Guinevere
Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, I can't believe Arthur, I'm the one having the baby and he's just having himself a nap.
The door opened and the twins came into the room, they looked at their father then to me and Amhar takes my hand and leads me over to sit at the table while Melanie goes and tries to wake up her father.
I can't believe I'm getting help from my seven year olds. I already knew that even though my water had broken it still may take some time.
"Daddy it's time to get up mummy needs you." Melanie said as she splashed Arthur with water, the door opened again and Merlin and Freya came in followed by the others and finally Arthur started to come around.
"What's going on?" Arthur said still trying to fully come around.
"Well since you were found on the ground, Gwen either knocked you out or you passed out." Merlin said.
"Shit Guinevere." He came over to me and grabbed my head and finally Arthur my king was back.
"Okay Guinevere did you already call the midwife?" I nodded my head
"Good, now let's get you out of these clothes, everyone you remember the breathing that midwife had us all practice we must keep Guinevere in a good place so the baby can come into the world peacefully. Morgana did you bring you guitars?"
"Yes Arthur I brought all of them." After running down the whole birthday plan it was time for me and Arthur to change and by the time the midwife was here the girls were playing some of my favorite songs and everyone was taking turns with helping me breathe but soon it became too much.
I was ready to get this baby out of me, in a way I'm so thankful that I didn't have to do this with the twins and I don't think I would ever do it again I would be happy with three.
The midwife told us that it was time and Elyan and the other men left the room while the girls and Arthur stayed with me.
Arthur then took off my gown and sat behind me it was going to be flesh on flesh my back to Arthur's chest it was now time for me to start pushing.
Arthur
I couldn't believe that I passed out I don't know what was wrong with me but I knew I would never leave it down, especially from Merlin damn.
But now it wasn't about me it was about making sure my wife and baby were safe, it was Guinevere who had read online and talked with her OB about doing a home birth didn't see why not she would just have to be careful because of the scar the she had from her C-section.
She gave us a number for one of the best midwife in Camelot, I was still not for sure if this was such a good idea at least in the hospital they had medicine and Guinevere responded.
"Arthur, there's no way I'm giving my baby drugs, the only time that would be an option is if something goes wrong and it won't."
So we went with a birthing plan that worked for us she wanted all of our friends around us and have music playing so it can help with the contractions.
The major thing I wasn't too keen on was her being naked in front of everyone so we agreed just me and the girls would be in there when it was time for her to start pushing.
Flesh on Flesh which was, I would be behind Guinevere with my shirt off while she was naked it was supposed to take my energy and Guinevere's and give it to our baby very hippie like I know.
"Alright Gwen you're fully dilated now start pushing, bare down." I held onto her hands so they could keep her knees apart."
"Guinevere you can scream if you like I know it must hurt." I said
"Ha what would you know about it Arthur? You got to do the easy part of knocking me up and no I won't scream my baby would enter this new world hearing me scream just tell me a story."
"A story?" I said to her as she started pushing again but she stop so is could catch her breath.
"Yes make it I nice one." I didn't know of any stories that's why I never told the twins a bedtime story if it didn't come in a book then forget it. I was never really good about making things up, but I would try for her I wiped the sweat off her forehead.
"I never told you when I first fell in love with you did I?"
"No"
"I remember before everything went wrong with Morgana she asked my father if you could also join in the royal ball and at first Uther said no he wouldn't have a servant taint our festivities, but Morgana convinced him anyway when he finally agreed to it he was rude about it like always. He said stuff like, "Just make sure the servant takes a bath and doesn't wear some rag dress." I was pissed but I held my tongue I knew if I would've spoke up for you he would have find out and we both agreed not to tell anyone. So I volunteered to help Morgana find you a gown not let you wear of hers I wanted to see you in something of your own so I told her I would have one made for you and she'll tell you that it was one of hers.
"It was you that had me wear that dress?" Guinevere asked breathing hard
"Yes it was and when you found out that Morgana asked Uther to allow you to attend and not serve I knew you wouldn't go because you thought we still couldn't even be around each other."
"But I still went after Morgana begged me to."
"And you looked beautiful in your dark purple dress that was off the shoulder. When you walked up to me and my father and bowed with Morgana by your side it wasn't just me who was stung into shock, so was my father."
"Really Uther was speechless? Oh Arthur I don't want to do this anymore I so tired." She said as the midwife told her to stop pushing for a second I ignored her and continued on with my story.
"When the noble men came up to you and Morgana and asked you to dance I was furious, I mean how dare they! Didn't they know you were already taken, and I didn't even know you knew how to dance, you danced so gracefully."
"My father taught me and Elyan but when Elyan left I asked Merlin to practice with me, he's not so bad either with dancing."
"I see, anyways I couldn't take it anymore so after my forced dance with some young lady of the court. I finally made my way to you, I wanted to have you in my arms even if it was just for a dance I still wanted you with me. But another man was walking over to you the same time I was and Merlin walked passed me with a pitcher of wine, and spilled it on the other guy. "Oh my apologies I'm so clumsy." Merlin had said at first I thought he was just being clumsy but I think he knew if you had to choose between the two of us you wouldn't have chosen me out of fear of my father."
"You are probably right it's a good thing that Merlin was there."
"So I finally had this chance and I said to you."
"You said milady would you do me the honor of having this dance with me." She said with a smile.
"Yes that's what I said to you, and I felt like everyone in the room had disappeared it wasn't the prince and the servant girl it was Arthur and Guinevere and I knew right there and then I would love you forever and I knew this love would hurt in both painful and good ways."
"Okay Gwen dear you've got to give it one big push so you can see your baby." I had forgotten that there were people in the room oh well I can't worry about that now.
"Guinevere one more push my love you can do it."
"No I can't I'm not strong enough."
"Guinevere, you're the strongest person I've ever met you are not a coward it's not in your blood or else I could never love you so much now come Gwen bring my baby into the world."
"Oh so now I'm Gwen."
"Yes because I'm starting to get mad at you." I kissed the side of her head.
She took a deep breath and the midwife said she saw that the head and shoulders were out so only one more time to push and Guinevere let go of my hands and reached down between her legs and pulled the baby out the rest of the way. We had another little girl and she was beautiful.
"Hello baby, welcome I can't wait to be your mum." Guinevere said as she kissed our daughters hand. She then passed the baby to me because she had to push again for the after birth, the girls stopped playing a long time ago and were crying and came over to me and Guinevere Morgana came up to me and hugged me.
"Well done Gwen now I need to take her for minute."
"She's alright?" I asked the midwife.
"Yes your majesty she is." I stepped out of the room so I could tell everyone that we have a girl and both of them are doing great, Morgana, Freya and Mithian stayed behind so they could get Guinevere cleaned and dressed.
"We have another girl Lucille Morgan Pendragon."
"Yay we have a little sister." Amhar and Melanie said.
We all walked into the room, the twins and I joined Guinevere back on the bed and we kissed on the lips. Everyone took turns holding Lucille and then it was just me and my family.
"We'll come back tomorrow." Merlin said
Guinevere was breastfeeding and singing softly to the baby while the twins slept in the bed I couldn't take my eyes off of Guinevere.
"Look at her Arthur she's so wise, she'll be strong I hope her eyes stay blue like yours I don't want them to change."
She covered herself up and cradled the baby between us, I made sure that that everyone had enough blanket I kissed Guinevere one more time before we fell asleep.
"Thank you Guinevere for my babies I love you so much."
"I love you."
Guinevere
Lucille was now six months old and she just learned how to roll over.
Amhar and Melanie went to the same private school as Anna and Ian they'd both begged Arthur and I to send them to real school because they were both homeschooled.
We wanted them to have some kind of normalcy. It was a Saturday so the entire gang was with us at the palaces.
Arthur had decided to include the whole gang into family day Gaius was also here. But then it was just me and Arthur and Merlin walking together and talking about the past and all the adventure the three of us had together.
"I just wanted to say thank you to the both of you." Arthur had said to us.
"For what?" Merlin said
"If it wasn't for you and Guinevere this would never be, I wouldn't have my wife or my children, Morgana would never get her redemption and Freya would've still been in Avalon with me, so just accept my thank you."
"I did this for Gwen she needed this and by the look of things everything turned out right."
Arthur pulled Merlin in for a hug and first Merlin didn't return it or do anything but then he hugged Arthur back.
"There's no need for thanks this is what best mates are supposed to do."
"Best mates no Merlin that would not do you are my brother." Arthur said
"Hey you two I'm starting to feel neglected." I swiftly Merlin pulled me into a group hug.
These were the two men that I loved in different ways I couldn't see my life without either of them being a part of it. Then I heard Freya say that were over here. I quickly dried my eyes. Merlin held out his hand for Freya and she kissed him.
"Ew gross Mum and Dad." Ian said
"Hush up Ian and one day you'll understand son." Merlin said
Arthur and I started to walk and Arthur was pushing Lucille in her stroller while Merlin and Freya walked behind us followed by Morgana and Eylan, while the children all ran ahead of us ever one found there happily ever after.
"I love you wife"
"And I love you my husband." So this is what peace felt like I couldn't help but smile, no more would I ever feel sorrow I would write a different letter of happiness.
A/N: I just wanted to say thank you for all those who supported me through my first Fan fiction ya'll know you are and you're the best. And Thank s to my beta reader that70sfinchelgleek for helping me and for sticking with me through all of this I can't wait to write my second Fan Fiction with you. This story was inspired by a Flyleaf song called "Sorrow" I thought it fit Guinevere so well so you go and listen to it here are the lyrics. Thanks you again. xo
"Sorrow"
Sometimes life seems too quiet Familiar breath of my old lies Sorrow lasts through this night Left alone with only reflections of the memory Sorrow last through this night And we kiss each other one more time Sorrow lasts through this night Joy will come
Into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark
Meant to make me strong
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
To face the ugly girl that's smothering me
Sitting closer than my pain
He knew each tear before it came
Soon He will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by
I'll take this piece of You
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As You flew right through me
And sing this lie that's halfway mine
The sword is slicing through the question
So I won't be fooled by his angel light
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
And up into the stars
