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Chapter 29: Salve on the Wounds

Nyota woke up, in her own bed. She could hear Gaila sleeping in the other bed, something of a miracle since it meant no guys had been brought home—otherwise Gaila would have been sleeping in Nyota's bed. Nyota didn't want to open her eyes, she wanted to wake up and find that the whole argument had been a dream, a very bad dream.

But she knew it wasn't possible and she opened her eyes. She stared at the ceiling, taking deep breaths to calm herself. After a full night's sleep, the argument seemed so foolish and stupid. She couldn't believe she had gotten so mad, over nothing. The argument was so incredibly absurd, and her comments now seemed exactly what Spock had called them, 'illogical'.

She felt herself get warm with guilt; she couldn't believe she had said all those things. She closed her eyes briefly, would Spock accept her apology? She hoped he would, but he might not. Why would a being who lived his life based on logic want to live with one who had acted in such an irrational manner? The idea that he might not want to be with her sent a bolt of pain shooting through her chest, almost as if she had been hit. Instinctively she stiffened, and bit her lip to stop from crying out.

She could see in her mind, Spock looking at her with distaste and saying he never wanted to see her again. The image brought tears to her eyes, only furthering her misery. Some part of her was saying very loudly that she deserved such treatment, that she deserved to be pushed aside.

After a few second Nyota opened her eyes and slid out of bed. By thinking these things she wasn't helping anything. She walked over to the bathroom and looked at her reflection: it wasn't pretty. Her hair was a mess, she had bags under her eyes from all the crying she'd done last night, and her lips were cracked. Sighing she stripped down and turned on the shower. Stepping in she turned her face towards the hot water, feeling it run down her shoulders. It soothed her tense muscles. Nyota washed and then stepped out of the shower. As she did she realized why she had acted so irrationally, it was partially due to excess hormones. She dried off and then got dressed. Finally she applied some make up to her eyes, covering up the black streaks beneath them.

Feeling refreshed and a bit more in control she grabbed her PADD and left the room; Gaila still haven't awoke and was snoring, spread out on her bed. Nyota opened up her bond with Spock, which she had closed yesterday so he wouldn't sense her crying. She could feel him, he was in his office. He was in control of himself, but beneath the surface was a raging turmoil of sadness, regret, guilt and confusion. Nyota sent him a wave of love and walked towards his office. She rang the bell and then entered. He looked up, and for a second his control broke and his jaw clenched. Nyota bit her lower lip.

Spock stood and told the computer to lock the door and dim the window. Nyota shifted uneasily and then burst out, "Spock, I'm really sorry about yesterday. Everything I said was wrong and it wasn't right to blame you. I'm sorry. Can you forgive me?" She couldn't look him in the eye, she didn't want to see his distaste. His emotions were in turmoil and she didn't know if she could sense hatred amongst them.

Instead of saying anything, Spock walked over to her and lifted her chin with one hand. As he touched her she received images of him sitting on his bed, trying not to cry, and of waking up in the morning and doing nothing because he didn't trust himself to move in case it broke his already shattering control.

Nyota blinked back tears, and sent him images of her, crying and sobbing. At the end she stated in his mind, "It seems our argument didn't help anyone of us, it was a no win situation for both." She felt his amusement at the fact that even in such a circumstance she could still crack a joke.

"Love you." She stated, quietly. Spock looked into her eyes and smiled gently.

"Beloved." He stated, in Vulcan.

"My heart," She replied, also in Vulcan and moved her two fingers up to touch his two, in a Vulcan kiss.

"Nyota, I am also sorry for the comments I made yesterday." Spock said softly.

"I forgave you five minutes after I left." She smiled a sad smile.

"I too forgave you, on the instant." He replied and Nyota smiled. She was so lucky to have this man.

"I don't deserve you," She murmured, leaning to place her forehead on his chest.

"I disagree. It is the opposite, it is I who doesn't deserve you." Spock answered, stroking her back.

Nyota chuckled, "Hm…we both deserve each other, how's that?"

Spock's chest shook slightly and she felt his amusement, "That is agreeable."

Nyota sighed and kissed his chest, then pulled back. "I have one thing to say, one of the reasons why I acted so irrationally yesterday was because I was pmsing." She blushed slightly.

"You were experiencing pre-menstrual syndrome?" he asked, curious. "Every other time you have experienced it you did not reach in such a way."

Nyota smiled wryly, "It differs from time to time. Remember the last times I got weird craving? Well sometimes I get annoyed or angry really easy as well."

Spock nodded, "Yes, I remember. You asked for a pound of chocolate and a bag of sea salt and vinegar potato chips, which you proceeded to eat enthusiastically and even licked the bag at the end." He smirked.

Nyota wacked him playfully on the chest, "Hm…don't act so smug. You should be glad you don't have to undergo a monthly cycle. It's irritating and uncomfortable."

Spock raised an eyebrow, "Indeed? Evolution seems to favor only making females undergo such cycles, as of yet no males of any species have be found to undergo a mating cycle. I extrapolate that it says something about female nature in general." Spock teased.

Nyota made a face at him, "Ah, but you males have to deal with us females when we have too many hormones going through our bodies. And, you can't complain either; otherwise you lose your mates." Nyota winked.

Spock's lips twitched. "It appears neither gender gains from such cycles, but they are necessary for copulating purposes."

Nyota laughed. "Yes, indeed. Why don't we get some breakfast, I'm feeling ravenous."

Nyota could sense Spock's amusement. "It would seem that you are still experiencing cravings." He commented dryly.

Nyota snorted, "So, is there a problem, bucko?" She asked turning away from him to hide her grin.

Spock stood straighter. "No, of course not," he replied, dryly. Nyota laughed and rolled her eyes, before leading him out of the office and down to the mess hall. She was content in the knowledge that any hard feelings from yesterday were gone, and she could feel his joy and love emanating through their bond. Things would be okay, and next week she would get to introduce her parent's to her wonderful fiancé.

Spock was pleased with the outcome of their discussion in the morning. All his fears that she might not forgive him for his words had been soothed and they had made up. He could sense Nyota's love and care through their bond as they had breakfast, and then Spock walked off to his classes. As they had every day since their bonding, when classes started they closed off their bond partially, so not to be distracted. They kept it open enough that if something really important happened the other would know. Spock was content to merely feel the comforting hum of Nyota's emotions in the back of his mind; the momentary absence of them the night before had left him cold and sweating through the night.

Spock repressed a smile, and walked into his first class. Everything would be resolved, and next week Nyota would introduce him to his future patents-in-law. Moreover, he would get plenty of time to spend with his mother during the week, to make up for lost time over the last few years.


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