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Disclaimer: I don't own the hunger games or its characters. All credit goes to Suzanne Collins.
Katniss's POV
I cry heavily and make my way into the woods. Something inside me tells me I did the wrong thing, and I should just take him back but I know it would be wrong to.
I spend the rest of the day in the woods, crying, and head back home when It starts to get dark. When I get home prim and my father give me a sad smile and I say," Goodnight."
"You haven't eaten anything." Prim says.
"I'll manage." I say and head up the stairs and fall asleep.
The next day I wake up and get ready for work. I don't feel like going back to the bakery but I have to help pay the bills. I put on some dark jeans, a dark shirt, and out my hair up in a high pony tail. My bangs go back to sitting on my forehead and I honestly don't care. I feel like putting something on my face today. I walk over to my dresser and put some black eye shadow on. I put on some dark shoes and I look in the mirror. I feel like this is right, and It suits my mood.
I walk down stairs and I see that my dad is drinking his coffee and spits it all over the floor when he see's me.
"Katniss, what are you-" He begins.
"This suits me better." I say and grab half a toast off his plate." I'm going to work, love you bye."
I walk out the house and walk to the Mellark bakery. I receive lots of stares from around town and whispering but they can all just go fuck themselves. They clearly don't know what I'm going through.
I enter the Mellark bakery and I see that rye is cleaning some tables.
"Hey Katniss how's- what are you wearing?" he asks abit shocked.
"I wear what I feel." I say and go to the back of the bakery to clock myself in.
I feel wheat's eyes are watching my every move and I can't help but give him a death glare. I realize where I am, and my eyes start to water. This is where everything happened.
I nearly run out the room and go behind the register. I take a couple of breaths and calm myself down. I sit on the counter and turn on the radio.
Rye studies me and says," Peeta was telling the truth you know."
"I know he was, he can live in peace now." I say and bite my lip to keep myself from crying.
"He was really infected with venom Katniss." Rye says abit angry.
"Do you know how it feels to have someone you love slap you and tell you they hate you when you're witnessing them kissing someone who isn't you." I yell and feel tears escape my eyes.
"I'm sorry I-" He begins.
"Just butt out, rye." I say and grab a dumb capital magazine off the counter. I wipe my cheeks and just flip through the pages.
I hear someone enter the bakery and I look up to see it's finnick.
"What can I get for you?" I ask and continue to flip through the magazine.
" Nothing." Finnick says and sits on one of the tables.
"If you came here to talk me into forgiving peeta, you can leave now." I say.
"Katniss can't you see that-" He begins.
"Look finnick, I don't want nothing to do with peeta anymore. He's a lying scumbag." I say and feel eyes starting to get blurry of the tears.
Finnick laughs and I give him a dirty look.
"What you called peeta a lying used condom." He says and I can't help but smile abit. It was less than a second though.
"I hate him, and I never want to see him again." I say.
"That's impossible, since you're working at the same place he does." Finnick points out.
"Quit being such a smart ass." I say.
"All I'm saying is that Peeta is telling the truth Kat. You know that he would never hurt you. I know what you're going to say, ' but he did hurt me'. That wasn't peeta, Katniss. You have to know that. Can't you see that the boy feels terrible about himself. I just went to check on him this morning and he was crying his eyes out. He hates himself for what happened, but we both know it wasn't his fault it was Glimmer's." Finnick says. I just stand there and feel myself start to cry. Finnick gives me a hug and says," What happened back there, wasn't peeta. I've known peeta for a long time and I know that he would never do something like that."
"I don't know what to do." I cry into his shirt." I can't go back to him I-"
"He's not going to hurt you Katniss, I swear. Peeta loves you too much, he would never hit you like he did back there. You have to remember that , that wasn't peeta. That was the tracker jacker venom." He says and pulls me away. I see that I left eye shadow on his shirt." I'm not asking you to take him back instantly, but I want you to think things through."
"Ok." I say and wipe my tears.
"Well, I have to go to school Kit Kat." He says." I like the new look, It makes you look mysterious."
I roll my eyes and can't help but smile abit.
"I'm sorry I got make up on your shirt." I say and point to the black dots." You should change it."
"Too late for that, plus It can help get annie jealous." He says and grabs a cheese bun." Bye Kitty!"
He leaves the bakery and I start to flip through the magazine. Minutes later I hear the bell ring and I look up to see the person I last wanted to see. Peeta.
I glance back down at my magazine and feel my heart start to beat faster. I bite my cheeks to keep me from crying and cursing at him.
You told Finnick you'd think things through, I tell myself.
His footsteps travel to the back of the bakery and I hear him talking to wheat. I turn up the volume of the radio abit louder and someone enters the shop.
"Welcome to the Mellark bakery how can I help you?" I say and flip through the magazine.
"Can't even recognize your own uncle sweetheart." I hear his deep voice say. I throw the magazine in the air and I run into his arms. I start to cry and he holds me.
"Let's go far a walk sweetheart." He says and I shake my head.
"I'm working." I say.
"Five minutes can't hurt you." He says and we walk outside.
We start to walk and he says," I heard about what happened."
I feel tears slip out of my eyes and I say," I'm guessing dad called you."
"No, prim and your friends did." He says and I'm a bit shocked." Look sweetheart, I thought you were smarter than this."
"What are you talking about." I say and wipe my tears.
"He wasn't lying, I can tell." He says." You either do the right thing and talk things through with him, or do the cowardly thing and avoid the problem like you always do."
"I don't know." I say.
"Whatever, just do the right thing." He says and takes out a small liquor bottle from his pocket.
"Even in public." I roll my eyes and he chuckles.
"By the way, you may want to quit crying, start eating, and quit dressing like someone died." He says and I can't help but smile abit.
"Ok uncle." I say and give him a hug.
"Get back to work, don't want to get you fired." my uncle says." I'll see you at home, I'm staying here for another week."
I feel abit happy that he's going to stay with us but I'm not going to tell him that.
" Isn't that wonderful news." I joke and he chuckles as he walks home.
I walk back to the bakery and when I open the door I crash into a strong chest. I look up and see that it's peeta. He looks horrible.
"Sorry." He mumbles in a very hoarse voice and goes around me.
I go back into the bakery and sit on the counter, waiting for customers to come. Usually we don't start to get lots of customers until school ends.
Peeta's POV
I feel tears come out of my eyes and I wipe them away angry.
She's not yours anymore Peeta, I tell myself.
I get into my car and drive to school. When I park it, I see that Glimmer is standing in front of where I parked. I sigh angry, and get my backpack.
I get out the car and she runs over to me.
"Baby, I m-" She begins but I start yelling at her.
"FOR THE LAST TIME, I DON'T WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I HURT KATNISS AND NOW SHE WON'T EVEN TALK TO ME!" I yell at her and I realize I'm being very loud because of the way everyone's looking.
"Peeta quit yelling." Glimmer says and wipes her tears.
"Fine, but stay away from Katniss and I. You already caused enough problems." I tell her in an angry tone and walk to class.
"Baby!" Glimmer yells after me.
"Stay away!" I yell and go to homeroom.
Katniss's POV
Minutes become hours and It feels more like days. So far I've attended about twenty something customers. I'm so bored, I'm counting customers. It's lunch time and I'm not hungry, so I guess I'll just keep working. I grab a new magazine and flip through its pages. There's nothing interesting to read about. It's all about these stupid capital people and their money.
"Katniss, what are you doing here, It's your lunch break." Mr. Mellark says.
"I'm not hungry so I'll just stick around." I say and flip through some more pages.
"You need to eat something, Katniss." He says and gets something and hands it to me.
I look at it and see it's a cheese bun. Peeta used to give me cheese buns with everything because he knew I loved them. I start crying and Mr. Mellark gives me a hug.
"It's ok, Katniss." He says and I cry harder.
I miss peeta. Even though he was cruel to me ,with the venom everyone says he was injected with, I love him and miss him. Every where I turn there's always a memory of us together and it hurts.
"I miss him." I cry into Mr. Mellark's shoulder.
"He misses you too Katniss." He says.
Why am I crying at work, I need to do something or I'll get fired.
"I'm sorry, I won't cry anymore." I say and wipe my tears." I need to get back to work."
"It's ok to cry once in a while, you don't have to hold anything in." Mr. Mellark says and gives me a small smile.
"I can't cry, I just look weak and I hate it." I say and go back to the magazine.
"But you're not." He says." Just take your lunch break, you work hard everyday."
"Ok." I say but I don't really feel like eating. I'm not hungry.
Mr. Mellark disappears some where and someone enters the bakery.
"Hello, welcome to the-" I begin before the loud screeching starts.
"He doesn't want me because of you!" Glimmer yells and tries to slap my but I catch her wrist and push her back so she falls on to the floor.
"I don't know what you're talking about." I say. I honestly don't know what she is talking about.
"He hates me!" She yells and kicks her feet." He never wanted me, he wants you! I don't know what he see's in you! I tried everything to make him go away! I injected you! I got into a fight with you! I-"
She's talking about Peeta.
"Look, glimmer you won ok." I tell her and get off the counter." But what you did three days ago, tops everything off and Its pissing me off."
"Really then-" She begins.
"Your just some worthless person who has to get her way all the time. I'm sorry but that's not how it is in the real world. If Peeta likes you then he likes you, if he doesn't then suck it up and move on." I tell her and get her up with one arm. "Quit bitching, and go to school."
"But-" She begins giving me an evil look.
"Quit bitching and get out if you're not going to buy anything." I tell her and she's huffing madly.
"What does he see in you!" She yells.
"I don't know and I never will." I tell her.
"Ah!" She starts kicking and screaming on the floor." I WANT HIM! HE HAS TO BE MINE NOT YOURS!"
"GLIMMER CALM YOUR ASS DOWN!" I yell at her. She's acting like a little kid.
" HE WILL BE MINE! HE WILL!" she continues to yell." I'LL INJECT HIM WITH THE VENOM AGAIN IF I HAVE TO."
" So it was you?" I ask.
"YES YOU IDIOT!" She yells and screams peeta's name.
I go up to her and start smacking the shit out of her. I pull her by the hair and drag her outside.
"Don't you ever do that again! Do you hear me!" I yell and punch her. We're receiving lots of stares.
"I'm not list-" She begins before I punch her again.
"You are not going to do that again! Act your fucking age and quit acting like a five-year old! If you ever inject someone with tracker jacker venom again, I will hunt you down. Then I'm going to beat you up so bad that you won't be able to move for a week. I promise you!" I yell at her and everything goes silent. I realize I'm crying and I turn to find Mr. Mellark and wheat staring at me." I need the day off."
Mr. Mellark nods and I run home. I run and cry like an idiot. My dad's not home, he must be working. I run up the stairs and end up in my bathroom crying my eyes out.
when I'm done I check the clock and see that it's 3:10. I feel hurt. Glimmer can't go around hurting people again. I feel like taking out my anger, but I just can't. I don't even know what to do. I see something shiny and pointy on the floor and I lift it up. It's a piece of glass.
I slowly move it against my wrist and when It barely touches my skin, prim comes into the restroom.
"Katniss are- What are you doing are you crazy!" She yells and slaps the glass from my hands. I start crying and prim hugs me and cries with me.
"Why would you do something like that Katniss." She cries.
"I don't know, I'm sorry." I cry.
"Don't do that ever again." She cries.
"Ok, I promise." I say.
" What's going on?" I hear someone's voice.
"Nothing, I'll be down in a minute." Prim says in sobs. Finnick enters the restroom and see's the glass on the floor. He looks at me and starts shaking his head in disbelief.
"Kitty." He shakes his head and gives me a hug.
"I stopped her in time." Prim says.
"Katniss, look at me." Finnick says and I do." Why did you do this?"
"I don't know." I say and shrug my shoulders." I just ran all the way home, got into my bathroom and cried. When I stopped crying I saw the glass and before I knew it I was putting it against my wrist."
"Why would you do that though, there has to be a reason." He says.
I think I know the reason though.
" The world is better off with out me! If I continue to live he will continue to get tracker jacker venom in him!" I yell and cry." It's my fault. If I was never with him, none of this would happen. He would be happier with some other girl, and maybe he wouldn't have been injected!"
"Kitty." Finnick says and gives me a hug." Either way, glimmer would still be jealous but what made her more jealous is that he picked you."
"Why me though." I say and it comes out in a whisper.
"You're going to have to ask him that." He says.
I burst into more sobs and I don't stop until minutes later.
"Let's get you to bed, kitty." Finnick says and lifts me up bridal style. I remember peeta would do this because of my wounds. I start crying again and I'm put into bed.
"Do you want anything?" Prim asks.
"I want to be alone." I say and hold my covers closer to myself.
"I don't know if we can leave you alone, after what we saw." Finnick says.
"Leave me alone." I say and start to cry.
Prim lays down with me and hugs me.
"Don't cry." She says.
"I can't stop, everything reminds me of him." I sniff.
"Think of something else." She says.
"I'm going to the store, do you guys need anything?" Finnick asks.
"Chocolates." I say and sniff.
"Just chocolate?" Finnick asks.
"Yes, two of every chocolate in that store." I say.
"Ok, how about you prim?" Finnick asks.
"Just bring me a water bottle." She says and he's off.
I cry lightly but start to drift off to sleep.
...
"I feel bad for her." I her someone say.
"Peeta tried talking to her but she thinks he's lying to her." I hear another voice say.
"You would feel the same way if you were in her shoes, finnick." I hear another voice say.
"She's pretty hurt." I hear a small young voice say.
...
I'm at the bakery and I see that Peeta is kneading some dough. I walk behind him and wrap my arms around him. He stops what he's doing and he turns around and slaps me.
"I hate you ,get out of my sight!" He yells at me and I start crying. If that's what he wants. I leave and I'm getting chased by snakes. I try running but I'm glued to my place. I feel one slither into my sleeve and I start crying and sobbing loudly.
"Help me!" I say before a snake wraps itself around my throat. I try to get it off but it doesn't work. I kick and do my best to get him off but nothing seems to work.
"Wake up!" I hear far away.
With the snake wrapped around my neck, I see Glimmer kissing peeta. He tells her he loves her and she says it back. I start sobbing loudly and I say," You liar! I never want to see you again!"
"Katniss, wake up!" I hear the voice closer now.
I look back and see that Glimmer and Peeta disappeared.
I sit up really fast and start crying really loud. I feel someone wrap their arms around me and I cry harder.
"You need to talk to him, sweetheart." I hear Haymitch's voice.
"I can't, it's too hard." I say and shake my head.
"You have too." He says.
"Fine." I say and cry.
"Tomorrow, at the bakery, you talk to him." He says and releases me. I sit in bed and cry softly. When I stop, I look around and see I'm surrounded by chocolate. There's a note too.
Thought you might need more than the store had.
-finnick
I smile abit and grab a large box of chocolates and open it. I flip on the T.V. and see that a man is telling a woman that he loves her.
"I love you Polly." He says.
"LIAR!" I yell and throw the chocolates at the t.v." DON'T SAY IT BACK POLLY! HE'S GOING TO GET VENOM IN HIS SYSTEM THEN HE'S GOING TO HURT YOU BY KISSING ANOTHER GIRL!"
I throw more chocolates at the T.V. screen and start yelling," HE'S GOING TO SLAP YOU AND SAY HE HATES YOU!"
I start crying and Polly says something that ticks me off.
"I love you too." She says.
"You dumb bitch!" I yell and turn off my T.V. I see that my window is open, so anybody could have been listening. I grab the remote and throw it out the window. It breaks into pieces on the floor and I can't help but start crying. What's wrong with me?
I see that it's 9:00 P.m. I grab some chocolates and put them into a bag. I change into some running clothes and take my bag with me.
I go downstairs and see that my dad is talking with a police officer.
"Mrs. Everdeen, I'm here-" He begins.
"I'm sorry, It wont happen again. I'll be more quiet." I say. Peeta got sick and tired of hearing me.
"No, Mrs. Everdeen, We're here to ask you a couple of questions about Mrs. rambin." He says.
Peeta's POV
I'm baking downstairs and I hear Katniss's yells. I'm about to leave the house but I remember she doesn't want anything to do with me because I hurt her. I go back to making cheese buns and I remember how much she loves them. I start crying and my hands start to shake. I try to start on the dough but I just can't seem to. I sit on the floor and start crying.
"Liar!" I hear Katniss yell." Don't say it back Polly! He's going to get venom in his system then he's going to hurt you by kissing another girl!"
I start crying.
"It wasn't me." I say and shake my head.
"Then he's going to slap you and say he hates you!" She yells and I start crying harder.
"I'm sorry Katniss." I say and start to shake on the floor." I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
"Peeta, what are you doing up." Wheat asks.
"I'm sorry." I mumble over and over, while I cry.
"Peeta, let's get you to bed." Wheat says and helps me up.
"She hates me." I say and cry.
"No she doesn't man." Wheat says and takes me to my room.
"Yes she does." I say and cry harder.
"If it makes you feel better, her and dad we're talking in the bakery and she burst into tears and said that she misses you." He says.
"Quit lying wheat." I say and wipe my tears.
"I'm not lying." He says and I get on my bed. Katniss misses me?
"She misses me?" I ask.
"Yes." He says." You need to talk to her."
"I tried, she won't listen." I say.
"Get her to listen." He says and leaves the room. There's a loud crashing sound outside and then there's silence
I instantly fall asleep, into my nightmares.
Katniss's POV
"Thank you Mrs. Everdeen, that's enough information to get us to arrest Glimmer rambin." The police officer says and puts his note pad away.
"But, how do you know I got injected?" I ask.
"Peeta Mellark made a visit to the hospital the other day and he was tooken a blood test to see if he was injected with the venom. His results came back positive so the doctor had to report this to us. The doctor asked him if he knew anyone else that was injected and he mentioned you." The police officer says." Have a nice day."
When the cop leaves I break down into cries and my dad hugs me.
"I never listened to what peeta had to say." I say and cry.
"Talk to him tomorrow." My dad says and kisses my fore head.
"I'm going for a walk." I say.
"Ok, If you don't come back I think I know where I'll find you." He says and gives me one last hug before I leave the house.
I start to jog and then start to run. I pass by a bar that's full of drunk men.
"Damn you can run really fast." One of the men say and give me a drunken smirk.
"Imagine how she would be in bed." One of them says as I run by. I run faster and try to get what they said about me out my head.
I end up going to the meadow and I start crying when I remember peeta brought me here for a date. I sit on the spot our blanket was at and I cry some more. I'm pathetic. I should have listened to him when I had the chance. Finnick was right, It wasn't peeta that hit me, It was the venom.
I cry harder and put my knees against my chest.
"Catnip?" I hear behind me. I turn and find Gale with a game bag.
"What are you doing here?" I ask and getup. I wipe my tears and cross my arms.
"I was walking to Greasy Sae's but I heard cries." He says and takes a seat." Sit down, It's just me."
I take a seat and remember I brought chocolate with me.
"Want chocolate?" I ask and take out my bag.
He chuckles and shakes his head.
"No thanks." He says.
"Your loss." I say and start to stuff my face with chocolate. I miss peeta. I take a bite into my chocolate and I start crying again.
"What's wrong?" He asks.
"I miss peeta." I cry while eating my chocolate." I just realized I'm pathetic for not listening to him the other day."
"Yesterday." He says and I nod." Try talking to him in the morning."
"I will." I cry and eat another chocolate bar." How are things with madge?"
"It's going great." He says and smiles." I'm going to ask her out on a date soon."
"That's good." I say and smile. I burst out crying because I remember when Peeta and I went out on our date." I miss him."
"You'll see him tomorrow at the bakery." He says.
I sniff and say," I hope."
"Today, he was yelling at glimmer. "He says.
"Why are you telling me this?" I ask.
"I thought it would make you feel better." He says and I smile abit." He was yelling all types of things at her. He made her cry."
"Good." I say." She's getting arrested."
"For what?" Gale asks shocked.
"Tracker jacker venom." I say in a cold voice and open up another chocolate bar.
"She deserves it." Gale says.
"She does." I mutter." I never want to see her ever again."
"Doesn't everyone." he says and I smile abit." So what are you doing here?"
"I just came here." I say.
"This place helps me think sometimes." he says.
"Me too. It's so relaxing." I say and he nods.
"I need to go Kat, see you later." He says.
"Bye gale." I say and he waves before he takes off to Greasy Sae's.
I sit there and continue to eat chocolate bars until I fall asleep.
I wake up and hear birds chirping. I look around me and see that I'm in the meadow. I sigh and I grab a chocolate bar and start to eat it. I sit there for a while and head home. I pass by Peeta's house and it's just silent. I go into my house and see that it's 10:00. I was supposed to be at work hours ago.
"Shit!" I mutter and start to change. I don't have time for a shower. I change and brush my teeth. I take more chocolate bars with me and run out the house. I run all the way to the Mellark bakery, while braiding my hair. When I get there I see that Mr. Mellark is working the register.
"I'm so sorry, I-" I begin.
"It's fine Katniss. Just clock in." He says and gives me a small smile.
"Thank you so much." I say and go to the back. Peeta's at school, but rye and wheat are here.
"Hey Kat." Wheat says and smirks.
"Hey wheat." I say confused.
I go to the back and clock myself in. I go work the register and start stuffing myself with chocolate bars as I help customers. By the time It's lunch I ran out of chocolate bars.
"Just my luck." I say. I need to go home for more bars.
"What's wrong?" Rye asks and smirks as he leans against the counter.
"I ran out of chocolate bars, I'm going to go home and grab some." I say and he yells.
"No!" He says.
"Why the hell not?" I ask.
"Because, because, there's a burglar." He says.
"Whatever." I say and leave the bakery. I walk home and when I'm in front of the house I see Finnick's car is parked in front of my house.
I hear my dad and uncle talking to someone.
"Dad why is Finnick's car parked out front?" I ask and walk into the house. I see that him and my uncle are playing chess or something.
"I'm fixing the car." He says.
" Ok." I say abit unsure." I'm going to grab more chocolate bars."
"You can't!" He yells.
"Why not?" I ask abit angry.
"They're not healthy." He says and I see he's trying to hide something.
"You're hiding something." I say and run up the stairs.
"Katniss, don't go up there." He chases me. I go into my room and see that there's nothing.
"You're crazy." I say and shake my head. I walk over to my bed and grab more chocolate bars." Screw this, I'm taking the whole thing."
"Shouldn't you eat something else other than-" My dad begins.
"This helps call me down." I say and out as many chocolate bars I can into my bag. I grab another bag and put the rest of them in there." I need to go my break is almost over."
"You're going to get sick Katniss." He says.
"Don't care." I say and shrug my shoulders. I walk and accidentally trip on something. I see that It's the stuffed bear peeta gave me one our first date. My dad was in here.
"We're you in my room?" I ask abit angry.
"No." He says.
"Don't lie to me!" I yell and tears stream down my cheeks." Don't touch this, EVER, do you hear me!"
"Katniss, I wasn't in here." He says. He's a horrible liar just like me.
"Just, don't let anyone touch anything." I say and wipe my tears. I put the bear back where was and I break down into tears.
"Don't cry." My dad says and hugs me.
"Do you honestly think I would be crying right now If I had the power to not cry." I say abit angry and continue to cry.
"I'm sorry." He says and kisses my fore head.
"It's fine." I mutter and wipe my tears angry." I might get to the bakery an hour late."
"What why?" He asks and I see panic.
"Are you trying to get rid of me?" I ask in disbelief.
"No- yes." He says.
"Why?" I ask.
"He has a date sweetheart, I'm training him to say the right things." My uncle Haymitch says.
"Ok." I say and open a box of chocolates." Good luck with your date, don't get her knocked up."
"Katniss." he says and I hear snickers in the closet.
"Is that her?" I ask and I hear the snickers stop.
"No, don't go in there." He says and blocks the door.
"I just want to meet her." I say annoyed. I Shove chocolates in my mouth and put on a pair of sunglasses." I'm leaving."
"Bye." He says.
"Bye." I say and I walk out the house. I begin to walk and I see the side of the house. I start to cry because I remember that Peeta and I were kissing there. I cry and continue to eat chocolates. I finished the whole box when I get to the bakery. I cry and start to eat another chocolate as I go behind the register. I turn around and remember when Peeta spinned me around. I start crying and fall on my knees. I continue to eat my chocolate though. It doesn't make me feel better, I deserve to it all and get fat!
"Are you ok?" I hear a customer ask.
"I'm sorry, I'm fine." I say and wipe my tears.
I get up and see that it's Cato from school.
"what can I do for you?" I ask and bite into my chocolate.
"Can I get five cheese buns please." He says and I try not to cry.
"Ok." I say and he hands me the money. I put it in his register and get the cheese buns. Once I hand it to him he leaves and says," Are you sure your ok?"
"Yes." I say and when he leaves I start crying really loud." Dumb shit!"
I grab a big box of chocolates out of my bag and open the box. I stuff myself with them and cry at the same time.
"Katniss, do you need the day off?" Mr. Mellark asks.
"Yes." I say and cry.
"Ok, go ahead." He says." I'll clock you out."
"Thank you." I say and grab my bags filled with chocolate.
I carry the big box of chocolates with one arm and stuff myself with them as I walk tot he meadow. I pass by peeta's house and I cry harder. I nearly take off running but the bags slow me down. I reach the meadow and I sit on the same spot as yesterday. I cry again and again until I hear a growl.
I see that a wild mutt comes at me but I don't feel like moving.
"GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME!" I yell and throw the box at it. It whimpers and It takes off running at a different direction.
I start to sob and go to sleep holding onto my bags of chocolate. I'm a mess.
When I wake up I see that I'm still in the meadow and It seems a little later. I open up my bag and start to eat chocolate. When I get home I see that my dad has a nervous look on his face.
I check the clock and see that It's 4:02.
"I'm going to bed." I tell him and he nods. I go into my bedroom and see a large stuffed animal and It has a card. I grab the car and it says:
Can we talk? You don't have to if you don't want to. Meet me at the meadow at 5:00 p.m. today.
-Peeta
I start crying and I hug the stuffed animal. It smells just like peeta. I cry harder and I hug the stuffed animal. I wipe my tears and hop into the shower. I'm sweaty and sticky.
I don't know how long I sit there but I get up when I felt like It's been long enough. I get out and change. I braid my hair and grab my bag of chocolates.
I check the clock and see that It's 5:01. I'm late. I take off running and don't stop until I get to the meadow. When I get there I see that he's not there. My eyes start to water and I burst out crying. I screwed this up again! He thinks I hate him now! I take out a chocolate bar and start to eat it.
"Screw my fucking life." I say and eat the last of the bar. I start crying and curl up into a ball." I'm sorry peeta."
Peeta's POV
I check my watch and see that It's 5:10. She's not coming. I start to cry and get up. I walk all the way home and start to sob violently. When I get to my room I see that all of the guys are waiting for me to tell them good news but I don't. I just start crying and say," She didn't show up, she hates me."
"What!" Finnick says angry. He leaves the room and I hear him marching downstairs.
Katniss hates me.
Katniss's POV
I stay in the same spot and eat the rest of my chocolate bars. I suddenly feel my stomach turn and I throw up. When I'm done, I get my bag filled with wrappers and boxes, and take off to my house. I start feeling sick as I run but I make it to the house and throw up in the trash can.
"Katniss, what's wrong?" My dad asks.
"She ate too much chocolate." Prim says and I throw up some more.
"My throw up is better looking than hers." I hear my Uncle say. ( Author's Note: I don't know about you guys but when I was typing this I found this funny, and I couldn't stop laughing.)
When I'm done throwing up, I have a lot of energy.
"Go lie down Katniss." Prim says.
"I can't, I want to go out for a run." I say.
"Katniss, you're just going to end up throwing up some more." Prim says.
"I'll just run in my room." I say and run up the stairs. I go up the stairs and feel full of energy and sadness. I screwed up.
I turn on my radio and I run around the room and cry my eyes out. I run to the restroom and throw up once more, before I pass out.
Author's Note: Don't freak out! Next chapter everything will get better, I swear! Please review and I promise to make the next chapter 10,000 words if I get more than ten reviews. I probably won't update tomorrow, but I will either Saturday or Sunday.
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