is this fic good enough for your standards?)

(Eileen: oh boy. He doubts already. Maybe I should lighten the day for you always. 3)

(Gray Note: Really? I'm so happy!)

(Eileen: Just kidding. I'll send you to hell!)

(On to the story. Reviews will help even anonymous ones)

The rain falls hard on the roof of an inn where the red haired bookman and the Chinese exorcist who wields the crystal boots stayed for the night. Well, it was a hard and tiring mission just to retrieve an innocence fragment in the central structure of the city. It's been seldom when they were paired and sent on a mission like this unlike when they were years younger. It's been a while since then after all the missions they never been paired to accomplished. At least, she's with him for tonight in the same room. Indeed, he is a lucky one.

The room was spacious having 4 beds and a table with chairs. It also has windows allowing the rays of the night sun to penetrate into the dark portions of the room. If they arrived earlier, they could rent two separate rooms but unfortunately they didn't have much of the time. Being a semi-gentleman (i don't know if you agree with me), he let her pick a bed first.

"Uh... I think I'll sleep on the last bed on the right." Lenalee uttered as she placed her belongings on her bed. "And please help me set up a blanket for some privacy."

"Whoa! What's with that "privacy" stuff you're talking about?"

"Lavi!"

"Okay! Okay! I'll help you out. Then I'll sleep on the second bed next to yours." Lavi grinned sheepishly as he sets up the blanket to act like a curtain. He honestly didn't like the idea at all but he can't object for Komui still exists. He couldn't die at a young age. After finishing the curtain, he immediately dived into his bed and sighed. He yawned afterwards while listening to Lenalee's movements.

'Maybe, she's asleep already. I better not crack a joke.' Lavi thought while placing both palms under his head. 'She's way too tired to talk. I shouldn't bother her and I better get to sleep.'

He gazes up at the ceiling waiting for the sand man to send him to sleep. He could smell her fragrance in the air, the scent that always makes him doubt his duties. After years of being an exorcists and being a bookman, he never thought that she would influence him so much. He is like a butterfly tempted by a blooming flower which was standing out in the beauty of the garden. He fell in love with her and he's doubting whether he's wrong or not. She has no lover so he isn't destroying anything. He's still a human and this is only natural.

He made a decision. He's definitely going to tell her tomorrow. He still has a chance. That night, he fell straight to sleep.

A few moments later, she cried while looking at her heart shaped locket. Inside was a picture of her and a handsome man who seems to get a great space in her world. She tried to minimize her sobbing to avoid waking the bookman. She stared at the man's picture as she whispers: "I'm sorry I can't be with you now after all the pain you are bearing. I had to go and accomplish this mission. Please forgive me."

What a night!

( Morning )

The sun's rays gently wake the faces of the two exorcists who were in their deepest sleep. Another great day is about to unfold for the two of them. Pleading for another 5 more minutes, the bookman wanted to sleep some more. Whatever he is dreaming, he surely doesn't want to wake up soon. He'd like to enjoy it a few more moments before he returns back to reality. In his dreams, that's the only time and the only place where he is not considered a bookman.

"Lavi! Get yourself out of that bed. We need to go back now." Her voice filled the empty room with her waking intentions. She got up before him as she was already done packing up. "Erm, Nii-san is already waiting for our arrival."

"Five... more... minutes... please?" Lavi replied turning to the other side avoiding her wake up call. He is persistent and so is she. Annoyed by the actions of the Bookman, Lenalee shook Lavi trying to wake him up. Shaking him with her arms, Lavi finally woke up and went eye to eye with her. What a beautiful way to start the day! She noticed that he's finally awake so she decided to drop him.

"It's too early, Lenalee."

"Yeah, but I need to go back. I can't wait any longer."

"Komui is on again?"

"You may say that."

"If he doesn't change, you will never find yourself a boyfriend."

She didn't reply.

"See. I'm right." Lavi grinned.

"Let's go now. I don't want to talk about him."

Lavi's eyes widened as Lenalee tries to cover her mouth for suddenly slipping a secret away. 'So, she has someone already but who could he be?'

"Did I hear it right?"

"No. No, I just made a mistake."

"Really? I thought you talked about him. I can't wait until Komui finds out." Lavi uttered fighting off his jealousy.

"You got it wrong. Let's go. We need to hurry, Lavi. So please no more goofing around."

She slowly closed the door and decided to wait for the slow bookman jr. outside. She wishes that Lavi wouldn't put any color on what she said or her crush on that 'guy' will be exposed and you know what will happen next. Komui wouldn't let this one pass through him like nothing especially when her little sister is involved and already experiencing to have affection with someone else.

"Well, I'll find the answer soon." Lavi uttered as he gets off the bed.

(Back at the Order)

Lenalee and Lavi finally arrived on the place where they call home. They immediately went to Komui to report about the mission they accomplished. Sighing, the bookman sat on the sofa while Komui's sister reported the details of the mission. He stared at her while reporting. He will soon find out who that guy is and he just hopes he is not a close friend of him as well.

"Nii-san, I'll go now."

"Oh sure, Lenalee! You should get some rest."

"Thank you, Nii-san."

She left as she closed the door leaving the bookman jr. and the supervisor who was browsing their mission reports. Lavi decided to go out as well for he's getting bored. Komui didn't mind him at all. Giving off their respect to each other, Lavi went away to the cafeteria after shutting the door of the messiest place he had ever recorded in history. He sighed.

The red haired bookman scratches his head while whistling. He thought of Lenalee and his responsibilities. He realized that he wears the mask of a bookman to conceal what he truly desires. After all the wars he recorded and the forty eight aliases he discarded, he never thought of falling in love until he met her. Her grace and caring approaches melted the mask that separates Lavi with the human world. The chains that have bonded him with his duties slowly rusted and weakened. He didn't care anymore. She isn't just a piece of history that needs to be recorded. She's the only one.

After walking towards the cafeteria, he turned left to go the balcony to get some fresh air. He would rather think of a way to tell her escaping the wrath of the Bookman and Komui. Whistling, he gazed down at the beautiful garden below. Butterflies were flying from flower to flower making a great role in pollination. They're just like humans after all. Feeling the simple joy of watching, he saw that girl's worried look as the wind blows her shoulder-length hair. She is trying to regain her long her again but the look on her face troubles him. He decided to follower and he doesn't want to disobey the will of his heart.

Leaping from the balcony, Lavi reaches the ground with his feet first. Gathering his strength, he stood up and ran after her. He'd like to know what worries her. He could hear her saying: "Where are you?" He thought of who she might look for and it worries him as well. She worries that much when a close friend of her suddenly disappears just like a month ago.

Lenalee halted under the huge tree. Lavi hid behind another tree not too far away from where she is. She began to cry as he began to spy at her. Peeking from the tree, Lavi saw who see is crying to. A young man not too tall for her height with bandages on his right arm and the familiar pentacle scar and white hair sat in front of her.

"Don't cry, Lenalee." Allen said. "I'm not going to leave you and anyone again."

Touch me again so slightly

As the scenery glows brightly

I can't wait to see your smile again.

She slaps his face and cried as she leans forward wanting her head to dig in to his chest. She beats him with her closed fist while crying. He didn't fight back at all. Allen let her stay that way for a while. Slowly, he places a patting hand behind her trying to sweep away all the worries in her head. She didn't mind it as well while saying: "Allen-kun, you idiot!"

"I'm sorry Lenalee. I'm so sorry if I made you worry."

Wrapping her arms around him, the two stayed that way for a while. What they shared is beyond friendship.

Come down to me and hold me,

As I whisper to you so softly,

I wouldn't want to leave you again.

Lavi sighed as he walks back to the Order. He realized what he saw and silently heads back to his escape. The pain in his chest began to grow stronger as he walks away from where he wasn't supposed to be at the first place. Calmly, he tried to pull himself together. All he was thinking was about her happiness. As long that she is happy, he will be the same as well. He decided not the remove the mask that conceals his love for her.

A fading memory in the head of a dying man with an unrequited love. Soon, it will all cease to be a memory and all that's left will be nothingness. At least, his wish was granted.

(End of Flashback)

All he could see is plain darkness. He is all alone as he buries himself in the middle of nothingness. He buried his head on his knees trying to fight the fear that constantly devouring him. He is tired and he admits it but he is scared of what was about to happen. He begins losing his sanity little by little.

"Am I dead?" He asked himself. He felt stupid asking for he is all alone. He wished to see a light to guide his way out. For that wish, he would be truly thankful even if it's heaven or hell. He wouldn't mind it at all. He just wants to go out of the place and escape his current misery.

Slowly, a beam of light shots his eyelids revealing a pathway to an uncertain place. He didn't mind it at all. For all he cares is getting out of this place of nightmares. Then, a voice with a low, soothing tone called his 49th alias.

"Lavi!"

(End)

(Eileen SCT)

Eileen: Up next will be Mask 2. :3

G.N: where's yuzuki?

eileen: she went back.

G.N: oh boy. I'm stuck with you.

Eileen: I don't mind it.

G.N: so do I!

eileen: Liar!

(Note: to lavi fans, i have nothing against him and i just wanted to make a flashback about his past. I'm sorry if he's dying here. I really don't know if he dies or not. So please be considerate and let the story continue for a while. Next will be Kanda's story. =3)

Please R&R