Tania nodded. "I want to know the truth." Stepping back from Shane's embrace she folded her hands across her chest. "I feel like I'm missing out on part of everything. I'm out of the loop somehow and I don't like that feeling."
"Clearly." She wouldn't be asking if she did. Still, Shane was confused by what she meant about wanting to know the truth. "There are a lot of things that could be the truth Tania. I think you need to be a little more specific about what you want to know."
"Everything Shane."
"Everything?" He watched Tania nod again with confirmation. "There's a lot to tell you. May take a lifetime to listen to it all."
With a shrug, Tania moved to the chair she had been sitting. "Guess it takes a lifetime then. I know nothing really about you Shane and that scares me. I've clearly found myself in over my head which Adam clearly proved. I think I deserve to know."
"I gave you the truth about the Adam situation Tania-"
"-I know. I'm not just talking about that Shane."
Sighing, Shane leaned against the desk now folding his arms over his chest almost in relief for Tania. "Fine. But I want the truth on a few things from you as well. You're a mystery to me Tania and that scares me. For all I know you're secretly married with kids.
Tania laughed. "You're safe. I'm not married with kids Shane."
"No?"
"No."
A smile spread on his lips. "That's good. But I could have figured that one out on my own. Before I answer any of your questions or give you any truth, I want to know one thing."
"What's that?"
"Why are you here?"
Tania raised an eyebrow in puzzlement. "I'm here because you won't let me out of your site."
"Funny." Trust her to give him the smartass answer. "I mean with the WWE. You have so much more potential than this. So much more education and yet here you are doing a job that is clearly beneath you. You are much more qualified than a ring tech. What do you really want to do?"
"Honestly?" Shane nodded. "I want to be a paramedic."
"Then go and be a paramedic."
Closing her eyes Tania sighed. If only thing were that easy. "It doesn't work that way. They don't just accept anyone into the program. There is a lot of information that you need as well as you have to have a degree of knowledge and physical capability."
Shane rolled his eyes. He just couldn't find himself that quick to believe she couldn't make it into the program. "You are more than capable of getting into the program Tania."
"You have no idea how many times I've tried Shane. I just can't go through with it."
"What do you mean you can't? Keep applying. Push them into letting you in. They'll notice your determination eventually."
Tania shook her head. "I freeze up before I the practical part of the entrance exam."
"Why?"
"I don't know…I just do." She had never been able to explain it. "But I mean I'm quite content doing what I am."
"You don't seem that way." Shane had seen her work before. Besides, how could anyone be content traveling all the time and setting up and taking down the ring. Technicians were usually miserable even if they wouldn't admit it. "Are you really content? Is this what you really want to do for a living?"
"For a living? No. But I am content"
Shane sighed and sat down on the chair Tania had been sitting in. "Then how can you be content if you're not happy? I think you should enjoy what you do." It made life much more enjoyable and easier. If you hated what you did it became a chore. Chores were something Shane just didn't do.
"And what do you suggest I do?"
"Go be a paramedic." Shane didn't see how hard it was to figure that much out. "Go do something you enjoy. Don't go back to being a technician."
Tania moved over to the desk and pushed herself up on it so she was sitting. "I gave you the answer. Back to you now."
"What do you want to know?"
"How did the entire situation start with you and Adam? I don't see why his contract just wasn't renewed. You legally are allowed to not renew it without reason, and I mean I'm sure your father would understand since he ruined your marriage." It had been one point that had been still with her since Shane had revealed the reason for his divorce.
Closing his eyes Shane took in a deep breath. "I guess because if he is gone I can't make his life miserable. Here I can have him suffer as much as he made me."
"Why wouldn't he quit?"
Shane shrugged. "That's something you would have to ask him."
Tania thought about it for a moment. It didn't make sense that someone perfectly aware of the fact they would never advance in the company would chose to stay. Then again, she didn't know Adam at all. "And you're certain that's the truth?"
"You don't believe me?" Shane seemed hurt by that fact. "Why would I lie to you?"
"I don't know." Tania sighed as she rubbed her arms. "I guess it is just my mind being paranoid with how fast things are moving. Add in the entire Adam situation and I'm just not sure what do think any more."
Giving a half smile Shane patted his leg. "Come here Tania."
Hesitating for a moment with a raised eyebrow, Tania slid off of the desk and made her way over to Shane and sat down on his leg. The moment she did, Shane shifted her weight on him and set his hand on her thigh.
"You've gone through so much. You really have." Shane admitted. "Here's what I'm going to do for you. I'm going to send you away. There's this great spa that Stephanie always goes to. I'll get the contact information from her. You need some time away from this place and everything that has gone on."
"You're not coming?"
Shane shook his head. "No, this is just for you."
Leaning forwards, Tania brushed her lips gently against Shane's. "You don't have to do this you know…"
"I do. I've caused you enough trouble already and this is the least I can do for you."
"Thank you." Leaning in again, Tania deepened this kiss this time. Shifting around a little she moved until she was able to straddle his lap. Grinding herself into him, she pulled back slightly. "Out of all this Shane, that's gone on, you are the best thing that has happened to me."
Shane smiled, hands resting on Tania's hips. "You're so beautiful." To emphasize his point, one hand reached up to brush through her hair. Fingers curling closed, gently he kissed her again. His other hand gently pushed up under the hem of her shirt to allow his thumb to brush gently against her skin.
Rocking her hips a little more Tania could feel his arousal. To be honest, she had wanted him from the very beginning. It had been a long time since she had slept with another man and Shane was definitely a fine specimen. "Shane?"
"Hmm?" Shane was more focused on pressing kisses against her lips than anything.
"Take me. Here. Now." She wanted him so bad she couldn't take it anymore. So many times they had been so close and yet never had it moved on to anything other than kissing. Now she wanted more - him. She wanted all of him.
Stopping himself, Shane bit his lip and cursed under his breath. "I can't."
"You can't?" Tania questioned both confused and hurt.
Shane immediately saw this and felt bad. It had come out a different way than what he planned and all he had done was hurt Tania's feelings. "No. I can't. Not here. You are beyond getting laid in a locker room Tania and I won't do so. You deserve to be cherished and worshipped in a bedroom."
Tania blushed. "Now you're just embarrassing me Shane, way to go." No man had ever spoken about her in such a way. Still it didn't help the fact she was now all hot and bothered with no chance of having her way with Shane.
With a laugh Shane pushed a strand of hair away from Tania's face. "I never get why beautiful women never think of themselves that way. They are always so modest and hate to be complimented. Yet how could I not compliment you?"
"Say nothing?" Tania suggested.
"I'm not going to and we both know that."
Tania rolled her eyes. "No kidding. Sadly I've learned that one real quick."
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"This is messed up. Seriously messed up." Randy sighed as he wiped his eyes with his thumb and forefinger. He was sitting in the parking lot of the arena not sure he wanted to get out of the car. He knew that Tania would be there. Would she keep up the entire ignoring charade?
Randy knew that Dave and Lilian were right. He had no idea what was going on between both he and Tania but knew that it might not just be a friendship. There had to be something else there for him to be acting the way that he was. It was concern, protection. It also didn't seem to be in a sisterly kind of way. Randy had sisters, he knew what that was like, and what he felt for Tania was nothing close to being sibling protection.
So then what was it? Randy had no idea.
"Way to go champ." He did a bang up job on making his life so much more confusing. "Okay, so what if I do have feelings for Tania?" He was pretty sure that he was no match for Shane McMahon. The guy had money, charm, good luck and just as good of a body as he did. She'd never pick Randy over Shane.
"Hell if I were her I'd pick Shane over me." Until, of course, she realized that he was a total asshole. What was saying she wouldn't end up in the same position as Marissa? Shane had also been known to use women in past. Was Tania just the next name?
For her sake he hoped not. It was ruin her. In such hard times she was turning to Shane because she trusted him. If Shane ruined that trust Tania gave him it would break her heart. Then, of course, Randy would be left to pick up the pieces and tape them back together.
"Guess I do need to kiss her, don't I?" Randy questioned with a sigh to no one in particular.
Latisha C: Thanks! I'll always keep writing, even if I am slow with the updates.
Pianogal: Here's my update! I had it updated on my site but I guess I forgot to update here too, lol. My bad.
Deceptive-Innocence: Awww, sadly I like em both!
WWECenaFan: Randy is perfect for the knight and shining armour roll. Too bad he's got a stupid storyline on SD!
Katy: Yeah, I got the server thing figured out, just after I got a new one.
BQuinn: Nope, Tania hasn't slept with Shane yet. What kind of slut do you take her for? LMAO!
Rochelle: I'll try not to leave you hanging, promise!
Ajepkennedy: Yup! The site is back and the normal URL and I did add a chappie to BOTH!
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