Chained Heart Chapter 29

Ai's POV

I shifted in bed and extended my hand on the other side of the bed but felt nothing. My eyes shot open and frantically looked around the room. Anubis was on the bed, at my feet, sleeping peacefully. Gaara left without saying goodbye.

"Baka…"

He said this was only a meeting. He would be coming back anyway.

I tried to calm down and took Anubis in my arms. He purred as he snuggled into me and continued to sleep. I couldn't believe he was this tamed.

I decided to finally get out of bed and do my morning routine. I had a job. I got to take care of babies and children. When I entered the hospital the nurse greeted me with a smile and led me to the maternity department. I was so excited I could not stop smiling. She stopped in front of the window, where the babies could be seen.

"These are the newborn babies that will stay here from two days to a week, depending on their health. They need to be fed and changed quite constantly." There were like twenty newborn babies, they were all looking like they were sleeping. There was one right in front of the window that was awake, and he looked in wonderment at both me and the nurse. His head was too heavy for him to move properly. He giggled and raised his chubby hand in the air. I smiled and looked at the nurse. "Well I see you already made a connection with this little guy." She smiled, but then it quickly faded. "We also…have special cases…um…" She led me to another room where there was only one crib. Why was this one separated by the rest? It had a pink blanked, which meant she must be a girl. "This child was abandoned by the mother at the doorstep of the hospital. We will keep her under supervision for a while until she will be placed up for adoption."

I looked at the child. She was currently sleeping, holding her fists to her small chest. She had more hair compared to other new born children. Her skin was pale and her lips were pink. "But she's beautiful…" I muttered without thinking.

"Unfortunately, this is what happens once in a while. The mother must have been poor, or a teenager…she couldn't afford to keep her."

"But this is awful…"

"I know, Lady Kazekage…but there is nothing we can do now but care for her and find her some suitable parents."

I nodded absently and continued to look at the child. She slowly opened her eyes, probably because she heard us speaking, and turned her gaze at us. She had the most beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen. She had black hair that contrasted beautifully with her white skin. I was speechless. The baby let out a loud yell and almost immediately I moved to take her in my arms. I cradled her in my arms and she slowly began to calm down. She looked at me in wonderment with those big, blue eyes of hers and I thought I was going to melt. She let out a giggle and just like the other new born she raised her tiny hand and grabbed a lock of my hair, but didn't have the power to actually pull it very hard.

"You're full of surprises, my lady. She could hardly be calmed down."

"I always liked children…"

"And you and Kazekage-sama are going to have one soon I suppose."

I was silent for a moment. "I…We decided we should wait for a while…"

"I see…Well you two are young and I am sure you still have time in the future."

"Right…What is the girl's name?" I tried to change the subject.

"We haven't thought about it yet…Maybe you could give us a hand, since you get along so well with her."

I thought for a moment. "How about…Noa?"

"That's a unique name." She smiled. "I'm sure she will like it."

I still cradled her in my arms and she seemed to be falling asleep yet again. She absently held on my lock as her breath became slow and calm.

"I see you won't be having any problems, lady-"

"You can call me Ai."

"Ai-san, I will leave you to it. Call me if you need anything."

"Sure." She bowed before she left me alone in the room.

The child was fully asleep and I planned to put her in her crib so I could check on the other babies but once I placed her there she woke up and looked like she was going to cry again. I sighed and took her in my arms. This time she was still crying but I could not figure out why. She did not smell, which meant a single thing. I took the feeding bottle from the table and the milk was still warm. I placed the bottle at her mouth and she began sucking greedily. She held the bottle with her small hands and looked at me. I was mesmerized by her. I felt a connection with her.

No. I must not get attached.

But when I looked at her it was hard not to. She was amazingly beautiful; she was a jewel. When she was done she pushed the bottle away and yawned. I placed her in the crib and she immediately fell asleep.

The rest of the day I would take care of the newborns and every once in a while checked on Noa. She was a modest child; she slept most of the time and did not cause any fuss. Some of the children were indeed very hard to look after; I was exhausted. But I was almost sad when I had to leave at night to go to the mansion. Gaara was gone and I was not allowed to take Noa home to take care of her. She did not belong to me.

A week passed by and I continued my work at the hospital. Children would come and go, but I never made a connection with any of the kids like I made with Noa. Ever since the day I saw her I felt like nothing could keep us apart. It felt like this would last forever, that I would take care of her like I was her real mother. But deep down I knew this was only a dream…She was going to be placed under adoption sooner or later. I was fearful of that day.

I was feeding Noa when I heard the door of the room open and close behind me. Gaara came back and he stood there, looking at me. "Gaara…you came back."

He nodded. "I thought I'd find you here…"

Something was off. "Is everything alright?" I asked. I placed Noa in her crib and looked at him a little bit concerned, walking closer to him.

"There is going to be a war." He said. My eyes widened. "We are fighting for Naruto. He must remain safe. If he dies…" He did not continue the sentence.

I embraced him and snuggled my head in his shoulder. "I just want you to come back to me safe. That's all I want. That's all I need."

He placed his cold palms on my cheeks and looked me in the eye. "I will do anything I can to come back to you. You just have to believe in me."

I nodded and he closed the space between our faces. He placed his hand on my backside and squeezed. "Gaara…Not now…" I said between kisses.

He smirked into the kiss. "I have to go. I need to prepare the army. I just wanted to see you before I leave."

"Already? I thought you were going to leave tomorrow."

"There is no time…"

"Can I at least introduce you to someone?" He raised his eyebrow at me before I turned around and took Noa in my arms and turned to Gaara again. "This little beauty is Noa." I watched as the little girl looked at Gaara and let out a playful giggle, shoving out her hand to touch him. Gaara's face was expressionless. He seemed clueless on how to react. I expected this. I came closer with the child until her hand reached his clothes. Gaara's hand flinched as if he wanted to touch her, but refrained to because he was afraid. "Come on, love. She won't break. It's okay." He tried again, this time succeeding. He held his hand in front of her and she grabbed his pointer finger; he flinched at the contact, like his touch could break her. It was so funny how something so small and cute could make Gaara so vulnerable. My heart throbbed when I saw his lips twitching to a smile at the contact. The little girl giggled and now held both her hands to him. He looked at me questioningly. "Do you want to hold her, Gaara-kun?" Before he could answer I already positioned her in his arms, carefully pointing out how he should hold her.

"Ai, I don't think-"

"Trust me. You won't drop her. I'm here. You're doing fine, love."

He finally regained some courage and nodded, holding her securely to his chest. I did not notice how Gaara was looking at me.

"You grew attached to her, didn't you, Ai?" I looked at him. Still expressionless. I nodded and looked at the ground feeling disappointed. "Whose child is this? Ai, I told you, I don't want you to suffer; this is not your child. I warned you." I just stood there and listened, not telling him the truth yet. "I know it hurts you that you cannot have a child, but please don't make this any harder for me. You know the guilt is killing me. It's because of me you can't have children…" He looked at Noa as she grasped his vest and pulled onto it. "She is very beautiful indeed, Ai, and she seems nice, and she…seems to like me…but I'm sorry, we can't-"

He was interrupted when he heard the door open. "Kazekage-sama, I see you came to see Ai-san." He nodded and she continued. "I'm sorry to interrupt, I just need to take Noa and you can go on to your business. There is a couple that is interested in seeing her."

My heart broke. I wanted to believe that I heard her wrong. I did not want her to go. When the nurse wanted to take her from his arms, he took a step back. "What do you mean?" Gaara looked at the nurse, then at me. "Ai?"

"She is an orphan…"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I wanted to hear your thoughts about her, what you thought about her if you did not know she was an orphan…And I like what you thought…"

I looked at the nurse and she nodded in understanding. "I'll tell the couple there has been a mistake. Please excuse me." With that she left.

There was silence. Noa was still insistently pulling on his shirt and I couldn't help but start laughing.

"What's so funny?" He asked in a serious tone, which made me laugh even harder. "Ai…"

"You are funny…" I smiled. "I never thought I would get to see you holding a child so determined to keep it. You look like the perfect father figure." I came closer and embraced him, careful with the baby in his arms. "You like her?"

He nodded.

"So…We can adopt her?"

He smiled and closed the space between our lips; he pecked my lips. "I want us to adopt her." I felt the child pull on my hair and I heard Gaara chuckle.

"Gaara…" He captured my lips in a full kiss, biting on my lower lip. "I love you so much…"

"Me too, Ai…more than anything…"

"Not to ruin the moment…but do you at least have time for…you know…Please…I need it…before you leave…"

He nodded in understanding and placed Noa in her crib, before teleporting us both to our bedroom.

After we made love he showered in a hurry and left to prepare for the war, and in the afternoon he was gone. We did say goodbye. And he promised again, that he would return unharmed and victorious.

Temari and Kankuro were surprised to find out about the new addition to the family, and they were happy for us. While everyone was at war I had to arrange the nursery and buy some furniture and baby clothes. The only ones that were not so happy about Noa were the elders, because they wanted the heir to be Gaara's flesh and blood, and a boy. But I never paid too much attention to them because they are never happy, no matter the situation.

I had to give up on my job because there was no use for it anymore. I had what I wanted. I had my baby girl that I loved with all the fiber in my being. There was not a day that she made me upset, or angry. She was the child I always wanted. Like any child, she would wake me from my sleep, or have a couple of tantrums, but nothing too bad.

It has been a week already and I had not heard news from Gaara or his siblings. I would often go on walks with Noa. The streets were empty. There were only women and children in the village. All the shinobi and kunoichi were gone.

With each passing day I was becoming more and more worried about Gaara's wellbeing. I couldn't wait for him to come home, to hold him and to make love to him. I had nightmares about him that he would get hurt, or even died. I would often wake up and look over Noa as she slept because I could not go back to sleep.

He was too long gone. I was beginning to lose weight again. I missed him too much. His absence haunted me. I wanted him to come home.

It the second week since he's been gone I began reading various medical books because I wanted to keep my mind off him. It was making me hurt too much…that fact that he wasn't here anymore. I focused mostly on heart failure techniques; in care that if he came back- in the case that when he came back and had another similar episode I would be able to save him again.

In the third week I began doing some of his paperwork he had not finished yet. I wanted him to have a break after he would come home. I wanted him all to myself. Noa would be keeping me company in his office. She would sit in her basket and sleep peacefully. Gaara made sure to leave a few shinobi around the mansion so that I would be protected in case of something.

In the fourth week I was already becoming anxious. I was crying and I was scared because I heard no news. Not even Noa alone could bring me joy. I needed Gaara. I was currently cleaning around our bedroom when I came across some letters in the drawer of his nightstand. They were all addressed to me. I looked at the date. It was around the time when I was in Iwa. They were all explaining his frustrations, his love for me, his despair, his inability to live without me, some of them were tearstained. I was at a loss…My heart soared as I read, and re-read them until it got dark out or when Noa would be screaming for me. I fell asleep with the letters in my hands that night. They smelled of him, I noticed. The next day I resumed cleaning around the mansion, and I was in a room that faced towards the village. With the corner of my eye, I saw something out the window. There were a lot of women who were more like running to the gates.

They came back.

My heart stopped. I was happy, but also scared of what I may see. I threw my cleaning utensils and as I exited the room I ordered a guard that was on the hall to look after Noa for a few moments. I could not leave her unsupervised while I was out of the mansion. I then ran as fast as I could to the gates. As I kept running, I became unsure of myself. 'What if he died?', 'What if he got injured?', 'What if Temari and Kankuro were hurt?', 'What am I going to do?'. By the time I was at the gates my eyes were red from crying and I couldn't stop from shaking. I was having a hard time standing. I refused to give up. I had to see him alright and victorious, like he said would be; like he promised. I was discouraged by the large number of women that were crying because they just found out their sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, wives or husbands were dead.

"Kami give me strength…"

I did not see him anywhere and I was too scared to ask anyone. Some of them were devastated, but some were happy to be reunited after a long month of war. I was too lost in the crowd to know what else to do. I was walking past the crowd of people and into the desert. I continued walking until the village could barely be seen. Where is he? I fell to my knees feeling too emotionally drained to do anything else. I was starting to lose hope. I needed to see him now!

When I raised my head, I saw three figures coming closer, but the scorching heat was making the view more distorted. I thought my mind was playing tricks on me so at first I did not react. Once the figures got closer I figured they were real…

I got up and ran towards them, not caring about the heat, or my weak legs, or dizziness. I wanted to be in his arms as fast as possible. I needed to see for myself he was feeling alright. When I got closer, the figure in the middle also began approaching me faster.

Then everything was clear.

"Gaara!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. I saw him perfectly clear, running towards me. We more like knocked in on each other and held on to each other. He was alright. He was alive and victorious; just like he said. "I missed you so much…you came back…"

He caressed my hair and snuggled into it just like he normally would, seeking comfort. Eventually Temari and Kankuro caught up to us and all both walked to the village. I tried to ignore the atmosphere that has gathered at the gates of the village as we all walked through the gate and went right into the mansion. I was pleasantly surprised when Gaara found Noa's room and walked in to check on her. He just observed her as she looked up at him. I sneaked in the room and joined him.

"She isn't going to break if you touch her, love."

"I am dirty. I should go take a bath first."

"Let me join…" He turned to me and caressed my cheek, bringing our faces together.

"I missed you so much, Ai." I hugged him tightly and began kissing his neck and unzipping his vest. He had a strong smell of sweat but compared to how much I missed him it did not matter at all for me. "Ai, I have to wash."

"Let me wash you. How does that sound? For the next week I don't want you to lift a single finger. Let me spoil you, love."

He smirked. "That means that when we fuck you have to do all the work."

"It will be my pleasure. I also want you to tell me how everything happened."

"The only thing you need to know is that we all are safe now. No more threats, no more enemies, not even headbands will be necessary."

"That sounds good." He nodded and grabbed me by the waist, leading us to our bedroom.

I watched him as he stripped himself, and after I did the same he took me in his arms bridal style making me gasp. I saw some bruises on his skin and became slightly worried. I got too ahead of myself. I got to do him a check-up.

When we got in the bathroom, he let me stand and turned on the tub and let it fill up. I embraced him from behind and kissed his nape.

"I'm going to do a small check-up while the tub fills alright?" He nodded and I began searching for injuries, no matter how small, and healed them. He was in a good shape, but something tells me he has been injured and healed before. "Done." The tub filled up and I gestured him to get in. He did as I said and walked at the end of the tub where I began giving him a slow massage. "Gaara-kun…did something happen to you? I can tell you were healed before."

He nodded. "But I don't want to talk about it…"

"I understand…but you're feeling alright now, right?" He nodded again. "That's good then."

"Come in the tub with me, Ai." He said almost impatiently, pulling my arm all the way and began kissing it. I began nipping on his neck leaving small red bite marks on his white skin. I walked to the side of the tub and deliberately flashed him while I got in with him, when I raised my leg up. I sat right between his legs, my back touching his strong chest. I felt a big part of his anatomy starting to harden under me but tried to ignore it for now. I began soaping his body, not leaving a single piece of his flesh untouched. His face was flushed and he would groan every now and then when I touched him. While I was taking care of him he began groping me and initiating make out sessions. After I was almost done I straddled his hips and felt his painfully hard erection between my thighs. I tried to not let my lust take over because I still had to wash his hair. While my hands were scrubbing his scalp I felt his hot breath on my chest. He took one of my breasts in his mouth and began sucking quite harshly. I moaned his name and was about to give up on washing him and let him have his way with me already.

"Stop it, love…I am almost finished. Then we can fuck as much as you want."

"I want to fuck you now, Ai."

"Gaara…Just let me…ugh…" He began playing with my folds and inserted a finger in. I still had to rinse his hair and I finished in a sloppy manner, some of the foam still plastered deep in his hair. I turned off the water and unplugged the drain, letting the water slowly empty itself from the tub. Gaara captured my lips in a passion driven kiss and he began thrusting his hips in mine; his member pleasantly rubbing itself on my folds. "Fuck…" I swore as delicious heat began filling up in my stomach. He grabbed his stiff member and began rapidly slapping it against my cunt, and then he probed the area with the tip of his cock. I hid my face in his shoulder, biting a bit in his tender flesh.

All of a sudden he grabbed my backside and held me steadily as he moved out of the tub, and into the bedroom, roughly dropping me on the bed. I smirked at him, getting myself in a comfortable position and widely opened my legs. When he opened the drawer of his nightstand he almost broke it in his impatience to retrieve a condom. He impatiently ripped the wrapper, careful not to damage the condom though, and slid it right on his member. He moved on top of me and I saw the look in his eyes; he looked angry, lustful…scared. When I touched his face he took my hand and slammed it on the bed next to my head, strongly squeezing it. Gaara was very affected by the war. On course he was; he saw so much death, so many of his shinobi passing away…Even if he killed a lot of people in his life, now he was different, now he cared about his people. Even if he wanted nothing more than to thrust himself in my being, he continued looking me in the eyes, asking for permission. I knew he was going to be rough, but I wanted to help him feel better. I nodded and loosely wrapped my legs around his hips.

He bit on my neck and did not let go, just like an animal, and he trust inside me violently and angrily. He kept his teeth on my flesh, just like animals did, to keep their mate in place, even thought he knew I was going nowhere. I could feel moisture against my cheek. Gaara was crying out all of his frustrations; he was releasing all of his stress by thrusting in me like never before. He squeezed one of my breasts making me wince in pain; but it was a pleasurable pain. He flinched at the way I gasped at the pain; he did not want to hurt me.

"Gaara-kun…let me take away all your frustration, your stress, your worries and anger…Don't stop…Fuck me hard…but please feel better…"

He released my neck and began licking it, like he was apologizing. He then raised his head and looked me in the eye. His tears were falling on my cheeks and I pulled his face close to mine, allowing him to give me a bruising kiss. I felt my insides clamping on his hard dick; he was close too.

With a few more thundering thrusts he came; after a few slow thrusts he came to a stop. We were both out of breath as we stood in each other's embrace. He once again began kissing my neck. "I'm sorry for hurting you, Ai."

I shook my head. "It felt good…I missed your cock."

He smirked and began fondling my breasts again. "Get on all fours. I'm far from done with you."

After he took the condom off and made a knot at the opening and threw it in the bin next to his nightstand. He got a new one and slid it on his still hard member. I was still mesmerized by watching him and did not get in the position he asked.

"Ai, do as I say." He said in a dominating tone. I smiled lustfully and sat of the bed, then got on my knees and positioned myself with my backside facing him, boldly shaking my hips to provoke him more. "I am thankful for my wife's sluttiness." He muttered, placing his hands on my buns and giving them a little squeeze.

"Anything to please you, love." I felt his hand move in between them, and once again he was playing with my meaty folds that were soaked by my juices. I leaned into his touch and silently hoped he was in the mood to eat me out. "Gaara-kun…" At my plea he lowered his head to my folds and licked me once. That sole action made me throw my head in the pillow and bite it. He continued his pleasurable assault on my most sensitive area. I could not bear it anymore. I placed on hand on my cunt and widened the lips. "Could you…do me the pleasure of fucking my pussy…balls deep?" I looked in his hungry eyes. He could barely contain himself at what I said. He was shaking with desire. He placed a pillow under me so that my backside was slightly raised. He got on top of me and teased me with the head of his member. He grabbed tightly onto my shoulders and slammed inside me with a one forceful thrust. "Ahhhhh!" I moaned at the top of my lungs. I loved this roughness, this dominance. He bit me again on my neck and licked the mark he scarred on my nape.

"You asked for this, my slut."

"I so want this…I love your cock…I want more! Faster! Fuck me faster!"

He suddenly changed positions. He grabbed my hips and turned us around. He was on his back and I was on top of him; my back was against his chest. This was the first time in a long time we ever did this position. The angle allowed a different level of penetration.

"Do you remember this position, my slutty morsel?"

"I remember love…It was when I was initiated in the pleasures of sex." I smiled slyly. "Just shut up and fuck me senseless already…Fuck me!"

"Slut!"

The bed shook violently because of our angry lovemaking. I love it when he called me a 'slut', or a 'bitch'; it made me feel naughty. I love it when he slammed himself inside me so fast I could not speak. I love it when he took his frustrations on me through sex. It was delicious. I love this; I loved him. I remember only screaming as I came, clamping hard on his rod, before I fell asleep. He tired me out. I could also feel his heartbeat against his chest. I snuggled into him and smiled to myself. I too eliminated my frustration; which was his cruel absence.

10 years later

Ai's POV

It's been ten years since the war ended and we resumed our lives.

Two years after the war a lot of our friends from Konoha got married and started having children of their own. I was still slightly jealous because they had kids of their own, their own blood, but this fact did not lessen my love for Noa. She grew up to be a beauty. She had long, thick black hair, and her eyes remained the same shade of blue as she had them when she was a newborn. She does not know that she is adopted and Gaara and I both agreed to take this secret to our grave. It would only hurt her if she found out. Noa also was the best student in the Academy and after a few more years she would go to the Chuunin Exams. Noa adored Gaara. Even though he was not the most affectionate father, he treated her like she was his daughter. In fact he was glad we adopted her.

Temari married Shikamaru and had to move to Konoha to be with him. This was the most heartbreaking thing I ever had to do. She was my best friend, my sister. I felt her more dear to me than Kamiya, who was my blood sister. I grew up with Temari. Despite all this, I was genuinely happy for her, I was happy she has found someone that loves her. I hinted there would be something between them since they hung out almost all the time. They even had a son, Shikadai that was the spitting image of his father. It was quite fun to think of Gaara as an uncle. We would often visit her, but it wasn't the same when she was here. I had someone to confide in. Someone I could ask for advice Gaara wasn't able to give me.

I was busy being a mother, and as Noa grew Gaara and my sex life began to fade. The sex we had ten years ago was the best we ever had. Gaara did not seem to be bothered by this. He was affectionate towards me; we kissed and cuddled. I no longer doubted him…but I needed intimacy. I wanted to be a decent mother, but I was still a human being. I wanted to feel some things only Gaara could make me feel. It was harder with a 10 year old daughter. She would enter our rooms without knocking, and we refrained from sex all together. We would have a few escapades in his office when he would block the door with sand, but other than that…nothing. And lately we never did anything in his office either. I hoped tonight it would be different. I was becoming quite cranky.

My body changed; my hair reached my backside, my hips got wider and my chest grew even more. These things got unnoticed by Gaara. He would never at least block our bedroom door for us to be intimate. It's like he did not find me attractive anymore.

It was nighttime and Noa was all asleep and I was currently waiting for Gaara to come to our room. I really needed him tonight. I always dressed skimpily but to my disappointment I did not get any reaction from him. After we would make out he would say goodnight and turn to his side of the bed and sleep. I was getting tired of this. I felt like we were getting old. We were in our mid 20's. This wasn't supposed to happen.

I saw the door opening and it stopped my train of thoughts. Gaara looked quite distracted and tired. I only wanted to relieve him, make him feel better. I got off the bed and swayed my hips towards him.

"Tough day?" I said as I began undoing his coat. He nodded absently letting me take off his clothes, down to his underwear. I followed him in the bathroom where I massaged his shoulder as he took his bath. I would place kissed every now and then on his neck or cheek. After he was done with the bath he rose from the water and I wouldn't help but shiver at the sight of his drenched body. I rushed to him with a towel and began helping him dry up. As I did this I looked into his eyes and leaned into his lips and kissed him deeply. He grabbed hold of my hips and brought me closer to him. I fisted my hands in his wet hair and brought him deeper in the kiss. Our tongues fought for dominance and he was leading as usual. I used the kiss as a distraction and placed my hand on his flaccid member, giving it a few strokes before he pushed me gently away.

"Not tonight, Ai." He said and he walked in his naked state to the drawer where he pulled out a pair of underwear. I sighed in annoyance and rushed to him, grabbed the pair of boxers and threw it back in the drawer.

I was near crying. That was his excuse all the time 'Not now, Ai. Not tonight, Ai. No…' I felt my tears coming slowly to my eyes and I tried my best to keep them from falling. I let out one painful sigh and his expression softened. Did he realize how much he was harming me? "D-Do you not find me attractive anymore? Is that it?"

"How did you come to that conclusion?"

"You don't touch me anymore…"

"Ai, look at you. You're a goddess. You're unbelievably beautiful."

"Then why won't you fuck me?!"

"Because I'm tired."

"You're always tired!"

He looked down and sighed in disappointment. "This is my job, you have to understand that."

"I do understand, but I am a human being. I am young! I want to fuck! When we'll be old the lust will be more or less gone."

He took a seat on the bed and sighed again. "The truth is…" I feared for the worse. Was he cheating on me? Did something go unnoticed by me? "I…I can't get hard…" He said slowly, almost as a whisper.

Guilt struck me. He was self conscientious of this; that's why he never let me get too far to notice. Maybe he thought I wouldn't see him as the fertile male he was. I took a seat next to him. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't know how to." I heard the shame in his voice.

"You should have told me. I'm a medic nin. I can help you. I'm your wife. There's no need to be ashamed of me. I would never judge you, love." He looked at me and did not say anything. I cupped his cheek and leaned in for another kiss. I embraced him and placed my head on his shoulder. "You should have told me sooner. The only cause I can think of is that problem you have with your heart or stress…but I know what could help."

I got up from the bed and searched deep in a drawer in the closet until I found what I was looking for. It was a small bottle I bought just for emergencies, and I guess this was one. I wanted Gaara to have his confidence back. I handed him the bottle. "Take one pill."

"What is this?"

"An aphrodisiac. Don't worry it won't hurt you. It's the softest one I could find."

He did as I instructed; he took a pill and gulped it down with a sip of water. We both sat on the bed, cuddled in eachother, under the covers. As we sat there, Gaara traced my arms with his long fingers, giving me goose bumps. His touch was electric. I snuggled in his neck and sniffed his earthy scent. I licked his neck before kissing it multiple times. My hand traveled down to his member and began stroking him slowly. He too began fondling my breasts and taking one by one in his mouth and sucking greedily.

I smirked as I felt him get harder and harder with each of my strokes. He also began humping into my hand. He groaned out my name and pushed me down on my side of the bed and got in between my legs. He harshly rubbed himself on my folds and I nodded at him, eager to feel him filling me up. My eyes widened remembering the condoms, but the thought was soon forgotten when I felt him hit a spot deep inside me. My eyes rolled in the back of my head and thanked the gods I was born a woman. Gaara raised my legs on his shoulders and continued to ram himself fast and hard inside of me. I was holding onto him as he fucked me mercilessly. I was moaning too loudly so he covered my mouth with his. With one hard thrust I was filled with liquid warmth. Gaara groaned in pleasure as he released his load, having released his pent up frustrations. I however did not cum.

Just like he read my mind, Gaara turned me around on my stomach and got on top of me. I grabbed on the sheets, knowing I was going to go crazy soon.

"Ai, I'm not stopping anytime soon."

"Please don't stop. Fuck me, please. Fu-" I felt him thrust all the way inside me. "Ahhhh!" I bit on the pillow to remain quiet. He kept thrusting in me with demonic speed making the bed protest. He bit on my shoulder and after a few more thrusts we both came. I was filled to the brim with his seed.

When I was about to fall asleep I felt him turn me around again and enter me. I clawed at his back and brought his hips closer using my legs. "Yes! Oh fuck yes!"

We were done after two hours; I was covered in hickeys and filled up with his seed while he fell asleep on top of me, his member still side of me. I sighed in contentment and caressed his soft hair before falling asleep.

When I woke up he was still on top of me. My back hurt because he stood on me for the whole night. I checked his heart and his heart rate was normal. I would check on him every now and then. I kissed his cheek, then the rest of his face trying to wake him up.

He groggily opened his eyes and looked a little confused at the setting before him. He rolled to his side and pulled me against him and began playing with my long hair.

"Last night was amazing." I murmured in his chest.

"You were amazing…I'm sorry I did not tell you sooner. I was afraid you-"

"I what?" I was becoming kind of irritated with this.

"That you…would not see me as the man I was before."

I smiled at him. "You would always be my man, no matter what happens."

He caressed my cheek and looked me in the eye. "I love you." He said. My smiled widened and I leaned in to peck his lips. He grabbed the back of my head and pushed me forward deepening the kiss.

"I love you too. I love you so much!" I snuggled in his chest and intended to get on top of him but stopped as soon as something warm and wet began seeping out of me. I gasped at the pleasant feeling and uncovered my lower half. Sperm continued to drip on the sheets and I couldn't help but pray I would not get pregnant. We were careless. "So much…cum." I more like whispered.

I looked at Gaara and he seemed concerned by this. He sighed. "I'm sorry."

"It's my fault too. I remembered about protection…but it just felt too good to interrupt to use one…There's nothing we can do about it anyway so let's just ignore it for now."

The door opened and Gaara and I covered ourselves up as fast as we could. Noa giggled and jump on the bed and came to sit between us.

"Noa sweetie what have I told you about knocking?"

"I forgot, I'm sorry." I smiled and kissed her temple. "I just wanted to ask father if he can make some time in his busy schedule to help with my training?"

"As much as I would like to help, I really must be going to Konoha at a meeting today. Maybe some other time."

"I understand."

I raised a brow. "Why didn't you tell me sooner you were going to leave?"

"I barely found out last night…and I forgot." He said it like that to camouflage the real meaning.

"Ok then…Noa how about I would teach you about medicine. Wouldn't that be interesting? At least until Gaara gets back?"

"I guess…"

"You don't sound too excited."

"Well…there is this guy I like and I don't think I would impress him with medical jutsu…"

"A boy?" I heard Gaara say. "Is this the reason you want to become stronger?" He said slightly irritated.

She nodded.

"Noa, you're ten years old. You're too young to have these thoughts. We don't even know him."

"Why does that matter? He's nice to me."

"You have to become strong for yourself, not some boy. I thought you knew better than this!" I kind of yelled.

"I knew I shouldn't have told you; that you wouldn't understand!" She jumped out the bed and ran out of the room.

I sank in my pillow and sighed. "Maybe I was too rough on her…After all…I sort of had my first crush at six…but I wanted it to be different for her."

"You are right to be concerned…I will have a talk with the boy when I come back."

"Do you really think he would mess with the Kazekage's daughter?"

"I have to assure myself in any case…You better explain some things to her. Don't make her…be afraid to tell us what's bothering her."

I nodded. "You're right…"

Gaara smiled and kissed me long and sloppy before he got off the bed and entered the bathroom. I joined him as well and after we were done we got dressed and I escorted him to the gates.

We shared one last kiss before he departed.

"Be safe." I told him as I held him tightly.

"You too. Take care of Noa and explain to her."

"I will."

As we broke apart I kissed his cheek.

"Tell Temari I miss her."

"I will."

With that he entered the calash and I waited until he wasn't in sight anymore before going through the gates.

I missed him already.