Co-written by Nothingtolose15 and phnxprncss.
Summary: Bella and Jasper Swan are sent to live with their father Charlie in Forks, Washington after the untimely death of their mother and stepfather. Neither of them had seen Charlie since they were 7 years old and Renee had cut off complete contact between the children and their father. Now here they are in a place they don't remember at all trying to get on with life. But to make matter's worst Bella Swan has not spoken a word since her mother and step-father's death. Will Jasper be able to protect his sister? Or will she have to go down her own road to find herself again?
Disclaimer: we do not own Twilight or any of its characters.
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I sat there quietly for a moment absorbing everything Jasper had just told me. The vulnerably in his voice, the pain, the heartbreak, he felt as if he was betraying his sister. I wanted to go over to his father's house and slap him, slap him for hiding this from Jasper and telling him and he didn't even want him. But Jasper had always told me he loved his mother and stepfather, if he had a chance to change it all would he? If his birth parents had not died would he have left the life he had grown to know for one that he did not? Leave Bella? Jasper was attached to his sister, no matter if there was a blood connection or not. I let out a soft sigh as I turned to look at him, he had his head buried into his hands trying not to sob. However he needed too, I wouldn't stop him. I wouldn't stop him from screaming and punching something, preferably Charlie.
I reached out and pushed back his hair which only caused him to look up at me. My heart instantly broke from the look on his face. He had gone to speak to Bella first, which I understood they were family. She had told him she did not care, that blood didn't change anything, and I believed that. Even though Carlisle and Esme were not in fact my actual parents that did not stop them from loving me and me from loving them. And to me they were my true parents.
"Jasper," I whispered softly as I inched over a little more toward him, "It's all right, I promise ..."
"I feel like I'm betraying Bella, and the memory of Renee and----"
"How? How would you betraying them? Your mother loved you! No matter if you were her son by blood or not. Bella loves you, you will always be her big brother no matter what. And as for Charlie, he is worthless and you should never listen to anything he says"
I sighed softly as I cupped his face and traced my thumb across his lips, "I just wish I could change the way you had to find out."
He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, "I just don't understand why they never told me."
Sighing again, I climbed into his lap and held him as tightly as my much smaller frame would allow. "I'm sure they had their reasons, Jas."
He stayed very still and quiet at first. It felt like several minutes had passed until he actually wrapped his arms around me when it was only mere seconds, "I guess you're right."
He nuzzled his face into my hair, "I can't doubt that they loved me because they always made sure Bella and I knew, even when we went through those whole 'I hate you' phases."
I looked him in the face and ran my small fingers through his out of control hair. From the looks of it he had been tugging on it for hours, "See, maybe they were waiting till your birthday. I mean, I know it's not a great present or anything but from what I've seen in movies and read and such people sometimes wait till their kids are of a certain age."
He nodded slowly, "Maybe, I guess I have to look at it this way. I'm glad that it was Renee that adopted me and not someone else."
"Exactly!" I smiled and kissed along his jaw, his body was still so tense, "you need to relax sweetie."
He groaned, "I can't I'm still all wound up."
I thought about that for a moment then looked at him with a smirk firmly in place on my face. "Would you like some help with that," I asked coyly, running my hands up his firm back and resting them on the back of his neck.
He stared at me for quite a while until he was able to speak, or maybe it was until slight realization dawned upon him, "Oh, um how?"
I took a deep breath, begging and pleading for my confidence not to abandon me in this moment, "Well ..." I let my fingers slide down Jasper's chest very slowly and hopefully somewhat seductively, "I think I might have an idea."
Jasper straightened up as he cleared his throat, "Umm, you do? W-what is that?"
"How about ..." I slipped off of his lap and got onto my knees in front of him. I placed my palms onto his thighs and pushed his legs apart, "how about I show you?" I so desperately hoped he did not freak out and push me away, the embarrassment would surely kill me.
Jasper's breathing began to become stronger, "Alice love, you don't have---"
I looked into his eyes and smiled sweetly, "I know, but I want too. No interruptions either this time."
I brought myself to my feet and went over and locked the bedroom door. There would definitely be no interruptions tonight, no matter what. I walked over to my CD player and pressed play, the soft sounds of Keane's 'Somewhere only we Know' flowed through my room as I turned back and faced my boyfriend. The confidence still pulsing through my veins.
But this times his eyes were no longer full of pain, but lust, lust for me.
I walked back over to him and knelt down, letting my hands travel up his legs to his thighs, until finally stopping on the zipper of his pants. I slowly pulled the zipper down and Jasper lifted his hips without me having to ask. It took seconds for both his pants and boxers to be removed from his body. Leaving me eye level with his very prominent erection. I let my hands return to their places on his thighs and began to rub back and forth taking a few deep breaths hoping that Jasper would enjoy what I was about to do. I let my hands delicately grasp him causing him to softly moan. We shared a brief glance with each other before I licked the tip of his penis, and then slowly taking it into my mouth.
I heard his sharp intake of breath as his feets fisted the sheets on either side of thighs. Peeking up at him through my eyelashes as I slowly twirled my tongue around his tip, I marveled at how absolutely gorgeous he was; unrestrained by the menial and mundane trials of life and just … letting go.
Jaspers' breathing became heavier with each passing moment. I wanted him to let go, I wanted all the stress in his body to just leave. I released one of my hands from his length and brought it down to massage his balls as I engulfed him once again into my mouth; trying to remember all the things Rose had told me to do.
Yes I had gone to Rose for advice because neither Bella or my mom would've been suitable choices.
"Alice," Jasper moaned softly, trying not to raise his voice. But I wanted him to, I wanted him to be loud. I almost wanted to tell him to let go that I had heard Bella being loud today, at least that's what I thought I heard. But that would have just made matters worse. His hands came up to get lost in my short hair, not much to grab onto really. "That feels—god!" He ground out through clenched teeth.
It didn't take too long for Jasper to cum and after all this time of constantly getting interrupted, it wasn't much of a surprise. After he got himself situated he pulled me into his lap and attached his lips to mine, "Your turn," he grinned.
I shook my head, "No, tonight is about you!"
"But sweetie--"
I placed my finger to his lip and shook my head, "But sweetie nothing it's all about you." I pressed a kiss to the tip of his nose, "How you feeling about everything?"
He shrugged his shoulders, "Still pretty confused, massive mindfuck you know. Do you think I would be able to talk to your dad?"
"Of course," I replied before giving him another kiss. "But, you might want to shower first, you know …"
Jasper chuckled and pressed a kiss to my lips, "What would I do without you?"
"hmm.." I light tapped my finger on my chin as if I was deep in thought, "Not be in love with the cutest girl ever?"
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While Jasper was in the shower, I decided to head downstairs to talk to my dad and give him a heads up on what was going on. I was pretty sure he wasn't home yet, but it wouldn't hurt for me to check. When I reached the kitchen, I realized how hungry I was and began making me a sandwich. As I was rummaging through the fridge searching for the cheese, I heard someone coming in the kitchen behind me. I paused in my searching and looked over my shoulder to find Bella fidgeting with her hands, hair a mess and completely flushed.
I tried to hide my smirk as I looked at her, I had a pretty good idea something had just happened between her and Edward, "Hey Bella …"
"H-Hi Alice," she reached up and tried to smooth down her hair.
"I d-didn't realize anyone would be down here ..." She chuckled nervously, "Which is dumb since it's your house and it's not that late and----"
"Bella you're rambling," I giggled as I walked back to the counter holding the package of cheese.
"oh I'm sorry…"I shook my head, "Don't be. I'm really happy you talk now and everything, I wasn't sure if I told you that. You want a sandwich?"
She shrugged and came closer to the counter, "I was going to grab some water. Edward fell asleep."
I nodded, "He tends to do that after any physical activity …" I cut myself off once I realized what I was saying and my hand automatically went to cover my mouth. I looked up at Bella to see her reaction and she looked like a dear caught in headlights. I hadn't meant to let it slip out that I had any inclination of what they'd been doing earlier. Oh God.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to say it like that …" I muttered through the hand clamped over my mouth.
"Apparently, my brain-mouth filter isn't working and well … that's none of my business anyway and I totally didn't mean to embarrass you and I won't say anything and …" I realized I was still mumbling into my hand and she probably couldn't understand a word I was saying.
I moved my hand away from my mouth and gave her a sheepish smile, "sorry."
"Don't be sorry, I knew you didn't mean it like that I just--" She groaned softly, "I mean I did come down here looking a little ... Out of sorts."
"Bella you don't have to explain anything--"
"No! I mean, we've become really good friends and friends talk about these thing, right?"
I scrunched up my nose at the thought of having that kind of conversation about my brother. "I guess that's true, but wouldn't it be a little awkward with you dating my brother and me dating your brother?" I asked, noticing again how her cheeks flamed red when she realized the truth behind my words.
"Yea, I guess that would be weird."
I shook my head and chuckled, "But we don't have to go into details if you want to talk …" I said as I patted the counter for her to sit down at one of the stools.
"You're happy right?" I asked as she took a seat at the counter.
"Mhmm. And you are right?"
I nodded, "Yes I love your brother very much, I just wish I could make him feel better at the moment."
Bella nodded and sighed softly, "Yeah, I think he'll be okay though, I know him. He'll find the good in the situation."
"I think he already has, you are the good. No matter if you guys are related by blood or not you will always be his little sister."
She smiled softly and nodded, "Exactly."
She looked like she wanted to ask me something else by all the fidgeting she was doing and the fact that her cheeks were about 15 shades of red.
"Just spit it out," I shot at her, turning around to put the cheese back in the fridge.
"I know that we – ummm – we said we wouldn't really ask about these type of things since we're dating each others' brothers and I don't want details or anything … But have you and Jasper – ummm – have you guys …" she took a deep breath and whispered, "had sex?"
"Oh" My eyes widened as the words sunk into my brain, "Oh! No, no we haven't. Have you and Edward?"
She began to blush more but shook her head, "No, but I eventually want to of course and … is that wrong?"
Who knew sweet little innocent Bella was thinking about having sex, with my brother no less. "No, why would it be?"
"Well," she took another deep breath and began to watch her run her fingers over the counter, "We're young and people wait till marriage a lot of the time, I think."
I couldn't help but giggle a little at that, but quickly stopped when I realized that she'd take it the wrong way. "No, Bells, not everyone waits until they're married."
"Oh."
"I don't really think anyone does that anymore … actually, I'm sure there probably are people that do … Ugh, Bells! Don't you watch movies? Basically most people in them have sex and aren't married." I said, slightly flustered with the line of questioning and that was so unlike me.
She shrugged still not looking up, "I know, I'm just shy about it."
I took a deep, reassuring breath, "I know I'm going to regret asking this but what have you and my brother done?"
I didn't think it were possible, but her face flushed an even deeper red as her eyes bounced all over the room never once looking at me. She kept opening her mouth as if she wanted to say something, but closing it almost immediately, giving her the appearance of a fish out of water.
I sighed deeply and reached my hand over the table, grabbing her chin and turning her face towards mine. "Bells, it's just me and you talking here. I'm not going to judge you or make fun of you. You know you can talk to me, right?"
She nodded her head, "I know."
"Okay, now answer my question!" I said with a chuckle as I released my grip on her face.
"Well," she looked down at her hands as she began to fidget with them in her lap, "he fingered me." She made sure to whisper the word 'fingered'. "And I don't really know what exactly to refer to it as that doesn't make it sound so crude--" she groaned.
"Maybe if you told me what," I cringed at the thought of what I was about to say, "body parts it involved, I could, uh, tell you what it's called."
"Oh okay," she responded, now tapping her fingers against the countertop and biting the inside of her cheek. "He, uh -- he used his mouth."
Oh yeah that was definitely not a picture I wanted in my head, because as soon as she said it I knew what she meant. Edward had gone down on her and I definitely did not want to picture his head between Bella's legs. I shook my head at the thought, "I see. Well, did you enjoy it?"
Bella's cheeks were on fire, "Oh god yes!" She clamped her hand over her mouth, obviously not realizing how quick she blurted it out.
I couldn't help the giggles that escaped me at the mortified look on her face. "It's okay, Bells, I'm sure Edward would be, uh, pleased with your enthusiastic response. But, do you mind if we change the topic, this is kind of weirding me out."
"Of course! Of course!" she giggled along with me, "Where's my brother?"
"Shower. Then he was going to talk to my dad. I think he's doing better though. He seemed a lot less stressed out then when he first got home."
She raised her eyebrow but didn't say anything. "That's good. I kind of had an idea and I was wondering if maybe you could help me with it?"
I looked at her motioning for her to continue, "I wanted to make something for Jasper. Maybe like a scrapbook of us growing up with my mom and Phil to show him no matter what we were always his family."
"That's a really sweet idea Bella, I'd be glad to help."
"Bells?" a groggy voice came from outside the kitchen. My brother had apparently woken up, "There you are." He was yawning into his hand as he dug his other hand into his sweatshirt pocket, "I'm sorry, I dozed off."
Again, I chuckled to myself as I made my way into the living room, leaving the two lovebirds to their own devices.
"Understandable, Edward, you are lazy." I giggled and stuck my tongue out at my brother as I took a bite of my sandwich.
He rolled his eyes at me and walked over to Bella, wrapping his arms around her waist, "You want to sleep or watch a movie or something else?" He asked, pressing a kiss to her forehead before resting his head on her shoulder.
"I'm not sure, we can watch another movie and fall asleep? Or we can just go to sleep?"
I shook my head, laughing at her, "Bella you just restated the question back to him."
The three of us ended up talking for a few minutes, just being comfortable and laughing. Jasper eventually came into the kitchen, fresh out of his talk with my father. He looked almost confused, "Everything okay?"
He nodded and went over to the fridge and grabbed himself a soda, "Yeah, talking to your dad made things better I think. He got a weird phone call though and he looked like something happened so I left him alone."
"What was he saying?" I asked, concerned for what may have happened with my dad.
"I'm not sure, I was trying not to eavesdrop on his phone call. He sounded upset though and he was arguing with whoever was on the phone, but in whispers. So, I just walked out." He replied, stealing what was left of my sandwich and stuffing it in his mouth.
Edward caught my eye and I noticed that he look as confused as I felt. Carlisle didn't get upset often and only argued with people if it were absolutely prudent. Whatever that phone call had been about couldn't be good at all. Though, I was sure that if it concerned the family, he would tell us eventually. I couldn't imagine what the problem could be though. There weren't many people that my parents didn't get along with. Actually, there was really only one person that they didn't get along with and that was Charlie.
At this thought, I blanched and turned my horror stricken eyes towards Edward. There was no way that he could've been talking Charlie. None. He hadn't been in contact with any of us since the night of the dance, except for what had happened between him and Jasper. Maybe this was about this adoption thing? My thoughts were really starting to give me a headache so I rested my head on the counter, trying to keep my breathing stable.
"Alice sweetheart, are you okay?" Jasper's hand was instantly on my back rubbing soothing circles.
I nodded lifted my head to meet his gaze, he didn't look worried at all, perhaps it really wasn't Charlie. Maybe it was something to do with work, "Did you hear any of the conversation? Did it sound like he knew the person calling?"
Jasper raised his eyebrow at my sudden questions, he probably didn't understand why I needed or wanted to know, "I don't think so, all I heard him say was 'Yes this is Dr. Carlisle Cullen..' but then it was all whispered. Why Alice?"
I let out a sigh of relief. If he was confirming that he was in fact 'Dr. Carlisle Cullen' then it couldn't have been Charlie.
"Nothing baby, I'm just tired." I said, smiling at him before turning back towards Edward and Bella. "Do you guys want to hang out for awhile longer and talk?"
Bella and Edward both glanced at each other, "I think we're going to head to bed, Chewy likes to wake us up early. Tomorrow do you guys want to something?" Edward asked as he helped Bella to her feet and wrapped a protective arm around her waist.
Jasper sighed sadly, "I ruined the whole camping trip idea guys, I'm really sorry." He leaned on the counter next to me and dropped his head in exasperation.
"Dude, don't think that. You didn't ruin anything. We can go camping another time, when it's warmer too." Edward said reassuringly.
"Yeah, warmers always better!" I said with an enthusiastic smile as Jasper lifted his head and looked at us.
"But, we do go back to school in a couple days so how about we take a little road trip somewhere? Seattle for the day or something? I mean there are touristy type attractions we can do. I don't want to make you guys go shopping again, even though I really like being able to shop now that I have shopping partners."
"That sounds good," Edward responded, "we can talk about it more in the morning with Emmett and Rose and figure things out from there."I nodded in affirmation and we all left the kitchen to head to our respective rooms, Jasper lagging just a little behind the rest of us. Once we got to our room we slipped into our bed and under the covers. Not saying anything, just holding one another in the stillness of the night. Just as I was about to fully submerge into slumber I swore I heard Jasper whisper, "I love you Alice, always!"
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A/N: Phew! That sure took us long enough, huh? Okay so … I (phnxprncss) feel like I owe you all an apology and an explanation. We could've and would've gotten this chapter out much, much sooner. Unfortunately, I got sick and being so close to my due date … and working my butt off finish various contest entries, I've been a bit distracted.
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