Notes

Well I seem to be able to put out chapters more words into a chapter now that I have a third block spare which gives me a total of around 216 minutes per day to write these. So what does that have to do with the story, nothing absolutely nothing it's a small bit of information that I thought would be good to share.

However do expect there to be a small increase on the output of chapters but, that will not last forever because I am almost done with highschool and this is just a way for me to pass time without just binge watching anime or youtube while at school. Plus it helps me to be 'creative' I have a wild imagination but I don't think the world could handle what isd locked in my head and it's going to stay that way.

(If you couldn't tell already some of thing borrows ideas from other places not going to say where but it is not the same as the place i got it's more like inspiration for stuff in my story so it's not plagiarism I think)

Basically what I am trying to say is that once the summer hits things are really going to slow down for me. But that is a ways off so for now just expect a least a chapter or two a week. (No promises on that)

Mid morning Maikel apartment (or flat)

(Maikel's narration and perspective)

After sleeping like a rock for several hours I was woken up not half an hour ago by an annoyed Nepgear. At first I couldn't tell why she was so annoyed until with a stern look she pointed at the clock. When I got up it was 11:00 am, so for a solid 25 minutes I got lecture from the CPU Candidate about how I sleep in too late and how I should really be up by the crack of dawn. I mean Nepgear is right about being up early and all but, when you have to work double shift at a place like McNeps it can get a little tiring.

I mean working the register can be a very stressful job when you have to deal with hungry idiots who can't make up their damn mind. It like come on buddy there is over thirty other people in line most of them already know what they want to eat so step aside and let them through. But no, you gotta stand there hold up the entire line, so by then end I am not dealing with customers but a fucking lynch mob of hungry people that don't want Big Neps. Those people are now after my blood because I couldn't get to them fast enough.

So I think I deserve to get a break to sleep in this long, no like I am working today. The only thing I am aware that I need to do other than find Uni is to tell Nepgear about the whole thing last night. Which at this point isn't all that important to me because I just got up so I need a mid morning nepbull sp for the extra jolt of caffeine it gives which could wake the dead if you poured the can on a grave. I also needed to have breakfast among other things I doin my morning routine, one of the other big things that I do is play one match on Nep Thunder. I can't play the air battles for shit but when it comes to the ground battles that is another story, for that I am ranked number two in Planeptune and fourth in all of Gamindustri. (Author here I am not that good at war thunder but I am not the worst at the game)

I wonder if I could get Nepgear to play with me, she seems like the type of girl who would love something like that. Well that's if Nepgear really loves hardware as much as she claims to, it's not that I don't believe Nepgear it's just I have yet to see any other 'hardware' other than that N-gear device she carries everywhere with herself. This has been a massive digression from the point, the point is supposed to be that I have other things to do that are more important to me.

It doesn't really help that Nepgear said she will me following me everywhere I go this morning and afternoon until I tell her what happened to me last night. I should tell Nepgear sooner rather than later because what happened last night is rather serious. It would have gotten very ugly for anyone and everyone who came across me in that state, if Nepgear hadn't pulled me out when she did it wouldn't have been a pretty site to see.

20 minutes later

Another thing I was told that isn't really all that pretty is when a guy goes a week without showering and doesn't even bother to use deodorant. So I figured at the time the best thing I could do before leaving my room is go to the bathroom to and have a shower. Well without going into any detail I think any sane person could figure out what I needed to do then where this is headed. Right after I got finished undressing the door to my room flung open and of course that just so happened to be the way I was facing. So Nepgear got a front row seat of my junk hanging out and of course this is how we get to now.

Right now I am currently locked in the bathroom with Nepgear pounding on the door telling me to let her in. I have no idea what's with the CPU's but it is really conserving, instead of Nepgear calling me a pervert running up to slap me she walked into the room and slowly closed the door, then proceed to unbutton her sailor outfit and take it off only leaving on her bra and panties. Her face was looked like fire while doing this but that's not the point here, it seem of all the goddesses I met so far all of them have wanted sexaul from or have in less than an hour or two have developed feelings for a guy they just met.

It's not like I can stay locked in here forever I need to go out to eat and drink so I don't die, but until the pounding stops I can't leave this place ("I hate the fact there are no windows in my bathroom").

Another 15 minutes later]

I had gotten out of the shower, the pounding on my door stopped finally but, Nepgear there is now Nepgear could have left the room because the door to my room is way too speaky. The one thing I hated right now is only way I can be sure that Nepgear has left my room is to open the door and check. At first when I opened the door to my room it all seemed fine. That was until Nepgear pounced on my back, the cheeky little bastard hidden around the corner as to where I couldn't see her when I first stepped out. With all of Nepgear's weight now on my back so quickly the only thing I could do is lose my balance and of course with that happening I fell backwards only have a soft Nepgear pillow to catch me.

Nepgear: *Crunching sounds*

"KYAAA"

Maikel: ("Ah shit")

Nepgear: "Maikel… get… off… me…"

Maikel: "Well I would Nepgear but first you have to let go of me"

Nepgear: "Why… do… I… have… to… let go"

Maikel: "Because I can't move with you grasping on to me like that"

Nepgear: "You… weigh… a ton… Maikel"

"I can't… breath… right"

Maikel: "Then fucking let go of me"

Nepgear: "Fine…"

With that Nepgear loosened her grip from around my neck so I could get up. She started to cough and hack up a lung from not getting enough air. The one annoying that she did was grab the towel from around my waist. Luckily for me I think that Nepgear was in just enough pain from doing that action, it gave me enough time to get fully clothed again.

Maike: "Now that happened did you learn anything"

Nepgear: "Yeah I learned you look more stunting than I previously thought"

("I may love Uni but I am a girl after all so it' only natural that this is happening… isn't it")

Maikel "Well this is getting really awkward so do you think that maybe you could put your outfit back on Nepgear"

Nepgear: "Sure thing"

Maikel: "Why aren't you bothered by this at all"

Nepgear: "I have been through a lot worst than a guy I like seeing me in my bra and panties"

Maikel: "Umm… what did you just say"

Nepgear: "Well… umm… in the short time that we have spent together I have grown feeling for you"

("It's really embarrassing to say that")

Maikel: "That cool and all but don't tell me you forgot what I said last night"

Nepgear: "That I should forget you… isn't that what you said"

Maikel: "Yeah that's it"

Nepgear: "But I also remember you saying that you would tell me about the whole thing that happened last night this morning and it's now in the noon hour"

Maikel: "Well once you get your sailor suit back on we'll get started on that"

"While you do that I a going to be out in the living room getting some lunch for myself seeing how your little stunt cost me my breakfast"

Nepgear: "Sorry about that"

"I didn't mean for it to happen the reason I came back i was to see if you were even awake or not but I got a view that no else has gotten to see before other than your mother"

Maikel: "LIke you said last night let's drop the topic"

Nepgear: "I can agree with that"

34 minutes and a three course meal later

Maikel: "Holy shit you can cook Nepgear"

"No wonder Neptune doesn't want to work, she must live like a freaking king having you as her chef"

"I could get used to this but of course that is not going to happen"

Nepgear: "Goodness Maikel… was there an need for praise right there"

"It's not thing all that special really it's just something I kind of made up one day while board"

"Not having much tech laying around the basilicom other than consoles and my N-gears there i need something to do around the basilicom"

"I mean I love playing games with Neptune and all but if I didn't do the cooking and cleaning then no one would"

"Also if Neptune had it her way all we would ever eat is pudding and sweets"

Maikel: "So it's not all fun and games being a CPU Candidate then"

Nepgear: "No it's not especially when your older sister is Neptune"

"I mean at least Uni knows that her sister is working and actually being a good CPU… even if Noire works too much"

"Rom and Ram are too young to really know what it's like to be a true CPU candidate seeing how Blanc still does all the work"

Maikel: ("I also doesn't help you seem to have a sister complex")

"Well I hate to break up the friendly small talk but I think it's time that I told you about last night"

"For your own safety it would be best it you sat on the other side of the room in case I become violent"

Nepgear: "No"

"I want to be right here"

"I want to be at your side so I can calm you down faster"

"I know what you but I really want to know you Maikel"

"I mean it's only a small feeling that caused earlier which isn't helped by the fact that times I don't know how to properly express myself and that was one of those times"

Maikel: "Well then… with the look of determination in your eyes right now I get the sinking feeling that there is nothing I can say that will get you to change your mind about your feelings toward me"

"All I can say now is that I did warm you"

"So if something I do happens to hurt you then you can't say anything like it's my fault for not telling you"

"So if you are willing to got that far for some random guy you met in a corner store then so be it"

"I won't try stop any more"

Nepgear: "Understood"

"Now can you please start the explanation of what the Goodness happened last night"

Maikel: "Well… where should I start this… do you want me to say what the doctors told me or do you want to hear what was happening with me at the time"

Nepgear: "I want to know what the doctors saw"

Maikel: "Okay then"

"Can you handle a little violence intermixed with blood and gore"

Nepgear: "I don't think anything could top being trapped in the Gamindustri Graveyard for three years on the brink of death because of having tentacle wire things slowly draining your share energy and feeding it to the Deity of Sin Arfoire"

Maikel: "So I'll take that as a yes then"

("Welp here goes nothing")

*Sighs*

"This is going to be from what the main doctor during my treat me said, basically I have no clue how accurate this really is seeing how none of this was picked up on a camera"

Nepgear: "Got it"

Maikel: "From what the doctor told me during my treatment I had a tendency to just space out and start talking gibberish but, there was one time I had spaced out instead of rambling like a madman or talking in gibberish I started to talk about getting revenge for someone killing my mother and father"

Nepgear: "Just like last night"

"What about the mention of Neptune's name"

"Did the doctor say anything about that"

Maikel: "No, as far as I am aware I never knew of you or Neptune until the past few weeks'

"I at least only knew of Lady Purple Heart"

"But that is far off topic"

"Getting back to where I was I had been talking about killing someone that I knew of before I lost my memories"

Nepgear: "You lost your memories"

Maikel: "Yep I can only remember the last year and a half of my life

"The only thing I could remember at the time was english and my name"

"But you once again made me digress from the story"

Nepgear: "Sorry"

Maikel:"It's fine" just try not to do it some much please and thank you"

Nepgear: Can do"

Maikel: "Good"

"Well the doc told me that after a solid minute of that I started to just go ape shit"

"I mean like picking up gym equipment and throwing it around, I was scream for someone named Mikhail Vasilev to show themselves"

"This is where it get a little bit scary for me to talk about because of my actions"

"A doctor came around to in front me pretending to be Mikhail Vasilev in an attempted to calm me down I think"

"But it had the opposite effect, I got even more pissed off than I already was at the time"

"I proceeded to tackle the doctor into a piece of the now upturned gym. His neck slammed into a bar that happened to be in the wrong position or 'right position"

"it only took a couple seconds and the doctor was already dead"

"With the amount of force I had put on that poor man's neck it had managed to sever just about everything in the man's neck with just blunt force trauma"

Nepgear: "In more simple and common words you internally decapitated the man?"

Maikel: "Well yeah I guess that is what I did"

Nepgear: "That raises another question for me now"

"How are you here and not in jail"

Maikel: "Well…to tell the truth I have no idea how I am not in jail right now, and I have a feeling at the time the doc was covering my ass real good because at the time I was told that no murder charges were going to be pressed on me because of not being able if control myself or my action at the time"

Nepgear: "Goodness it was that bad"

Maikel: "It gets worse much worse"

Nepgear: "How could it have gotten any worse than that"

Maikel: "Well because I wanted revenge not know the man was already dead, I grabbed the nearest heavy object and started to wail on the guy with an empty dumbbell bar, I had apparently thrown the weights off of that dumbbell nar earlier during my fit of 'uncontrolled rage'"

Nepgear: "That isn't really as bad as you made it sound"

Maikel: "You were not there at the time"

"I was told during the severe beating of the corpse that I was laughing like a maniac screaming how it was finally over and I won some sort of game I had going with the person"

"This is the par that scared me though"

"For the final blow on the already dead doctor I raised the bar up to so that when it came down I shattered the man's skull sending blood and bits of brain in every which direction"

"I have no idea how true that is"

"I don't want to believe but at the same time whenever I think of that name there is an adrenaline rush and I start getting really riled up over nothing"

"I become rather violent and abusive"

"This was the only time it has happened until last night the only thing that was able to me out of it was your voice Nepgear"

Maikel: "I am really scared right now"

"I don't want to hurt people like that"

"Please Nepgear for your own good please go"

Nepgear: "..."

"Maikel…"

"No…"

"You clearly need help with this"

"I am going to stay right here"

"If you tell something like that and start to break down after telling it even if you don't remember it happening, to me that is a clear sign you need some major help"

"I might not be a therapist or a psychologist but, I am pretty sure any regular person could tell you need someone to help you even if they can't tell you what is wrong with you"

Maikel: "Nepgear"

"Why would you do that"

"I am not a regular person as far as I know I am a monster"

Nepgear: "Well if you are a monster why has there never been a quest at the guild to come deal with you"

"I am pretty if you were a monster myself or of the other CPU's would have come to kill you by now not only to help to people but to claim some shares"

Maikel: "..."

Nepgear: "You aren't going to try and deny that claim"

Maikel: "What in the hell is the point you're right"

"But that doesn't change the fact that I brutally murdered someone in the past and I am here now thee the CPU Candidate of Planeptune that"

"Even if you want to support me I don't think that I would be able to take help from someone like you Nepgear"

Nepgear: "Why wouldn't you be able to"

"It's not like we are in two different dimension or something"

"You're right here in front of me"

Maikel: "It's not that"

"It's the fact you are a CPU, a goddess I am just some random person that isn't going to last forever"

'Hell how I have made it 18 years is beyond me but then again I have no idea what I have done for the other 16 years I can't remember"

"So the only logical thing to say is how have I made it a year"

"For the first month if my 'new; life I was a train wreck"

Nepgear: "Why are you being so hard on yourself Maikel"

"Like you said it's not like you could control yourself at the time"

"It's not really your fault for your actions on that day however long ago it was"

Maikel: *slams fist on the end table* "NEPGEAR THAT'S NOT THE POINT"

"I FUCKING KILLED SOMEONE I HAVE NEVER BEEN BROUGHT TO ANY KIND OF JUSTICE AND HERE I AM WALKING AROUND"

"I SHOULDN'T JUST GET TO WALK AROUND LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED"

"I MEAN THERE ARE STILL DAYS I FEEL LIKE DYING JUST BECAUSE OF THAT"

"I CAN NORMALLY HIDE IT IN THE BACK OF MY MIND"

Nepgear: "Maikel… calm down"

Maikel: "CALM DOWN"

"JUST HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO CALM DOWN… I JUST FUCKING CONFESSED TO YOU THAT I BRUTALLY MURDERED SOMEONE JUST OVER ONE FUCKING YEAR AGO"

Nepgear: "Maikel… you're scaring me… please… just try to calm down"

Maikel: "WELL LADI FUCKING DA NEPGEAR I DON'T REALLY GIVE A SHIT IF I AM SCARING YOU"

"YOU DON'T THINK I AM NOT FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW"

"I JUST A ONE WHOLE FUCKING YEAR OF PRACTICE AT HIDING MY EMOTION"

Nepgear: ("I think I am going to have to attack him")

"Maikel.. If you don't calm down I am going to have to use force"

Maikel: "WELL THEN I GUESS YOU SHOULD GET A WEAPON AND FIGHT ME"

Nepgear: ("I don't want to do still but I am going to have to for his own good")

At the time I couldn't get a hold of myself because that rage was coming back again but this time I was going to be able to remember this one happening. The outcome of the fight was that last thing I wanted to happen.

Once again we have reached the dick move point of a terrible cliffhanger

This could have been executed much better but I think for my poor quality of writing that is a pretty good ending myself. (This is why you would never see me as a writer unless it's on this site)

I don't really have much to say here so, I am not going to drag it out and just get on with signing off

MissNepgear OUT!