Love in fear

Shizuo flinched groaning as he tossed and turned in his half awake state. It was Kanra that plagued his nightmares. "Shh. It's just a dream." Warm arms wrapped around him pulling him closer. Just a dream? Clutching at the black v-neck, his eyes slipped shut nuzzling into the warmth. "That's it ehe. I won't let anyone hurt you."

The strong heartbeat resounded in his ears, a rhythmic thumping. He wouldn't be harmed? Could he really believe that? "Go back to sleep." It was disturbing that he did just that, the worry fading from his mind. The door was locked, Izaya was here...he wasn't alone. Right now she couldn't get to him. "That's it, sleep." Shizuo moved closer into the embrace his own arms reaching out. "I'll still be here when you wake up."

Izaya kept true to his word. Opening his eyes he found the raven sleeping peacefully in his arms. Gently moving one hand, the teen carefully swept the dark bangs away looking into the killer's face. Right now he looked like a normal teen, his hands didn't look like they were stained with blood. Not a hint of madness could be seen.

A loud knock made his eyes widen, his body recoiling underneath the covers, curling into a ball. "Mm hm? Shizu-chan?" His protection was lifted up, curious crimson orbs staring at him. "What are you doing under there?" Knock knock knock. It was Kanra again. Slipping further under his foot touched the end of the bed. But wasn't he getting closer to the door. "Shizu-chan?"

Scrambling back up to the top his arms clasped around Izaya's torso holding on. "Aw. Did you have a bad dream?" The knocking continued his grip tightening.

"Silly Shizu-chan. Didn't I say nothing would hurt you?" His chin was cusped their lips brushing. "Don't worry about those silly nightmares." It was the one outside the door he was worried about. "I'm going to get us something to eat and then if you're good, we can bathe together." Huh? They were going somewhere else?

Reluctantly his fingers loosened letting his captor go. Once Izaya had slipped out from underneath the covers, Shizuo drew them in using them as a shield to keep him safe. "Go away. Don't come in don't come in." His hissed whisper continued not hearing anything, hands plugged over his ears. "Don't come here. Not again not again." Bad things happened when the raven disappeared from his sight.

His mantra continued not wanting to know what was going on, scrunching his eyes shut he tried to block out everything. The covers were tugged making him curl in on himself. They were tugged a little harder where he could see the bedroom floor. As tight as he tried to hold on, his flimsy protection was ripped from his grasp, a scream piercing his ear drums. "Shizu-chan."

The scared teen fought the intruder scratching and clawing. "SHIZU-CHAN!" Shizuo flinched wondering why the noise wasn't stopping. Taking a deep breath he realised it was him. "Calm down. There we go, I'll take care of you and maaake eveerythiing aaaall better." Izaya. It was Izaya. Shizuo clung to him refusing to let go.

"You missed me that much? Ehe. I'm so happy Shizu-chan loves me too." He couldn't say anything, trembling fingers finding their grip in the raven's clothes yanking him onto the bed. "Nothing to worry about. Its just us." The wide eyed teen nodded, gaze dropping to stare at the door. It was closed for now but could she get through the thin wood? The lock meant nothing.

Shizuo bucked his hips up coaxing Izaya to join in. That smirk told him his message had been received. The raven pinned his arms above his head grinding his ass against his crotch. "Mm, you know Shizu-chan, I want you to do something for me." Crimson orbs danced with mirth. Shit. What now? "I want you to suck me off."

Suck him off? The teen swallowed wordlessly slipping out from underneath Izaya. "I think it would be best if you were on the floor." Peeking at the door, Shizuo groaned dropping to his knees and crawling awkwardly between the raven's open legs. Slipping his fingers into the waistband of the black boxers, the teen gulped. "What's wrong?" Shaking his head his hand dipped inside feeling the heat against his skin.

Izaya couldn't know why he was doing this. If he did know then what would happen? Would he kill Kanra? Or would he push him away? Or would he punish him for using him? Shizuo didn't want to find out, for now this was the safest place until he was found. "Shizu-chan? Are you just going to stare at it?" With a low groan he held the hot length between his fingers. The thought of putting it anywhere near his mouth made him feel sick.

Kanra or Izaya, Kanra or Izaya. It was a no brainer, his head dipping low, tongue reluctantly flicking out to lick at the organ. "Mm." Above him Izaya was making his pleasure known. It was horribly intimate and this time he was going ahead with it willingly. "Shizu-chan!" The head touched his lips making him recoil.

Shizuo gulped in panic backing away. He couldn't do it. "Shizu-chan?" He had screwed up. Was the raven going to go back to abusing him for his failure? Or maybe he was going to leave him alone for Kanra to play with. Both options made him shudder. He was saved by the loud grumble that sounded from his belly. "Ah. You're hungry. That's okay, we can continue after we've eaten."

His response was a non-committal nod, the teen allowing himself to be swept up in kiss. "Mm." A hand slid to his ass rubbing and squeezing. "Nn!" Pulling away, Shizuo dropped to his knees scrubbing at his lips.

"Come on, I'll bring us something to eat. No! Wait..." Izaya bounced to his feet clapping excitedly. "I'll be back in a minute."

"No!" His hands clutched at the flea's arm.

"Haha. You really are adorable. Watch this. Its a secret not even Kanra or Namie-san know about this." Coffee eyes flicked up. Something Kanra didn't know about? Letting go he watched as Izaya skipped to the edge of the room. "There's no windows in this room, right?" Shizuo remained where he was sitting on the floor next to the bed. "Wrong!"

Two hands rested on the white wall, the flea sliding it across like one huge doorway. "Ta da." Shizuo blinked staring at the small toilet and next to it a bathroom. "Sometimes even I need alone time. Kanra always tries to jump in the bath with me." Izaya was shaking his head. "So, Shizu-chan. This is our little secret."

The faux blond nodded knowing there was one place he would be safe. The small windows were high and something he wouldn't be able to see out of. Slowly he moved towards the toilet. "The plumbing all works perfectly. Stay in here and watch the water level for me." Shizuo nodded looking around the room, his knees cold against the tiled floor. Remaining where he was he watched the shadow pass over him, the panel being slid back across. "Everything okay?"

"...Yeah." A tap on the wall sounded, footsteps walking away. The door locked as usual. The teen grinned at the hidden space. Kanra didn't know about it. Feeling his stomach twinge, his gaze fell to the toilet, moving quickly to relieve himself. Would Izaya be back soon? If he was safe then why did he want his captor to return so quickly?

A familiar rattling echoed in his ears. No. No. Izaya had the key. Curling up next to the bath, Shizuo switched the tap off not wanting to make any noise. Biting his lip he took a deep breath holding it in. He could hear the familiar slam of the door against the wood. "Huh?" The footsteps were clear moving slowly to the bed. "Are you hiding? Come on out, Shizu-chan."

Clasping his hands over his mouth he remained still. "I know you're still here. Izaya wouldn't let you go – yet. Are you under here?" Shizuo flinched at the loud voice. Where was Izaya? "No? How about...under here?" What if she did know? What if he was trapped? "What? Where are you?" Hearing a series of thuds, he knew everything was being thrown around.

"Kanra. What are you doing in here?" Izaya. He was back.

"Hm? I wanted to see if Shizu-chan was still alive. What's that?" Shizuo clung to the edge of the bath, waiting for Kanra to go away.

"That has nothing do to with you. Shizu-chan is my target. Stay away." The deadly tone in his captor's voice made him shudder.

"Fine fine. I'll stay away. I have another target in mind."

Shizuo groaned inwardly feeling sorry for the poor bastard that had made Kanra's hit list. Shame and guilt passed over him wishing she would go after her new target and leave him alone. It was an awful thought. "Then go and play. The usual rules apply. Don't get caught and don't leave tracks." Laughter filled the room. Just what was he doing? They were both killers.

The teen didn't breathe again until he heard the key turn in the lock, falling onto his side, Shizuo sighed trying to get his breath back. "Shizu-chan?" Slowly the panel was slid across, revealing the mess in the room. "You stopped running the water?" Nodding slowly his gaze dropped to the silver trays on the floor.

"You can help yourself. Its not poisoned." Shifting out the way, the blond dragged his bad leg behind him. The sound of running water resumed. One tray was full of sweets, chocolates and cakes. The other was full of savoury and something in a small container that smelt like fish.

"Shizu-chan, If Kanra or Namie come in here, let me know. I'm the only one that should have access to you."

"And done. I even added bubbles for you, Shizu-chan." The teen sighed smelling the strawberry scent from here. Of all things it had to be strawberry. Izaya was whistling happily carrying the trays to the edge of the bath where he sat them on the floor. "Oopsie. Almost forgot about your cast." Shizuo watched Izaya skip to where a towel rack was. "Here we go."

It was the flea that wrapped his cast in what looked like cling film and tape. It was the flea that undressed him helping his naked form into the water. Immediately his nose was assaulted by the overwhelming strawberry fragrance. His eyes watered remembering his classmate. "My turn." The water swished either side, Izaya sliding into the water taking a place on his lap. Right now he should be feeling disgusted, instead he was feeling almost...happy?

"Lets get you clean. I don't want you getting a cold." Shizuo remained still trying not to pay attention to the pink teddy bear shaped sponge being dabbed gently across his chest.

"Izaya." Crimson orbs flicked up to meet his own.

"Yes? I love it when you say my name. Say it more. Only my name. Only mine." His body slipped Izaya going in for a kiss.

"...How long have I been here?" His question was hesitant knowing that he could accidentally reset everything back to square one.

The sponge stopped moving. "Why do you want to know? Surely Shizu-chan isn't thinking of leaving?" Shit. Izaya wasn't looking at him, bangs hiding his eyes.

"...No, no. I just wondered. I was worried about Kasuka and the ot-" Shit. He had said the wrong think. His head flew to the side, the slap echoing throughout the small room.

"No! You're not leaving. I won't allow it." His cheek stung, raising a hand to cover it. "Ah! I'm sorry, Shizu-chan. You know I didn't mean it. I love you. I love you more than my precious humans. You know that, right?" Shizuo blinked in shock, feeling a wet tongue lap over the reddened area. "Sorry, I'm sorry." Tears beaded in his eyes. Shit. Why the hell was he crying? He knew what Izaya was capable off.

"...hurts." Damn it, what was wrong with him? The blond didn't move feeling his slapped cheek being caressed. "I know. I'm sorry." Izaya's apology soothed him, his back settling against the ceramic.

"I-Its okay." The raven smiled leaning back against him.

"I won't hurt you again. I won't let anyone else hurt you. All mine." Shizuo nodded slowly in confusion sifting a hand through the water, resting a hand on top of the raven's head. Their gazes clashed both of them grinning stupidly, moving to kiss each other.

"What about the food?" Izaya shrugged pecking at his lips. Reaching over the bath, one non soapy finger dipped into the mush in the container, sliding it into the raven's mouth.

"Mm, tastes so good. I never get enough. Shiiizu-chaan, you try some." A soft persistent pair of lips pushed against his own, licking and nibbling. Their hands moved underneath the water sliding against each other's skin. Shizuo groaned giving back what he received, his tongue darting past parted lips. "Mm."

Both of them were panting as they parted, their heated gazes focused on each other. "Shizu-chan, I love you." Izaya kissed along his jaw line, Tilting his head, Shizuo moaned giving better access.

"Mm. I lov-" Pushing the raven away, the teen sat up bolt right, one hand clapped over his mouth to stop him uttering those words. What the hell was going on? He had only gone along with Izaya because of Kanra, hadn't he? That sharp crimson gaze watched him from the end of the bath. Shit. It couldn't be. Could it? Izaya was a killer.

With a growl Shizuo slammed his head against the edge of the bath. No no no. This wasn't supposed to happen. "Shizu-chan. What's wrong?"

"Go away. I'm thinking." Izaya giggled gliding through the water to lean on his chest. A hand slipped under his head stopping him from cracking it open like an egg.

"Why do you need to think? Let me do all the thinking, Protozoan."

He had known there would be no escape. "Come on, finish what you were saying." Izaya was grinning like a damn cheshire cat. An act turned real and then another act that was probably real to begin with. Too late he had realised what was happening. "Izaya, I-I" Too late he had realised how far he had fallen. "I love you." Too late to back away, too late to run away and never look back.

"Yaaaay!" The raven bounced on him splashing water everywhere, their lips brushing, eyes slipping shut. Everything was already too late.