Summary: "You don't understand….I loved her….a lot….And he took that from me….so I've decided to take something he loves away from him to show him how I felt! It's nothing personal against you," A sigh "I had a feeling that not cutting ties with that idiot would cost me dearly…I should have listened to Jaken…."

Warning: Yaoi, Language, Violence, Character Death, OOC

Note: Quotes by me won't have a "by" dash (–). It'll just be plain. Like the one in this chapter and chapter 2. Quotes by other people will have the "by" dash (–).

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"I can sum up life in 3 words: It Goes On," -Robert Frost

"Inuyasha..." The two stared at each other in silence until Inuyasha launched himself at Sesshomaru and hugged him tightly. Sesshomaru's eyes widened slightly as he stared down at Inuyasha.

"I was so worried about you. I got this letter at the office saying you were hurt, so I went to talk to Jaken and asked him what had happened. I nearly had to strangle him for him to answer me but when he did he said you were in France with that bastard Kai." Inuyasha whispered. Sesshomaru frowned but said nothing. Inuyasha pulled away and his expression darkened. "I tried to call you a few time. One time I did call you, that bastard picked up the phone then hung up on me. Where is that son of a bitch?" he hissed.

"What?" Sesshomaru asked, alarmed at the sudden mood change of the younger. He was nudged out of the way so Inuyasha could come into the house.

"I know he's here, isn't he?" Inuyasha growled as he stalked into the kitchen. "Where are you, ya bastard!" He yelled as he walked out of the kitchen to all but stomp into the living room.

"Inuyasha-"

"Kai, get your ass out here!" Inuyasha went from the living room to the back.

"Inuyasha-" Sesshomaru frowned as he watched Inuyasha stomp from the back to go towards the stairs. Sesshomaru caught the angry male before he could go any farther. "Inuyasha-"

"No there is no protecting that ass. I know it was him," Inuyasha growled as he tried to shake Sesshomaru's grip on his shoulder.

"Inuyasha, stop it," Sesshomaru said firmly.

"I'm going to kick his ass once I see him," Inuyasha growled. "What right does he have hauling your across the world then have the audacity to hang up on- I'm going to kill him!"

"Inuyasha," Sesshomaru snapped, his eyes narrowing.

"Don't even try to p-"

"INUYASHA!" Sesshomaru yelled, pushing Inuyasha's shoulder with such force, the younger tumbled and landed on the steps. He stared up at Sesshomaru in shock. "Stop it! You can't, alright? He's gone already! Just...stop..." Sesshomaru took a deep breath before walking away from Inuyasha towards the living room.

"What? What do you mean he's gone? That bastard just left you? Did he leave you by yourself in France?" Inuyasha seethed as he followed behind Sesshomaru.

"Inuyasha, please stop..." Sesshomaru mumbled.

"No! I won't! Where the fuck is he, Sessh? I'll-"

"You'll nothing!" Sesshomaru snapped, glaring at Inuyasha. "He's dead! He's gone! You can't do anything about it, so, just stop it!" Sesshomaru didn't know if he was yelling at Inuyasha about what had happened or trying to console himself from the sudden unexplainable guilt that bubbled up in the pit of his stomach.

"Sessh..." Inuyasha watched as Sesshomaru plopped down on the couch. The older male had wrapped his arms around himself and leaned forward slightly, allow his hair to cover most of his face. Inuyasha made his way to the couch and sat next to him. "Sessh..."

"Its my fault," Sesshomaru whispered quietly. "Everything is my fault..." Inuyasha frowned at the breathy, strained tone that Sesshomaru had took on.

"Sessh, nothing is your fault," Inuyasha jumped back slightly when Sesshomaru suddenly snapped his gaze to him, his eyes burning with anger and sadness.

"It is!" He shouted before letting his gaze drop back down. "Everything is...it always is,"

"Sessh..." Inuyasha moved closer to Sesshomaru and wrapped his arm around him. "Hey..."

"I was so angry with him..." Sesshomaru whispered silently. Inuyasha pulled Sesshomaru closer to him. He placed his head ontop of Sesshomaru's and silently listened to Sesshomaru mumbling against him. "All he did was love me...All I did was question him..." Inuyasha glanced down.

"With good reason. He suddenly comes back after 15 years? Isn't that odd?" Inuyasha mumbled. Sesshomaru yanked himself out of Inuyasha's hold and glared at him.

"You!" He seethed. "This is your fault!" Inuyasha's eyes widened.

"What?"

"You lied to me! You told me he stopped sending me letters! He never stopped!" Sesshomaru stood up and glared down at Inuyasha.

"H-Hey! I had good rea-"

"No!" Sesshomaru yelled. "You had selfish reasons!" Inuyasha stood up and glared at Sesshomaru.

"Sesshomaru, I was just trying to-"

"What? Protect me? Fine fucking job you've been doing so far, huh?" Sesshomaru chuckled humorlessly. "Just get out,"

"Sessh-"

"No! Don't 'Sessh' me. Get the fuck out," Sesshomaru seethed. Inuyasha's eyes widened even more.

"Sessh-!"

"Leave me alone! Don't come near me ever again or I will kill you!" Sesshomaru grabbed Inuyasha by his arm and dragged him towards the front door.

"Sesshomaru, wait!"

"No!" Sesshomaru growled, yanking the door open. He pushed Inuyasha out the door, ignoring the person who had been standing on the other side of the door. The other person, who happened to be Jadiyah, stepped out of the way as Inuyasha went tumbling out the door. Jade raised an eyebrow but said nothing. "Go away, Inuyasha. I don't want to see your face ever, again!"

"Sessh!"

"No!"

"Hello, Sesshomaru," Jadiyah said with a smile. "Is this man giving you trouble?" Sesshomaru glanced at Jadiyah. The way the man had said it and the way he was smiling at him gave him a chill. Something told him if he said yes, he, nor anyone else, would ever see Inuyasha again.

"No, he was just leaving," Sesshomaru glared at Inuyasha who had been looking at Jadiyah warily.

"I'll call later," Inuyasha said before walking away. Sesshomaru sighed.

"Did I come at a bad time?" Jadiyah asked. Sesshomaru sighed heavily.

"...No..." Jadiyah silently stared at Sesshomaru for awhile.

"How about I make you some mint tea?"


Taisho Compund

Kagome jumped as the front door banged open. She opened her mouth to say something but whatever it was she was going to say instantly died when Inuyasha came into sight looking peeved. "Welcome home, Inuyasha," She decided. Inuyasha glanced at her before sighing heavily. "Was he there?"

"Yes," Inuyasha grumbled.

"What happened?"

"He kicked me out the house and said if I ever come near him again he'll kill me,"

"What the hell did you say to him, Inuyasha?" Kagome's eye brows shot up.

"Why does it have to be something I said to him?"

"Because, I know your mouth," Kagome rolled her eyes.

"Well...I might have upset him...because Kai," Inuyasha crossed his arms with a frown. "The bastard is dead,"

"What?" Kagome gasped. "Oh god, what happened?" Inuyasha shrugged. "What? You didn't ask?"

"He was mumbling about how it was his fault...I might have said it wasn't his fault because Kai wasn't...all that good for him..." Inuyasha grumbled lowly. Kagome's eyes narrowed.

"I guess this is why he is the therapist and you're not," Kagome grumbled. "You lack tact. Give him a while to cool his top then call him." Kagome turned and walked away as Inuyasha sighed again.


Kiyomizu Residence

Sesshomaru closed the door. Jadiyah had left after they talked for awhile, drinking tea that he'd prepared. It was odd how similar the two were. Jadiyah had also studied Psychology, even had a doctorates in it, but had never done anything with it. He'd gone straight into business with some guy he had met and ended up successful and never thought to change.

He wasn't all that happy with what he was doing, but he was making money so he didn't complain. He'd confided in Sesshomaru that he didn't think he'd be any good at being a therapist like Sesshomaru was because he lacked patience, but he still wanted to continue his studies in figuring out the human mind and what made everyone tick.

Sesshomaru sighed tiredly. Odd. He wasn't tired awhile ago. "I guess all this emotional distress is finally getting to me," Sesshomaru mumbled lowly to himself. "Thinking is tiresome..." He sighed again and made his way to the couch. "A nap wouldn't hurt," he grumbled as he laid down across the couch. Only a moment after he closed his tired eyes, someone knocked at the door. With a tired groan, Sesshomaru pulled himself up and walked towards the door. He opened the door and was greeted by Tohara with his hands full of gardening supplies.

"I will get started on the-" Tohara suddenly stopped and stared. Sesshomaru lifted an eyebrow. "You look terrible,"

"Thanks. That means a lot," Sesshomaru replied dryly. Tohara frowned.

"I woke you?"

"I was getting ready to sleep, yes," Sesshomaru's mouth fit into a irritated thin line.

"I'm sorry to have bothered you," Tohara said with a little smirk.

"Meh..." Sesshomaru sighed. "You should just get the key from Rin and copy it," Sesshomaru waved his hand dismissively as he walked away from the door. "You know you're going to want to barge in here from time to time,"

"Indeed," Tohara murmured as he sat half the tools in his hands on the floor next to the door. Tohara followed Sesshomaru into the living room. He watched Sesshomaru stretch across the couch. "You'd be more comfortable in the bed, wouldn't you,"

"No..." Sesshomaru mumbled. Tohara frowned.

"You know...if you would like," Tohara stared, pausing until Sesshomaru looked at him. "We have a sizeable guest room that is nearly the same as your bedroom," Sesshomaru frowned.

"No, I'm fine,"

"The offer will always be on the table," Tohara said with a nod before he left out the living room. Sesshomaru sighed as he made himself comfortable on the couch before he fell asleep.


2 Days later...

Sesshomaru sighed as he flipped through the paper. He had come to the conclusion that he wouldn't be able to work at the office for awhile. He felt his current mood would have a negative affect on whatever client still wanted to see him. He needed another job. Maybe he could ask Jade if he had any openings... Sesshomaru looked up when he heard the phone ring. He pulled himself up from the chair and went to get it. "Hello?" Sesshomaru murmured as he answered the phone. There was no reply. Just someone breathing. Sesshomaru's brows furrowed in irritation. This person had called at the same time three times a day for the past 2 days. Sesshomaru was not in the mood to feel creeped out. He was much too irritated to be anything else. "Listen," Sesshomaru snapped. "If you're not going to say anything, stop calling this phone!"

"You don't understand..." The voice breathed. Sesshomaru froze. It was the voice from the messages on his phone. "No one understood...I loved her...I loved her so much..." the line went dead. Sesshomaru pulled the phone away from his ear and stared at it. Dread slowly crawled up his spine as he hung the phone up. Sesshomaru's gaze snapped up to the doorway when he heard the front door being unlocked.

"Sesshomaru-sama, you're up early!" Rin chirped happily. Her happy expression slowly melted away to worry. "Are you okay? You look pale..."

"I'm fine," Sesshomaru answered quickly. Rin stared at him for awhile before nodding slowly.

"Well, how does a traditional breakfast sound?" Sesshomaru nodded. "You think Tohara will be here for breakfast?" Sesshomaru shook his head.

"He was going out to breakfast with his wife and daughter," Sesshomaru mumbled as he and Rin went into the kitchen.

After they finished eating breakfast with idle chatter, Rin left out for work and Sesshomaru went back into the living room for another nap. Mental exhaustion was tiring him out physically.

Sesshomaru awoke sometime later to the doorbell. He sat up slowly but that was as far as he got. He sat there and placed a hand on his head as the room began to spin. Waiting until the world stilled, Sesshomaru rubbed his forehead with a frown. He stood up on shaky legs and made his way to the front door. When he opened it, he blank-faced. It was Tohara. "I thought I told you to get the key from Rin,"

"I did," Tohara said with a frown. "However; for some odd reason, the keys does not work," Sesshomaru hummed and allowed Tohara into the house. "Do you feel as awful as you look?" Sesshomaru glared at the older man.

"Thank you for the compliment, I appreciate it, really," Sesshomaru said dryly. Tohara, oddly enough, did not smile. He reached up a hand and placed it against Sesshomaru's temple and his frown deepened.

"You feel hot," Sesshomaru grumbled something, pulling Tohara's hand away. "You should rest,"

"I was until you so kindly interrupted my sleep by ringing the doorbell," Sesshomaru huffed, walking back towards the living room to plop back on the couch. "There's a spare key on the top of the doorway,"

"Wouldn't you be more comfortable upstairs?" Tohara asked as he watched Sesshomaru lay across the couch. Sesshomaru waved his hand dismissively with a grunt.

"What time is it?" Sesshomaru grumbled.

"It is now 5," Tohara answered. "How long have you been sleep?"

"Since after breakfast," Sesshomaru mumbled. "Why are you back here?" Sesshomaru opened his eyes to stare up at the ceiling. "I thought you said you were going to be out with your family for the day.

"Our appointment isn't until 5:30. Rin said she would not be able to make it tonight, so, I decided I would drop by and see how you were holding up." Tohara crossed his arms. "And before you say it: Yes. It was also to make sure you eat something,"Tohara frowned when there was no response. He walked closer to the couch to look over the back to see Sesshomaru fast asleep. Tohara shook his head with a small smile. He sighed and made his way up the steps to fetch a blanket for the white haired male. When he reached the bedroom, he pushed the door open.

He clicked the light on and frowned. Something about the room was off, but he couldn't place a finger on it. He looked about the room slowly before making his way to the bed. He pulled the blanket folded on the foot of the bed up, but didn't move. He gave the room another once over. He knew Sesshomaru hadn't been in the room- the other male had hinted at not being ready to step foot in the room yet.

Something about the room was odd. He walked to the vanity-dresser and stared at the mirror. That's when he noticed the closet door was slightly ajar. Tohara knew he had closed it the last time he was in here. He frowned slightly. Then again, Sesshomaru had been in different clothes from the last time he saw him so it could have been him who left it open...but that meant he came back in the room, which he kept refusing to do so for the past 3 days...Or maybe it was Rin? Tohara shrugged lightly. He turned towards the closet and stared at it for a while before walking to it, closing it, then leaving the room.

Odd.

He made his way back down the steps and towards the couch where Sesshomaru slept. He draped the cover over Sesshomaru and stood over him for a few moments. He looked up at the stairwell with a frown.