A week and a half since that day, and I'm learning to face the fact that Thomas isn't dead. He's been on television lately almost everyday. I can't watch him. It makes me sick to hear his voice. Derek holds me every night even when I freak out on him. Every time I do freak out though he is there and he asks me to tell him a story about Sadie. I've been drawing her lately too. In more detail. I also drew JJ's baby some more. He is little and adorable. For some reason though, when she has him we're not our age. We're in our thirties or forties. I don't understand it though. JJ looks like she's about to pop. She's roughly nine months now. She still has a few weeks to go. We're all so excited for the arrival of the little monkey.

I go down the stairs and see JJ standing in the kitchen. She made us breakfast. Her hand goes to her stomach and she cringes a bit. "JJ? You okay?" I ask her. She smiles and nods.

"It's nothing. He keeps rolling a certain way. My little soccer star." she says looking at her stomach. She gives me some toast and I bite into it. We have school today. I don't want to go. I never want to go, but I feel so unsafe there. I feel like when I walk to my car some one is watching me. I keep waiting for the day I see him. When we all go to school first block is fine. We continue to head around the school. Kids are saying we have an assembly at fifth block today. Some official guy. I don't know. Derek and I cuddle in our seats during third because we have a substitute and she's too busy trying get that other kid too stop talking. I lean against Derek and kiss his neck. He looks down at me and smiles. I see JJ in front of us, and she grabs her stomach again. I lean over.

"Jayjie? That's the second time that has happened today. Are you sure you're okay?" I ask her. She nods, and goes back to working. When fifth block comes around we all get settled into our gym. I lean against Derek. JJ does the same thing to Will. Penelope leans in from behind us, and Spence is between all of us.

"So who is this guy?" JJ asks everyone. We shrug.

"I hear he's some oober impressive whatchyamacall it. Talk to us about voting and about careers. Not like we haven't heard all this annoying mumbo jumbo anyways." The lights in the school dim a tiny bit, and we see a guy walk out. He's wearing a suit, and I roll my eyes. I cuddle close to Derek, and try to sleep.

"Hello!" he says in a cheery voice. My eyes snap open and I look at the man at the podium.

"No.." I whisper the tears starting to fall.

"I am Thomas Hayes here. I am here to talk to you about politics." he says. Everyone in my group turns to me. I stand up, and run as fast as I can out of the gym. Several teachers chase me, along with Derek. I curl against the door, and my head starts to hurt again. I don't want to be here with him. I rock back and forth and a few of my teachers approach me. Derek wraps his arms around me.

"Th-th-that's...h-hi-him." I manage. Derek looks at me in shock. The rest of my family is here now. Every one is just staring at me. Derek stands, and goes to go inside but Will stops him. JJ sits next to me.

"Emily...do you want to go home?" I nod. She winces again.

"Emily? Are you okay dear? What's wrong?" my biology teacher asks me. She's really nice and she cares a lot.

"She has history with that man in there." Will says angrily.

"I wanna kill him." Derek says. Two more teachers hold Derek back. "Emily why don't you say anything about it?" I look at them. The teachers are looking at me. I don't wanna talk about it.

"I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!" I yell. "That man is lower than the scum of the Earth! He should be dead for what he did but I can't change that! What happens if I come forward now? Huh?!" I ask them yelling. "Do I get closure?! NO! NO I DON'T! He get's away! He gets away with it because he is a fucking politician. When I come forward...it'll be...a political stunt set up by my mother. It will be...they'll ask me why I've waited this long to come forward. What do I do then? Say he's a big and powerful man and I was scared!? Is that what I say! I can't say that though...Prentiss' aren't weak. Neither are Rossi's. I am ashamed that I could never...that I couldn't stop him from...that I let him..." the teachers in the room look in horror. They're putting the pieces together.

"GUYS!" JJ yells holding onto her stomach. "My water just broke." she says worried. Will looks at her with wide eyes, but is by her side in a second. The baby is coming. One of the teachers runs to call the ambulance. I go to JJ and I wrap my arms around her to help her.

"I asked you if you were okay JJ!" I tell her still crying about my problem. I wipe my tears away. I can't care about that son of a bitch in another room. The ambulance is on it's way and I hear the students clapping. Just then the doors open and he walks out. Everybody looks at him. He stares at me and gets that grin on his face. I turn away, and hold onto JJ.

"What's going on here? Is she okay?" he asks walking up to JJ. Will raises his hand, and punches him in the face.

"Get the fuck away from the both of them pervert." he says. He looks back up at me with fury in his eyes.

"I didn't tell on you. I'm not pressing charges. I told my family. I can't...they aren't going to say anything I swear don't hurt me again." I say falling to my knees and begging him not to hurt them. He looks around in a panic. He reaches down and grabs my arm. Derek runs, and grabs me instead. He looks at Derek and scoffs.

"Emily. I need to talk to you in private sweetie." he says to me in that charming voice he uses. His politician voice.

"Don't hurt them." I whisper. He shakes his head no.

"I would never Emiline." he says with a glint in his eye. He runs a hand over my face, and it's so scary.

"She can't go with you." JJ exclaims. I turn away.

"Just let me go. Then we'll be safe." I say looking at her.

"I can't let you go with him Emily. I can't. That's against everything I stand for." Thomas turns around and looks at her. "I'm calling the police too." she says proudly.

"Stop! stop!" I tell her. Some teachers have gotten behind Derek and have started holding Derek back because he looks like he's getting ready to kill Thomas for touching me. Thomas reaches down and picks me up. Some teachers try to prevent it but it's no use.

"You always were a little whore weren't you." he whispers. My lip trembles, and he grabs my arm again.

"LET GO OF HER YOU SON OF A BITCH!" Derek yells.

"Look in one minute exactly those kids will be coming out of the gym. I suggest you go to a room while we call the police. Agent Rossi of the BAU has been notified that you have his daughter." another teacher says. I don't know who it is because Thomas is getting angry. He stares into my eyes, and I can't breathe. He looks so mad.

"You did this! You little bitch! You did this! I had everything! Why couldn't you just keep that slutty mouth of yours shut." he says advancing on me. I hear the sirens. JJ let's out a scream from a contraction. He grabs me by my hair and slams me down to the ground. I let out a cry, and two teachers approach. One of them lets Derek go, and Derek punches Thomas. It takes a bit to get Derek off of Thomas. Thomas cringes and reaches to his pocket. He pulls out a gun and shakes his head. "You shouldn't have done this Emiline. Why do you always have to fuck everything up?" he asks me. I turn to JJ. The paramedics are outside. "Everyone out! Everyone except my little Emily." he says. No one moves.

"Will get JJ out of here!" Derek says. Will nods, and they move JJ out. Then Derek stands tall, and continues. "I'm not going anywhere you son of a bitch. I'm going to stay right here and wait for David and Erin to come. When they do they will blow your fucking brains out." he tells Thomas. I stay down and hide my face. Thomas stands above me. I need him to go away. I need him to leave.

"They won't kill me. Not when I have his beautiful little girl." he says picking me up and pulling me against him. I need to throw up. David shows up and enters the building.

"I'm FBI Supervisory Special Agent David Rossi. Everyone out. Derek leave." he says. I look at him and cry.

"Daddy." I whimper. Thomas holds me tighter. Thomas holds the gun to my head.

"Look no matter how much I want to kill you I can't. I need you to put Emily down Thomas." he says. "I've got you Bella. He can't hurt you."

"Let go of SSA Prentiss and we'll work this out." David says.

"The doors to the gym are locked and the children have been evacuated another way out of the gym. JJ is being taken to the hospital. Let Emily go."

"Let Agent Prentiss go!"

It's the same voice. My head hurts, and I don't know what to do. Why am I hearing these words? Why do I feel like this has happened before?

"I can't! I want her!" he yells. "She's mine."

"Thomas. There's no way out. Just give me Emily and we can talk about this!" David says. Thomas moves a bit to his left, and I go a bit to my right.

Shots ring out and everything goes black.


"Agent Prentiss! Can you hear me?!" the doctor says. I'm not an agent yet.

"Emily! Stay with us. We've got you Emily." Derek says beside me. He's holding my hand and running with me.

"Emily! I need you. Sadie needs you. Dylan needs you. Stay with us." the lights keep moving and I can barely keep my eyes open. I can't breathe.

"Emily. I got you baby. Stay with us." Derek is his teenage self again. Not the man he has become. He's still running though. I don't know what to do.

"Agent we're almost there. We're getting you into surgery now."

"Emily they're taking you to surgery. We'll be waiting." younger Derek says. When I'm on the table I can hear the voices of my loved ones. They sound older though.

"Emily...we need you to come back. Come back home." JJ whispers.

"I can't do this without you. You're like the older sister I never had. Sadie needs you Emily. Your family needs you. I need you Emily. You have to come back to us." Spence recites. He isn't that little boy anymore. He's a man.

"Mommy! Wake up mommy! I need you to come home so we can be a family!" Sadie says in her cute adorable voice. "Mommy! I need you to sing the thunder song, and Stevie to me so the monsters don't come." Sadie says. It sounds like she's crying. Why is she crying?

"Baby...I can't do this without you. Dylan and Sadie miss you. I need to see your beautiful eyes one more time. I need you Emily. I need to look at my wife." Derek says. "I need to touch you again. I need you Emily. Come home."

When I open my eyes all the doctors aren't around me. Derek walks in and smiles. "I just went to get you some jello princess." he says with a smile.

"Thomas is dead. You got shot in the head. The doctors saved you. It grazed you." he says with a smile. "You're gonna be okay." he smiles. I smile too.

"Wanna see the baby?" he asks me. My mouth opens, and I smile. I nod. He helps me into a wheelchair, and rolls me to JJ's room.

"Emily!" she yells. She's got a bundle of blue in her arms. "You're okay." she says with tears. My family embraces me and I hug them back.

"Come home Emily." Will whispers. "Jay's been a wreck with out you here." he says. "Henry has been too. He keeps asking me why his Aunt Emily can't come over and play with him. It's hard to tell him that it's because she can't wake up."

I wish the voices would go away. They are talking to me, but my head ache is so bad. None of this feels real anymore. Maybe I have lost my mind.

"He looks just like Will." Penelope says. "It's my job as fairy godmother to spoil this child!"

"I'm Henry's godfather." Spence says.

"We named him Henry. Henry La Montagne." JJ says with a proud smile. Henry. How did I know that? I smile at them and JJ gives me a look. "Wanna hold him?" she asks. I smile at her, and nod.

"Yeah..." I say with tears in my eyes. JJ puts him in my arms and I gasp. He looks just like the drawing I drew. Exactly like it. He squirms in my arms and I smile. Everything feels like deja-vu. I stare at the baby before me, and everything is all so confusing. I hold onto him, and they all smile.


A week or two has gone by and I don't talk much after what has happened. We were all over the news. I don't even want to think about that day. I keep hearing the voices in my head though. I think I've gone crazy. I start to draw everything. Everything I see from my Dreams. I don't even know if they are dreams anymore. They feel like memories. I swear the other day I thought Derek looked at me and asked me why I hadn't come home yet. I don't understand why I'm hearing these things. Derek loves on me a lot. The only comfort I get is when I watch the baby while JJ sleeps. I sing to Henry sometimes. It gives me comfort. Seems to calm him too.

"Emily? You okay?" Derek asks me. I turn to him, and smile. I want to tell him about the other life but I can't. He'll think I'm crazy. Somehow I've managed to stay in that day. The gun to my head. Thomas' arms around me. Brave . I don't understand it. I lock myself in my room a lot. Paint for hours. Listen to Stevie. I haven't touched my guitar since the beach.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just thinking." I say. I wrap my arms around him. He does the same to me.

"I miss you." he says. I look up at him in fear that I'm hearing things. "You don't talk anymore. I feel like I've lost you." he says. I look down at my hands. No. This is the real Derek. I lean up and I kiss him. He kisses me back with so much passion.

"I love you." I say. "I know...I know I've been distant I just...I think I'm going crazy." I say with a small teary eyed laugh. I put my face in my hands and I sit down. "I keep hearing voices." I say my voice cracking. "It's you guys. You keeps telling me to come home, and I don't know where that is anymore." I tell him. He looks at me in worry. He takes my hand and turns me around.

"You are home. Home is with me." he says leaning in. He reaches for the bottom of my shirt and kisses me hard. I let him strip me of it.

"Derek. Do you want to come in?" I ask him with a slight blush on my face. "I know it's only the second date bu-" I'm cut off by a set of lips on mine.

"I'd love too." he says.

Derek climbs on top of my half naked body. Our lips don't detach. It's so...the correct word is desperate. We're clinging onto each other like this is the last time we'll ever make love. Maybe it is. He moves along my body like an expert. He knows every place to touch. He knows every place to kiss. He's mine forever. I feel the tears falling and I don't know why. Maybe because this time it's just...more emotional.

He moves against me in a fast wanting motion. Our lips are connected and I've wanted him for so long. He pops open my shirt. We break away for a minute and he runs a hand over where the scar is. The scar Ian left me with. Derek leans down and kisses it. "You're mine now. Not his." Derek whispers. He looks back at me with so much love in his eyes. I kiss him, and strip him down to his boxers.

Derek takes my bra off of me and kisses his way down my body. I hold onto his head and moan a bit. "I love you." he says.

"I love you too." I say, my voice cracking. He kisses me, and with one movement he's inside. I close my eyes for a minute and take the feel of him.

I'm doing this with him. After five years of watching him. Waiting for him he's inside of me. He looks down and stares into my eyes. I've been with a few men, and none of them has never looked at me that way. Never stared into my eyes. Never was this gentle. He had complete control over me and I didn't mind it.

I stare into Derek's loving eyes as he moves with me. I put a hand to kiss face, and breathe into his mouth. He starts to move faster but neither of us make a sound. I just stare at him. I love him. Right now we're connected in the most intimate way. Staring at each other. I don't think he used condoms. I don't care though.

He leans down to kiss me and I gladly kiss back. He moves and I let out soft moans. He isn't being like I thought it would be. I'm used to up against the wall hot sex. I'm not used to a man taking his time. Kissing every inch of my body. Exploring me. I've never felt that before.

"Derek." I whisper. He whispers my name back to me. I feel myself getting to that point, and I feel so good.

"Derek...Derek...oh..." I say as he moves faster.

When we both hit that high it's amazing. I feel him wrap around me and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. He's right...home is here. In his arms. I close my eyes, and I have another dream. This time though. This time it's different.

The lights are bright. Too bright. Derek is next to me looking at me with pain in his eyes. "I...Sadie has gone around the house singing since you left. She misses mommy's voice. I can't get her to sleep sometimes. I tell her that maybe the next day when she wakes up, mommy will wake up too. She keeps holding on. She prays every night for God to bring her mommy back. I...I pray too." he says in a sob. "I don't pray for anything, but I pray for you. It was my last resort, but I did it. I got down on my knees and I said a prayer for you. I prayed for you to come home to me. Walk through the door like you used too. Take Sadie in your arms, or Dylan. They both always want you. I can't do it alone Em. I need you to wake up. Leave what ever world you're in. I need you with me. They...I need you. We all need you. Come home, and be in my arms." I am in your arms Derek. Right now. We just made love. Why are you talking to me like I'm dead!? Why aren't you seventeen? Sadie and Dylan aren't real yet. I try to tell him but I can't. My mouth doesn't work.

When I wake up I look at Derek. He looks back at me, and smiles a bit. "I'm not real Emily. You're in a coma." Just then JJ appears too. She's holding Henry. Blonde haired blue eyed three year old Henry. Will is standing next to her.

"We understand that you have to leave. Things don't change when you leave here. We're all part of your imagination. You need to go home Bella." JJ says. Will smiles.

"Then we can smoke all the pot and sing all the songs we want Little Stevie." Will says. JJ hits him, and rolls her eyes. We both gave up on that shit, but one night we all went out and I can't remember how we got it but it was fun. David, Erin, and mother appear too.

"Emily. David and I love you so very much. We miss you." mother says.

"Mommy." I whisper.

"I love you too honey, and I need you to come home. I need you to enjoy the summer with us, and come to the Rossi house for cookouts. He's been so sad since you've been asleep. We just want you to wake up." Erin says with a motherly smile.

"Bella. I miss you so much. I need you to be home, safe. With your children. With the people you love. With the people who love you." David says starting to cry. I've never seen him cry. I am awake! I'm right here! Why aren't you all happy! Be happy! Just then Spencer appears, and Penelope.

"I know you're in there and we need you to come home! We need you here! With us! Come home." Penelope cries.

Spence just reads my favorite French poetry book to me. Every word. It's about coming home. Sadie appears too, as does Dylan. Even Hotch who I now recognize is there.

"I care for you a lot Emily. I sometimes feel the need to protect you as I would JJ or Derek or Spencer or Penelope. You are a part of my family. Jack misses you. Believe it or not you are like a sister to me. I've felt the need to protect you from harm when you were just a little girl at the embassy. Well...a young woman really. Off to college. You had a good head on your shoulders. It's my fault you're here and I apologize for that too. Come home. Love on your children. I know you want to Emily." he says. I remember him. Hotch. Hotch and Jack. I used to babysit Jack and Henry together sometimes. Jack had that cute toothless smile. I wanna see him. I see my family now. My real family. Derek is still sitting next to me. Now Sadie is there too. I'm not seventeen anymore. I'm 43. My daughter is sitting next to me and my son is too. Sadie sits on my lap and hugs me.

"Come home to me mommy." she says with tears. "I been fraid changin I wive my life around you." she sings softly crying.

Well, I've been afraid of changing

'Cause I've built my life around you

But time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And I'm getting older too

I hear Stevie singing and my eyes flutter open. "I'm getting older too." I sing roughly. I cough a bit and Sadie's face lights up.

"MOMMY! MOMMY! DADDY! DADDY! MOMMY IS AWAKE! SHE SANG ME STEVIE! MOMMY!" Sadie says starting to cry. She wraps her arms around me. Everything still feels so weird...it's all so confusing but...this is where I belong. With my little girl in my arms.