Okay, definetely not as long as I'd wanted but...didn't have anything else to say. Also, some of you guys wanted the appearance of well, the rest of the Cullens...so I'm just going to SLOWLY put them out there :) So enjoy!
I'd gone through with unbuckling his belt until my mind took control over my body and then I stopped. I started to tell Edward to stop...I had to...it was the right thing...I couldn't let my own desires take over the better of me.
"Please Edward...stop...please..." He stopped kissing me but he only continued to look at me. His throat seemed to emit a sound...a growl. Only making him even sexier and more desirable...but I couldn't.
"Call me old fashioned but, I really want to keep my virtue until marriage...please." I looked up at him, I was trying so hard to convince him and in vain, I pouted.
"You're truly a dangerous creature..." He sighed and put his jeans back on. I put my shirt back on and soon, awkward silence took over us. His eyes were faraway and his mind seemed to have so many things going on at once.
"Edward, what's the matter?"
"Well, you show all the signs of...sleeping with me. But then at the last minute you don't want to. It hurts." And then he pouts at me...his innocent expression teasing but also seemed to be in pain. This man's mood swings will always keep me on the edge.
"Edward please, I do want your body, your everything to be shared with me...but it's just that, I was brought up to be a married woman before sex." I looked into his eyes, searching for understanding...and I did.
"Hmm..." He seemed to take that into consideration a lot deeper than I thought. His mind probably had dozens of thoughts going on, fighting at each other on what he should do.
"Oh Edward...you know I really do..."
Then his long fingers found my mouth and shushed me. Pulling me closer and putting a hand under my chin, he tilted my head up and looked into my eyes. His smoldering green eyes were so beautiful. It pierced right through all the lies I had told, to my delight.
"I still want to know why you left me. Bella, you almost killed me." He searched my face, seeing if I would understand his literal meaning.
"I was scared...afraid...I didn't want you to spend another dime on me, let alone such a big sum...and..." I was beginning to stutter as I continued on with the argument, on my defence. It was useless. I knew Edward would find some way to make me feel no guilt but...I didn't deserve that.
"Bella, please. Stop downgrading yourself." His eyes were strong and fierce, amplifying his meaning and reasonings, burying it deep into my brain.
"I just...I don't know. I wasn't ever brought up to spend money. My mother wasn't able to afford much indulgences, but we were happy. I was content with things that many probably thought were a joke. But I was happy," I took a breath, taking a quick examination of Edward's face, "Then, when you come along, giving me everything and spoiling me...it's just...hard. You have to understand, I used to live in an environment where I had to do good in my education and supporting the family with money. I worked for my money. But then..."
"It's okay Bella. My money is your money. It means almost nothing to me, really. All I want and desire in this world, is you." His smoldering eyes even more beautiful as they gleamed with sincerity and hope melted my heart and made my body turn into a soft marshmallow.
"Edward..." I took a deep breath without continuing, "Thank you." I looked into his eyes, searching the beautiful planes of his face, feeling his hands tighten their grip on mine.
"No, thank you Bella."
I probably had my forehead creased, not understanding what he meant.
"What do you mean?"
"Bella, when I was young, I had money, sure. But I never had anyone to share that joy with someone. Sure, I had Emmett, my older brother and Alice. But, as you can guess, Emmett had his own plans and so did Alice. Then you shot across my horizon. You brought so much joy that I'd never felt before. You gave me a reason to be happy." He looked at me momentarily and continued on.
"I was like in alternative universe, everyone thought I was happy with everything but, I wasn't. I always buried myself in work, trying to keep myself busy so I would never have to face the sadness that'd overwhelm me once I was alone. But then you, tripping into my life," He paused slightly, chuckling, "You brought me joy. You showed me that, there were other ways to discover happiness. But then you left..."
"So, I'm guessing you don't regret saving me? I mean...I hurt you so much and..." The question was in the front of my brain, forcing me to ask Edward.
"Bella, I would never ever think ill of what you say to me. I was...prepared. I knew maybe someday you'd leave me. I wasn't good enough for you...I wasn't what you wanted...everything that I'd feared, actually happened."
"But you knew it was a lie...and how?"
"Tanya had photos of you...that disgusting, vile woman had them on her desk..." He spoke through gritted teeth as his eyes burned of anger, looking away from my own eyes when he finished speaking.
I tilted his head back to me and this time, they were of a pained expression.
"I was sad, depressed, heartbroken...all the words in a thesaurus wouldn't be able to describe just how...unhappy I was. But then, when I found out Tanya had forced you to say those things...they all turned into rage and anger. I was mad at Tanya. She'd hurt you so much and for what? It was for me...I was the one who'd been the reason to your pains."
His head looked down, hiding away the pain that he kept on thinking was his fault.
"Edward, it's not your fault. Tanya was just really in love with you. Please, give her some sympathy.Before you saved me...I kind of thought, how it would feel if you were possibly dating someone else, and I had to witness that..."
"But I'm not dating anyone else. I'm yours." He looked back into me now. His eyes were like liquid emerald now, turning my breathing into shallow intakes.
"I love you Edward." I threw my arms around his neck and pressed myself against his.
"I love you too, Bella."
I didn't know how long we had laid there for, but then Edward released his grasp on my body and looked at me again.
"My love, Alice and Jasper are expecting us for dinner, would you like to go?"
"Oh! It's that late already?" I looked out at the window view in his bedroom. Before there was still sunlight but now it turned into a sunset of pastel pinks and light oranges.
"Yes, time does pass quicker when I'm with you." His velvet voice whispered into my ears as he helped me up from the couch.
"The same goes for you." I grinned at him like a maniac, and with him laughing back, I started to feel blood rush...
"One of the many thing I'll miss seeing if you ever leave..." He brushed his hand across my cheeks, sending a stampede into frenzy mode inside my chest.
"You know I won't ever leave you...I was foolish. Please Edward, what can I do to prove to you that I'm not lying?" I looked at his divine face, trying to figure out what he'd need of me to prove my love for him.
"Well there is something...hmm..."
Before I let him finished, the phone rang. Grumpily, Edward walked to the phone and picked it up.
"Yes Alice, we'll be there soon. Just get Jasper to start cooking. And remember to tell him he needs that hairpin on at all times."
I laughed at Edward's remark as he grinned back at me. I mouthed Say hi to her for me just Edward about to finish the conversation.
"Yes, okay, bye bye. And Bella said hi."
"Okay." Then the phone was put back into its' reciever.
"She said hi and bye too." We had already started to walk into his room to change.
"Hmm...would you like a change of clothing?" He eyed my outfit suspiciously, jerking one eyebrow up. Then I realized who's clothing I was wearing.
It was just a pair of black and blue plaid boxers and an oversized pale blue collar shirt.
"Umm...yes I think I do." I laughed and then Edward started throwing me some undershirts and shorts.
"Here, I think you can fit into these..." He was still rummaging in the closet as I picked up a few articles of his clothing.
I picked a black undershirt that was probably tight on Edward's muscular chest but loose fitting on me. Then the shorts selections. They were all slightly bigger on the waist than I needed but then I found one that was relatively fitting.
"Got my outfit!" I yelled out into the closet door. Edward had closed it to change and when he reappeared, he had already changed. I was somewhat disappointed. I'd been slightly hoping to see him change...
"We match." He grinned at me with a goofy smile and looked me up and down as I did to him. He had on a black, slim fit t-shirt and blue skinny jeans.
"Indeed." Our hands joined once again and then we were out of the apartment in minutes. Making our way down to the parking lot, Edward hadn't ever stopped looking me.
"What are you looking?" I threw my slightly messy hair out of my face and chest and then looking back at him.
"You look incredibly sexy in my clothing...I might have to ask Alice to buy more clothing...for me." His grin was crooked, taking my already shallow breathing of being complimented by him, to a new level.
"As much as I'd like to wear your own clothing, I think my own is still acceptible." We'd arrived at the car and helping me into the passenger seat, Edward stole a quick peck on my cheeks before gracefully making his way to the driver's seat.
"Edward! Stealing a kiss on me!" I shook my head in mock horror and grinned.
"You don't like it?" His lips were pouting and his face was innocent, his eyes were liquid emerald.
"Damn it, Edward. Stop dazzling me." I flung my head to the other side, not taking a second glance at him.
He pulled my face back to meet his, but there was confusion on his, as his forehead creased and his eyes showed fluster.
"I dazzle you?" His eyebrows came together and he continued to look at me.
"Much too frequently. I truly do wish I had that sort of power..." I sighed and looked down as Edward started the engine.
As we pulled out of the parking lot and was headed for the loft me, Alice and Jasper stayed in, Edward broke the silence.
"Bella, you might not know how you make me feel when you look at me but, it has more effect on me than you say I have on you." His eyes were still kept on the road as he waited for an answer.
"No, I really don't know...why would I be able to make your heart skip a beat and probably killing your stomach with the amount of actions going on in mine."
He laughed, a melodic one. Silvery and velvet. It felt so perfect and harmonic when he laughed. It was like a wave of refreshing splash of cold water on a summer day.
"You don't make my heart skip a beat. Nor do you make my stomach churn," he looked away from the road for a brief moment to see my lips pursed and sad, then continued, "You make my heart skip several beats. And you don't make my stomach churn because there's constantly war going on in there." He looked at me momentarily and grinned as he turned back to the road.
"Hm...is that so?" He must be manipulating my words and just using them against me...complimenting me so I'd just feel better...
"Bella, when you left.." He took a deep breath, "My chest felt hollow. It was like someone ripped away my heart, the heart I gave to you. For two days, to which I thought was an eternity, I had to live without a heart and no emotions. I cried and wanted to find out why you left me..and that was the only reason I'm alive and well now..."
We had arrived at the loft now and continued as the car's engine got cut, Edward's hand tightened its grip on mine. His head leaned closer to mine and having much more control, it was only a quick kiss. The words he'd said...the pain I'd cause him...everything that was my fault was all being converted into a blame for him. He kept on thinking it was him who'd made me leave when it wasn't...
His full lips found its' way to mine, starting out slow. I felt the smooth cushions of it, embracing every moment of the splendid love we shared. Disappointment arose when he pulled away and smiled.
Getting out of the car and helping me up in just seconds, we were heading up the elevator for the loft.
"I'm still curious...what happened to Victor and Tanya?" I hadn't gone to work and didn't know about what happened between Tanya or Victor...at least I was happy about that.
His jaws tensed and his eyes lingered with hatred. The grip he had on my hand tightened as he spoke through gritted teeth.
"Tanya isn't going to be working in our firm anymore. Victor isn't going to have a job as well, after I told my client. They're both charged for prostitutional recruitment and probably faced with several years of jail."
"Oh." I guess sometimes things come with a price, and consequences do appear...but then I remembered a Chinese proverb.
After a disaster, luck will come around the corner.
I guess that saying really did apply to me. Edward was now my boyfriend. We're united as two and inseperable, as we've proven. Our love for each other truly did prevail through the darkest times.
We arrived at the door and not having the keys, Edward rang the doorbell.
Alice's pixie figure welcomed us into the home and then we all sat down in the living room, Jasper already seated as he watched the game.
"Hey Bella, hey Edward." We exchanged our greetings and took the seats, a love seat for the both of us.
"So, not cooking, Jasper?" It was always strange for Jasper to not be in the kitchen, busily cooking away for us to eat and yet, here he is, sitting down.
Then the reason appeared. Emmett and Rosalie walked, no, rather strutted, out of the kitchen doorway, greeting us.
Emmett was definitely a son of the Cullens'. His dark mahogany curls were short but framed his square jaw and straight nosed face well. His eyes were a piercing deep blue and his skin, like everyone I've seen from the family, was pale. His build was more muscular than Edward and Jasper, but not over the top. His face had dimples when it smiled as he greeted us with a booming voice.
"Hey Edward! Isn't that your girlfriend!?"
"Yes it is..." Edward sneered the sentence out as he narrowed his eyes and then rolled it.
Rosalie...words truly didn't describe her. Her flowing, blonde hair cascaded down her narrow, model body to the waist. Her face was like an angel, carved delicately, a protege to Aphrodite. Her body was unbelievably divine and had curves in all the right areas.
"So this is the infamous Bella Swan?" Her full lips curved into a smile as she stunned me with the Colgate smile and her pale blue eyes sparkled. Her voice was soft but crystal clear.
"Heh..." I was speechless and definitely needed time, adjusting to the inhuman beauty the Cullens' possessed.
Then the doorbell rang.
Who could be at the door? And what will happen during the dinner!? Give me some love and you'll find out! Oh yeah, to moonlesslife who wonders why a guy might like Twilight well...embrace for a long answer!
You see, I'm not exactly...very MASCULINE I guess you can say? Like...sure I play sports and I have dated women, so no, I'm not gay, but that's not where I'm headed. I always have a soft side...some interests in "feminine" stuff...not that I'm saying Twilight is only for girls but...that's what many of the "guys" say. But when people ask, do you like watching chick flicks, reading romances, doing things your girlfriend would want...well, yeah I would. I'm not actually sensitive to what people think about me. If you don't accept me for what I like or what I do, then don't. So, I'm an open Twilight supporter and I bet many of your guy friends really DO like Twilight, they just hide it from people. And besides, I'm a sucker for romances, and Twilight has all of that! :)
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